A/N: @my-little-yellowbird noted that “Shelagh always seems most bold after she’s
come through the fire”, which gave me the idea for this next fic. We all know
that Patrick lurves that nurse’s uniform ;). Serious kettles ahead, guys.
Patrick had expected to come home and find his wife fast asleep. Alternately,
she might wake from him entering, and give him a kiss – maybe a quick snog if
he was lucky–before nodding off again. Maybe she would ask him how his day
went, and curl up against him as he assured her that everything was fine. He
was only recently recovered from his breakdown, and Shelagh kept a close eye on
him ever since, making sure he was not biting off more than he could chew.
Patrick did not expect to find her fully awake, and dressed in her nurse’s
To play: answer the prompts &tag your friends! Be sure to also tag @microreviews , where you can find more “rules” and all about the micro review project.
1. Pick a book with a character you see yourself in: Kat in The Lux series by Jennifer L Armentrout
2. What about them makes you think of yourself? Probably just because I want to be her so I can have Daemon as my boyfriend ;) and I love her choice of words for when she swears, such as “christ on a a cracker” or “holy alien babies”.
3. Is it hard to find this kind of character in books and other media? No, I’d say she’s fairly stock standard YA protagonist, but I love me my Kitten and Daemon.
4. Post a selfie or a book photo–or both! Or neither! Whatever you feel comfortable with. A selfie would require me to move ;), so the books it is
some random doodles from an impromptu stream i had, aka the calm before the storm of what else happened in that stream. the first one would be the trash squad at the stream, and the second one a little scene from @pedoseidon‘s fic “rippling water and rippling abs”
I cut again last night after not doing it for months. I am so ashamed right now. I really don't get what plans God would ever have for me.
Cutting may give you temporary relief, or maybe it helps you deal with your past… but you already know it isn’t a healthy relief, and that you need to break away from it. There are also many things that can trigger self-harm.
Whatever your circumstances, prepare yourself, because changing your mind, body and spirit won’t be an easy task. If this temptation does not go away, then the first take would be to work on talking it out, so you don’t have to act it out. Of course, this means talking with your pastor and a counselor. Another step to help will be to change your mode of thinking.If you struggle with cutting or self-injury, embracing these Scriptures below on a daily basis can help you begin to change your mind, body and spirit.
Feeling: I deserve punishment.
Truth: When Jesus allowed Himself to be beaten, mocked and nailed to a cross to die, he paid the price for any wrongs. He bled (so that I don’t have to) and gave me grace, love and forgiveness (1 Peter 2:24). I have been made righteous because of a faith in Jesus, and he has freely given me His grace in spite of my sin (Romans 3:21-26).
Feeling: God has abandoned me.
Truth: Because God loves me, He promises to never leave me or forsake me. His love for me is everlasting; it will never stop, disappear or grow cold. Nothing can separate me from His love—not even myself. He won’t ever leave me but will provide mercy and grace when I am in need (Hebrews 13:5, Jeremiah 31:3, Romans 8:35-39 and Hebrews 4:16).
Feeling: Things are never going to get better.
Truth: God promises me of a future and a hope. I can’t see it right now, and I don’t know how He is working it out. Still, I choose to trust Him, and while He is working out my problems, I will wait on Him (Jeremiah 29:11, Psalm 27:14).
Feeling: I’ll never be able to change.
Truth: When I came to Christ, He made me a new creation. It will take time to renew my mind, body and spirit, but He has promised to change me, no matter how I feel (John 15:15, 2 Corinthians 5:7, Colossians 2:7, Philippians 1:6).
Feeling: No one could love me.
Truth: When Jesus died on the cross, He demonstrated the ultimate act of love for me. He did this because I am chosen and dearly loved (Romans 5:6-11, Colossians 3:12).
Feeling: I’m unacceptable.
Truth: Because God created me, and Christ died for me, I am acceptable to Him; before the world was created, He made the choice to adopt me as His own (Ephesians 2:13, I Peter 2:9, Ephesians 1:5).
Feeling: I feel like God won’t forgive me.
Truth: Despite how I see myself, God sees me as blameless and holy because of what Christ did on the cross. It’s hard to imagine, but God has completely forgiven me. When I confess anything that I have done wrong, He is more than willing to forgive and cleanse me from sin, no matter how many mistakes I make (Colossians 1:22, Colossians 1:13-14, 1 John 1:9). Remember, change takes time, but if you accept the truth of what God says, and seek help, you will discover better coping and life skills.
God has a plan for life even though it’s sometimes difficult to determine His will in certain situations. Times when you don’t find a clear direction can be very confusing and frustrating. God gave Moses the burning bush, He showed his will to Gideon with the fleece, and He spoke to Saul with thunder and lightening. When he does this for us, it’s easy to understand God’s guidance. But he seldom does it this way. So to truly find God’s will for our life we often must step out in faith. This can be scary, but we need to realize God is there beside us and he will not allow us to stray as long as we trust in him.
Proverbs 3:6 promises us, “In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Psalm 37:23 tells us, “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord….” And Isaiah 30:21 informs us, “Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, ‘This is the way, walk in it,’ whenever you turn to the right hand or whenever you turn to the left.” God’s word plainly is saying that God will help us find his direction, but how does he do it?
I believe God reveals his will to us in stages. Initially, we may get a feeling of direction from God from different sources:
1. Prayer. In order for God to speak to us, we need to be in his presence listening for his voice. As we spend time in prayer, we may sense God’s leading in our lives.
2. His word. God speaks to us through his written word as we study and meditate upon his holy scripture.
3. Circumstances. Many times God will cause doors to open, or others to close. If we are walking in obedience to him, we have to assume that events in our life are ordered by God. They don’t just happen by chance. Maybe the reason why a door has opened up to us is that God wants us to go through it!
4. Our heart. Sometimes the Holy Spirit will minister to our spirit and reveal God’s plan for us. We will have an assurance deep in our heart. We will feel God’s voice guiding us.
5. Others. God can use other believers to bring us his direction. Sometimes we will be singing a song in church, or we will be reading a Christian book, or hear the Pastor’s message, or one of our friends will say something that will show us God’s will. God can reveal his direction to us through any of these five ways. But even when he does, it’s sometimes difficult to discern that what we sense or feel is truly God’s plan for our lives. Jesus said in Matthew 18:16, “…by the word of two or three witnesses every word may be established.” Jesus is here quoting Deuteronomy 19:15, “…by the mouth of two or three witnesses the matter shall be established.” I believe this is a good principle to follow in trying to figure out God’s plan for you. Initially, you get the direction from one of the five ways mentioned above, but now God will confirm his plan to you in the mouth of two or three witnesses: in other words: one or two more things will confirm God’s direction for you. When you see this confirmation, then you will know it’s time to step out in faith. There have been times in my life when I simply had to take that first step of faith, and when I did, God confirmed his plan for me as I went. You may sense God asking you to do this, but remember, God understands our human weakness. If we sincerely seek him and are willing to obey his word, he will usually affirm his will for us in other ways.
He confirms his direction for us the same way he revealed it to us in the first place — through one of these five ways:
1. Prayer. We need to seek God in prayer. Luke 11:9-10 promises, “So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.” If we truly seek God’s will, we will find it.
2. His word. Sometimes while we’re struggling for God’s guidance, a scripture that we are reading will seem to pop out at us confirming which way God wants us to go. Psalm 119:105 tells us, “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” Allow God’s word to illumine your pathway.
3. Circumstances. Events will sometimes indicate God’s direction for us. Paul wrote about such a circumstance in his life in 2 Corinthians 2:12, “Furthermore, when I came to Troas to preach Christ’s gospel, and a door was opened to me by the Lord.” As you are seeking God’s direction, events may establish what you have already felt God telling you to do.
4. Our heart. God will sometimes speak to our heart. Jesus promised that the Holy Spirit would help guide us in John 16:13, “However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for he will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.” Just like Elijah in 1 Kings 19:11-12, we need to be listening for God’s still small voice speaking to our soul.
5. Others. Many times when we are struggling with indecision, God will use others to affirm his will. Sometimes a song will speak to us, or God will use the Pastor’s message. Many times a friend will speak to us and, not realizing our struggle, will speak words of encouragement which will help solidify our decision for the Lord. Other times someone on the radio, or a book will proclaim God’s answer to us. God uses his whole church body to minister to one another. Colossians 3:16 instructs us, “Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.” God will speak to us whether it’s the word of Christ, or wisdom, or teaching, or admonishing, or songs, or grace in our hearts. God will confirm his will in our lives.
Deuteronomy 31:8 “It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
Psalms 34:17 When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.
Psalms 42:11 Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
John 16:33 I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.
Romans 8:38-39 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
1 Peter 4:12-13 Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.
Isaiah 41:10 “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
Matthew 6:34 So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.
Psalm 55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail).
God is capable of anything, and He is more than capable of getting you through this. However, if you need to seek help, please do so. Do not be ashamed, there are good, well-trained people who want to assist you. God will help us, but sometimes it’s up to us to take action before He steps in.
We are afraid of letting those same people back in after what we have witnessed or experienced. We lack the ability to trust as we first did. We tend to push everyone similar away to avoid getting hurt. But the bitterness just builds up and the unforgiveness is unbearable. We are selfish.
It’s ridiculous to think about how much God has to forgive. It’s who He is.
Turn to the Lord and pray to him, now that he is near. Let the wicked leave their way of life and change their way of thinking. Let them turn to the Lord, our God; he is merciful and quick to forgive. “My thoughts,” says the Lord, “are not like yours, and my ways are different from yours. As high as the heavens are above the earth, so high are my ways and thoughts above yours.
We reject Him in countless ways. We are so easily entertained by things which pull us away from Him. The distractions are endless, our idols fight us for our attention and we continue doing so without guilt most times.
God wants us. He wants our hearts. He wants all of us; He wants us when we are singing loud in church and when we can’t even say a word to Him. He wants us in our moments of failure, and in our greatest success.
Matthew 6:14-15 is kind of :/
For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
We know we definitely have trespasses, but God is able and willing to forgive them, only on the condition that we forgive those who wrong us. It’s probably the hardest thing to do. But when you picture the cross, the humbling of the Saviour King Jesus Christ, dying for your sins, it simplifies who we are; it breaks down what we are called to do. To forgive. To love. To give. To lay down who we are for who He is.
So friends, the act of forgiveness is initially dreadful and sometimes unthinkable, but it is necessary. Forgive and be forgiven. Loosen every chain of unforgiveness. Release bitterness from your heart. Rest in the forgiveness and the completing grace of Jesus. Don’t carry a burden you don’t have to. You are set free because Christ said so.