hollie hollas

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I was cleaning up my computer, so here’s some old art and never-to-be-finished wips. From top to bottom, left to right:

  • Clary and Jace (perhaps pre-series?) from the Shadowhunter Chronicles by cassandraclare
  • Angela and Holly from the Lynburn Legacy by sarahreesbrennan 
  • Celaena Sardothien from Throne of Glass by sjmaas
  • More Celaena
  • And even more Celaena <3 (I actually really like this one, I’m just too lazy to lineart it properly)

The kiss transformed into something world-changing, warming the air, slowing time. The sun shimmered behind Holly’s closed eyelids, and above their heads the wind whispered promises to the leaves.

I read Unmade yesterday. I have a lot of emotions about Holly and Angela.

she smells like lemongrass and sleep: a playlist for angela and holly from the lynburn legacy

1. fallin’ for you | colbie caillat | i am trying not to tell you / but i want to / i’m scared of what you’ll say / so i’m hiding what i’m feeling / but i’m tired of holding this inside my head | 2. boom clap | charlie xcx | you are the light and i will follow / you let me lose my shadow / you are the sun, the glowing halo | 3. closer | tegan and sara | here comes the heat before we meet a little bit closer / here comes the spark before the dark a little bit closer | 4. arms | christina perri | i hope that you see right through my walls / i hope that you catch me ‘cause i’m already falling | 5. she | dodie clark | am i allowed to look at her like that / could it be wrong when she’s just so nice to look at / she smells like lemongrass and sleep 6. i do (wanna love you) | erin hamilton cover | and did you really look my way? / there’s not a lot of love these days / i would never ever let you down / if i was running backwards in full time | 7. how you get the girl | taylor swift | i want you for worse or for better / i would wait forever and ever / broke your heart i’ll put it back together | 8. state of grace | taylor swift | so you were never a saint / and i loved in shades of wrong / we learned to live with the pain / mosaic broken hearts / but this love is brave and wild | 9. long live | taylor swift | long live the mountains we moved / i had the time of my life fighting dragons with you / and long, long live the look on your face / and bring on all the pretenders / one day we will be remembered

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Holly was not surprised when someone else settled on the step beside her. Angela was careful not to lean against her, but every molecule of Holly’s body was aware of Angie’s.

“Holly,” Angela said, her voice low. “What’s wrong?”

Holly looked up again and saw Angie’s face this time, not anyone else’s, just Angie with her dark intent eyes, looking at Holly as nobody else in the world did, as if she took her seriously.

Hello, Ms. Brennan! So I have been rereading Untold, and I am so excited (but also so SAD. It’s an awful battle of emotions) for Unmade! Can we maybe be expecting another snippet in the near future? :D — bananari

I am, of course, extremely complimented to have made you sad.

That’s what I like, baby, as you all know by now. ;)

And indeed it is May, and I have been planning another snippet very soon! My plan was to share a Holly PoV snippet, because I love my girl and it feels like her time to shine. ;) Be assured that it will be to your everlasting torment, because that is the way I roll.

I am not sure if it is most appropriate to do during the #WeNeedDiverseBooks campaign or more appropriate to wait till after and am trying to weigh that!

While I’m deciding, though, here’s a breadcrumb to hold you, and to thank you for your kind message:

‘ She’s so mean, Nicola Prendergast had once whispered to Holly, and Holly had nodded because she wanted Nicola to like her. Angela Montgomery doesn’t have to be so rude all the time. It wouldn’t cost her anything to be nice.

Holly didn’t know about that. She’d felt like being nice cost her something, even if it was just feeling a little bit lesser, every time she smiled without meaning to. Angie was smart and rude, no second thoughts tripping her tongue, able to make anyone be sorry they ever crossed her path and refusing to feel sorry about it. She could even deliver cutting repartee to an unconscious body. She was so mean, and it always made Holly smile. ’

existentiallyqueers-deactivated  asked:

i'm here asking the really important questions which need answering: will lucie be kissing any girls, or will girls kissing girls be in tell the wind and fire?

… I can’t say. I will explain!

It is my new policy not to talk too specifically about representation in any of my future books. When they are out I will, but not before then.

When I was writing the Lynburn Legacy series (and was super excited about it, but didn’t know if it would ever be published, because… wow, it seemed long odds!) I went online and talked about the book. Unspoken was my favourite book to write and I was really happy writing it, and I just wanted to talk about it all the time. ;) This meant I mentioned in a few different places, among other things, that I was writing a book that included ladies who loved ladies, and that generally I wanted to see more of that in YA. I didn’t go into any details, I mostly just went ‘wurble wurble laaaaaadies.’

One reader who’d been very kind about the Demon’s Lexicon series assumed that I was talking about different characters in the Lynburn Legacy than the characters I was talking about. When she read Unspoken she was disappointed. She was hurt, and discussed that publicly, and I felt horrible she was hurt, and like I had done a horrible thing. I also believe she didn’t read the rest of the Lynburn Legacy, which is a shame as she loved the Demon’s Lexicon series and obviously the Lynburn Legacy has far more about ladies and ladies loving ladies in it (not that I don’t like TDL… because I do! My two serieseses are just doing different stuff).

I’m not sorry I wrote my story the way I did, because I like my story. But I blame myself for talking about the story to the extent I did. I’m really sorry I publicly talked about representation in any way more specific than ‘I try to write stories that have some’–because representation is a fraught issue, and so important, and when that collides with people having certain expectations of literature or characters it can get very messy, and people can get hurt.

I do not enjoy talking people out of reading, or into hating, my books. I enjoy hurting people even less.

I have a friend who vaguely heard about the racist outcry over Idris Elba being cast as Heimdall in the Thor movies, and he went into the movie confidently expecting Thor to be black. He was very excited.

His viewing experience went like this:

FRIEND: So, this blond guy gets thrown out, and they elect a new Thor. Black Thor.

FRIEND: This movie has been going on for a while. They are not going to have enough time to properly introduce our black Thor.

FRIEND: THIS MOVIE WAS RUBBISH! WHERE IS BLACK THOR?!

(I was sorry for his pain. I too think Idris Elba would be an amazing Thor. But the movie wasn’t ruined for me the same way, because I didn’t have expectations for something I didn’t get.)

I have thought about maybe being more specific, so there wouldn’t be misapprehensions, but I’ve seen that backfire with other authors.

AUTHOR: Character B will be gay.

READERS: Oh that seems bad. He seems very stereotypical. 

AUTHOR: Well, I think he has many layers but you haven’t read about him yet so I understand that you haven’t seen them… crap.

I’ve also seen:

AUTHOR: Character C will be bisexual.

READERS: Character C is my favourite LGBTQ character.

(That seems actually way worse, because–oh wow, you’d be bound to let the readers down!) 

There’s all sorts of specifics about your books you probably shouldn’t talk about before the books come out, and I’ve come slowly to believe representation is one of them.  

I totally understand if people disagree with me. It does counterintuitive to say: I won’t talk about representation before the book is out, because I used to think I definitely should talk about it. I thought: oh, if I tell people, the readers I want will want to read these books. I myself am always thankful to get a heads-up about representation!

For instance, I remember watching the pilot of Teen Wolf. I guess I was having a bad day, because I had a tantrum in the middle.

SARAH: Turn it off! Turn it off, I dislike these werewolves, and that guy Stilo is unfortunate in the face!

I turned it off. Some months later, I saw on the internet that there was a cool gay character in Teen Wolf called Danny, who was not stereotypical and was cute. And because I do not get enough representation in my genre media, I thought to myself: ‘OK, self! Time to give those werewolves a second chance!’ And I did, and I liked the show, and Danny is very cute, and Stiles (OOPS) turned out to be one of my favourite characters and totally OK in the facialur region.  

But you know, the showrunner of Teen Wolf did not tell me about Danny. Other viewers told me about Danny. 

In the last analysis, it seems best (to me, your mileage may vary!) to leave it up to the viewers/readers to say what’s there, and how they felt about it. 

Another way things get messy is not just misapprehensions that happen, but the fact that books change as you’re writing them. If someone had asked me while I was writing Unspoken if we would get a lesbian character’s PoV I would have said ‘Yes, absolutely, we’ll get the PoV of a lesbian character.’ I’d written it! But it’s not in the final books. (The PoV of a bi character, still in there, but they are different characters and one PoV doesn’t make up for the absence of the other.) If I’d done that, I would have lied to my readers in a really harmful way.  

Writing books means taking the risk of hurting people–doing almost anything does, but minimising the hurt to others is my goal. And once I’ve hurt people in a certain way, I do really try to learn and not do that again.

This was a very difficult decision for me, because I LOVE telling people stories and I want to tell them every detail I think they might be interested in. Whenever one of my friends asks me what I am writing, they have to brace themselves for a play-by-play of the story, with acting out of my favourite scenes and word-for-word dialogue I’m planning to write and extravagant hand gestures.

SARAH: And then they suspect her of MURDER-

FRIEND: Stop everybody is looking at you.

SARAH: And the SECRET MONSTER-

FRIEND: We’ve been in this restaurant five hours. I have appointments. I have a life!

I’m sorry! I hope this is not a weenie answer! I really am thinking all the time about how to make my books the best they can be, and how to behave myself online in the best way I can.

I am SO HAPPY that you think I did a good enough job with Holly and Angela (Holla!) that you’d like to see more. I’m so grateful you’re interested enough in Tell the Wind and Fire to ask, because I know you all have to wait a super long time for TTW&F, and I am always dreading you will all forget about me and go away! I’m so glad you asked, and I reallio trulio appreciate it.