Bellamy thinking that he lost the most important person in his life.
His mind flashing back to every single moment with Octavia. When he first named her and put his thumb to her mouth in hopes that it would appease her crying. Scared and nervous because even so little he knew this was big secret but with so much love for this small little girl in his arms.
Bellamy gently sitting back with Octavia leaning into him as their mother reads them stories. Memorizing them so he can recite them back to Octavia when Aurora isn’t around.
Bellamy’s face lighting up every time Octavia shine’s her big grin up towards him.
The agony and guilt because he doesn’t even want to give Octavia all the stars, he just wants go give her freedom.
The way she felt in his arms after so much solitude. After coming back to quarters that were empty without her electric personality and the way it takes up a room. And she was bigger after their time apart but his sister still felt them same, felt like home.
Him watching her grow. Her wildness expanding around them and it’s almost like even this world isn’t enough for her. Watching the way that she carries a fight on her shoulders, the way love looks on her for a man. Watching anger spark between them but he loves her, he loves her
And Bellamy thinks that he’s lost that person. And all he can do is break apart. After all what happens when your heart is taken from you?
Special night... his night with his siblings was special to him.. I just. That family man, and Dan, God am I happy they've got him.