Come Back •Part 1• (Jim Kirk x Reader)
In which the reader takes Jim’s place in the face of certain death.
“I don’t like this, Jim,” you stated as he headed to release Khan from his cell. Jim cast you a look of frustration as he continued to walk.
“It’s not up to you, Y/N,” he said. “We’re all doomed right now, and the only chance we have of escaping that fate is by using Khan.”
“Just… just be safe, alright?” You whispered, taking his hand in yours. He gave your hand a light squeeze, his pace slowing slightly as he turned to face you.
“I’ll be fine,” he promised before pressing his lips to yours quickly. As soon as you pulled apart, he was gone, heading to get Khan and hopefully save the ship.
You waited anxiously with Chekov throughout the whole ordeal. Your shaking hands played with the necklace Jim had given you when your relationship with him began back when he first became captain. You always worried about him, but there wasn’t much you could do, seeing as how he would never let you go on away missions with him. You were forced to sit back and watch as he put himself in danger time after time.
You couldn’t help the relief you felt when you finally found Jim dangling from Chekov’s hands on that small bridge. You knew that he was still technically in danger, but seeing him alive and well made you feel as if everything was going to be alright.
You felt alright even as you raced to the warp core, your heart racing as you heard the computer Scotty was at. The warp core needed to be realigned or else you would all fall to certain death.
“The ship’s dead, sir! She’s gone.” Scotty exclaimed, looking at Jim.
“No, she’s not,” Jim declared before racing away. You chased after Jim, Scotty hot on your heels.
“Wait! Jim, if we go in there, we’ll die!” Scotty shouted. “Do you hear me? The radiation will kill us! Will you listen to me? Look, what the hell are you doing?”
“I’m opening the door,” Jim said as he typed codes into the keypad. “I’m going in.”
“The door’s there to stop us from getting irradiated! We’d be dead before making the climb!” Scotty tried to explain to him. You knew Jim, though, and you could tell that Scotty’s words were having no impact on his decision. You felt along your waist for the tranquilizer gun you had been given in case Khan had gotten out; you kept your hand on the gun, watching as Jim turned to Scotty.
“You’re not making the climb,” he mumbled quietly. As soon as he pulled his fist back to hit Scotty, you had the gun pulled out, watching as Jim caught the head engineer in his arms and lowered him to the ground. He turned around to face you, preparing to do the same when his eyes landed on your gun. “If you’re going to shoot me, you might as well let me go in there, I’ll die anyway.”
“You’re not dying,” you whispered in a shaking voice. You took a deep breath and placed your finger on the trigger. “These aren’t bullets, Jim.”
“Then what are…” he trailed off in confusion, his eyes focusing on the ground before they darted back up a moment later. Realization was clear in his eyes, and you could see him beginning to cry. “No, Y/N, you are not doing this. This is my ship and as Captain, I order you to-”
“I’m so sorry,” you sniffled as his hand shot up to his neck. He pulled out the dart, his eyes meeting yours with a shocked look as he fell to his knees. You could tell that he was attempting to fight the tranquilizer, so you raised your gun up again. “They’re not too strong, you should be up in ten minutes or under.”
“D-Don’t do this,” he stammered out, tears streaming down his cheeks.
“If I didn’t, then you would,” you began, shooting the gun again. Jim fell to the floor unconscious, and you immediately went to open the door. “This ship needs you, Jim.”
He wasn’t sure how long he had been out when his eyes finally fluttered open. He heard Scotty talking into the comm, telling someone to hurry. Jim let out a small groan as he moved to stand up; his body shook as he got onto his feet, but he knew it wasn’t just from the darts. There was a cold fear spreading throughout his body, making his blood feel like ice.
“Captain,” Scotty said as he looked at Jim. His eyes flickered to something behind Jim, and the Captain immediately turned around.
“Y-Y/N,” he choked out as he saw you sitting on the ground as you leaned against the door. You were so pale, your eyelids drooping as you looked up at him with a small smile. He kneeled onto the ground in front of the door.
“Is… Is the ship alright?” You gasped out.
“You saved the crew, Lieutenant Y/L/N,” Spock’s voice replied from behind Jim.
“What the hell were you thinking, Y/N?” Jim questioned, his eyes filling with tears as he watched you struggle to breathe.
“That I couldn’t let the man I love die,” you answered truthfully.
“I will forever hate that man.”
“Don’t,” you ordered. “He’s the most k-kind and loving person I’ve e-ever met. I would do it all again.”
“Y/N, please don’t leave me,” Jim pleaded as he began to sob softly. You noticed that Uhura had appeared beside Spock, both looking on with teary eyes.
“There’s just some parts of life I don’t control,” you whispered, voice becoming quieter. “I love you, Jim.”
You placed your hand against the door and watched as he slowly lifted his own up and placed it over yours. You looked into his crystal blue eyes and found the world around you becoming fuzzy. It was like going to sleep, but this time you knew that you wouldn’t be waking up.
“Y/N, don’t,” Jim pleaded as your stare became blank. Your hand slid down the door, and he was immediately banging on the glass. “You can’t do this, you promised! You promised!”
Bones heard the story from Scotty. The story of the great Captain Kirk who became nothing in a matter of seconds as he watched you die. Bones knew that Jim loved you more than anyone ever thought possible, but he had never imagined him to be so stoic as they brought your body to the medbay.
The body bag was opened slightly so that Bones could see. Your eyes were still open, looking at everything but taking in nothing.
Jim swallowed hard and left the medbay, the tears beginning to overwhelm him again. Bones glanced over to where his friend was leaving, his heart heavy. He walked slowly over to his desk and sat in the chair, allowing everyone to take a moment to mourn.
That was when the Tribble began to come back to life. Leonard shot up from his chair as readings for the Tribble began to go off and the creature made noises.
“Get me a cryotube! Now!”
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