his journey

Reflection on Sanders Sides – Behind the Scenes

I’m loving the behind the scenes video Thomas recently uploaded. He refers to himself in the third person, further establishing that the Thomas we see in the Sanders Sides videos is a character and doesn’t necessarily reflect his journey with his personality. Yet again, another example that Youtubers, even the sweetest and kindest, don’t show all of themselves on camera. The small sliver of who Thomas Sanders lets us see is incredible and multifaceted, we can really only imagine anything else.

meganuckingfutsnix  asked:

Once Kylo Ren begins his journey of seeking redemption, what name do you think he will want to be called? Do you think he'll want to re-identify being Ben Solo again seeing as he was the boy he no longer cares to be. I'm curious if you think he'll insist on still being called Kylo Ren or some other name despite turning to the light? His identity as Ben Solo just seems to have a lot of bad memories attached to it is all. Also do you think the catalyst for his redemption will be Leia's death?

I absolutely think there is a distinction between “Ben Solo” and “Kylo Ren.”

There is power and meaning behind a name - and the psychology behind that is not going to be lost on the creators of this film.

The fact is, calling Kylo Ren, “Ben” will be one of the EASIEST ways to convince children and adult viewers alike that the redemption is happening. Call a character by a new name, and the perception of them WILL change. So yes - I 100% believe that a redeemed Kylo Ren will become Ben Solo.

As to who will make that jump - who will call him by name first…? That’s hard to say. It would likely be BEST if it were Leia - in my mind. It could be Luke, but if Luke’s marketing for TLJ is any indication…. I’m gonna say prooooobably not.

It could DEFINITELY also be Rey - and I see this as most likely because she will probably have visions of him and his past (likely having some sort of revelation that shakes her - and the whole audeince’s - entire opinion of Kylo/Ben, making him very sympathetic, is my guess) and Rey will be the one to believe that - yes - Ben Solo can come back. I believe she’ll call him Ben at some dramatic moment that will be moving for him. Or whatever.

I’d personally rather Leia be the first one to call him “Ben” again, but if their meeting only happens right near the end (which it looks to be the case), then… my guess is that they can’t go the whole goddamn movie without calling him by name.

I am gonna also make a wild guess here that Rey never actually calls him, “Kylo Ren,” that she will only ever call him by his actual name… 

I’m going to guess that Kylo/Ben also doesn’t call Rey by name until a poignant or dramatic, moving moment. I’d love if he called her “Scavenger” for awhile though… there are some opportunities for comedy there.

Anyway, yes. I think he’ll become Ben Solo and drop Kylo Ren. If he’s redeemed, he will DESPISE that part of himself, and rightfully would deserve his old identity back. It’s symbolic of gaining your real self back after years of being lost and suffering trauma. I read Kylo/Ben as an abuse victim, and also an allegory to the crippling effects of society’s toxic views on masculinity.

Becoming Ben Solo again is a symbolic act, as much as a practical one to turn the audience’s perspective.

NO, it was confirmed by Rian and Kathleen at some point that Leia was meant to become an even bigger deal in Ep 9, that it was going to be - in large part - her story (Rey still at the center, but a big focus on Leia).

I think Leia will survive this part of the story, and that she was meant to survive the whole saga. But the passing of Carrie… unfortunately prevented that…

Anyway, I would also HATE to see Leia fridged like that anyway.

I think his catalyst will be both his LOVE for his mother, and Rey’s compassionate nature and his compassion for Rey, in turn.


Sawada Tsunayoshi was a rather…unmotivated pokemon trainer living in his hometown, trying to avoid actually setting out on his pokemon journey, with only his magikarp for company.  Until one day his mother hired a tutor that was supposed to help Tsuna learn to grow, much to his protests.   The tutor turned out to be Reborn, who promptly informed Tsuna he was set to become the next leader of Team Vongola, a shady organization that always seemed to be linked to dangerous people and incidences happening in the world.  Needless to say, Tsuna wanted nothing to do with this but was told, very bluntly and violently, that he didn’t have a choice.  Reborn was going to make sure he turned into the best team leader and pokemon trainer.   Then Reborn dragged Tsuna out into a pokemon journey he had never wanted or asked for.

So.  Here’s the Au that I’ve been having far, far to much fun with.  I have a bad habit of wanting to create pokemon crossovers for all the series I like, and I’ve had this one in mind for a long time.  It was just supposed to be a couple of fun pictures, but then my mind insisted on dragging story into, and now I have one building in the back of my head.   I might write more about it later and what I’ve come up with for this AU so far, but I just wanted to put get this up.   I do have reasons for picking most of Tsuna’s pokemon, though sometimes the deciding factor behind picking one was ‘okay this is a cool pokemon!’  

Rick Riordan won a Stonewall award today

for his second Magnus Chase book, due to the inclusion of the character Alex Fierro who is gender fluid. This was the speech he gave, and it really distills why I love this author and his works so much, and why I will always recommend his works to anyone and everyone.

“Thank you for inviting me here today. As I told the Stonewall Award Committee, this is an honor both humbling and unexpected.

So, what is an old cis straight white male doing up here? Where did I get the nerve to write Alex Fierro, a transgender, gender fluid child of Loki in The Hammer of Thor, and why should I get cookies for that?

These are all fair and valid questions, which I have been asking myself a lot.

I think, to support young LGBTQ readers, the most important thing publishing can do is to publish and promote more stories by LGBTQ authors, authentic experiences by authentic voices. We have to keep pushing for this. The Stonewall committee’s work is a critical part of that effort. I can only accept the Stonewall Award in the sense that I accept a call to action – firstly, to do more myself to read and promote books by LGBTQ authors.

But also, it’s a call to do better in my own writing. As one of my genderqueer readers told me recently, “Hey, thanks for Alex. You didn’t do a terrible job!” I thought: Yes! Not doing a terrible job was my goal!

As important as it is to offer authentic voices and empower authors and role models from within LGBTQ community, it’s is also important that LGBTQ kids see themselves reflected and valued in the larger world of mass media, including my books. I know this because my non-heteronormative readers tell me so. They actively lobby to see characters like themselves in my books. They like the universe I’ve created. They want to be part of it. They deserve that opportunity. It’s important that I, as a mainstream author, say, “I see you. You matter. Your life experience may not be like mine, but it is no less valid and no less real. I will do whatever I can to understand and accurately include you in my stories, in my world. I will not erase you.”

People all over the political spectrum often ask me, “Why can’t you just stay silent on these issues? Just don’t include LGBTQ material and everybody will be happy.” This assumes that silence is the natural neutral position. But silence is not neutral. It’s an active choice. Silence is great when you are listening. Silence is not so great when you are using it to ignore or exclude.

But that’s all macro, ‘big picture’ stuff. Yes, I think the principles are important. Yes, in the abstract, I feel an obligation to write the world as I see it: beautiful because of its variations. Where I can’t draw on personal experience, I listen, I read a lot – in particular I want to credit Beyond Magenta and Gender Outlaws for helping me understand more about the perspective of my character Alex Fierro – and I trust that much of the human experience is universal. You can’t go too far wrong if you use empathy as your lens. But the reason I wrote Alex Fierro, or Nico di Angelo, or any of my characters, is much more personal.

I was a teacher for many years, in public and private school, California and Texas. During those years, I taught all kinds of kids. I want them all to know that I see them. They matter. I write characters to honor my students, and to make up for what I wished I could have done for them in the classroom.

I think about my former student Adrian (a pseudonym), back in the 90s in San Francisco. Adrian used the pronouns he and him, so I will call him that, but I suspect Adrian might have had more freedom and more options as to how he self-identified in school were he growing up today. His peers, his teachers, his family all understood that Adrian was female, despite his birth designation. Since kindergarten, he had self-selected to be among the girls – socially, athletically, academically. He was one of our girls. And although he got support and acceptance at the school, I don’t know that I helped him as much as I could, or that I tried to understand his needs and his journey. At that time in my life, I didn’t have the experience, the vocabulary, or frankly the emotional capacity to have that conversation. When we broke into social skills groups, for instance, boys apart from girls, he came into my group with the boys, I think because he felt it was required, but I feel like I missed the opportunity to sit with him and ask him what he wanted. And to assure him it was okay, whichever choice he made. I learned more from Adrian than I taught him. Twenty years later, Alex Fierro is for Adrian.

I think about Jane (pseudonym), another one of my students who was a straight cis-female with two fantastic moms. Again, for LGBTQ families, San Francisco was a pretty good place to live in the 90s, but as we know, prejudice has no geographical border. You cannot build a wall high enough to keep it out. I know Jane got flack about her family. I did what I could to support her, but I don’t think I did enough. I remember the day Jane’s drama class was happening in my classroom. The teacher was new – our first African American male teacher, which we were all really excited about – and this was only his third week. I was sitting at my desk, grading papers, while the teacher did a free association exercise. One of his examples was ‘fruit – gay.’ I think he did it because he thought it would be funny to middle schoolers. After the class, I asked to see the teacher one on one. I asked him to be aware of what he was saying and how that might be hurtful. I know. Me, a white guy, lecturing this Black teacher about hurtful words. He got defensive and quit, because he said he could not promise to not use that language again. At the time, I felt like I needed to do something, to stand up especially for Jane and her family. But did I make things better handling it as I did? I think I missed an opportunity to open a dialogue about how different people experience hurtful labels. Emmie and Josephine and their daughter Georgina, the family I introduce in The Dark Prophecy, are for Jane.

I think about Amy, and Mark, and Nicholas … All former students who have come out as gay since I taught them in middle school. All have gone on to have successful careers and happy families. When I taught them, I knew they were different. Their struggles were greater, their perspectives more divergent than some of my other students. I tried to provide a safe space for them, to model respect, but in retrospect I don’t think I supported them as well as I could have, or reached out as much as they might have needed. I was too busy preparing lessons on Shakespeare or adjectives, and not focusing enough on my students’ emotional health. Adjectives were a lot easier for me to reconcile than feelings. Would they have felt comfortable coming out earlier than college or high school if they had found more support in middle school? Would they have wanted to? I don’t know. But I don’t think they felt it was a safe option, which leaves me thinking that I did not do enough for them at that critical middle school time. I do not want any kid to feel alone, invisible, misunderstood. Nico di Angelo is for Amy, and Mark and Nicholas.

I am trying to do more. Percy Jackson started as a way to empower kids, in particular my son, who had learning differences. As my platform grew, I felt obliged to use it to empower all kids who are struggling through middle school for whatever reason. I don’t always do enough. I don’t always get it right. Good intentions are wonderful things, but at the end of a manuscript, the text has to stand on its own. What I meant ceases to matter. Kids just see what I wrote. But I have to keep trying. My kids are counting on me.

So thank you, above all, to my former students who taught me. Alex Fierro is for you.

To you, I pledge myself to do better – to apologize when I screw up, to learn from my mistakes, to be there for LGBTQ youth and make sure they know that in my books, they are included. They matter. I am going to stop talking now, but I promise you I won’t stop listening.”

just accept the reality that your fave is never going to have a redemption arc as perfectly written as prince zuko’s

Wonder Woman spoilers. Hit J to skip. 

Got into a discussion about the implication that Diana finding love with a man was what saved the day and I thought I should go ahead and bring it over here. 

I can see the argument being made here. Diana has been around women all her life. That suddenly a man, and more specifically sex with a man, changes her and makes her a hero. That hetero-sex is what saves the day. 

I have a couple objections to this theory, but let me start by saying I can see why you would feel that way, particularly for those of you who are lesbians. I don’t, and I recognize it’s largely because of who I am and my own views.

What I won’t agree with is the implication that Amazons are all straight. It’s just not true. When Antiope was killed, three women came to her side- her sister, Diana, and a third grief-sticken and screaming who got the camera’s attention for an extended shot even though nobody knew who she was. That was her wife. Fight me. 

Additionally, when Steve and Diana are having their boat sex talk, she says she knows of sex. She knows the pleasures of the flesh. Men are unnecessary for pleasure. She’s either talking about lady love or masturbation (both of which are still pretty taboo to talk about as women today let alone in 1918). I choose to believe it’s the former. She’s had at least one Amazon lover in the comics- Mala in Earth One. 

On to my objections:

Diana’s not a lesbian. She’s bisexual. Bisexuals are allowed to love men. We’re allowed to like men. Steve Trevor, whether romantic or platonic, is a big part of Wonder Woman’s story. He is the Lois to Diana’s Superman. For those of you who say Steve was too much or Steve was intolerable or the het love story ruined it, I ask you to accept that you might have some biases based in your preference for a queer Diana who doesn’t like men. Again, I understand why you feel that way, especially for those of you who are lesbians. But to constantly hear ‘het love’ and ‘het sex’ is annoying at best and erasure at worst. Diana is bisexual. She is queer. Of course I’d like it to be more explicit in the movies, whether through her expressing attraction to women or outright saying it, but the point still stands. This is the most powerful canonically queer character in media. 

Nothing she does is heterosexual. 

Another point is about the love saves the day. It wasn’t just Steve’s love. It wasn’t just Diana’s love for Steve. (And yes, I can see why it might seem rushed, especially for those who aren’t aware of the “Diana’s Lois” history of the ship, but how often do we see the woman falling head over heels for the hero of other movies and why can’t we allow the script to be flipped here? Steve Trevor is very much a counter to most macho action movie stars full of toxic masculinity which is a whole post on its own.)

Love saved the day, but it wasn’t just romantic love. It certainly wasn’t just sexual love. It was also platonic love between the men themselves. When she sees the men embracing each other in the face of certain death, what does she see?

She sees three men who could have gone home when the money ran out. Three men who continued into a suicide mission, following Steve because they loved him too. When Steve gave them the option to go home, they say “she can handle herself, but what would you do without us?” They follow him because they love him. They’d deny it, of course, but it’s there. That brotherhood. She sees that. She recognizes it from the way the Amazons loved those they fought with. That’s how she recognizes that there is good in men. That’s why she believes they can choose good. They aren’t fighting for the anger and the bloodshed. They are fighting because they love. 

Just like she does. 

Back in the 90′s David Duchovny was once asked what he wants to do in his life and his answer was: 

“Write. Have a family. Be what my mom calls a decent man. I’d like to cause less pain than there is. Maybe alleviate some pain.” 

We all know years passed by and not everything worked out as planned. Guess what. He made mistakes. Guess what. You did too. I did, too. We all do. The things that differentiate us from each other isn’t in who makes mistakes but if we realise them at all. Do we always acknowledge our mistakes, others mistakes? Or we just become blind and ignorant? When we do acknowledge them, what we do with them, how we handle them? How we handle others failures, how we help them? Or not. These are the big questions.( Also, in his case, the mistakes being documented and thrown back into his face all the time)

David Duchovny went on with his life and became the person who he wanted to be. He became the person he was hoping for back in the 90′s. He is a humble, soul-lifting, decent, feminist puppy man who is absolutely happy in where he is at this stage of his life and I could not love him more. 

He keeps going around, acknowledging his previous mistakes and giving interviews on how failure can be a good teacher. He teaches his kids that it’s okay to fail. He started to learn the guitar so his kids can see how he struggles in something and keeps going, ‘cause it’s worthwhile.

He made mistakes, he acknowledged them, learnt from them and improved his and others life. So anyone out there, dragging him for no better reason than his failures in the past, or for the characters he played on TV!?, STOP IT. Stop the hate, the poison, we have enough of that already in here.

What we should always take away from the history of a person is the appreciation of their journey, their life. Leave the past in the past, improve and embrace the present. In the meantime living by these words does sound like a good idea:

“I’ve made so many mistakes but it is my feeling that you learn from failures, so I welcome them as often as I can.”


The Doctor Donna


Don’t look back. Just look at me”


Journey AU, Game of Thrones AU…. Yuri!!!On Ice really hit me hard….. 

Also, guess what two games I´ve been playing recently….:D 


Love how Jay Park whenever he’s in Seattle, he tends to tweet a lot and share his thoughts and feelings about anything and everything. Being back in his hometown definitely makes him happy. So heartwarming to see him sharing all the photos of his childhood and everything that he’s thankful for in his life and worked hard for coming a full circle. I think at this point in his life, as he turns 30 this coming April (born in 1987), he’s truly accomplished a lot that’s beyond his wildest dreams and glad that he’s always thankful and grateful for it and staying humble and always remembering his roots and putting his focus on his family and friends.