The last year or so I have tried to figure out why things have happened the way they have…
Why did all of this happen to me? My family? My friends?
And in the last couple of weeks I have felt like I am slowly coming out of my fog…that everything happens for a reason.
What is that reason?
No fucking clue…to be honest.
A lot of people say “well god knows you can handle it! That’s why it happened to you…”
You know what I have to say about that…
What in the ever living fuck do you mean?!?!?
Sooooooo I have found myself trying not to focus on what others have to say. To not focus on what others have to think.
I have lost..strained and even gained relationships.
If I lost or strained what was between us. I apologize for that. If it was more in my control then this wouldn’t have been the outcome..it just wasn’t in my control.
I know people want to fix and help me…I get that, and most definitely appreciate it.
I like to fix and not be fixed!
I don’t want the focus on me, I don’t want to talk about me. I am not a complex soul. I say it how I need to say it, and leave it be.
So here I am…dusting myself off and moving forward.