I Believe I Can be Whole

I have had depression for years. When I was in middle school I used spend everyday want to fall asleep and never wake up. As I started high school, my symptoms got a little better. I was still plagued by the attacks I had for years. It’s the worst feeling when it happens.  I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. I lay on my floor for hours sobbing and rocking back and forth until it subsides. About a month and a half ago I started taking medications. I had a blissful month and a half with no depression. I felt stable and happy 24 hours a day for the first time in years. But last week I started getting the attacks again. How do I go forward? I was happy for such a short time and its like its been stolen. I want to get better, and now that I have seen that it is possible I will never stop fighting to be whole again. 

Sometimes we get confused between love and obsession.
Between hurting and being hurt.
Things arent always as we want them to be. Some people in our lives are lessons.
We should let go the people who make us hurt,damaged,lost and not ourselves. Holding onto it,to them wont make it better.
At first,it will hurt,so much,more than before. It will make you feel regret.
But deep down you know that going back wont change a thing.you got used to being misarble and lonely with this person.you forgot how to live. So move on,you know that the good times are long gone and the only way out is letting go and puting yourself first.
Dont lose yourself dont try to fight for something impossible. Believe me when i say that you did everything in your power.theres nothing more than an empty room and a pellow soaked in tears.

Open your eyes and believe that youll find love again.its not the end till you say so.