He heard his boyfriend’s voice & sighed softly. While overwhelmed with his own thoughts & challenges, something about Levi always brought him a slight relief. Through all of his mistakes & poor choices, through all of the highs & lows of his life, this man still loved him. He still smiled at him & held him close when he needed it; & Levi always knew without words when he needed it.
Are you alright?
I don’t know, Archer returned softly, finally glancing over at the other man.
Levi cautiously stepped forward, rubbing his hand to help from fidgeting nervously. Part of him always wondered if Archer would blame him, or blame their relationship itself, for what he was going through now. Grant just left with Micah to go get some lunch. I know none of us have lessons for a while. We should go grab a bite.
Archer shook his head. I don’t know, Levi. I’m not really…
Hungry? Yeah, I know, the brunette nodded. But you need to eat & so do I. Let’s get out of here for a little while. People don’t have to know we’re ‘together’ together either, ya know? Small town. Everyone knows how close I am to your family & that we’ve been friends for-fucking-ever, he chuckled.
It’s not that L, Archer replied, his body tensing as he closed his eyes. He didn’t want Levi to feel like some dirty secret. Besides, what use would hiding their relationship have now? I… It’s just… the man sighed again, this time much louder than before. Actually, I don’t want to talk about it anymore. I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to torture myself by thinking about it. I’m doing what I have to do. It’ll just take time.