Chapter Twenty: HH
Loren: “I’ll be back for the dinner.”
Loren got in the car and started to drive. Loren couldn’t think, the anger took control of her body. All she knew was that she had to get out of there. Loren didn’t know where she was going until she was parking the car. As she climbed to the top of the hill Loren thought about what the text said. For someone who never meant to hurt me, he did one hell of a job she thought. As her anger started to build more and more she reached to her and Eddie’s spot. Loren froze as the memories of the last time she was up here came flooding back to her.
Eddie: “I love you.”
Loren: “I love you too… Don’t ever leave me.”
Eddie: “Never babe.”
Loren’s anger began to drain from her body and she couldn’t help but to smile as she remembered. She sat down by the tree as she tried to process all of her memories, thoughts and feelings. A few minutes go by when she hears her mother’s voice in her head, ‘Don’t let Trent stop you from enjoying your life.’ She shook her head smiling thinking how her mother was right. Loren didn’t want this text message to ruin her night, so she got up and brushed off her pants. Loren took the view in one last time before heading to her car when she heard a familiar voice behind her.
Eddie: “Thought I might find you here.”
Loren: “What are you doing here? I was about to head home for the dinner.”
Eddie looked into her big brown eyes as he pondered her question. To be honest Eddie wasn’t sure why he was there, he just knew he had to go.
Eddie: “I guess… I’m here to see if my girl is okay.” He grabbed her hands.
Loren: “How’d you know I was up here?”
Eddie: “….Just a feeling.” He pulled her closer as she smiled remembering the same feeling that brought her up here the night after the MK concert.
Loren: “Ah, I think I know that feeling.” They both laughed a little. Loren looked away and Eddie knew something was wrong.
Eddie: “Why are you up here?” Eddie could tell something was bothering him.
Loren: “Just needed some time to think and clear my head.” She pulled away from Eddie and looked towards the view of the city.
Eddie: “About what?”
Loren: “It’s nothing. I don’t want to talk about it.” Loren just got done putting her anger aside, she wasn’t really wanting go through that again.
Eddie: “Loren, talk to me.” He grabbed her, making Loren face him.
Loren: “My dad texted me and I just needed time to think okay. I don’t want to talk about it though, so let’s head back.” She started walking to head for her car when Eddie grabbed her arm pulling her back.
Eddie: “Loren you need to stop doing this.” He was getting tired of her shutting down when the subject of her father came up.
Loren: “Stop doing what?” She knew exactly what he meant, Loren just didn’t want to admit it.
Eddie: “Stop bottling up your anger and pain.” His tone was a little more harsh then how he meant it to come out.
Loren: “Eddie I am fine.” Her voice was stern and cold reacting to his unkind tone.
Eddie: “No you’re not Loren. I can tell just by looking in your eyes that this is eating you up inside. You don’t have to keep up this façade.”
Loren: “Eddie–” He didn’t want to hear her protest again.
Eddie: “You always had to be strong for your mother, you never had anyone to lean on, but I am here. Let me be here for you like the way you are there for me and everyone else for that matter.”
Loren: “That’s not fair, I have told you things.” She could feel her anger build, this was exactly what she didn’t want to happen.
Eddie: “I know you have, but there is more. I can tell you are holding back and its killing me to see you in pain like this.”
Loren: “Eddie what do you want me to say?” She turned away from him as she tried to control her emotions.
Eddie: “How you feel, what you think. Anything Loren, just let me in. Loren I am not going anywhere.” He was pleading with her hoping he could get through to her.
Loren: “Fine Eddie I am mad. Is that what you want to hear? That I so mad and so angry right now. Angry that he had the nerve to text me saying he wanted to meet up after what he did to me at MK. Mad that he had the nerve to come in the first place. I am so pissed that he abandoned me and my mother for fourteen years and decides to come back when I start getting my career off the ground. Because all I can think about is that he is looking for a hand out or his fifteen minutes of fame as Loren Tate’s long lost father.” Loren’s voice was full of anger. Eddie stepped a little closer as he saw tears begin to stream down her face. “I am angry with the fact I had to watch my mom get her heart broken over and over. Watching her go through that killed me. I’m mad that I grew up wondering what I did to make him leave, that I blamed myself for so long.” She took a deep breath. “I am mad at myself that I let him get to me. I never can fully enjoy things, because of the insecurities I have. I hate that he has this power over me. A simple text can make me feel like that shattered four year old girl.” Her voice became weak, no longer full of anger but hurt instead. She began to breakdown in tears and Eddie ran up and wrapped his arms around her. Loren collapsed in his arms barring her head in his chest. “I am mad, because after fourteen years I am still damaged.”
Eddie cringed at the word damaged and pulled her in tighter. They stood there for a few minutes as he let her cry.
Eddie: “It is okay babe I am here,” he whispered.
Loren: “I am so sorry.” She looked up at him.
Eddie: “For what?” He wiped the tears from her face.
Loren: “For shutting you out. It is nothing personal; I just don’t like talking about it. But I do feel better. As much as I hate to talk about it, it helped. I guess I just need to get it off my chest.”
Eddie: “I’m glad it helped you feel better. Remember I am always here, you don’t have to be strong for me.” Loren nodded as she turned around to face the view. Eddie wrapped his arms around her and rested his chin on her shoulder. After a few minutes Eddie decided to break the silence.
Eddie: “Do you know if you are going to meet up with him or not?” Loren sighed.
Loren: “I don’t know, maybe. Part of me wants to say no. Who knows maybe meeting with him will help repair the damage.” She chuckled softy looking down at the ground trying to laugh it off.
Eddie: “Loren we are all damaged.”
Loren: “What do you mean?” She turned around to face him.
Eddie: “Everyone endures something in their life that makes them damaged in a way. It’s how we deal with it that matters. For us that is what makes us great artists. Do you really think I could write a song like One Day At Time, or you could write a beautiful song like Mars? Yes we are damaged, but that doesn’t define who we are, never forget that Loren.”
Loren: “Wow, who knew Eddie Duran the rock star was so deep.” Eddie grabbed her hands.
Eddie: “Ha, ha very funny. But know that I am always here for you ok? I love you Loren Tate.”
Loren: “I love you too. Thank you Eddie.” She wrapped her hands around his neck pulling him into a long passionate kiss.
Things quickly became intense. He rested one hand on the small of her back pulling Loren closer as she arched her back. He put his other hand on her waist, slowly rubbing it up and down her side. Eddie loved the taste of her lips and didn’t want to stop. Loren let her lips linger before she pulled away.
Loren: “We have a dinner to get to,” she whispered as she patted his chest and pulled away. He groaned which made Loren blush. It still seemed surreal to Loren that Eddie wanted her that way. He tried to pull her back, but she resisted. “I will make it up to you later,” she whispered in his ear then nibbled on his ear making Eddie moan.
Eddie: “This is not fair. You are playing dirty Loren Tate. This is all I am going to be able to think about during dinner.”
Loren: “I know. That’s the point,” she said seductively giving him one more passionate kiss before continuing. “Let’s go we are going to be late.” She patted his chest and begin walk to their cars. Eddie groaned and hung his head as he followed her watching Loren’s whole body sway as she walked.
Eddie: “Fine, but I’m going to hold you to that promise.”
Loren: “I’m sure you will,” she laughed as they got into their cars and headed to Nora’s for dinner.
Thanks for the love. Did not think I would get such a positive reaction from my last chapter. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter just as much. I hope you guys like how I wrote Loren’s reaction. As always please let me know what you guys think?