hold head up high

I had a nice lunch with the lovely @bumblemama and between that and all of your lovely comments I was feeling so much better and dare I say stronger? I felt validated and like I did nothing wrong.


That was until I talked to my resource worker. I like her. I really do. She said that she was also shocked by being singled out like this but then she tried to explain.


Apparently, it wasn’t just that I was passionate and educated (her words, not mine) but also that I didn’t “let it go” and “move on” from the conversation (the one about consent).


WTF.


On a couple of accounts:

  1. I didn’t drag on the conversation. (The whole point I was making was a couple of minutes – max)
  2. I was asking a question! A question that was relevant to the topic being presented.
  3. I used respectful language and the conversation was not directed at an individual in the group but at the facilitators.
  4. It’s not MY job to control conversation. That’s pretty much what a facilitator is supposed to do. Why is this my responsibility?

Also, that I had to hear this crucial piece about “moving on” from my worker and not the two trainers. 


I mean it has been made very clear that it’s because I am articulate (despite how I might come across here—all rambling) and educated that that’s somehow a negative in this situation.


I don’t know how I am not supposed to take this personally. I AM educated. I AM passionate. I DO ask questions.


But you know what else? I value diversity of opinions. I am empathetic and a good listener. I am open minded and am not dogmatic. Also, I hate being told that I have to respect that others in the group are different than me—um, no. I was raised in this community by two working class parents. My background is not wildly different. And besides I don’t accept that difference it bad.


I feel like I am is being criticized for who I am by people who don’t actually know me. I definitely feel like I am being attacked for being educated.

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Worlds 2017

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Don’t let anyone ever break your soul. You have to stand on your own two feet and stand up for yourself. There are those that would give anything to see you fail, but you must never give them the satisfaction. Hold your head high, smile and stand your own ground.