Distance - chapter 49
A/N - Chapter 49 of Distance is finished! Woohoo! I love this chapter too, because Kaidan finally sees Gina’s synthetic limbs and show’s her in his own special way how beautiful he still finds her. I really hope you guys enjoy this chapter! (Art is by @marceline2174)
Distance - Chapter 49
The Normandy hummed gently as she passed through the velvety black of space; almost completely silent except for the gentle thrumming of the engines. The sounds, so familiar and comforting, kept Gina company as she sat alone in her cabin, her stomach turning in knots as she waited for Kaidan. And waited. And waited. And waited. His heartbreak over the death of Rodriguez had been immediate and apparent, as had his self-recrimination. Jack hadn’t helped, and the biotic had predictably piled the responsibility for her death at Kaidan’s door, blaming him for slowing her down.
“We shouldn’t have stayed outside cowering behind rubble!” she’d railed at him furiously, her biotics burning around her in a halo of dancing blue flames, her anger and pain raging out of control. “This is your fault!” Jack had almost screamed, jabbing a finger into his chest; causing Gina to hold her breath as she waited for Kaidan to react. “I could have saved her! I could have saved her!”
But she couldn’t have, and some small part of Jack had known it.
Gina hadn’t been there when the temple had come down and Cerberus had initially attacked them, but one glance at Rodriguez’s broken body had been enough for her to see that the young woman had been crushed by a falling column when the roof collapsed. There was nothing anyone could have done for her, let alone Jack.
But Kaidan hadn’t said that; he had taken Jack’s wrath, all of it, until it had burnt itself out and she finally collapsed in on herself.
“This is my fault,” she whispered finally. “God fucking dammit! She shouldn’t have been down there! None of them should have; but I took them. I took them on this mission.”
“We both did,” Kaidan said eventually, and he stepped forward and placed a hand on Jack’s shoulder. “But it wasn’t our fault. We didn’t kill her; Cerberus did.”
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