his face in the last one he looks so genuinely upset omg

  • Sansa: Tries to warn Jon about making the same mistakes as Ned and Robb
  • Sansa: Tries to keep Jon from leaving
  • Sansa: Pines for Jon once he leaves
  • Sansa: Greets her returning siblings with unconditional love and understanding, tries to understand their lives while also making no demands of them.
  • Sansa: Uses her powers as regent to make sure her people are properly fed and armed
  • Sansa: Consistently tells Baelish to go away
  • Sansa: Passes up and rebuffs every opportunity to usurp/betray Jon.
  • Sansa: Acts frustrated and angry over the offers made to her to usurp Jon, part of her frustration being that she warned Jon this would happen if she left.
  • Bran: Waxes on about how hot Sansa looked the night she was raped
  • Sansa: Warns her siblings about Littlefinger when she finds out that LF gave Bran a dagger
  • Arya: Tells Sansa she ought to have beheaded men for criticizing Jon
  • Sansa: Explains why that is a bad idea
  • Arya: Implies Sansa's a traitor and that she wants to betray Jon and is a materialistic monster even after witnessing her sister both rebuff the offer and act genuinely upset by the offer to usurp Jon.
  • Arya: Decides to try and spy on Littlefinger, finds note Littlefinger wants her to find and immediately jumps to holding the letter against her sister without even considering the idea that if Sansa wanted to repress such a thing for being incriminting, then LF wouldn't have let it be found and would have simply destroyed it.
  • Arya: Blames Sansa for their father's death, threatens to "expose" Sansa for "doing Lannister bidding" while Sansa was a hostage (conveniently ignoring how a) she witnessed Sansa try to run to help Ned at his execution and b) how she was bonding with and serving Tywin Lannister his drinks and ignoring the not one, not two, but three opportunities she had to kill him), thus potentially destroying Sansa's regency (and, by extension, all the measures Sansa's taken to protect and serve the North) and even potentially getting Sansa killed (what with this "exposure" of Sansa's letter putting Sansa on the defensive, which could/would quite easily lead to her being called a traitor, and even be arrested/executed for her "treason"), trying to use Lyanna "Never been a hostage or been in any legitimate danger ever" Mormont as an argument as to why Sansa is a "traitor". Basically threatening to vilify Sansa in front of the very people she (and, by extension, Jon) needs to keep the North from perishing and calling her a traitor (a charge which, once again, could easily lead to Sansa being unjustly executed for her "treason").
  • Sansa: Defends herself, tries to explain her situation, tries to tell Arya that this is exactly what their enemies want, and when that doesn't work, points out that she's the reason that they have Winterfell again,
  • Sansa: Is afraid of Arya making good on her threats and the catastrophes that can cause. Hears Littlefinger suggest that she employ Brienne's aid to "intercede when one Stark sister endangers another" and soon after receives a "summons" to King's Landing to attend a parlay over a matter she knows nothing about because Jon hasn't written to her in weeks.
  • Sansa: Sends Brienne, the only person left in Winterfell that she can trust, to KL.
  • Sansa: Takes no action against Arya except to try and find her "evidence" in her rooms so that Arya can't potentially destroy everything Sansa has worked for since retaking Winterfell and endanger Sansa's life. Does this on her own, even though she could easily have Arya seized, have her own men search Arya's room, etc. Instead does this in a way least likely to endanger her sister.
  • Sansa: In fear, mentions that she does, indeed have men that would protect her from her sister, who she knows is capable of killing people (and who also has apparently been collecting human faces).
  • Arya: Mentions that these men who would protect her aren't currently present. Once again accuses Sansa of trying to betray Jon. Moves towards Sansa brandishing a dagger talking about killing, taking peoples' faces, and how easily she could take Sansa's face and her life. Gives Sansa the dagger at the last minute.
  • Sansa: Acts afraid and confused.
  • Fandom: GO ARYA! Sansa IS totally evil and deserves the shitty treatment from her siblings because of what she's TOTALLY going to do, which we know she'll do because of two ambiguous expressions (despite actual actions on her part which contradict our interpretations of said ambiguous looks) and that her siblings treat her like shit (because of what she'll do, she deserves it, which is not a circular argument at all)! ARYA IS SO RIGHT AND IS THE VICTIM HERE! IT IS SANSA WHO IS BEING TRICKED BY LITTLEFINGER AND IS TRYING TO DESTROY HER SISTER! LOOK AT THE THINGS SHE SAYS IN HER OWN DEFENSE! POOR ARYA, BEING SO UNDER THREAT FROM HER SISTER'S SELF DEFENSE! SANSA IS SO EVIL AND WEAK AND ARYA IS RIGHT ABOUT WHAT A FAILURE SANSA IS AND HOW SHE BETRAYED EVERYONE BECAUSE SHE TOTALLY DIDN'T ACT HOW ARYA AND LYANNA WOULD HAVE IN HER SITUATION (WHICH TOTALLY WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER AND AMAZING AND BADASS AND SAVED EVERYONE). OMG, HER POINT ABOUT LYANNA MORMONT, WHO HAS LITERALLY NEVER BEEN ANYWHERE SOUTH OF WINTERFELL, HAS SPENT HER ENTIRE LIFE SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND SUBJECTS, AND HAD POWER HANDED TO HER BY ACCIDENT OF BIRTH AND HAS LITERALLY NEVER HAD TO FACE A SITUATION WHERE COMPLIANCE COULD BE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HER OWN LIFE AND THAT OF HER FAMILY, WAS SO GOOD! BECAUSE ARYA AND LYANNA ARE BETTER AND WOULD HAVE THRIVED BETTER BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT WEAK LIKE SANSA!!! SANSA IS TOTALLY TRYING TO DESTROY ARYA AND JON, EVEN THOUGH SHE'S DONE NO SUCH THING THUS FAR DESPITE THE MULTITUDE OF OPPORTUNITIES SHE'S HAD. THIS IS ALL HER FAULT AND SHE DESERVES TO BE VICTIM-BLAMED AND ACCUSED OF THINGS THAT ARE ABSOLUTELY ABSURD AND IN DIRECT CONTRAST TO EVERYTHING SHE'S ACTUALLY DONE! SHE DESERVES TO BE TREATED LIKE SHIT AND HAS NO BUSINESS SPEAKING/ACTING IN HER OWN DEFENSE BECAUSE THAT'S JUST EVIL! SANSA ALWAYS DESERVES CRUELTY, ESPECIALLY FROM ARYA! ARYA'S BEHAVIOR TOWARDS HER SISTER IS MORE PROOF OF SANSA'S FAILINGS BECAUSE SANSA IS EVIL AND ARYA IS ALWAYS GREAT AND IS STRONG UNLIKE HER EVIL, WEAK, SISTER!!!! I'M SO GLAD ARYA IS PUTTING SANSA IN HER PLACE! SANSA DESERVES TO BE TREATED LIKE GARBAGE AND ARYA IS RIGHT TO DO SO!!!! HOORAY!!! THIS IS ALL ABOUT WHAT SANSA IS DOING WRONG!
Colton Ryan/Olivia Puckett DEH Review

Major Plot Spoilers ahead.

Wow. Honestly, just wow. I’m staring at the screen trying to write this and am still at a complete loss. For what it’s worth, this was my first time seeing the show. I’m seeing it four times while I’m in New York, but this was my first. I’ve been watching the video for as long as I can remember and haven’t gone a day without listening to the soundtrack. I’ve heard Colton’s audio as well as Michael Lee Brown’s and had no idea what to expect going in to this performance. With that being said, nothing could have prepared me for this. I have heard so many reviews regarding the two understudies the past few days and wasn’t sure what to expect out of Colton, but he stole my heart, crushed it to pieces, squeezed it into a mess, only to put it back together again in the finale. This boy is not getting enough credit for his talent. After seeing all of the MLB reviews and Colton reviews, I was left in awe of his performance. This guy deserves all the things, and I wish I could give them to him. He definitely deserves consideration for when November roles around. When he did Evan’s opening monologue, it was fast. Very fast. Almost faster than Ben’s and to the point where if you weren’t paying attention, you probably missed something. I felt right at home. This of course leads into AHAM and this is the first chance we have at seeing Olivia’s Zoe. (HOLY COW!!!!!) Her portrayal of Zoe was SO different from Laura’s. Mike Faist seemed to have more of a joking tone with her and their opening interaction seemed less hostile and more of a normal sibling dynamic.
This then leads into Evan asking Alana to sign his cast as she tells him about her summer. I thought that Colton looked very anxious and uncomfortable and you could see him fighting with himself as to what the right thing to say to her was. Will of course stole the show immediately when he came on stage and continued to do so throughout. His performance wow’d me and is so much stronger in person than any video could do justice.
Cutting to WTAW - and just wow. I was left speechless. I believe Colton was losing his voice (he seemed hoarse at the beginning of the show but once his vocals warmed up - he nailed it) but this just made the performance even better for me. You could hear the desperation in his voice as he sang and especially when asking “Is anybody waving, back at me?”. His interaction with Olivia was textbook perfect. He was so nervous even I was uncomfortable for him but Olivia was genuinely apologetic that Connor had shoved Evan and seemed upset at the fact Connor was like this. At one point in the song, Colton chased after her waving and she paid him no attention and his face was absolutely heartbroken (I started crying here and never stopped). Heading in to the WTAW reprise in the computer lab, Colton looked devastated when Heidi calls and says she can’t come pick him up and so pained when she asks how his day was. Even he was crying during the reprise and this is something I wasn’t expecting.
Olivia in For Forever showed a side of Zoe I had never seen. She looked so sad as Evan sang and I felt terrible that these happy memories of her brother were ones she didn’t have. (JLT’s performance and breakdown during this song - OMG!) Colton’s chemistry with the Murphy’s seemed natural and only grew as the show went on.
Sincerely, Me is one of my favorite numbers and seeing it in person was AMAZING. Because of Mike and Colton’s off stage friendship, this on stage performance was incredible. Colton mouthed the words he was typing in the emails as he was doing it and this just made the whole thing more realistic to me.
OLIVIA CAN FLAT SING. Requiem is not normally a song to leave me in tears, but the emotion in that song did me in. Zoe was so heartbroken and couldn’t even bring herself to read through all of the emails. I thought at one point she was going to break down trying to sing it but you could see the tears in her eyes. I loved how it seemed more painful and heartfelt.
Colton’s If I Could Tell Her normally gives me goosebumps but with Olivia on stage? I was speechless. They have natural chemistry and it looked so natural every time they were together. When Evan kisses her at the end, she didn’t seem angry, just shocked.
Disappear was wonderful as well and I felt like I got to see so much more of Jared’s character development when he tries to make an input to the Murphy’s and Evan shuts him down. This is something that doesn’t translate in the boot or audio versions for me.
You Will Be Found was where I lost it and didn’t recover. There was something so raw during the speech and watching him crumble on the floor. As Nic mentioned, Colton held on to Connor’s tie for dear life and was audibly crying before he could manage to look out at the crowd again and continue. Hearing Colton cry and look so broken made me want to jump the stage and give him a hug. Michael Park’s breakdown made my dad cry and I had to look away to control my sobs. He fell to his knees and JLT had to come help him up as he pulled her into a hug. When Zoe saw this, you could see her eyes tear up and when she sang and spoke to Evan at the end, she was crying about having her brother back. Once again, Colton and Olivia’s chemistry was off the charts. When they kissed, she wrapped both her arms tight around him and he her and they were both holding on for dear life.
Break in a Glove is a song I find necessary for the show but haven’t died to listen to on repeat. However, the dynamic between Evan and Larry here is SO good. They were both glad to have someone to share this with since they missed out on it when they were younger. Evan looks so hopeful and Larry looks so excited to share this and it was beautiful.
Only us - UGH!!! Olivia nailed this. She was so gentle with him and looked at him so lovingly and Evan looked so enthralled by her. She did indeed kiss him more than one time throughout the song and whenever they were close enough, she was touching him. In the end, Colton pushed her down onto the bed and it looked like the most natural thing in the world.
Good for you was just SO good. Jared’s heartbreak, Alana’s hurt, RBJ WAS CRYING and everyone else was too. Colton looked traumatized that he was going through this and the emotions on his face were painful.
Everyone talks about Colton singing words fail well and they aren’t wrong. This performance left me shaking with sobs and the girl beside me who had no idea about the performance going in, clutching on to my arm and crying. There was so much emotion on the stage at one time I didn’t even know how to handle it. Zoe was crying, Cynthia was sobbing, and Colton was just so so so broken. He kept pulling at his hands and at his chest like he was hurting and he would mouth i’m so sorry in between lines. I made eye contact with him during this song and felt sorry for him because I was sobbing harder than he was.
I didn’t even have time to recover before So Big/ So Small. Rachel Bay Jones was crying so hard and at the end of it, Colton threw himself into her lap and buried his face. He was completely off the couch and into the floor with his arms wrapped so tightly around her I don’t know how she could move. She held him so close and held his face in between her hands. When Evan finally pulls away, he looked like it was the last thing in the world he wanted to be doing.
And of course, I cried through the finale because it was over and it was the most beautiful performance I’ve ever seen.
Overall, I would say, after hearing so much of the OBC and the audios, Olivia blew me away. Completely. She was absolutely incredible and gave me so much more to Zoe that I never knew I needed. Colton stunned me and stole the show. His vocals were wonderful and in the parts where he struggled made it all the more real to me. It was these times where he seemed so desperate and broken the most. Nothing in the world could have prepared me for this and I’m so thankful. If you get the chance to see Olivia, TAKE IT and enjoy every second. If you get the chance to see Colton, please do not sell your tickets because Ben isn’t there. It is still worth it and I didn’t feel like I missed any part of the performance by having Colton. (He’s also beautiful and one of the sweetest people in the whole world. I love him to pieces) ❤️

Hi everyone!  I’m sorry I couldn’t upload this last night, but I worked really hard on a short fanfic for Keith’s birthday!  I am working on creating an AO3 account, so I’ll tell you when I get that up.  Anyway, this is purely giggles and fluff; I hope you enjoy!

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Hand shaking, Lance gently squeezed the makeshift piping bag as he attempted to write out the letters.  So far, so good.  Currently, “Happy” was spelled out on the white icing that Hunk had carefully spread.  Lance had desperately wanted to help decorate Keith’s birthday cake, but Hunk had been a little hesitant, (and with good reason).  He peered tensely over the edge of the table at Lance’s detailed, slightly sloppy work.

“QUIZNAK!” he shouted suddenly.  Hunk jumped.  

“WHAT? WHAT HAPPENED??? TELL ME IT DOESN’T LOOK LIKE A WINTER MURDER SCENE! OH, I CAN’T BARE TO LOOK!  WHAT DID YOU LANCE – TELL ME!!!”

“Relax, Hunk.  I just got my hand in one of your frosting blobs,” Lance said, licking the red from the side of his hand.  Hunk glared as Lance went back to his work.  He hummed as he piped, just barely moving his hips to the song.  Evidently delighted with his work so far, a wide grin spread over his lips.

“Keith’s gonna love this,” he said happily.  Hunk grinned.

“Ooh, KeiTh’S gOnNa LoVE tHis,” he mocked, batting his eyelashes.

“Shut up!  You know what I think of Keith.  He’s an obnoxious, angsty jerk – however, he is my rival and fellow paladin,” Lance huffed defensively, not sure why he was so in denial over it.

“Right. You do realize that you told me, right?  But sure… it’s totally normal to want to make your rival a cake…” Hunk mumbled.

“Obviously. How is that not normal?  I could care less about his stupid mullet and his gorgeous eyes…” Lance rambled as Pidge silently walked into the room.  He looked suddenly up as her bright green hoodie broke his concentration.  She smirked smugly, high-fiving Hunk in triumph.

“Called it,” she said, not a single ounce of surprise in her voice.

“What?” Lance asked.

“Do you not hear yourself when you talk?  Honestly, you two are the most clueless people I’ve met in my life!  All you do is pine when you’re not together, and all you do is argue when you are.  Please just save that poor boy from his misery,” she sighed, skeptically glancing at Lance’s decorations.  Lance huffed and stuck his nose in the air.  He set down the piping bag on the table and admired his work, far too pleased with himself.

“Done! Who needs a bakery when you can get ya boi Lance on the job?” he grinned.

Hunk and Pidge stared at it blankly, not sure what to say.  They didn’t want to stomp all over his happy mood, but there was something most definitely wrong with the cake.  Let’s just say that one of them would have to break the news that cake-decorating may not be in his future.  Hunk slapped his palm against his forehead.  Pidge bit her lip, trying to hold back a giggle.  Lance looked at both of them after a moment of awkward silence.  It had not been the reaction he’d been looking for.

He looked slowly down at the cake.  His complexion drained to a shade that Hunk did not think possible his tan face could reach.  He looked slowly back at his two friends.  Then back to the cake.  It was as if the castle was crumbling down around him and his feet were plastered to the ground.  He wanted to scream.

“HOW THE QUIZNAK DID I MANAGE THAT?!?!?!!” he screeched.

Staring in disbelief at the cake, Lance was assaulted by the offensive red lettering.  It now read, in very shaky handwriting, “Happy Birth.” Even worse than the ironic message were the questionable red hearts surrounding it.

Pidge lost it.  She bust out laughing, gripping onto Hunk’s shoulder for support.  Hunk couldn’t breathe.

“Ha-happy birth,” she wheezed.  “Such heart.”

“Shut up!!! I blame you guys!  You were distracting me,” Lance said sulkily, glaring.  “I want to re-do it.”

“NO!!! It’s way too perfect. Anyway, we don’t have enough time,” Pidge said, a little out of breath.  “I originally came in cuz Shiro sent me to see if you guys were done.  He needs help wrapping a gift or something, and he needs to decorate the dining room.”

“WHAT?!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I can’t give him this!” Lance screamed, on the verge of a mental breakdown.

“C'mon, it’s not that bad.  I actually think he’ll appreciate it,” Pidge reassured him.  “At least you tried.  And it’ll taste great anyway!”

“That’s because Hunk made it.  I can’t do anything,” Lance mumbled quietly.

“Looks like someone’s thoughts were occupied with a certain birthday boy,” Hunk grinned, not hearing Lance’s last comment.  “C'mon, let’s go help Shiro.”

Lance looked down despairingly at his decorating failure one last time before following Hunk and Pidge, wishing that he had drawn anything other than little hearts in that stupid red icing that turned out to be more permanent than ink.


A depressing groan met them from Shiro’s room.  He was surrounded by a sea of crumpled paper and large leaves from the strange bushes outside.

“Uh… I got Lance,” Pidge announced their arrival, gently pushing Lance forward.

“Hey! What’s going on?” Lance asked, looking back disgruntledly at Pidge.

“I – I’ve been trying for hours.  I can’t wrap to save my life,” Shiro sighed.

“Why would you need to be able to rap?  I mean, if that’s what you called me for, I guess that I can try…” Lance asked, confused.

“I need to wrap a gift!  I made him a new sheath for for Keith’s blade, and the leaves from that bush outside make good enough wrapping paper for space,” Shiro explained.

“Ohhhh, I get it.  Wow, you mean there’s something the Great Shiro can’t do?” Lance laughed, walking over to where his friend sat in denial. “Whoa,” he said, peering into the box containing the leather sheath.  “This is incredible!  You mean to say that you can sew like this but you can’t wrap a gift?”

“I can’t do everything, Lance,” he shrugged.

“Don’t worry, I’m an expert at this,” Lance assured him, folding the giant leaf’s corner over the edge of the box.  Finally.  Something I can do, he thought.  “I have a big family,” he smiled.

“Thank you.  You’re a lifesaver,” Shiro smiled, standing up.  Lance beamed “Hey, how’d the cake go?”

The short-lived smile fell from his face in an instant.  Lance groaned. “Don’t ask,” he said, finishing the parcel.  Oh no, he thought.  I have to find a gift for Keith somehow!

“It can’t be that bad,” Shiro said, frowning.

“Oh, it’s that bad,” Pidge snickered.  Shiro tried not to smile. “Pidge, Hunk, can you start decorating the dining room?  I’ll be there in a moment.”

“Sure!” Pidge agreed, pulling Hunk along behind her, who winked at Lance.

Shiro looked down at Lance.  “Could you go check on Keith for me for a minute?  Make sure he’s still busy,” he said.

“Oh – uh… sure,” Lance mumbled.  “What should I tell him?”

“I’m sure you’ll think of something.  He just needs a distraction, and I don’t want him to spend his day entirely alone,” Shiro said, walking towards the door.  “And Lance – you need to have a little more confidence in yourself.  And don’t worry,” he added.  Lance’s brow furrowed in confusion.  Don’t worry? He watched as Shiro walked out the door.  What could he have meant by that?  He sighed, trying to think of something that could distract Keith from leaving his assigned cell – his room.  He could feel the heat flooding to his face already.  He had to tell him sooner or later.  But it could wait for a while longer.

His thoughts were interrupted by an outburst of laughter from the dining room.  Apparently Shiro had seen the cake.


Lance knocked softly on the door to Keith’s room.  What could he tell him?  There was a moment of silence before the door slid open to reveal Keith, graphite covering his hand and smudged on his cheek.

“Oh – Lance,” Keith said, standing awkwardly.  Lance wasn’t sure that any of the paladins, except possibly Shiro, had been in his room. The only time Lance had ever seen it was when he had sought Keith out, confronting him about his worries of having six paladins.  “Come in,” he said, gesturing into the room.

It was organized, but a little cluttered at the same time.  There were detailed drawings covering the walls which he hadn’t noticed before, and a sketchbook was laying open on his bed, a pencil resting in between the pages.

“Did you need something?” Keith asked, trying to lift the silence.

“Oh, uh, I wanted to tell you…” Lance took a deep breath.  He ran his fingers through his hair.  Maybe he should just say it.  How bad could it be?

“Happy birthday!” Lance blurted out suddenly.  “Shiro told me,” he explained quickly, noting Keith’s surprise.

“Oh… thanks,” Keith muttered awkwardly, running his own fingers through his hair.  That was stupid, Lance thought.  “Really, thank you,” he repeated, noticing Lance’s silence.  Lance wondered if he had been the first one to tell him that today.

“Can I ask you… is there something wrong?” Keith asked.

“What? No!  No, what would make you think that?” Lance laughed nervously.

“First of all, usually you never shut up, and now I can’t get you to speak. Second of all, the only time you’ve ever deliberately sought me out was when you were genuinely concerned about something,” Keith said.

“Hey! I -” Lance started, crossing his arms, but Keith interrupted him.

“I didn’t actually mean that as an insult, I just…” Keith mimicked Lance’s movement subconsciously.  Neither of them could take the awkwardness of the current situation.  “I wanted to make sure nothing was upsetting you.”

The only thing upsetting me is how blind you are and how much I want to pull you closer to me by that stupid mullet, Lance thought, frustrated.

“No. I just wanted to say happy birthday,” he said again.  “I didn’t realize you drew so much,” he changed the subject, gesturing to the drawings surrounding them.

“Yeah, art was the only thing that was ever constant in my life,” Keith said quietly, stepping in front of the wall almost as if to block his view from something.  “It was something I could always fall back on.  I’m almost out of paper now.”

“You’re really good,” Lance said, recognizing some of the sketches as planets they had been on or aliens they’d met.

“Thanks,” Keith looked down, evidently unsure how to take a compliment.  Lance was infuriated by his adorable, soft expression.  An idea sparked in Lance’s mind.  He should leave.

“You’ve got some graphite on your cheek,” Lance grinned.  Keith automatically raised a hand to his face, pointing to his cheek.

“Here?”

“Higher.”

“Here?”

“Higher.”

Keith raised his hand again, but Lance pushed it away, leaning closer and reaching towards Keith’s face, gently rubbing at the smudge on his cheek.

He wanted to pull his hand back.  That was a bad plan – his hand was cradling Keith’s face, and it would only take one small motion to pull him closer.

“Something has been bothering me,” he said quietly, hand still holding Keith’s face.  He had made his decision, and there was no backing out now. “But I’m not sure that you’ll like it.”

“Try me,” Keith whispered.  That was it.  Lance.  Couldn’t.  Take.  It. Any.  Longer.

He pulled Keith towards him, kissing him gently, one hand still holding his face, the other running through his hair, spreading through the soft, dark mullet he had longed to feel for too long.  Keith’s lips were chapped, but soft against his own.  He pulled away after just a moment longer, hating to end the moment but afraid to go any further.
Neither spoke for a moment, and Lance’s heart was pounding so hard in his throat that he couldn’t even swallow.  He couldn’t relax his tense body until he saw Keith smile.

“The smudge is still there,” Lance dared to joke, a laugh tugging at his lips.

“I don’t care,” Keith grinned, pressing his lips against Lance’s.  A warm hand pulled his body in, and another tugged the loop of his jeans, yanking his hips closer.  Lance reveled in the moment, letting Keith take the lead this time, drinking in every detail.  The taste of his lips, the warmth of his body, the desperate undertone in his movements.  Keith kissed Lance just like he did everything else: dangerously and without thinking.  And Lance loved it.  Pidge was right; there was no one quite as clueless as them.  Shiro was right; he didn’t have to worry – not about rejection anyway.  The only thing he had to worry about in this moment with his lips against Keith’s and his tight heart pounding furiously against his chest was that, after all he’d survived so far, Keith might be the death of him.  But that wasn’t such a bad way to die.


Quite a while after Lance had come knocking on Keith’s door to distract him, (which he felt he did a very good job of), he had rushed back to his room to try and put together his idea.  It had taken a lot of time, a lot of careful planning, and a lot of paper, but he finally had a product he was pleased with.  He hastily wrapped his gift and tucked it safely under his arm.  It was finally time.

Hours later, Lance once again found himself outside of Keith’s door.  But this time he knew exactly what he was doing.  He knocked, more confidently now.  The door slid open and Keith beamed.

“Lance,” he greeted him.  He looked happier than he had for a long time.

“I have something for you,” Lance said, stepping inside and thrusting the small parcel in his direction.

“You didn’t have to-” Keith started, taking it.  He glanced at Lance, then back to the parcel and gently unwrapped it.  He stared at it for a moment, unsure of what to say.  The purple cover had a delicate engraving of two constellations on it: Cancer and Scorpio.  He opened it carefully, flipping through the blank white pages.

“You said you were almost out of paper,” Lance mumbled, looking down.

“It’s beautiful – thank you Lance,” Keith said, reaching up to gently kiss his cheek.  Heat flooded to Lance’s face and he looked determinedly at the wall ahead of him.

“Hey,” he said, grinning, taking note of the drawings that Keith had carefully covered before.  “Did you draw me?”

“Shut up,” Keith said, faking annoyance.  Lance smirked flirtatiously.

“C'mon, we have a surprise for you.”  Lance led a confused Keith out of the room by his hand, finally okay with the permanent red hearts on the cake.


“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!” the whole crew shouted as Lance pulled Keith into the dining room.  Keith stood in shock, completely speechless.  A banner was hanging (slightly unevenly) from the wall behind the table. Confetti and small parcels covered the table and a cake sat in the middle of it all.

“Hunk and Lance made a cake for you!” Pidge said excitedly.

Keith blinked, unsure how to react or what to say.  He had never really celebrated his birthday, because he had no one to celebrate it with. He blinked back stinging tears, determined not to cry.  He felt uncomfortable with everyone’s eyes on him – being the center of attention was not a familiar feeling.  “Thank you, everyone.”

As they all sat around the table, Keith began to feel more comfortable with the situation, now that they weren’t staring only at him.  He looked at the cake and suddenly burst out laughing.

Lance smiled.  He hadn’t seen Keith laugh this hard in a while.

“Happy Birth?!!”  he gasped.  “Much celebrate.”  Lance laughed too this time.  Everything was okay.  Keith turned to look at him for just a moment, smiling.

“Happy birth, Keith,” he said lovingly.

“Thank,” Keith beamed back.

Father IV

Read part one here

Read the story on ao3 here


Dried black ink spelled out words on lila ministry parchment. Harry stared at them, let his eyes follow the lines and if anyone would have entered his private quarters at that moment they would have thought he was reading.

But he wasn’t.

He felt like it would be a long time before he could do anything else than sit there, completely frozen. His brain was trying very hard not to let the words sink in.

Because he could not deal with the consequences of the ministry letter. His mind was blank but at the same time racing out of control. His breathing became heavier and faster as his body shut down. His hands were shaking.

Dear mr. Potter,

Below follows the statement of prisoner 394, Lucius Malfoy, who made use of the law for case revision, paragraph seven, rule nine, the right to contact witnesses when the prosecutor has reason to believe new information is of influence on the statement of said witness.

Below follows the message of prisoner 394.

Dear mr. Potter,

It has come to my attention that you have pledged in favour of the release my son during his trial ten years ago. It has also come to my attention that I never gave you my condolences for the death of your godfather, Sirius Black.

These things have in common that both involve my son. I do not ask you to withdraw your pledge for him, I am merely providing you with certain information because you have the right to know and my son will never tell you this. He only shows you the parts of him that he wants you to see.

On the night of the seventeenth of june 1996, one day before the ordeal in the ministry that cost Sirius Black his life, The Dark Lord received a letter. It was a letter written by my son, who judging by the tone of his words seemed upset with you, mr. Potter. It explained in length what your weak spot might be, and how He could benefit from that in the best way.

The biggest part of what happened that fatal night was carefully planned out by the man you have started to call your friend. Of course he will deny ever having written this letter, but I have proof. A copy of said proof can be found in the envelope in which this letter came. I do not doubt your ability to recognize the handwriting.

Draco Malfoy might have led you to believe not all Slytherins are evil, but as you can see that is a bit rich coming from him.

I leave what you will do with this information to your own judgement. I hope you make the right decision this time. I need not to remind you that lives are at stake.

Sincerely, Lucius Malfoy

This statement has been approved by the Ministry of Magic, department of Magical Law Enforcement, subdivision Prison Correspondence

Harry didn’t know how he gathered the strength to look into the envelope again but somehow he did and to his horror he indeed found another piece of parchment. The letter was unmistakably written and signed by one Draco Lucius Malfoy on the seventeenth of june 1996.

He was going to be sick.


I have told Potter what you did and left it up to him what he will do about it. As I have tried to teach you before, if you misbehave you have to deal with the consequences. It’s only fair.

Sincerely

your father, who raised you to do what is best for the family. Remember what you are.

It was the second line that sent a shiver down Draco’s spine and not the first, though the first shattered his last hope of a normal life and the second just reminded him of what used to be. Briefly the memory of pain came back to him, his skin feeling as if the wounds were still there.

It brought him back to his childhood, made him feel like a bad behaving kid again, who had to be punished. Or rather, like his childhood self after having been punished. Every nerve ending in his body was on fire with the memory of his past.

It was why Draco sat on top of his king size bed again, a letter clutched in his hands, silent tears streaming down his face. But Harry wouldn’t enter with a steaming mug of tea this time, wouldn’t hug him or tell him all would be okay. Because the possibility of everything being okay had never been further away than now.

He allowed his thoughts to go over his memories of Harry one last time. Their first kiss a few hours ago, the many kisses that followed. He wanted to burn the picture of Harry’s gentle smile in his mind. The look on his face when he broke their kiss, the spark in his eyes as he smiled and kissed him again, the sweet nothing he whispered in Draco’s ear when he saw his hands were shaking.

“Don’t be nervous Draco. Like I said, I’m not going anywhere.”

Another shiver went down his spine as he tried to say those words out loud. They got stuck in his throat halfway through.

He was not capable of picturing Harry’s face anymore without seeing hatred in his green eyes. The Harry in Draco’s mind despised him, as the real Harry probably did too now.

Draco couldn’t blame him, he probably hated himself even more than Harry did.


Ronald Weasley had a bad feeling about this, about all of it. He was the first one to admit he’d thought Draco might have ulterior motives for doing what he did, for turning into a good person, but these accusations were ridiculous. Draco Malfoy the evil mastermind who used torture and abuse to drive his parents into the hands of You Know Who?

He didn’t buy it. He didn’t buy it for one second.

Still, Lucius Malfoy had the right to reopen his case and as standard procedure that meant securing the suspects connected to it. For people marked as dangerous individuals such as Draco that entailed being brought in. It was why Ron was currently knocking on the door of his private quarters.

“Don’t knock on his door, just blow it out of it’s hinges. This is a death eater we’re talking about Weasley.” Ron let out an angry sigh. He got sick to his stomach when he saw how much hatred some people still felt towards Draco.

“Ex-death eater, and he’s only a suspect not a convict.”

“Whatever. In my opinion they all deserve to rot in Azkaban for the rest of their lives.” Ron’s bulky, broad shouldered auror partner threw the door open. He immediately fixated his eyes on Draco. The blond man was sitting on his bed, quickly trying to wipe away his tears.

“Crying for your mummy already ferret face? Don’t get yourself worked up too much or the dementors won’t have any happiness left to eat!” And he laughed loud and long, like he’d just made the best joke of the century.

“Get a grip on yourself Smith, it’s just a holding cell.” Ron tried not to look Draco in the eye as he walked towards the man and pulled out his prisoner binders, a variation on handcuffs. He could only imagine how awkward it must be for the man to be arrested by his former classmate and house rival. Ron’s attempt was so successful, he didn’t even notice how upset Draco was.

“I really am sorry for this Malfoy. It’s standard procedure when people with a certain history are suspect in a high profile case.” His words were genuine.

“Don’t apologize! He deserves everything that’s coming to him, that filthy…”

“Don’t make me pull rank on you Smith. One more word and you’ll be on desk duty for the next five months.” Ron glared at his partner. It wouldn’t be his first time punishing a lower ranked colleague for behaviour like this. They didn’t seem to grasp the idea that people could change and that not everything was a matter of black or white, good or evil.

Smith grumbled something and got Draco ready to floo to the ministry. Up until that moment the man had been silent, but when Smith pushed him into the green transportation flames he opened his mouth. “Could you tell Harry to think about the planning? Because it doesn’t make sense.”

Ron could hear Draco’s voice was shaking, and looking into his grey eyes he saw the man was terrified. However Draco was swallowed by the floo before Ron could ask him what this cryptic message meant.

He hoped it didn’t matter much, because his shift was nearly over and he wouldn’t be back at work for at least a week. He and Hermione were in dire need of some personal time together.

Before stepping into the floo himself he saw a scrap of parchment on the floor. Curiously he picked it up.

I have told Potter what you did and left it up to him what he will do about it. As I have tried to teach you before, if you misbehave you have to deal with the consequences. It’s only fair.

Sincerely

your father, who raised you to do what is best for the family. Remember what you are.

“Remember what you are?” Ron muttered to himself. What the hell was that supposed to mean? And what had Lucius told Harry?


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badboy!vernon

Originally posted by sneezes

author’s note: hi yeah sorry for re-uploading this. switched blogs. 

  • meet vernon, or by his korean name, hansol
  • so he was born in new york for a few years until he moved back to korea where the rest of his father’s family resided
  • unfortunately, due to his bi-racial ancestry he was often ostracized by the other kids
  • many of them called him rude slurs with little knowledge of what it all meant
  • they even made fun of his appearance
  • often questioning why he looked so different from them
  • this kind of treatment made him stand out in a way that he hated and as he grew older he developed an apathetic approach to it all
  • instead of letting them bully him, he fought back
  • often with words or fists
  • and from those altercations, he was sent to the office…. a lot
  • always reprimanded and told to do better, he really began to dislike school so he ended up ditching a lot
  • his parents weren’t quite sure what to do with him and actually considered moving back to the states and they did for a few years until vernon decided to move back for college
  • he did exceptionally well in the u.s. but still had the same indifferent attitude to anything else but his family and music
  • for him, music became an outlet
  • it allowed him to express himself freely without the backlash of others telling him what he did was wrong and that he didn’t belong bc for once he did belong
  • by the time he reached college, he dyed his hair black bc he was sick of the blond jokes and eventually he discovered the underground rap battle scene thanks to his classmate mingyu who later introduced him to his bff wonwoo and then seungcheol
  • the four of them hung out a LOT bc of their love for music and formed a mini rap group after they composed and wrote a song together
  • it was a mini cypher about their hardships and it turned out so effin’ good that seungcheol managed to get them a slot at the underground rap showcase
  • (this differs only bc you show what you got then participate in battles lw like an audition bc the people decide)
  • and well they made it
  • everyone thought the cypher was a hit and a bop
  • for once…. vernon felt accepted
  • he’s happier now with his friends but his reputation still speaks for him sometimes and on those occasions he’s grown not to care so much
  • a lot of the times he’ll stay in the music practice room just jamming out
  • especially if he’s created something that he really wants to share with the rest of the guys
  • bc you see he’s still trying to get comfortable with everyone else
  • trying to keep his place among them
  • bc he’s developed this idea that if he isn’t good enough then they’ll leave or forget about him or something cuz he’s not fully korean or fully american he’s in an odd in between where he has no other place to go other than that middle
  • aND ANYWAY
  • bc he practices a lot in the music room, he’s there a lot
  • you notice this the times you’re passing between the music wing
  • of course, you don’t say anything or attempt to go inside since you really have no reason to but there’s something about him that really catches your eye
  • maybe it’s the way his eyes are close and he’s spewing words that you can’t hear
  • but the way he mouths come flows so smoothly and eloquently, you’re really tempted to listen
  • and plus he’s so freaking beautiful like jfc
  • the strong jawline and beautifully smooth features
  • once you saw his eyes open and they looked like so sad… so somber and so deeply filled with unspoken emotion that you actually wished to get to know him
  • but again too scared
  • FATE HAS A PLAN FOR U THO
  • so ur friend needs to use the practice room but she’s wayyyyy too scared to talk to vernon and ask
  • so she’s asks you to do it bc you’re usually brave and courageous
  • like you’re no stranger to calling someone out when they’re being an asshole
  • or how you kneed someone in the groin when that person got a lil (ok a lot) and then you ran off with the rest of your friends after that
  • so overall you’re a badass ok
  • and she needs you to do her this solid
  • so you’re like ‘ok yknow what it won’t hurt whateves’
  • that day as youre approaching the practice room, you peer inside to see him at the piano and you’re like ??? bc every time you’ve seen him he’s at least on the stage or somethin
  • and you knock softly and see him stir just a lil but he kinda ignores you bc he’s jammin (in reality he’s actually working on the melody for this new song on his bi-racial ancestry)
  • and man you end up going inside bc you’re friend starts texting you and you feel hella bad about making her wait and interrupting him
  • so once you go inside, he turns to look over at you and you almost freeze
  • almost
  • because he just looks at you with curiosity and confusion bc “??? cute person why are they in here???”
  • can i just drop in that vernon’s actually really shy with girls
  • like you’d think he’s a fuckboy or somethin but NOPE
  • he’s just a lil pink in the cheeks and you kinda stutter like “u-uh hi um my friend really needs to use the practice room and it’s her time and and and yeah sorry thatsongisreallyprettybtw”
  • and he gets a lil embarrassed and omg it’s really cute bc he’s supposed to be a bad boy
  • but this bad ass is just really flustered that you actually talked to him
  • cuz ngl he’s seen you once or twice in passing but he’s never been brave enough to wave or smile at you and it’s just- wow he never thought he’d have the chance to
  • and it kinda registers in his brain that you liked his playing and he goes “oh -um- thank you!” before he just leaves and you’re not sure how to feel or to make of the whole thing but man he’s so freakin attractive with his lw rough voice and you just think about him even more than you already did
  • it isn’t until maybe another week or two when you guys interact but that’s only cuz he stopped in during your session in the practice room with your friend cuz she told you she’d teach you and thinks to himself ‘wow they’re so cute and not too bad for a beginner’
  • and then you squeak a lil seeing him bc he chuckles when you mess up a lil and he’s like “sorry but you’re time’s up” and you and ur friend get embarrassed and apologize
  • he’s look straight at u he says “it’s ok see u around”
  • indeed he does bc one day when he gets especially upset bc someone in his history class starts shitting on bi-racial people and he gets so mad that he doesn’t bother fighting him he just up and leaves
  • instead of going to the practice room, he makes it about halfway near one of your classroom buildings for like cultural studies (so you know how marginalized anyone that isn’t korean is in korea and it upsets u literally anything about cultural and systematic racism sets in a raging tizzy where you will educate anyone that tries to spew hate)
  • and you see him
  • you see how he’s on the verge of frustrated tears and he nearly punches a hole in the wall when you say ‘fuck it i’ma ask him if he’s good’ and you approach him carefully
  • “heyy, you ok?”
  • and he blinks in surprise and looks at you and he actually forgets to feel shy bc he shakes his head but he doesn’t tell you to leave so you take that as a sign to just y’know stay there and let him know that you’re there for him and if he needs to let off some venting steam then you’re all open ears like you dont care if you’re missing philosophy rn this guy needs someone
  • so he tells you everything and he seemingly lets you in on what that dude said and you get so upset WITH him and it make you really mad and you go on a hude tangent about how the inequality of others and systematic racism needs to be broken bc everyone’s a fucking human who deserves to be treated equal and he’s like… in awe
  • no one’s ever gotten that worked up on his behalf besides his parents so someone finally like acknowledging that makes him really glad that he talked to you
  • and you guys end up at a cafe, just talking about everything bc you want him to feel better and he starts to cuz you’re beginning to take his mind off his original upset and the peppermint hot cocoa you ordered for you two and he’s like
  • “i really want to repay you’
  • and you brush it off like “nah it’s no biggie”
  • but he’s like “no srsly pls like you really helped me i insist”
  • and ahhh you relent bc he’s looking at you with lw pouty puppy dog eyes and just wow you get accustomed to hanging out with vernon and eventually exchanging numbers and stuff
  • every time y’all go out he’ll be like “i got it” and ur like “but you got it last time” and he’s like “i haven’t repaid you yet”
  • and it goes on like this for some time when you’re like “verNON CMON WHEN HAVE YOU REPAID ME”
  • and he’s like ….never
  • and you huff so he laughs a lil and is like “ok how about this? i can teach you piano and we’ll call it even then”
  • and so he teaches you ho to play piano and it’s maybe the second or third session when you two are just laughing and playing notes when you both just turn to look at each other at a moment when it grows a lil quiet
  • and
  • you
  • guys
  • just
  • kiss
  • it’s so soft and chaste but it feels so nice and right and he pulls away with very pink cheeks and almost apologizes if it isn’t for you shushing him with a peck and you’re like “that… that was nice”
  • and he goes “can we… do that some more?”
  • that basically establishes your relationship bc you’re both constantly hanging around one another and it just feels right man. it just goes so well bc you understand him and that really makes him feel like he’ll never be able to repay you
  • (and he’s constantly being so supportive and sweet with you and on the occasion he can be a teasing lil shit by pretending he doesn’t hear you when he’s playing piano until you give him a kiss and just aw)
  • whenever he gets upset, he goes to you and his friends actually notice just how happy he’s been nowadays like there’s no longer this dark looming cloud over him and he’s beginning to grow more and more confident in his abilities bc of your encouragement and support
  • you should see how grateful seungcheol is for you and mingyu and wonwoo they are genuinely grateful for you supporting and lovin their homie
  • and ok so he shows you that one song that really represents the heartaches and hardships he faced growing up and you’re damn near in tears bc this man really felt ostracized from other kids and it makes you even more passionate about advocating for the tear down of systematic racism
  • and that’s when he just realizes just how much he loves you
  • gosh, he loves how whole you make him feel and he makes sure you know it
  • “i love you, you know that right?”
  • he suddenly says this during your piano lessons
  • and you blink but you casually say, “I know. i love you too”
  • and he just nuzzles your neck and his voice a lil deep and raspy and hah this leads to a lw heated make out sesh until you get kicked out by someone wanting to use the practice room next lmao
  • and so y’all go off to your room since your roommate is out
  • and y’all do some things ya feel like it’s not fast or rushed it’s quite sweet and passionate bc vernon really wants to please you and appreciate you bc a part of him is so freakin scared that you’re too good to be true and you might just disappear before his eyes
  • but you show him and make him understand that you’re there to stay
  • the moments after you do it, you kinda just lay there for a bit and cuddle bc luckily your roomie is like “i’ma be out for the night peaceeeee” and ok
  • back to laying with vernon you both just talk your lil hearts out bc it feels so right to air out any grievances and when he tells you his fears
  • you kiss his knuckles and look up at him and just say “i’m here and i will continue to be ok??”
  • and he just looks at you so lovingly and gratefully and he pulls you into a tight embrace and says “i don’t think i’ll ever be able to repay you…. ever”
  • and you smile and just KO like that
  • so remember that beautiful rap about his indifferences? well you convince him to perform it at the underground showcase
  • and for once
  • he does it
  • the crowd went WILD & the rest of the boys were like “OwO” bc it’s one of the first time they actually hear everything that’s vernon’s been stowing away and bc of you
  • oh glorious you
  • you help him open up more and find comfort in his friends and trust them bc they’re so effin supportive and so are you and gosh
  • he truly feels whole and at peace with his identity
  • and ok the swell of pride and happiness he has for you whenever someone wants to make an ignorant comment about him is always countered with your defensive lecture and sometimes he has to drag you away before you can completely annihilate their ignorant asses
  • and ahhh it’s just so effin beautiful
  • y’all are just the most supportive couple of one another and so down for each other
  • he never laughs if you mess up on a piano note and he kisses you and hugs you and keeps you safe
  • it’s so presh
  • even mingyu is like “(’’’’’’: i ship it” and i’m p sure we all do
Deity!Seventeen AU - Hoshi, God Of Festivities

Author’s note- I’ve actually planned out an entire au for like,,,which gods all of seventeen would be, so if you wanna see more for any reason just send me an ask for who you’d like to see lmao

  • Hoshi is one of the most well known gods
  • Each god has a festival dedicated to them during a day in the year, and Hoshi’s is the most grand
  • Think Mardi Gras in New Orleans
  • The streets get completely decked out in decorations and lights, people set up food stalls and knick knack tables, along with game booths and more
  • Its the WHOLE SHABANG
  • He usually just improves the overall mood of any celebration, like even for a little kid’s tiny birthday party he makes sure that each person involved is having as much fun as possible
  • He’s one of the gods most heavily associated with humans and because of that he’s one of the most revered/loved
  • Even if he doesn’t show himself often, people can often sense his presence when he’s watching over a celebration because it can go from boring and borderline awkward to downright jovial
  • And now to you
  • You had always liked the annual festivals for the gods
  • They always had special food and games and when you were younger you had memories of winning prizes and goldfish from the lil game stalls (you still had some of the stuffed animals lining your shelves in your room)
  • But,,,at the same time,,festivals were meant to be spent with many people
  • So while you had always loved the festivities,,this year you were…,disappointed
  • Because of some Typical School Drama, you had found yourself friendless, which was a kick to the teeth on its own, but now you couldn’t even attend the year’s biggest event because you were too scared of seeming like a loser by going by yourself
  • You had actually planned for this to be the one time in your life you missed Soonyoung’s festival,,even though it had always been your favorite, simply because you didn’t want to embarrass yourself
  • But your parents downright refused
  • They wouldn’t accept any excuse for you to miss you favorite time out of the year,,,,so, that’s how you found yourself in the town square, alone just outside of the crowd and surrounded by glowing lanterns and laughter
  • And okay it was…,, just a bit heartbreaking
  • Here you were, at the festival that you had made so many good memories at every year,,but you almost wanted to cry because you were all alone and apart from everyone else who were having fun and enjoying every aspect of the party with their loved ones and friends
  • Meanwhile, Soonyoung had sensed something was up
  • He’s a god of festivities so of course he naturally has a perfect read of the emotions swirling in the air around him, especially at the festival dedicated to him
  • And he had been enjoying himself for the most part; he didn’t directly attend his own celebration in human form seeing as Jihoon had told him it was an exceedingly bad idea (Jihoon: if you show up in your physical form you’re gonna end up getting yourself drunk and making a repeat of the festival in 1838   hoshi: but that wasn’t that bad-   jihoon: you caught a food stall on fire. Four times   hoshi: ,,,fine), so he decided to just watch over it
  • And then,,,apart from all the emotions of joy and fun,,,there was something else
  • Disappointment, withdrawal, and overwhelming sadness,, all emanating from you who had resigned themself to a bench just outside of the town square
  • And in true hoshi spur-of-the-moment fashion, he decided to say screw it to Jihoon’s warning and made his way to you
  • You had been scrolling through your phone, refreshing the same four apps and your mood only worsening because apparently every single social media page was overflowing with pictures of the festival. The same festival in which you were alone at and you weren’t going to cry about it even though your eyes were definitely burning and you really wanted to cry because hell this was pathetic-
  • But then suddenly someone was sitting next to you and leaning forwards so they were in your line of sight
  • And even worse it was a cute boy and fuck your eyes were probably red and hell you looked so stupid maybe he wanted to tell you it was pathetic that you were here all alone and you knew that he wouldn’t and that it was just your mind fucking with you but what if-
  • But he simply asked if you were enjoying the festival with a soft smile on his face
  • (you weren’t sure what it was about him because usually that question in this scenario would,,,upset you more because cmon of COURSE you weren’t enjoying it but. Somehow you felt comforted)
  • So you just answer with a shrug and look down at your feet, saying,,,well not really because..,,, its no fun when you’re alone
  • And you nearly jump out of your skin when he grabs your hand and pulls you to your feet, flashing you a beaming smile as he starts pulling you back towards the crowd and hes like well good thing you aren’t alone anymore!!! Cmon what do you want to do? let’s buy some food!!
  • Part of you is really freaked out because wtf you don’t even know this guy why are you letting this happen ??? but another part,,,,a much larger part,,,is kinda happy??? Like this guy had seen you were upset and was trying to cheer you up and his eyes were so genuine,,,,,,plus he was really cute
  • He was also buying you food how could you say no
  • Somehow being around him was making you forget about all the drama that had hung over you before
  • But wait shit you dont even know his name whoops better ask for that
  • And so u ask and,,,when he replies with Hoshi ur like okay thats really cute omg but like internally because you’d prolly jump off a bridge if you said that out loud
  • Him: thank you!!! I’d say your name is cute too but i don’t know it
  • You internally: time to jump oFF A BRIGE
  • You externally: its y/n haha :))) didn’t mean to say that out loud but y’KnOw
  • Next thing you know hes ruffling your hair and hes like i was right!!!!! It is a super cute name good thing we match huh?
  • Ur 100% blushing
  • And Hoshi just leads you around the festival, keeping conversation flowing so easily that you wonder for a moment if this is actually happening because?? Here’s this absolutely gorgeous boy seemingly with a heart of pure GOLD and hes??? Listening to you attentively and following up your dumb jokes and jesus christ he’s so extra but in like,,,the good way
  • like ,,,at one of the game stalls he was just like BET YOU 20 BUCKS I CAN WIN THE GIANT HAMSTER PLUSHIE and ur like BET YOU 20 BUCKS YOU CANT
  • And of course hoshi doesn’t like losing so he might have used his godly powers just a bit,,,and you’re like damn oh well a bet’s a bet and you’re digging money out of your pocket and normally he’d GLADLY take money but
  • ,,,this time he couldn’t accept it because hell he was trying to help you have fun and he wasn’t accepting offerings rn, so he was just like nono that’s fine actually here have the hamster-
  • And youre like but we made a bet
  • Him: hmm,,,,right,,how about you give me a smile instead?
  • The GREASE
  • But Hell u were NOT expecting that and you feel your face getting hot and hes just like woahhh cuTE and you’re like HUSH GIVE ME A SECOND
  • And after going around the festival,,, Hoshi buying you snacks you looked at for longer than a second,,winning you cheap game stall prizes and even a bag of goldfish,,,you couldn’t help but think that somehow this had become one of the best festivals you’ve ever been to
  • Not a moment had passed where you weren’t having fun or smiling and you knew that it was all thanks to Hoshi
  • And so you were just a bit reluctant to head back home, even when the last firework show had ended and your mom told you to start heading back over text,,,you just wanted this to last forever
  • But you tell hoshi that you have to head home,, and he does look a bit sad but hes like ill walk you home!! And you joke like what do u just wanna see me more lmao and hes like yeah of course???
  • Cue you almost choking on air because Hell what the Fu k that was too genuine sounding what is this????? Feeling??? No none of that in this house
  • You cough to hide the flustered noise you made,,,and then you were walking in the direction of your house, a bag of goldfish held carefully in your arms and with Hoshi walking next to you and talking excitedly about his friend Woozi
  • You: woozi? That’s a cute name
  • Him: yeah but hoshi’s cuter isnt it
  • You: i dunno-
  • Him: HOSHI’S CUTER ISNT IT
  • And ur like yes yes hoshi is a cuter name,,in fact this fish is gonna be called hoshi
  • Soonyoung is screaming inside like wtf,,,,this human is so cute,,,and he kinda starts feeling bad that he probably won’t ever see you again,,
  • Unless-
  • (somewhere in the distance, Jihoon has begun screaming)
  • UNLESS
  • Out of nowhere, he just bursts out IM A GOD
  • You: sure sure ur a god of the game booths like you won every single-
  • But hes like NO IM SERIOUS im sOONYOUNG and ur like lmao alright but hes like pouting because wth!!!!!
  • And you just adjust the goldfish bag and ur like sure id believe you if you did something godly lmao
  • And of course you were just joking because cmon,,,,you believe in the gods but seriously?? The god of Festivities taking a human form just to cheer you up? You weren’t that special-
  • But then he coughs to get you attention anD WHAT THE FUCK IS HE FLOATING
  • You trip over your own feet in fuckin shock because wait are you SERIOUS the actual god of festivities sHOWED HIMSELF TO YOU TO CHEER YOU UP WHAT
  • And hes just casually like i told you!!! And you can’t really retort because there’s your house but you also wanna fuck with him,,,like just a bit because,,,,,it was really funny when he was upset that you didn’t believe him
  • So you’re just like ok so you can float??? Big Whoop only a Real God could summon forty pounds of gold right here right now
  • Him: NO GOD CAN DO THAT
  • You: god??? More like con
  • He’s screaming inside but you just nudge his shoulder and say jokingly “hey ill believe you’re a god if you go to prom with me”
  • But it turned on you because he was like OKAY SURE like rIGHt away and youre like wAIt-
  • He just asks for when it is and what to wear and ur,,,,gonna ride this good luck train because hell you weren’t gonna have a friend to go with anyways so?? Why not ?? plus ur kinda like,,,its not like hes gonna actually do it anyways like??
  • He’s probably gonna forget about you after he goes to wherever gods go,,,right?
  • Anyways,,you go into your house and before you close the door he just says “see you later!!” and ur like haha sure ok bye
  • And ur mom is like :))) did you have a good time??? Aren’t you glad you went??? Ur like oml FINE OK i had fun GOD MOM
  • Before you go to bed you pull out your old fish tank and clean it out before putting ur new buddy in,,bc ur fish is a KING he won’t be rotting away in some BOWL no he deserves a fully filtered tank with a bunch of decorations ((take care of your fish properly kids))
  • But,,,,it wasn’t the last time you saw Soonyoung
  • Because like two days later??? You hear your mom say that your friend was downstairs and ur like lmao what friend but whAT the fuck soonyoung is in your LIVING ROOM
  • And okay you’re DELIGHTED because you may or may not have missed him even though you only knew him for a few hours,, so ur like fuck it this god is my friend now lets go play mario kart
  • His godly powers might be able to win rigged fair games but he has no power over the domain of video games
  • Translation: he got really upset because you beat him 6 times in mario kart and 3 times on wii sports
  • And without realizing it,,,it kinda became normal for you to hang out with him?? Like sometimes he wouldn’t even go to your front door like normal and you’d just hear knocking at your window and at first you almost had a heart attack,,but now you’re just like oh its Soonyoung
  • Your favorite part of the day becomes learning the latest Divine Drama
  • Soonyoung: so Jeonghan was teasing Chan so Chan got upset and called Seungcheol but then Jeonghan just ended up teasing Seungcheol and so Seungcheol called Jihoon-
  • You: omg he did NOT
  • Soonyoung: he DID-
  • Sometimes you’ll leave stupid lil gifts at Soonyoung’s shrine like a little trinket at a garage sale that reminded you of him and he always gushes about it to the other gods like loOOK my human friend got me a THING do any of your followers do that???? No????? Well guess im just the best-
  • He also occasionally shows up to walk you home from school bc he’s impatient and wants to talk with you bc cmon you’re the most fun human he’s met-  well,,, fun in the sense that he knows you, and he doesn’t know many other humans as well as he knows you
  • And plus you always laugh at his jokes and the other gods don’t
  • But,,,as the days tick closer to prom which,,you were actually getting quite excited about because hell you actually??? Had a trustworthy date because Soonyoung reminded you constantly that he would show up,,so you couldn’t help but believe him
  • Alas, Jihoon has started catching on to Soonyoung’s feelings towards you,,and he’s seen gods that have fallen for humans before and it usually ends one of two ways
  • One: very very good, everyone ends up happy and theres a new god in the land
  • Two: very very bad, either the god has to watch the human die or the god has to abandon the human and it hurts both parties involved
  • And though Jihoon might pretend not to worry about the other gods,,,he doesn’t want to see Soonyoung hurt
  • So,,,though he doesn’t want to,,,as the god of reason he felt required to pull Soonyoung aside,,
  • And Jihoon explains like,, Soonyoung i know you like this human a lot but,,please think about what you’re dealing with
  • Soonyoung’s just like i know what im dealing with im dealing with a lovely person
  • Jihoon just sighs,,,,like no i mean seriously. Before you leap, think-  are you going to get tired of this human as soon as another interesting one stumbles along? Are you going to accidentally involve this human in matters they can’t control? We’re gods, Soonyoung, and though it’s fun to be around humans, it’s dangerous. So think about what you’re going to do before either of you get hurt
  • And soonyoung just,,,sobers up completely and he can’t help but,,,realize that he was just a bit caught up in you…
  • He couldn’t imagine hurting you?? Thinking back to when he first met you,,it broke his heart to have learned why you had been crying all alone at his festival and,,,,he really, really didn’t want to be the cause of that, ever…
  • So he decided; he would stay away from you for now,,,but if he still missed you after the time passed, he would see you again
  • But even then he didn’t realize that he was making choices before thinking
  • When Soonyoung didn’t show up at your house for a few days, you thought nothing of it
  • He was a god with duties to fulfill; you understood that and so you weren’t upset or anything when he was gone for a few days. Of course, playing video games and doing homework alone was less fun without him there,,but you could manage
  • You trusted him to keep his promise to go to prom with you,,and you even allowed yourself to get fully excited. You had even picked out a dress that was actually expensive,,and even tho ur not like,,a cheesy person….
  • Interally ur like,,,,,i hope  he thinks its pretty but right after that ur like wtf is this????a drama?????
  • Regardless, no amount of internal irony or cynicism can stop you from excitedly waiting at your meeting spot the night of the prom,,,just a little bench that you two would eat lunch at together on weekends
  • And you were all dressed up, your hair styled up all fancy and your makeup done by someone way more equipped with liquid eyeliner than you’d ever be,, and you can’t help but smile as the clock ticks closer and closer to the time you agreed on
  • Then 7pm hits, and hes still not there, but you don’t worry because hey even gods can’t make it on the dot right?
  • Then….7:30….8……9
  • As each minute ticks by, you feel the pain in your chest grow,,,of course when you had first met him, you had expected this outcome, but after all the time that had passed you had really grown to trust him
  • When the clock finally hits 10, you swallow the lump in your throat and head back home, holding back your tears so that you could at least tell a decent lie to your parents that you had fun with your friends
  • Meanwhile
  • Soonyoung had been thinking, more than any carefree god of partying usually would, about you
  • Because,, while he understood Jihoon’s warning…he really didn’t like staying away from you
  • He missed hearing you rant about your teachers and the stupid questions people asked in class, he missed how you would fall backwards whenever you laughed really hard and how, if he told the perfect joke, your laugh would turn loud and goofy. He missed how you would pretend to be annoyed when he whined about how you weren’t paying attention to him,,,he just missed you
  • So fuck it, right???? He just BUSTS INTO WHEREVER JIHOON’S STAYING and jihoon is just like SOONYOUNG WHAT THE FUCK and soonyoung just yells JIHOON I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND I LIKE THEM A LOT SO IF IT ENDS UP BAD I’LL DEAL WITH IT
  • Jihoon: :)
  • Soonyoung: what’s with that face. Why aren’t you disappointed.
  • Jihoon: you actually made a decision on your own,,, just wait until seungcheol hears this-
  • Soonyoung: JIHOON PLEASE NO
  • Everyone fears Seungcheol’s Dad Mode.
  • But, as Soonyoung prepares to run back to you and apologize for his absence,,Jun stops him
  • Because, guess who has a charm in their house for Jun?? Of course you would, your family believed in every god no matter how small,,,,and so,, Jun knew what happened
  • And hes just like Soonyoung,,my man, what time is it
  • Soonyoung: time to tell y/n i like them??
  • And jun is like oh my god i meant literally
  • Soonyoung’s like oh its 11- OH MY GOD PROM JUN HOW BADLY HAVE I FUCKED UP
  • The moment Jun just shakes his head, Soonyoung is ready to Die because usually Jun LOVES rubbing mistakes in people’s faces,,,,not even like in the mean way because usually they’re minor,,,,but if he’s not even gonna say
  • well,,,Soonyoung makes it to your house in record time and oh hell he can definitely feel that something is very, very off
  • He’d always been able to sense when you were upset, he just never knew it would hurt so much to realize that he had caused it,,,because if he listened hard enough he could hear you crying through the window
  • And its fair to say that you were only upset more when you hear a familiar knock at your window
  • All the hurt that had built up in you at every hour that had passed sitting alone in the dark turned to anger the moment he showed up
  • And you hated feeling angry,,you hated feeling all the negative energy running under your skin because it made you want to punch a wall but you never would so all it did was turn to bitter tears and more anger
  • So,,when you got up and went to your window only to see soonyoung….you closed the blinds
  • Or,,you try to but he sEEs your plan and his hand just slams on the window anD HES LIKE Y/N PLEASE DONT LET ME EXPLAIN-
  • And ur like what?? Ur gonna explain why you ditched me? Dont worry i understood your message anyways
  • His heart? Shattered into a million pieces
  • But,,,ur weak and too kind for your own good, so you open the window anyways because its probably cold outside
  • Soonyoung just tumbles in on hes knees and hes like liSTEN YOU DONT HAVE TO FORGIVE ME BUT LET ME EXPLAIN ILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU 1000%
  • You just wipe your eyes and nod bc even though you’re really, really upset,,you still know deep down that Soonyoung doesn’t have a mean bone in his body,,,,and usually if he does something rude its always on accident,,
  • And then he just SPILLS everything that’s happened in the last week; what Jihoon warned him about, how he got worried about hurting you (you: you already did that   him: I  kNow im so sososososososososososo-   you: soonyoung-   him:SOSOSOSOSOS O SO SORRY) and how he decided to stay away from you just so that he would have some time to think about what choice to make clearly
  • Before you can even get a word in he just jumps to his feat like listE N ILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU wanna go to a restaurant??? Ill buy you food we can go to the fanciest one in town gO get ready lets go!!!
  • He just looks so ready to GO ur just like okay,,,,just a minute,,
  • You gotta make it look like you haven’t been crying for the past half hour,,,and for a moment you can’t help but smile because when you look back he’s bouncing on his feet and staring at the clock on your wall and,,,soonyoung always displays his emotions so clearly its endearing,,
  • Before you know it soonyoung has your hand, dragging you down the streets and talking a mile a minute,,,
  • And ur just like soonyoung,,,soONYOUNG and he pauses in the middle of his sentence about the super fancy restaurants like ???
  • You make him stop walking bc ur lowkey exhausted because everything is happening FAST and you’re like hey listen i see what your goal is but how about we get some cheap fast food instead and just hang out??? Like normal??
  • Its like you just gave him a puppy like his face just LIGHTS UP and you see his Signature Hamster Smile
  • So you buy like two handfuls of chips and junk food from the nearest convenience store and Soonyoung says theres this really nice clearing in the woods to hang out in and he can tell Joshua to leave the two of you alone
  • And thats how you find yourself sitting on a log next to a pretty little pond in the middle of the woods with a god next to you who is. Currently struggling to hold the armful of snacks you guys bought at the 24 hour convenience store buy your house
  • You can kinda tell that Soonyoung is walking on eggshells around you,,,like his jokes don’t poke fun at you and he makes sure to give you any snack u ask for when he would usually make you play rock paper scissors for dibs,,
  • Okay you can’t help it because the thought he was putting into his actions was. Really endearing but at the same time you kinda want old rambunctious soonyoung back
  • So you push him slightly with your shoulder and you say, “Okay Soonyoung, I’m still a bit upset but I forgive you okay? Just explain a bit more ask to,,,like,,..why you avoided me??”
  • Once again, he acts like you just gave him the fucking world n for a moment you wonder if its okay for a god to be so easily impressed but you brush it off as he starts explaining
  • And its basically him repeating the speech Jihoon gave him and you’re nodding along until he’s like well I decided to say screw the rules like i mean i know it’s kinda weird for a god to fall in love with a human but hey whatever right-
  • You’re entire mind just kinda,,, fizzles out
  • In love??? God in love with a human?????? What?? //taps mic// hello?? What the fuck??
  • Soonyoung notices that you froze and he just blinks at you, not really understanding what he said to make you freeze up
  • You: s-soonyoung you s-said-
  • Soonyoung: that im in love with you? Yeah
  • You: SOONYOUNG
  • And hes just like well if you don’t like me back then we can pretend i never said anything but,,, im just sayin I’m a god and i can read emotions pretty well so i know you like me back :)
  • You push him off the log and he almost cries when his cheetos fall into the dirt
  • ~~dating a LITERAL GOD~~
  • You wanna have a significant other that’s your best friend at the same time BOOM. SOONYOUNG
  • So its partially the same to how it was before; he still comes over and tries and fails to beat you at video games, he distracts you from school work (but only because he could tell you were starting to get stressed) and he still teases the everloving shit out of you
  • But at the same time, he kisses u. A LOT
  • Like Soonyoung is the world’s GREASIEST boyfriend ever,,,like he uses fucking pickup lines and youre like soonyoung we’re already dating and hes still like BECAUSE YOU’RE THE ONLY TEN I SEE
  • (you love it but you’ll never say it outloud)
  • He actually takes you to meet all the other gods?? Like he can’t take you to the god’s dimension because you’re human and all but he can call them down to meet u
  • Jihoon is like oh hey, you’re the human that soonyoung always talks about
  • Soonyoung is like jihoon SHHhshHSH but its too late youre already like :)))) oh so he talks about me?
  • Truth is Jihoon 100% plans on getting back at Soonyoung for worrying him so he makes sure to explain in detail all the things soonyoung told him about you
  • “Oh yeah one time he came back and i asked him why he was smiling and he said, and i quote-” soonyoung is fuckign writithing on the floor like JIHOON PLEASE NO “AND I QUOTE, ‘Jihoon you wouldn’t understand you don’t know what LOVE is like’”
  • You never let it go. You tease soonyoung about it constantly and he grumbles about how he would kill jihoon if gods weren’t immortal-
  • But every time he can never stay mad at you because you always kiss him on the cheek and he can’t help but smile
  • Sometimes he likes to play around and be like “youd COWER in the face of my true powers” but at the same time hes like “Y/N LOOK LOOK LOOK” while he makes a bunch of tiny glowing orbs that look like multicolored fireflies just because he wanted to impress you
  • Whenever you’re upset he can obviously sense it and he always tries his best to cheer you up, and if its something that a simple joke won’t fix, he’s always good at listening
  • Like,,,you don’t know if its the whole ‘god’ thing or not but he just always makes everything feel a bit less serious, like your world won’t end with a mishap
  • As a whole, dating god of festivities Kwon Soonyoung is happy and fluffy, with a side of lovely Godly Drama that he always spills to you as soon as it happens

anonymous asked:

OMG can you please write about Caryl taking care of Judith and Daryl shyly hints of wanting a child of his own

(In a world where Carol and Daryl are together) 

“Ya know it’s ‘bout time ya got off yer ass ‘n’ started pullin’ yer weight ‘round here.”

Carol snorted a laugh from where she was curled up in an arm chair, lolling her head against her hand that was propped up on her elbow.

Any stranger looking in on the scene might’ve just thought this was a happy couple playing with their giggling daughter. 

Daryl sat cross legged on the floor, holding a babbling Judith in his hands, bouncing her on the balls of her feet as he tried to make her stand. Judith giggled in defiance, curling her legs up in the air so Daryl had to support her weight. 

“Quit wigglin’ asskicker, ” he smirked, lifting her easily over his head, tilting her left and right as her chubby hands reached out for his face. Her small hands managed to grasp at a tuft of his hair tugging on it hard.

“Ow! Ya lil shit,” Daryl hissed through a chuckle, plonking her back down in his lap.

“Language,” Carol warned lightly with a quirk of her brow. 

Daryl childishly poked his tongue out at her, smiling when Judith screeched in laughter, clapping her hands together as she demanded Daryl’s attention. 

“Daa da,” Judith cooed, cupping Daryl’s face with one of her hands.

Carol’s heart just about melted at the exchange, Judith crawling up on her knees to cuddle into his chest, Daryl cradling the back of her head.

“Da-ryl,” he corrected, resting his cheek against the crown of her head.

“Daaa da,” Judith gurgled sleepily, reaching for his fingers of his free hand, her stubby fingers clutching at his second finger as she began to drift off.

“Ain’t no one’s dada, kid,” he murmured, his eyes flickering up to find Carol already watching him, the orange glow from the lit fire illuminating her face. “Weren’t meant for me I spose.”

“That something you think about, having kids?”

Daryl shrugged, the last thing he wanted to do was upset her.

“You can be honest with me Daryl.” Carol could read him like a book, knowing exactly where his mind went to. 

Daryl sighed rocking the sleeping toddler gently against his chest. “Thought ‘bout it a couple times, wanted ta prove I could be a better daddy then mine…probably wouldn’t do much better though. Wouldn’t never lay a hand on ma kid, but doubt I got what it takes.” 

“Daryl you’d make the most amazing father, look how good you are with Judith.” Carol’s heart swelled at just the thought of Daryl holding their own little girl…thoughts drifting to if Daryl had been Sophia’s daddy, how different things would’ve been. She internally shook her head, no point dwelling on what ifs. Nothing could be changed now. 

But just the prospect of having a child, a child with the man she loved, the man she knew would protect her and their child no matter what…well just that had her yearning to start a family with him. 

Nothing would ever replace her baby girl, her baby girl who left a gaping hole in her heart the day she stumbled out of that barn. But Carol had found there was still room in her heart, there had been room for Daryl and there’d be room for their own little bundle of joy if it was meant to be.

 “Different though, ain’t the one doin’ the night feed, ain’t the one changin’ her diapers or holdin’ her when she’s sick.” 

“But I know you’re more than capable of all of that,” Carol assured, “know you’d be the one who’d get up in the morning, just so I could get a couple hours more sleep; know you’d hold my hand the whole time through labour, even after the circulation cut off; know that any child would be lucky to call you their daddy, because you’re the best man I’ve ever known Daryl Dixon and you’d make the best father too.”

Daryl ducked his head a little, blushing at Carol’s genuine compliments. 

“Ya want that though? Have another baby?” He chose his words cautiously, the fear of sad her making his heart pound within the confinements of his chest.

Daryl was relieved when he saw Carol give him a wide smile, her eyes glancing between him and Judith.

“With you Daryl? Yes.”

Me Rewatching ML: Evillustrator

I guess Nath really likes Climatika and Lady Wifi’s design to dream about them. That or the ML team really liked their designs and wanted to bring them back in some way XD they are really good designs and fun villains. 

Hm, rewatching now, don’t know if the ship of Marinette/Nath appeals to me anymore. This dream sequence seems to suggest that he connects to the trope that the hero that saves the damsel must get her naturally, for he deserves it for his efforts. 

Also thinking Marinette needs to be saved; that would be quite a wake up call. Far more likely she’ll save you. She is scary. There is a solid reason why she can go solo just fine. 

Nathanael is failing science. 

Mendeleiev wipes her hand on shirt after dropping Nath’s picture. She calls his really good drawings chicken scratch. 

Juleka sits next to Nath in physics, Rose sits on the other side. Juleka and Nath are possible friends. Also Mendeleiev might’ve separated Rose and Juleka possibly from talking too much in class. 

Rose and Ivan sit alone. That is sad. 

Mendeleiev picks Nath up like some cat she’s ready to throw out. 

Marinette sees Nath’s sketchbook falls open, is confused why he drew her. 

Chloe is amused to see Nath crushing on Marinette, confirms what Marinette certainly wondered.

I saw Nath akumatized through humiliation, with Mendeleiev being the biggest instigator, Chloe’s verbal reveal about his crush in front of the class being the final snap.

And with Nath upset that Chloe revealed his crush to the class, he is definitely a very private person. Don’t know about him being shy, but definitely reserved and private. 

“Artists are so emotional. I love it.” Speaking from experience of having an artist friend? Gabriel certainly can be rather reactive when agitated. And Mama, who I do like the idea did play piano, is described to be very emotional and sensitive. You referring to both or just one? Most likely Mama though is who he might be thinking of since she seems a lot more reactive than Gabriel. 

“You tired of having your creative spirit crushed?” With this, I would definitely count Mendeleiev as the big main cause of Evillustrator, because it is only her that picks on him for his drawing, which is what his transformation resolves around. 

Alya why do you look offended to work with Nino and Adrien? Do they spew puns together? Are you and Nino still working out things? Is it kind of awkward? Or did you want alone time with Nino? Probably alone time with Nino if they are dating at this point. 

Mendeleiev officially doesn’t give two shits about making Chloe happy. 

“I hate dealing with it.” This is like the perfect summary of Chloe. 

Alya loves Marinette, but not enough to deal with Chloe and Sabrina, who she both refers to as “twosome of terror”. 

Marinette is appeased with just being mentioned to Adrien. 

Marinette used tackle. 

NINO AND ROSE ARE FRIENDS. 

Alix’s locker is opposite of Chloe’s and it looks like it’s on the far left end. 

Marinette is unaware of how Chloe and Sabrina’s friendship works. 

Chloe and Sabrina have known each other since elementary (grade school in French), which is where this started. 

I find it funny that when Chloe states that Sabrina has to do what she says, Sabrina’s smile just drops right then and there and she has this “wait” expression.

I like the touch of detail that you can see Sabrina thinking this over while Chloe and Marinette argue, like you can tell she’s looking over facts and observations and considering what Marinette said to what Chloe insists. 

While Marinette is open enough to work and interact with Sabrina, Sabrina has left a bad enough impression that Marinette is a bit put off to receive a hug from Sabrina, very different from the sudden hug she received from Alya in Bubbler, which she quickly accepts despite her surprise. Here Marinette is just really put off and doesn’t seem to know how to respond. 

Despite this Marinette is open to test the waters and develop a friendship with Sabrina, though definitely still unsure.

Sabrina suggests to Marinette that they should reveal Chloe to the teacher. They do have a right to do so and should with Chloe hardly doing any work, but for Sabrina to propose this out of nowhere is very sudden and off putting; even Marinette is pretty put off and unsure about it. Kinda gives me an impression that Sabrina can be shifty with loyalties if she sees a better opportunity for a nicer friendship, at least what she grasps as friendship which is someone helping her do work. Really does make me think about the possibilities of Lila and Sabrina in s2, with Chloe’s redemption very likely resolving around her connection to Sabrina, which does need to change for both to get better. 

Day’s not over yet and Marinette is already tired. And doesn’t want to be in the middle of Chloe and Sabrina’s fight. 

Sabrina can be appeased/tempted with bribery, something Chloe has likely discovered works in getting past any fights. 

Chloe seems genuinely think that this is how friendship works, with friends that answer her whims and do what she wants. Being spoiled by the mayor and having Adrien and Sabrina as her only close friends, I can see how she thinks this is how it works. I’ll be looking forward to seeing her struggle as QB, cause LB, CN, and fox!Alya aren’t going to cave to her at all. And you have to do actual work. I am looking forward to a hard, painful redemption for Chloe. 

Chloe really cares about her hair. This is the most I hear about when she’s distressed. 

Fresh as an akuma, with a power to erase and create, and the worse Evillustrator can think of to torment Chloe is drop a bunch of hats on her and blow her with a hair dryer. 

Omg Adrien… so many puns… 

With Chloe, Chat is doing the questioning, a role LB usually does. LB though has this grossed out expression on her face. 

“Yay! Ladybug said I’m adorable!” There she goes with her crush. And is bothered that LB didn’t really smile right. She wants the perfect picture of them together. 

LB is so tired and done. 

Chat is calling out on LB for her attitude here. 

This is the first fight I’ve ever seen between LB and Chat. 

A frustrated Marinette will throw her bag when she gets home. 

Damn that’s a lot of missed phone calls. With all of this happening in the same day, it takes her a couple of minutes of travel from school, to Chloe’s, to home, and Marinette only lasted probably five minutes at most in Chloe’s company, I guess she’s about ten to fifteen minutes late to get in contact/meet up with Sabrina. And Sabrina called her constantly in that short time period, possibly suggesting that she’s a clingy friend, something that will certainly be an issue when Chloe gets her miraculous. 

Evillustrator don’t erase your crush’s window, that is not reassuring. I would’ve flipped out and thrown something at you. 

I say this crush on Marinette is pretty new since he doesn’t seem to know her very well; plus in a web episode, Marinette doesn’t list Nathanael as one of her friends (even Sabrina and Chloe got mentioned). 

Marinette a bit unsettled by infatuated akuma, and a likely reaction to someone she doesn’t know well approaching her romantically.

 Nathanael has a nervous habit of touch the back of his head. 

Pfffft, Evillustrator gives himself intense anime eyes. And of course Marinette has adorable, big eyes. It really does echo how he views them both. 

Look at my daughter go, making plans on the fly. 

And even when frustrated with Chloe, she makes sure and akuma won’t go after her. 

And she has the utmost trust in Chat to do his job well despite their little spat. I love this trust she has in him. Tikki approves of Marinette relying on Chat. 

Chat is an attentive guard cat. 

Evillustrator confirms that Adrien has physics down. 

Chat isn’t amused with Chloe’s cat pun. 

Adrien needs to learn to say no. This push over.

When LB tells him to leave Chloe, he kind sighs and looks disappointed, mostly likely thinking LB is brushing off Chloe’s danger again.

How long was Sabrina standing in that doorway waiting for Marinette? It looks like she’s been standing there for a while, no move to knock or anything. That hints that Sabrina will stand around and wait for Chloe.

Body language and expression suggest to me that Marinette is still unsure about how to handle/respond to Sabrina. 

I think most likely for both girls to develop, grow, and have healthy friendships, this current one has to broken up between each other and both willing to change and learn what a real friendship is and have a good, solid redemption. In the future if they’re up and willing, they can have a go at friendship again, but for sure, after they have developed.

MARICHAT YES.

With how quickly Chat arrived from Chloe to Marinette’s, through miraculouses, that’s just a couple of minutes of travel. 

Boy immediately moves to kiss her hand with his introduction. He wants to make make sure this “first” meeting goes right so much. 

Lmao, his face just screams “score!” 

There he goes, flexing and flirting and putting on a show. He wants to impress Marinette so much. 

I love this different opinion that Chat and Nath have of Marinette. In Nath’s dream, Marinette needs to be saved, to rely on him to get her out of that trouble. But here, Chat asks Marinette if she would help him, suggesting that he knows and trusts that she is capable, that she is his equal in this and can help him, not just a damsel in distress for him to impress with saving her. Even recognizes her to be a helpful Ladybug to him tonight (which understandable unnerves Marinette). 

And he’s so sad to say that LB is busy. He was probably looking forward to working with LB AND Marinette. And he rings his bell. 

Chat is pleased with Marinette’s overdramatic fangirling. 

I will say, this is a very nice date Evillustrator put together. 

Promises are important to Nathanael. Marinette it looks like appreciates this. 

Marinette does a little wave to Chat when he’s behind them, subtly telling him to wait. I love that touch of detail. 

“…you’re just like Chloe. Teasing me, mocking me, leading me on!” To make comparisons like these means that they’ve happened before, and that possibly not only has Chloe picked on Nath, but evidently lead him on too. Maybe Nath was the first one Chloe encountered to have a crush on her. Something she likely took advantage of, and sparked her finding amusement in boys confessing to her (like Kim in DC). 

Evillustrator can jump, damn. 

14, Tikki pops out of the purse where Chat could’ve seen her if he looked down by chance. 

Adrien’s first instinctive response to Marinette coming up with a smart plan is to pull her close and flirt. Marinette doesn’t respond positively to the sudden closeness. 

Chat is more than fine to back off, and Marinette is still physically comfortable with him. Bless these dorks. 

Lmao, he still wants to be impressive. 

15, Tikki floats into the open, and if Chat looked back, would’ve seen her. 

Chloe, all this effort wasted to try and appeal to Mendeleiev, who don’t give two shits; you could’ve been done a long time ago. 

Chat left first, with Marinette grumbling for a minute, yet LB is there first? Is LB hero faster than BC or did she purposely go faster? Or maybe she it’s her knowing the streets better? 

Look at these two. They’re flirting. 

“…this is known as the final showdown.” “…she’s a baddie!” This tells me that Nath bases his thinking off comics, or at least uses examples of comics with heroes. Also, declaring Chloe’s a “baddie” and deserves to be harassed, that’s a pretty black and white view to have. Also adds to why he didn’t go after Mendeleiev, he believes it was her right to call him out for drawing in her class. And yes, she is, but she doesn’t have the right to treat his work with such disrespect (reacting to his drawings in disgust, calling it chicken scratch). 

“Once I have them all in my grasp, I will have absolute power!” So HM wants all miraculouses. Or at least for sure, the ones he knows about. 

“…they only made matters worse.” Chloe you tsundere, that’s not what I saw earlier. This is a public front, you still adore LB. 

Alya is more than happy to put aside her personal feelings for Chloe for an interview. 

I stand that Adrien was totally waiting for Marinette in the locker next to hers. He was not there before.

Marinette’s locker is the 2nd from the last on the far right of the row next to the wall. And Chloe and Marinette share the same locker row. 

Sabrina is back to being happy to work for Chloe again, Marinette is baffled. 

Hi Adrien. Just out of nowhere, he totally had to come out of that locker. This nerd. Being a cat. Hiding in spaces and waiting to pop out. 

And Adrien, wanting to make sure Chat left a good impression on Marinette. He really cares that Chat left a good impression. 

Marinette states that Adrien is far more awesome than Chat, Adrien isn’t bothered at all. He is pleased enough that Marinette has deemed Chat awesome. 

16, it’s a school day, people coming in to gather their stuff for the morning, and Tikki’s just hanging out in the open on Marinette’s shoulder where she can be seen.

I RECOGINZE THAT. That is like one of the earliest concepts of ML that Thomas Astruc did, isn’t it? 

Also it seems Nath’s crush on Marinette is over, hinting that he possibly has some memory of what happened, though probably fleeting. If he does have a crush now, most likely for LB. 

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HELLO MY LOVELY READERS! And that one patient anon! I can’t believe it took me weeks to finish this fic, but I still hope you enjoy it! :-D This is seriously a very underrated relationship, and I’m happy to have had the opportunity to throw my stick into the fire. :-D Thank you for waiting!


Paul Blofis, with his salt and pepper hair, his easy smile and nicely pressed collared shirts, was a terrible househusband. Or at least that was what Sally often said. With his inability to cook, clean, repair and do all those parental things, he most definitely agreed. 

On the weekdays, Paul’s teaching job was usually normal enough for him to get home at exactly 6 o’clock sharp. If everything was going well with her publisher, Sally would also be home by that time, and the smell of nice homely dinners would get Paul’s stomach grumbling and happy. Unfortunately for him, this particular day wasn’t going to fit in with the rest.

As soon as Paul hung his coat soundlessly at the door, it was not Sally’s cooking that greeted him by the hallway, but rather a harsh but soft moan. His heart thumped in his chest. Could that be a robber? No, it couldn’t be. All the windows in the apartment were shut tighter than the safe in the upstairs bedroom, and the lock of the front door didn’t seem tampered with. Blinking as his eyebrows soared to his receding hairline and his pulse gnawed at his hyper-tension prone veins, he swiftly turned around as another moan made him jump. He needed to be quiet. If this was some dangerous criminal… surprise was his only weapon. At least, that’s what he always heard on those night time survival shows on Discovery Channel. 

He grabbed the house keys and stuck one of the jagged edges out of his fist (like how all those self-defense lessons had taught him) and made sure his feet were planted firmly on the ground. Paul tried to survey the area but came up with little blobs of black. His eyes were already terrible even with glasses, but in the dim darkness, they were impossible! Instead, he opted to flick the light switch open at lightning speed. Once the living room was illuminated–

Percy?” He choked, dropping his bags in horror. Not even the audible crack of his laptop brought him out of the panicked frenzy he was slowly falling into. “PERCY?“ 

“Hey Paul,” Percy said nonchalantly.  To Paul’s horror, it was a horrible mash of words because HIS SIDE WAS BLEEDING AND THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE AND THE COUCH IS STAINED AND IS MY STEP SON DYING? Paul liked to believe that he thought that instead of shouting it out loud.   

“Oh dear, oh dear,” he mumbled. What was he supposed to do? Being a teacher, he was well trained in first-aid, but he wasn’t sure if his experience covered gaping wounds and monster venom. His eyes glanced over Percy’s supine form on the sofa before he felt his throat close up. “Oh dear, ohdearohdear.“ 

“Paul?” Percy called out, wincing as he tried to reach out to his panicked stepfather. “Paul? Earth to Paul?“ 

“Oh dear—What do I do?” Immediately, Paul  ran to the kitchen to grab an armful of paper towels to mop up Percy’s blood— “Oh dear, this is blood. Oh dear. This is bad. Do I call your mother? Should I do that? Will Sally think this is my fault? How about 911? Aren’t you supposed to be in college? DO I TAKE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL? WHERE IS ANNABETH?

On his hands and knees, Paul’s attention was focused on trying to keep his step son from dying and trying to wipe up the brown stains from the rug.

“Paul?" 

Paul, still in his terrible haze, remembered something about stopping the bleeding with a tourniquet. With this knowledge, he undid his belt and began to wag it around Percy’s body, which was draped over the couch. With his lunch coming up and his palms sweating, he realised that in order to tie a tourniquet, he would have to haul Percy up and remove his shirt to catch a glimpse of the wound. He didn’t think he was ready for that.

Paul.” 

“Oh dear, oh dear,” he repeated again. His voice was becoming an octave higher after each dear, and it would’ve been hilarious if “PERCY WHAT DO I DO? Do I remove your shirt? Do I cut something? OH DEAR I’VE FORGOTTEN HOW TO STITCH– 

“PAUL!” 

Paul grabbed his phone and began dialing 911 but dropped it when he saw bloody fingerprints grace the screen. 

“PAUL!”

“OH MY GOD, SALLY WILL KILL US BECAUSE YOU’RE BLEEDING AND HER COUCH IS RUINED AND—”  

“DAD!“ 

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Non-Romantic Affection pt. 2

Originally posted by theweak-nd

Part 1 / Part 2

Genre: angsty fluff

Characters: Kim Jongin (a.k.a. Kai) x Reader

Summary: Still devastated by yesterday’s encounter with Jongin, you stay at home. He wakes up hungover but heads to your house because he wants to make things right. He doesn’t want to lose you.


Why wake up if you don’t have the strength to? Why even bother getting up if you know nothing is going to go back to what it was? You couldn’t just let him in again and pretend last night didn’t happen at all. It would damage you mentally and you weren’t exactly sure that if you’re prepared to see him again anytime soon.

He probably didn’t even remember what happened or that he even saw you. He’s probably waking up in the girl’s house. He might not know what he did and you’d have to tell him at sometime you want to stop what you both had going and make up some excuse explaining why. You weren’t about to confess to him, especially when he made it clear you don’t have a chance with him so why even bother. He wont know the truth about how you feel if you don’t tell him.

In the morning you received a couple of texts and calls from your friends. You were planning to go out with them around to chat and have a good time since you haven’t seen each other in a long time. But keeping in mind you saw the guy you so deeply were attached to, you ditched them. Not because you didn’t want to spend time with them or see them again, but because you didn’t want to explain what happened that made you look so dull today. They did know about your relationship and they never like the idea but they didn’t judge you either. 

And you know that as soon as you tell them they will lecture you saying “I told you so” and more.So you had nothing more to do than turn off your phone and lay in bed, hoping that you’ll sleep for months to later wake up and not remember anything about Jongin.

After hours upon hours of laying in your bed wide awake, not eating and grieving you heard a distant knocking on your door. You figure that if you stayed silent long enough, without opening the person on the other side would eventually leave. 

Fifteen minutes passed and the knocking still prevails there. You are now very annoyed and obligate yourself to get up and answer to such persistent person. You assumed it was one of your friends who got worried because you wouldn’t respond to their messages and came here to see you. As you walked to the door, you said “I’ll talk with you guys tomorrow, I’m very busy to-” you stopped as you opened the door and saw who it was on the other side.

You were surprised to see it wasn’t any of your friends, instead it was the guy who had made feel so damn awful since yesterday. There he stood, drenched in water because of the rain outside, with the same clothes that you saw him last night in, hair covering his face and heavy breathing. You didn’t know what to say at all, not expecting to see him again and specially now. 

He looked at you and said “Y-you didn’t answer my phone calls” he was trembling in the cold and you said “I um, I’ll get some towels” and went to quickly find some before he freezes. You came back to see him shirtless with his hands over the kitchen sink, rinsing the water off his shirt that was previously clung to his upper body. He turned to you as you handed him a towel. He said “Thank you” and started to dry off his chest and torso.

Eyes currently fixated on the movements of his hand over his body, now remembering times you both had in this house of heated and passion filled emotions. But your memories shortly were interrupted as he spoke “You still haven’t told me, why didn’t you at least return my calls?” you looked at his eyes with worry and replied “I just wanted sometime alone Jongin”. He looked at you and said “Y/N, by your red cheeks and glossy eyes I can tell you’re not alright”. You forgot the fact that he knew you so well, that he would eventually find out.

Trying to avoid talking about last night and how you felt, you asked him “Jongin, why are you here?” he threw the towel on the counter and said to you “You think I’m that oblivious don’t you? That I can’t figure out why you didn’t answer was because of last night?”. Caught you off guard, you never really thought he would remember at all. You found yourself in loss of words, speechless. “I know what happened, you saw me kissing with this… girl I don’t even know from the club. I want you to hear me out here, okay” he said, you maintained silence but listened him and nodded for him to continue.

“I never intended for this to happen. I-I was drunk and didn’t know what I was doing, I don’t even know why I told you I was busy at the time when I clearly wasn’t. I know this all sounds like I’m just making up excuses but I’m not, just listen” he said, getting closer to you and softly grabbing your hands “Since we started this between us, I’ve felt so much fear that one of us would fall with the other and it destroying our friendship and all. And I always tried to see you as nothing more than my lover but… I’m sorry. Yesterday was a mistake but in a way it wasn’t, if yesterday wouldn’t have happened, i wouldn’t have realized how scared I am to lose you”

Your heart raced as he got closer and his words continued on “Y/N, I think I’ve fallen deeply in love with you” he ended as he stared into your eyes. You couldn’t believe the words you heard coming from his mouth. You were more shocked that ever, some how found a way to speak again and ask him “Wait… what did you s-say?”. He stepped back, thinking what he said made you upset and tried saying “I’m sorry if makes you feel uncomfortable, i can’t control it or-” you interrupted him, taking a step forward to him “You’re in love with me?”

Your lips grew into a smile, he saw your expression and asked “You’re not mad?”. You giggled in utter joy and wrapped your arms around his shoulders. “Why would I be mad at figuring we both have a new thing in common?” you said to him. He realized what you said and meant by that, and a smile couldn’t help but to find its way onto his face too.

He grabbed you waist and the place between you two was now nonexistent. Nose touching and warmth spreading through you both, you stood there holding each other, savoring the moment. Jongin caressed your torso as he whispered to you in your ear “ I can’t believe I was so blind that I never knew that what I was looking for this whole time, has always been in front of me” and with that, one of his hands cupped your face and your lips collided.

This kiss was nothing like the ones you shared before. It was full of love and everything you have ever wanted. You felt everything, sparks, butterflies and it felt absolutely amazing. There was no feeling in the world that would feel better that pure and genuine love.


A/N : Omg I got so many feels writing this, I really like how the ending turned out to be. I hope you guys liked it too. P.s. writing the word collide now has triggered my brain and I have Demi Lovato’s Two Worlds Collide song stuck in my head, wtf. If you have any thoughts or questions about this story or anything in general, you can leave me a message or a question on my inbox! Have a good day darling *sends kisses*

Episode 27 is a ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTION, people! Kaiba vs Pegasus. Having gone to great lengths to make Kaiba seem as unsympathetic as a devoted older brother trying desperately to rescue the light of his life can possibly be, this motherfucking _cartoon_ now uses him to tear my heart out and stamp on it.

But that comes later. First up, Pegasus gets down to business.

Welp. There goes the neighbourhood.

Toon World is almost as much of a cheat as using an Ancient Egyptian artifact to read minds is, and that’s saying something! None of the spectators but Yugi have even _heard_ of the Toon cards and Yugi tells them that they’re all one-of-a-kind and were never made available to the public. They’re Pegasus-only cards, and massively overpowered, since they can’t be directly attacked but appear to have no weakness to balance that. Or weakness at all?

And Kaiba is FURIOUS when Pegasus toonifies the Blue Eyes he took from him.

Kaiba realises he’s going to have to step things up to face off against someone with unbeatable monsters who can also obviously read his mind. His solution? Dump his hand since Pegasus knows it, and just play from the deck! He’s TRUSTING IN THE HEART OF THE CARDS! THIS IS NOT A DRILL!

He just draws and plays without even looking at it, into Attack Mode, and man would he have looked foolish if it was a Magic Card, but of course…

I’m not going to lie to you, Tumblr, I genuinely got emotional at this point. Kaiba might be an asshole, and overly skeptical, and rude, and stubborn as a really obsessive and angry mule, but his relationship with his dragons is beautiful. Also his relationship with his brother. I guess.

Speaking of which…

He imaGINES MOKUBA HELPING HIM TO DRAW THE CARD … i can’t.

And with imaginary!Mokuba and his weirdly loyal trading cards helping him out, he defeats the “monstrosity” of the Blue Eyes Toon Dragon, or, as he says, he “puts it out of its misery”.

Really was quite tempted to just turn it off at this point and imagine him winning and taking Mokuba home and emotionally healing BUT NO.

Pegasus once again uses one of his own cards against him - this time his Virus card that destroys all high-attack monsters. This leaves Kaiba with one card. ONE CARD.

(Pegasus knows this because mind reading.) Kaiba’s weakness is strength (omg irony!) because he dismisses useful but “weak” monsters like Kuriboh and surrounds himself with the monsters with the highest attack possible, leaving him wide open to his own strategy. You’d think someone who was _this_ smart and _this_ good at Duel Monsters would look at his _own_ Virus card and think “Hmm, if anyone else had this card, or if someone used one of the _many_ stratagems to use an opponent’s card against them, I would be totally boned.” but no. I’d like to say between basically losing to Yami because of Kuriboh except for threatened suicide and now this, he might learn to pop in a few lower attack Monsters with special effects but I’m not actually convinced he does. We’ll chalk it down to all the emotional trauma making him forget these valuable life lessons.

Kaiba is staring his defeat in the face and he says, aloud.

I’m crying.

… I’m prideshipping.

I believe he means Yami here, not Yugi. He’s actually had very little interaction with Yugi at this point. Yami takes over pretty quickly whenever Kaiba starts talking smack, which is basically always. They duelled twice, which was all Yami, and Yami came out to talk to him when he came by their campsite and beat Joey. He saw Yugi obviously at the end of the duel on the castle, but Yugi was way too upset to talk, or even look at him. Yugi has been cheering him on for this duel, but Kaiba’s attention has been on Pegasus. Kaiba knows Pegasus is going to do something awful, he may at this point accept that Mokuba’s soul has been stolen and guess that Pegasus means to do the same to him. And the only two people he wants to say goodbye to are Mokuba, and Yami.

#theyareveryveryimportanttooneanother #eventhisearlyon

So then Pegasus steals his soul and locks it into another card. And then he gets reeeeeeeeal creepy even by Pegasus standards.

#theresaficthere #orseveral #creepyones #alsokinkyones #toonshippinghasalotofverydisturbingpotential 

The spectators are appalled. They’ve been really supportive of Kaiba the whole time. Honda and Jou intended to root for Pegasus, but Kaiba’s strength of spirit and devotion to Mokuba won everyone over really quickly. Every one of them has had someone good to say about him. Even Pegasus complimented him for playing his last card rather than forfeiting when it was obvious it was over. And now he’s lost, and lost his soul, Yugi gets really upset. And Yami isn’t going to stand for this.

Dramatic lighting and poses! He calls Pegasus out and Pegasus recognises him as “other Yugi”. He reminds him that he’ll only duel the winner of the tournament, and Yami tells him he knows that, but he’s coming for him.

No one fucks with Yami’s boyfriend friend rival and gets away with it.

The Wicca/Sweep series by Cate Tiernan and why you should read it

OKAY SO.

I’ve just reread the Wicca books by Cate Tiernan (the series is called Sweep in the US). Mostly as something soothing (rereading is always soothing, it’s like reading with your eyes closed. kind of.) and because I’d been eyeing it for a while. And I’ve gotten a big rush of how much I like it, and I wish it had a bigger fandom (what is it with me and tiny fandoms lately, srsly). So here is the breakdown of what it is and why you should check it out. 

The Plot

So I’ve recced this to a few people irl, and unfortunately as we live in a post-twilight literary world, there are a few things I need to make clear straight away. First, though you could legit describe this series as “like twilight but good”, it actually predates Twilight easily. Second, I’m gonna spoil a plot twist because if you don’t know this is going to happen there is no reason to keep reading - or, like, there was when I was a teenager and didn’t make Twilight-ish assumptions about what was going on, but I can very easily see people junking the books without getting past this first bit. So here we go:

Meet Morgan! Morgan is our protagonist. She’s a tad stereotypical - she’s not traditionally pretty, kind of awkward, sixteen years old, and a maths nerd. Her family is catholic, and so is she, though she doesn’t seem particularly intense about it. Her best friend is Bree, and Bree is one of those automatically stunning girls. Morgan is cool with this, everything is fine. Except this year at school, there is a Hot New Mysterious Boy called Cal. Morgan gets a super crush on him, but assumes there is No Hope.

Cal organises a party, and it turns out he’s a witch. They do a circle, and Morgan basically feels like the whole world just opened up inside her brain. To cut a long story short, it turns out she’s actually got a super-awesome magical inheritance. Also, Cal kisses her and they start dating.

At this point, if you’re reading her and Cal with an eye on the relationship dynamics, it doesn’t look great. Cal never reaches Cullenish levels of unsettling behaviour (at least, not while they’re actually still dating), but there are a few red flags, particularly as Morgan becomes more isolated from her family and friends. But Morgan thinks everything is very romantic. Cal is her rock. And what did she do to deserve this? She is very lucky. Uh huh. Some of you are probably shaking your heads now, and thinking H, why are you telling me I should read fifteen books of this relationship?

But NO, dear reader. Because in BOOK THREE, Cal tries to kill Morgan (that escalated quickly) and then becomes, basically, a villain for the rest of the series. Because it turns out all those red flags were written in as red flags and not as “romance”. And then we get Morgan dealing with this and steadily becoming a stronger person and it is AWESOME.

Flaws

Okay, it’s not the most perfect book series in the world. It gets kind of purple-prosey in places, and there are definitely places where I noticed that virtually every chapter ends with either a ^gasp^ cliffhanger or with “omg magic love hearts hearts my soul”. So there’s that. To be honest, to me it mostly reads fairly realistically - ie, “I am sixteen and I genuinely feel this intensely about this” - but I would totally get that as a stylistic thing that’s gonna put some people off. Also, it has the “Friends” problem - I enjoy all the relationship stuff, that’s done really well, but the logistics of how the fuck half of these people are actually paying rent (and international airfare) are kind of out the window. 

GOOD STUFF

SO MANY THINGS I LOVE ABOUT THESE BOOKS. I’m gonna make a list. 

1. MORGAN. Morgan’s a great protagonist. She starts out a bit snippy, a little too keen to compare herself to other girls, and kind of insecure. Across the series she slowly develops her confidence - and although one of the last scenes involves her getting kind of dressed up, it’s not ever really made out to be about her appearance. It’s all about how she feels about herself. And she’s a great balance between scared-as-shit by everything that’s going on and confident enough to put her foot down when she needs to.

2. Hunter Niall. So Hunter is (spoiler) Morgan’s second and more-permanent boyfriend. Hunter’s great. The series is set in America, and Hunter is British, somewhat ambiguously (which I find mildly hilarious lol). My favourite thing about Hunter is probably that Morgan, externally, takes a while to warm up to him - he’s a bit reserved, a bit intense, and she’s not quite sure what he thinks about her to start with, but you get a lot of gush from Morgan about how she feels about him. And then, suddenly, in book ten, you get Hunter’s Po. And you are hit in the face with a page and a half of “so that’s morgan. she’s my girlfriend. she’s so great. she’s so badass. oh god I made my hair stick up funny. oh god. she’s smilling look at that smile isn’t she incredible wow. okay okay I’ve got this. I’m cool. hey morgan. hi. I love you. omg she’s so amazing” because Hunter is a GINORMOUS DORK and he just loves her SO MUCH. And idk, I found that really refreshing to read as a teen? Which brings me on to:

3. Morgan and Hunter’s relationship. They screw up a lot, they upset each other, but they always talk it out and figure it out. And I’m so convinced by their relationship? Like, because it’s such a slow burn, it feels more realistic to me. There’s no “our eyes met and BAM” even though this universe does include the concept of soulmates. They’re both absolutely smitten with each other, and it’s not subtle, and they have to do quite a lot of negotiation to get their dynamic the way they’re both happy with it, and idk you folks it just makes me so happy. Because it feels real, purple-prose and all.

4. Alisa! Alisa is one of the only other characters who gets narration. She’s a younger girl who finds out something about her own family, and she gets a whole book to herself (and splits one other book half and half with Morgan). She has a very similar story to Morgan’s in some ways, but she’s still great to read, and I really enjoy her books when I get to them. She’s also half-Latina, I think. 

5. CONSENT IS A THING IN THIS UNIVERSE. LIKE, PEOPLE TALK ABOUT IT AND IT’S A THING THAT IS DISCUSSED AND THAT IT CAN GET MESSY WHEN PEOPLE ARE CONFUSED AND FEEL PRESSURED AND PRESSURE IS BAD and also if you’re morgan’s little sister and someone is pressuring you to have sex she will literally hit them with a baseball bat so there’s that too

6. LGBT rep - it’s not central, there aren’t main characters who are LGBT. But Morgan has an aunt who has a girlfriend, and they feature fairly regularly; and another two female members of Morgan and Hunter’s coven end up dating at one point. Unfortunate incident of “the b-word” being clearly avoided, as it’s likely that Sky and Raven are both bisexual, but it’s never absolutely written on the page. It’s not a whole lot, but I really liked that this was actually in here, and it’s just a normal part of the world? Like, this is a het romance story, but that didn’t mean that EVERYTHING ELSE had to be het. Which I appreciate.

And as a bonus to all of this stuff, you’ve got battles against the forces of evil, world-saving, and the logistical problems of trying to do those two things while keeping your grades up. A few bum notes, but all around a great little series that doesn’t get nearly as much credit as it deserves, and is a lot funnier and takes itself less seriously than the tag for it on tumblr might suggest (sorry folks, but it’s literally two-thirds full of melodramatic quotes. bring out the humour!). 

So yeah. Magic, Actually Decent Relationships, Romance, Teen Angst, Fun. One of my favourite teen series. 

H

The 5 Best Dolenzmith episodes of The Monkees

- as requested by Anon

This is honestly really really hard!! It doesn’t help that it’s been so long since I sat down to properly watch The Monkees, so I’m probably missing loads of little moments that occur throughout loads of episodes. Mike and Micky getting super close is a really common occurance, which is why it’s hard to sort of whittle them down. Like there are some episodes that are littered with Dolenzmith moments, and other’s that’ll just have one or two really big Dolenzmith scenes.

This is more going by moments, as opposed to full-episodes, if that makes sense. Because I’m having to base it off memory, but I’m hoping these will sort of cover Mike and Micky’s relationship quite well.

In no particular order….

1. The Chaperone

This episode features probably the most iconic Dolenzmith moment, which is their near-“kiss”. Like under no circumstances would two people ever need to be that close unless they were about to bump uglies, you dig?

Originally posted by pippielongstocking

But that isn’t the only moment. The moment when Micky first reveals himself as Mrs Arcadian, Mike certainly looks more shocked than anyone else… shocked because he LOVEs IT

2. Hillbilly Honeymoon

This episode has a few seriously cute M&M moments.

Look at them getting ridiculously close here

And then there’s this whole sequence where they’re basically a man (Mike) and wife (Micky) with a (pig) baby

LOOK AT THESE DORKS

3. Alias Micky Dolenz

This is an often forgotten Dolenzmithy ep, mainly for the whole beginning sequence. Mike man-handles Micky a fair bit at the start of this episode when he’s trying to get Mick to report his “attack”.

And then there’s the bit in the station where they’re super-close (duh), lots of touching, and the moment when Mike just stares at Micky while Mick describes himself as “handsome”

And then when they recoil in shock and basically hold hands

And then there’s Mike shaking his head when the detective guy suggests Micky impersonates Babyface, telling Micky it’s a bad idea and basically wanting to protect him. And then after that when Mike just randomly decides to pet Micky’s face?????????

There are waaaaay too many examples of M&M being touchy-feely with each other, and it certainly seems like Mike especially can’t keep his hands off Mickles. I don’t blame him because WHAT A CUTIE.

4. Monstrous Monkee Mash

First up you have the moment where Micky freaks the-fuck-out when he thinks that that book wants him to be a vampire, and Mike just stays perfectly calm and explains to Mick that that’s not the case; “it’s not you, it’s everbody.” I like to think this is how they roll: Micky freaks out and Mike remains completely calm and unfazed by Micky’s moment of madness and quietly and calmly reassures him until Micky manages to calm down.

But here they are being rather close while reading the book

Then there’s the bit where they’re left just the two of them and Micky is really scared

I mean are these two even real??????

Here’s them looking like they’re about to make out again

Can they not for like 5 seconds???

Also is it just me who LOVES the way Mike calls Micky’s name? Like there are a few episodes where he calls “Miiick, Miiiick” and I just…I fucking love it bYE

Oh and here’s a bonus pic of Mike touching Micky while Micky appears to be holding his crotch?????

ALSO. Although this scene didn’t make the episode, the “Save the Texas Prairie Chicken” outtake from this ep (that appeared at the end of Monkees on the Wheel) is probably my most favourite Micky and Mike moment;

gifs courtesy of heycarrieanne <3

These two just crack each other up the moment they look at each other and it is the cutest and funniest thing in the world ever, it makes my heart so happy whenever I watch it

5. ???????

Honestly, I’m stuck with the last one, purely because I’m torn between several episodes! So instead I’m going to just sort of do a little compilation of some great Dolenzmith moments…

Son of a Gypsy

This is a prime example how well these two work together and bounce off of each other - and their chemistry is just undeniable, and some of the greatest highlights of The Monkees is when Micky and Mike work together like this! And again…not only is it funny and cute and charming, but they’re SUPER TOUCHY FEELY and once again decide to hold hands. Blessss.

The Case of the Missing Monkee

If this doesn’t prove that Mike can’t keep his hands off Micky, I don’t know what does. He does give Davy a helping hand up the ladder too, but not by grabbing Davy’s arse?! If you watch this scene closely it looks like Mike hesitates for a milisecond before thinking “bugger it” and then just copping a major feel of Micky’s backside. Again, I ain’t judging. Micky has a good bum.

Monkees on the Wheel

To be fair, both Peter and Davy are touching Micky here, comforting him as he’s upset that he doesn’t have “magic fingers”. Mike, however, is the only one who pets Micky’s head/face.

Don’t Look a Gift Horse in the Mouth

Because this is normal behaviour, isn’t it?????

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Micky is doing his werewolf impression (as you do), and Mike is not only completely unfazed by it, but he salts his hand so Micky can eat it ???????? And he doesn’t even care, as if this is an every day occurance????!! He almost looks happy to see that Micky is tucking into his hand????!!!!!

Also BONUS for this moment, which I seriously don’t think was scripted because of Mike’s genuine look of WTF/concern

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I’m triggering my memory/getting inspiration from coolcherrycream’s website (where most of these screen shots in this post come from!), clicking on random episodes to see all the pictures and honestly…pretty much every ep I click on has at least one scene where Micky and Mike get really really close. So I’m sort of spoilt for choice really!! Like I said, I haven’t sat down and watched many episodes of The Monkees in so long, so honestly my memory is pretty scetchy.

Monkees in the Ring

This is quite a brief scene, but it’s another example of M&M putting their heads together and working as their own little team - all the while getting freakishly close (#STANDARD). There’s also the perfect moment of them trying to climb into the boxing ring!

The Monkees Paw

This whole scene is another favourite of mine, as even though they’re playing other characters here (sort of?!) they’re still bouncing off each other and just generally being hilarious and weird <333

Honestly, I could go on and on and on, so I think I need to wrap this up now! Last year I did plan on documenting every single Dolenzmithy moment from the show, when I started my episode reviews, but that was actually so so hard because there was literally just SO MANY.

But anyway, feel free to browse my #dolenzmith tag on my blog because I’ve written extensively about these two before!

How RFA+V+Saeran react to...

Coming home to see MC fallen asleep while waiting for them. Because all of the ideas in my head somehow revolve around sleep and, let’s face it, they’re all super busy and aren’t likely to come home at a reasonable hour.

Yoosung

- He had to stay late at school for make up exams and tutoring sessions.

- You knew ahead of time that he would be home late, so you made sure to cook dinner later than usual so that it would be ready by the time he got home. But he didn’t seem to be coming home anytime soon, so you ate your food and put the rest away in the fridge.

- You sit on the couch waiting for him to come home as it gets later and later at night. You log into the messenger and scroll through the Internet for a while, trying to stay awake, but eventually you nod off.

- Yoosung comes home, takeout for the both of you in his hands, beat from his long day.

- When he sees you asleep on the couch he feels so guilty for being out so late (even if it was to better understand his classes…)

- Legit tears up a bit, because a) he’s over-tired and super emotional and b) you are just so nice and kind and beautiful and he loves you so much???

- He’s more tired than hungry so he puts the takeout away (and when he sees the food you had made for him he may or may not full on cry)

- Gently adjusts your sleeping position, careful not to wake you, grabs a blanket, and then collapses on top of you. He always sleeps best cuddled up to you.

- Is dead asleep in seconds.

- Neither of you have class the next morning so you both get to sleep in. He makes you breakfast as a thank you.

- Lots of sleepy cuddles and kisses

Zen

- He’s usually home from practice around the same time, but that particular night his director invites the whole crew out for dinner and drinks

-  wants to go home to you, but that’s not something he can really turn down. He decides to stay for a bit to be polite then leave.

- unfortunately this director is very determined (and pushy) that the crew acts like a family and ropes them all into these weird team bonding exercises.

- he gets home way later than anticipated.

- finds you at the kitchen table asleep with two (now cold) plates of dinner. His heart breaks when he thinks of you waiting for him all alone.

- checks his phone to see it had accidentally turned off and that he has several missed calls and messages from you. Gulp. Oops…

- Gently carries you to bed. Falls asleep holding you and stroking your hair.

- “MC, I’m so sorry!!!” Is determined to make it up to you. Honestly, you were pretty upset the night before but this is the first time something like this has happened and he’s so genuinely sorry that you can’t feel too mad at him.

- Takes you out on a date the next night so you don’t have to cook and promises to always call first the next time something comes up so you’ll know what’s going on.

- The next time the director tries to hold him back he pulls out the picture of you two he carries in his wallet and says, “Sorry, but I have a lovely date at home and I just can’t leave them waiting~”

- The director nearly melts (”Oh, you should invite them along too, that way we can get to know them too!” Wait wat)

Jaehee

- Honestly, she pretty much always gets home late

- You’re usually waiting for her with coffee or some baked treats so the two of you can talk about your days together.

- She really appreciates you being there for her when she gets home, but doesn’t quite realize that not everyone can live off of the same amount of sleep she does.

-So one day she comes home to see you asleep at the kitchen table. There’s a plate of sweets on the counter and a bit of flour on your cheek (which she cleans off for you)

-Realizes how much work you’ve been putting into the relationship and feels like it’s not fair to you.

- Carefully wakes you up. “MC, have you eaten dinner yet?”

- You sleepily nod and rub your eyes, “Yeah…Welcome home, Jaehee…” (She nearly loses it, omg that was so cute)

- Stern Jaehee activated! “Okay, MC. Bed.” Will not listen to your protests, you are getting your rest!

- Later she tells you that you don’t have to wait up for her every night. “MC, as much as I enjoy your company, your health and wellbeing is more important to me.”

- You both decide on which days of the week you will wait for her. They become your special nights and you both look forward to it so much.

But if you try to stay up for her on any other night, she will definitely give you a good lecture and make you go to bed. (Do not mess with Mama Jaehee).

Jumin

- He really likes coming home to you waiting for him. It makes him so happy to hear you say, “Welcome back!”

-But sometimes he comes home really late.

- And you’ll have your head laid down on the coffee table, snoring slightly, with Elizabeth the 3rd curled up in your lap and it’s the best thing he’s ever seen in his life.

- WILL take (blurry) pictures for his phone background

- Drapes his jacket over your shoulders then sits down across from you to watch you sleeping. Your sleeping face is so cute to him and he can (and will) watch it for hours until you wake up.

- If you shiver or seem uncomfortable in your sleeping position he will immediately move you to the bed (preferably with his jacket still on).

- After a few times, though, he’ll worry about how well you’re sleeping or about how late you’re staying up because of waiting for him.

- The next morning he takes the day off of the work and makes pancakes for you (he tries to make them heart shaped but they end up looking like blobs). “It seemed like you missed me last night,  so I’m going to spend all day with you so you can get the attention you need.”

- Sets a bedtime for you. If he’s not home by a certain hour you aren’t allowed to stay up and wait for him anymore, you have to go to bed.

- Tries to get back by a more reasonable and consistent time as well.

707

- He hardly ever leaves the house, to be honest. If he’s really busy, sometimes he hardly ever leaves his computer room.

- It was one of those days when he was swamped with work. You had made dinner, but you didn’t want to interrupt his work to tell him.

- Dinner was still in the oven so it would stay warm, so you sat down across from his door with your back against the wall. He had been in there for the entire day, it shouldn’t take too much longer. You’d wait for him to get out and then you could eat together.

- You fell asleep.

- s e v e r a l  h o u r s  l a t e r

- Saeyoung comes out to see you sitting outside his work room, head tilted to the side and drooling slightly.  

-He sighs a bit, then wraps you up in his hoodie and carries you to bed. You wake up slightly on the way there and sleepily blink up at him, but he gently pushes your head back onto his shoulder and you fall asleep again, cuddling into him. (He almost dies, that was illegally cute!!)

- He is #blessed

- The next morning he is not letting you get out of bed. Holds you close and sleeps nearly the whole day.

- “MC, next time you should tell me. Even if I can’t come out right away, I at least want to know if you’re waiting for me.”

V

- He gets home late from a gallery showing of his photographs. You went to the opening one and Jumin had gone to assist V that night.

- You ended up falling asleep on the couch while waiting for him to get back.

- Doesn’t really notice until he gets into the bed and you’re not there????

- Immediately gets up and starts stumbling around the house looking for you.

- “M-MC, Are you here…?”

- He gets really worried for a moment. He hadn’t looked for you when he had first come home because it was late and he hadn’t wanted to wake you but what if something seriously bad has happened?!

- “I’m coming, V. It’s okay.”

- All of the muscles in his body relax when he hears your voice. He hadn’t even realized he was tensed up.

- You apologize for scaring him but he’s totally fine now that he can hear your voice. “It’s nothing to be sorry for, MC, as long as there’s nothing wrong then I’m fine.”

- Wraps his arms a little tighter around you as he sleeps, though.

- You decide to go with him to every event after this. He doesn’t ask you to, you just decide that you’d rather be with him than wait at home all by yourself (and possibly give V a heart attack).

Saeran

-He tends to come home late at night from his job.

-You usually will sit on the couch waiting for him to come home. Sometimes you’ll fall asleep sometimes you won’t.

- He gets really grumpy and embarrassed when he comes home to you waiting up for him.  "I told you you don’t have to wait on me…if you’re going to sleep, just go to bed!“ 

- He actually is really happy seeing you waiting for him when he gets home, it’s what help him get through the day. (If you aren’t there waiting for him he’ll get really worried that something happened.)

- One night he comes home to see you asleep sitting up on the couch. He ruffles your hair slightly and smiles softly at your sleeping face.

- When you wake up you’re stretched out, using his lap as a pillow. Saeran’s arms are crossed, his sleeping face bent over yours.

- You quickly plant a kiss on his lips before he wakes up.

- He pretends to be really grumpy about it.

- "Aghk, MC, I got a crick in my neck because of you! You have to give me a shoulder massage as payment!” Will give you a kiss after you rub his shoulders, though.

- He’s not really all that mad.

- Is lowkey happy that first thing you both saw when you woke up was the other’s face. (He would never admit it, though. He doesn’t do cheesy crap like that!!)

Game of Chess(P.12)

Title: Game of Chess(P.12)
Pairing: Reader x many pairings(But seriously, many, like…the reader is so bad xD)(Dylan O’Brien mainly in the end)
Warnings: Smut, Age difference, Boss-employee relationship, cussing, murder, drug mentions, dark themes.
Summary: O’Brien’s is a large banking company that is overtaking the credit card industries. Their rival Pan Banking has been hitting the company hard with different tactics, taking their employees, lowering their costs to consume more customers. Y/N gets a job as Mr. O’Brien’s new assistant and he’s quite impressed with her, but there is a lot more to her past and Pan banking then Dylan had expected. But even in the twists and turns of this dangerous game, he might not care about the past she has.

Originally posted by 1-800-yvngthot


He had only visited a few times since Y/N started staying at Dylan’s house. He wasn’t sure she wanted to see him. Thomas had to admit though, since the secrets of Y/N being with Robbie and his plan to use her to bring down O’Brien’s, things seemed to get easier, even as they got worse.

He hadn’t been upset, at least that’s what Dylan told Thomas when he told him what happened. Dylan explained to him that he understood why she did it, Thomas did too. Even he knew how terrifying and manipulative Robbie could be. Of course he hadn’t mentioned that to Dylan and he was glad that Y/N hadn’t either. 

The truth of her relationship and Robbie’s plan being out on the table made the tension lessen and the fear that trickled in the back of Thomas’ mind disappear. Thing didn’t get better from there, however. 

Dylan had called Thomas the next day to explain what happened and both of them agreed that Robbie was to big of an influence to use the police in the situation. 

It was Dylan’s idea to pull Y/N from the company. Not because he didn’t trust her, but because he didn’t trust Robbie. He knew that eventually the Brit would come looking for her or send someone too. 

Dylan didn’t hire another assistant, any tasks that could be done over the phone or online he brought to the house for Y/N to do, but anything else he left to Thomas.

Because of this, he worked a lot longer hours then he normally did, but that didn’t bother him, not if it kept Y/N safe. It did bother Phoenix.

“You’re not coming home for dinner?” She said quietly on the phone. Her voice seemed sincere, but Thomas could detect that animosity behind it. 

He was tired. The last thing he wanted to do was go home to another argument, he wondered if he could visit Y/N and Dylan for a few hours, at least until she was asleep. “I can’t, Phoenix. I have a list piled on my desk, I have to get some of it done tonight.”

She stifled a scoff. “I just don’t understand why you are doing all this extra work for him.”

“He’s my boss, love.”

“He has an assistant.” She said and Thomas could hear her distaste of Y/N through the words. If only she knew what really happened, she might dislike her even more. 

Thomas sighed. “She’s no longer with the company, I told you that. Listen, Nyx, I’ll be home as soon as I can, I promise.” 

She lost her resolve and sighed into the phone. “I understand. I’ll put a plate in the microwave for you.”

He smiled softly. “Thanks, hun. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

There was no way that he knew she was hoping to tell him the good news when he came home for dinner. No way he could have seen the two lines on the test through the phone.

When he hung up, he pondered the list of things on his desk and decided to go grab a cup of coffee beforehand. He’d need it.


He was a bit surprised to see Y/N standing behind him when he turned around. “Y/N?” 

“Hey.” She said softly, her eyes lit up a bit with her smile. Thomas felt the tug at his heart again. The one he always felt when she smiled. 

“What are you doing here?” He was genuinely concerned. Did Dylan know she was here? 

She walked around him, heading over to the desk. “Dylan brought me. It’s dark enough out and we’re closed anyways. I wanted to get out of the house for a little.”

He nodded quietly and then she turned back towards him. “You should go home, Tommy. She sounded pretty upset.”

“I have work, Y/N.” Thomas replied, giving her a smile. “Thanks though.”

Her hand waved. “I’ll start it, get done with what I can. You need a break anyways.”

“I can’t have you do that.”

She moved to the other side of the desk and sat down. “Can’t talk me out of it, besides, I could use the distraction.”

Thomas hesitated for a moment more before smiling and grabbing his coat from the hanger. “I really appreciate it, Y/N.” 


Originally posted by sirisaacnewtmas


She nodded, smiling up at him before pulling a stack of papers in front of her. He took that as his cue to leave. He stopped at the door, turning back towards her. “I’m really sorry, Y/N.”

Her eyes caught his. “You don’t need to apologize to me.”

Again, his heart tugged before he nodded and headed out of his office. 


It was only ten minutes after Thomas left the room that my phone vibrated on the table. I pulled it over to me and opened the message. 

Can you save him this time, love?

A surge of panic flew through my body, catapulting me over the desk and out of the office. I hit the elevator button several times until opting for the stairs. Flying down them two at a time, I rushed from floor to floor, desperate to get to the parking garage. 

I flew through the doors and ran across the concreted parking lot, my eyes searched the area until I saw Thomas almost to his car. 

“Tommy!!” I screamed, hoping to get his attention, to bring him back inside. The blond stopped walking and turned towards me, just as the black car pulled in over the entrance ramp.

I screamed when the window rolled down, my feet pushing me as fast I could towards Thomas. His eyes widened when he turned to face the intruding vehicle. 

The flash from the gun was fast and loud. My ears were ringing and my eyes were brimming with tears. 

His body hit the ground moments before I got to him. “What have you done?!” I cried, but the noise fell on deaf ears as the car sped away.

I fell to his side, placing my hands over the bleeding wound. “Tommy?!” I sobbed, brushing the blood splattered hair from his face. He choked out a whimper before reaching a hand to touch my face.

“Stay awake, Tommy!” I whimpered, fishing my phone from my pocket. I dialed 911 and looked around, praying someone would find us. “Please help me! My friends been shot! Please, we’re at O’Brien’s…I-In the parking garage. Hurry!”

When I hung up, I dropped the phone and put pressure back on the gunshot. “Tommy…Oh god…I’m so sorry.”

His thumb swiped across my cheek. “I’m okay. Don’t cry.”

I cried. My head fell to his chest as I sobbed into it, listening to his heartbeat until it slowed, until it stopped.

Temporary Affairs

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Chapter o9.  Chicken Feet  

“When you said you were going to make a scene, I didn’t know you were actually going to faint,” Jongin laughed through the phone. 

You made me faint, Oppa!  Man up and take responsibility,” you replied, thrashing your legs around in bed. 

“That was hilarious,” he continued to laugh.

“It was mortifying!  It’s going to be all over the newspapers in the morning!” you whined, only making him laugh louder. 

“Oppaaaaaaaa,” you wailed. 

“Go to bed,” he said and you could still hear hints of chuckling. 

“I am in bed,” you spoke, pouting. 

“Then go to sleep.  I’ll pick you up in the morning,” Jongin said.

“By morning you really mean afternoon, right?” you asked and he succumbed to another fit of laughter.  Were you really that funny?

“I’ll see you tomorrow.  Good night,” he said.

“Good night,” you replied and hung up. 

You rolled around bed, in your pjs, trying so very hard to fall asleep but insomnia was taking you captive.  Why did he kiss you?  He probably didn’t hear me tell him to kiss me on the cheek.  I mean, the crowd was pretty loud.  But the thumping of your heart told you otherwise.  Pabo.  Jongin, Pabo!  But his lips were so soft and sexy and sweet and…NO ________ah, staph.  Staph.    

Despite not getting an ounce of sleep, you got up from bed completely energized.  Giddily, you dug through your wardrobe to pick the prettiest and cutest dress of the bunch.  You slipped on the mint green flowy dress and braided your hair so it looked like a cascading waterfall.  As you bid your mother farewell, you threw on some tall stilettos.  You know…just in case you wanted to kiss him, you didn’t have to tiptoe.

 

The moment you walked out of the house, Jongin was already there, leaning against his car with crossed arms.  Oh you, stop looking so handsome. #^$T##%^%^ 

As always, he opened the passenger door for you and you got in. 

“So, what’s the occasion?  Why are you so dressed up?” he asked, amused. 

Oh, just a date with the world’s most handsome man a.k.a. my fiancé.  Biotches, step aside.

 

“Oh, nothing.  I just felt like it,” you half-lied, “Where are we going?”

“You’ll see…” he teased and you pouted. 

Now that you finally observed, Jongin was quite dressed down today compared to his regular suit and tie.  He had on a gray sweater and his hair appeared soft, his bangs covering his forehead.  I still want to run my fingers through it. 

While you were busy gawking at him, he had already parked the car.

“_______ah, we’re here.  You can stop staring at me now,” Jongin said, turning off the engine of the car. 

Omg.  You hid your face behind your hair.  Laughing, he got out of the car and opened the door for you to get out.  With a face of puzzlement, you looked around to guess where your destination was.  The area was populated with street stalls and small cafés.  You turned to him questionably.  He slipped his hand into yours and pulled you to follow him.  And even though your stilettos allowed you to see Jongin from a new height, they were starting to hurt like crazy.  You hid your grimace from your fiancé. 

He stopped in front of a fried chicken stall. 

“Here?” you asked.

“Yep,” he replied, pulling out a seat for you to sit on. 

The waiters were very friendly and generous.  They laughed and talked with the two of you, even offering to gift you guys extra wings.  Your gaze fell on Jongin as he smiled genuinely at the waiter’s words.  Unknowingly, you found yourself grinning as well. 

“Does your girlfriend not like you eating fried chicken?” you asked him while gobbling down a wing.

“I don’t know.  Do you not like me eating fried chicken?” he replied also digging into his meal. 

“No.  I love fried chicken,” you responded, confused.

“Then why did you ask me?” he spoke with food in his mouth. 

“Because I thought she must not like it so that’s why you brought me here.  You know, since I apparently have a diet of a child,” you answered. 

He laughed, “I’m glad you’re actually admitting it”. 

You pouted and pointed at your attire, “But I’m starting to regret wearing this”.  

“Nah, you look beautiful as always,” he casually complimented.  Argh.  You flirt, you don’t understand the feels I get when you say things like this. 

Staring at him, you sighed and placed your unfinished chicken back onto the plate.  He probably doesn’t even see you as a girl because he’s treating you like some guy friend, eating fried chicken with him while watching a football game.  Jongin would never do that in front of his little girlfriend. 

“Are you full already?” he asked.

You nodded and pushed your plate over to him.

“I’m going to go to the bathroom,” you mumbled. 

At the bathroom, you immediately took your shoes off.  A streak of red lined your Achilles heel.  You touched it and instantly winced in pain.  What a great way to add salt to my wound. 

“What’s the point?  We’re not real anyway,” you said to your reflection in the mirror. 

Cinderella will have to wake up one day and give back her Prince Charming to another girl. 

 

Sluggishly, you walked back out to reunite with your fiancé.  You discovered him with two plates of bones as he rubbed his stomach in satisfaction.

“Let’s go, I’m done,” he said.

You waited patiently as he went into the bathroom to wash his oily hands.  A teenage girl walked passed and stopped in front of you.

“Hey, are you _______ _______?” she asked. 

“Mmhm…” you replied.

“Omgosh, your fiancé is so hot,” she confessed. 

You clenched your fist under the table. 

Faking a smile, you replied, “Thanks, I’ll tell him you said that”. 

“You guys don’t match at all.  He should marry someone prettier,” she quipped. 

Omg, what did this little biotch just say?  You clawed at the bottom of the table to prevent yourself from clawing at her face. 

“That’s good to know,” you tried to calmly reply. 

Just as you were about to explode, Jongin returned from his bathroom break.  You watched helplessly as the fangirl rubbed her hands all over your fiancé.  Dammit, biotch.  I haven’t even touched those places before, how dare you.  You narrowed your eyes as Jongin semi-flirted with her. 

Angry, you grabbed your purse and headed out.  You threw on a pair of sunglasses and stalked off, ignoring the painful sensation of your heels getting sliced more and more with every step you took.  Warm liquid dripped down your shaded eyes and you roughly wiped them away with your hands.  You don’t even understand why you were so upset.  It’s not like she said anything but the truth. 

“_________ah!” Jongin called, chasing after you. 

As soon as he caught up, he grabbed you by the arm.  You flung him off angrily. 

“Hey, hey.  Why are you so angry?” he asked. 

You don’t respond.   

“Why do you have sunglasses on?  It’s winter,” he questioned, laughing at your fashion sense. 

You ignored him again, running over to the street corner to hail a taxi. 

“Hey.  What’s wrong?” Jongin asked, his tone desperate. 

He slammed the taxi door shut and waved for the driver to leave.  Still, you ignored him, walking over to another street corner.  Suddenly, he scooped you off your feet and threw you over his shoulder.  You thrashed around childishly but he doesn’t let you down until he was at his car.  Gently, he placed you down onto the passenger seat. 

“Wait for me right here,” he said and ran off. 

You crossed your arms and cried in the car.  Why were you crying?  You had no idea why you were crying but you were.  Angrily, you kicked the car seat and buried your face into your inner elbow. 

Jongin returned with a plastic bag in his hand.  He took the contents out and threw the rest into the backseat.  You stubbornly continued to ignore him, until he lifted your leg onto his lap.  Gently, he took off your heels.  You hissed and finally looked up.  In his hands was a box of bandages.  Leaning down to your feet, he blew on your cut a few times before sealing it with a band-aid.  He patted his lap and you obediently lifted your other leg for him to examine. 

“Don’t ever wear those shoes ever again.  I’m going to bring them home and burn them,” he said angrily as he wrapped up the other cut. 

You let out a soft giggle.  Jongin looked up at you, relieved that you were happier. 

“Then how am I supposed to walk?” you asked, sniffling back your tears. 

“I’ll carry you,” he immediately responded.

Butterflies flutter in your stomach and you burst out in a fit of laughter, already forgetting why you were mad in the first place.    

         

a/n: I can imagine you guys narrowing your eyes at the screen and thinking, “The longer she writes about them being fluffy and lovey-dovey that means the obstacle is going to be super angsty”.  (╯ಊ╰) MUHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA maybe…maybe not  #trollchenpossessed

Soo glad you guys liked the last chapter :D It’s my favorite along with a few of the later ones hehe. 

Hamilton LIVE Details! (1/20/16 Matinee)

Act One: Part 2/2

Act One Recap: [Part 1] [Part 2]
Act Two Recap: [Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]

Right Hand Man

  • Okay so before Washington comes out or the song starts or anything, there is a redcoat who is marching around the turntable, tapping an invisible snare drum to the beat of the snare and a flute rendition of seabury’s part of “farmer refuted” that the orchestra is playing 
  • as another ensemble member walks by, and the readcoat snaps her neck and the music drops. Cue “ British Admiral Howe’s got troops on the waterrrrr
  • hamilton and hamilsquad are center stage doing ‘rise up’
  • burr introduces washington to the entire crowd and he is SO AMPED 
  • washington has a sword when he first comes out, and he’s with a whole group of dancers and ensemble members 
  • ((also it was Sydney Harcourt on for Washington and he was AMAZING.. I hadn’t realized it wasnt chris until i heard his voice right here and was like ‘woah his voice is way deeper than chris’))
  • he does his solo bit in center stage with a spotlight on him, the ensemble frozen (if im remembering correctly) around him
  • as the song progresses, more and more ensemble members ‘die’ and their numbers diminish 
  • hamilsquad is walking across the stage toward the front stage right oak is right behind ham doing these big aggressive “BRAH!”s and its just way cool 
  • then ham’s like LIKE STEAL THE CANONS and shit get’s REAL
  • at every “BOOM!” the entire ensemble reacts
  • “ARE THESE THE MEN WITH WHICH I AM TO DEFEND AMERICA?!” is the first time you really see washington lose his cool on stage. he quickly collects himself for “we ride at midnight”
  • washington sits down at a desk and is reading through some pamphlets and writing some stuff
  • enter arron burr, who is looking at the audience with his hand on his forehead in a salute as asks for permission to speak and he introduces himself 
  • wash literally does not look up at burr one time, he just kinda continues about his business as burr is talking. he only looks up at burr after he says “i admire how you keep firing on the british from a distance”
  • and then of course hamilton comes in, hand on forehead in salute as well and at “we keep meeting” burr flashes hamilton a super fake smile and then continues right along with washington
  • washington is like “burr!” and burr perks up a bit and turns to him and then washington is like “close the door on your way out” and the whole crowd was like OOOOOOOHH
  • at “hamitlon, how come no one wan get you on their staff?” ham gives the most indigent sounding “SIR!” and then again at “now why are you upset? “im not…” and he sounds like a kid who’s trying to hold back tears and try not to sound upset. and as he says it, he cant even look at washington, he just looks down at his feet and shuffles them a bit
  • at “i am not throwing away my shot” he very reluctantly takes a pen from washington and takes his desk and starts writing 
  • he walks up stage with a parchment and pen in hand as he does “ill write to congress and tell ‘em we need supplies”
  • sorry this was so long but i LOVE this song 

A Winter’s Ball

  • “watch this obnoxious, arrogent, loud-mouth bother” made the crowd crack up
  • at “we’re reliable with the LADIES!” the crowd died and all of hamilsquad in the back join in for burr’s “LADIES!”
  • burr is like front stage and hamilsquad is behind them and there are some ensemble members dancing around
  • at “martha washington named her feral tomcat after him” alex runs up behind burr and like peeks over his shoulder and says to the crowd “thats true!” all excitedly its so cute
  • at the “heys” they’re on the turntable like shuffling from stage right to stage left and hamilsquad is like winking and making finger guns at the crowd its great 
  • also on hamilton’s first “hey” the crowd DIED

Helpless

  • THE SEAMLESS TRANSITION
  • enter schyler sisters, angelica is center stage with ham and he kisses her hand and they go off to the staircase together
  • when she introduces eliza to hamilton she says “my sister!” in the most giddy, proud sounding voice ever it was so cute they are so cute i just UGH
  • eliza at center stage with everyone around her. the part from the video was p much the same  
  • at “one week later” the sisters go to the front of the stage all together and eliza is between peggy and angelica
  • “im just saying if you really loved me you would share him” eliza shoves a letter into angelica’s chest and yells “HA!” 
  • at the back of the turntable is hamilton facing phillip (played by andrew for my performance!) like very gently and earnestly talking to him with his hands behind his back
  • they shake hands and hamilton smiles the most genuine, excited smile and runs over to eliza. they share a kiss. he goes to angelica and embraces her, he hugs peggy and then turns to the audience and DOES THE STANKY LEG TO CELEBRATE. 
  • then he turns around and sees phillip offering him a drink and he takes it and shares a drink with his soon to be father in law
  • he is standing center-stage looking right into eliza’s eyes at “i dont have a dollar to my name”
  • at “angelica tried to take a bite of me” eliza like turns around and looks for angelica so ham spins her around and is like “no stress, my lovefor you”
  • i think lafayette and angelica walk together, then laurens and peggy, and then MULLIGAN COMES OUT AND HE’S THE FUCKING FLOWER GIRL AND EVERYONE DIED
  • they walk down the aisle together and share a kiss at front stage and its so!!! cute!!!

Satisfied

  • eliza and hamilton are front stage left and angelica and peggy are center stage, with ensemble members all around them. they all raise a glass 
  • the sisters are like always kissing each other on the cheek and hugging and being so lovely in general
  • TO THE REVOLUTION hamilsquad goes IN they are so hyped
  • ALSO FOR THOSE OF YOU WONDERING HOW THEY DO THIS PART ON STAGE: renee stops singing from the first “rewind” until the last “I remember that night i just might” and a track plays as the entire ensemble goes through abbreviated dances from “helpless” and “sisters” in fucking reverse. like, lifts in reverse. it’s amazing i couldnt contain myself 
  • ham and angelica are center stage at “you strike me as a women who has never been satisfied” looking right at each other and they keep getting closer to each other and at “where’s your family from” their like practically touching noses theyre so close to each other and its this very intimate, tender moment and then “unimportant” he sorta pulls away a bit but then pulls himself back in close again 
  • at the 3 fundamental truths im pretty sure everyone else on stage freezes whenever she is speaking 
  • “but when i fantasize at night it’s alexander’s eyes” she like looks longingly at him as he stands frozen with eliza and looks so sad and the whole audience goes like dead quiet and it was reALLY SAD
  • then back to the wedding and she just looks so sad and i cry 

Story of Tonight (Reprise)

  • they are. SO DRUNK.
  • like stumbling across the stage and grabbing on to each other for support and it’s so great omg 
  • they get to stage left and the guys are singing and its wonderful
  • “there’s hope for OUR ASS, AFTER ALL!” laurens like points at himself and looks around at the guys and they all laugh and join in singing
  • “to the newly not poor of us!” mulligan like busts a move center stage. he’s like thrusting and the rest of the guys join in itS HYSTERICAL
  • burr comes in and hamilsquad is like “god not this guy” and tell him to spit and burr is like “nah” and lafayette’s like “you are the worst, burr”
  • “i wish i had your command instead of manning george’s journal” “no you dont” “YES, I DO” hamilton like stands on his toes and gives the most annoyed look its great
  • laurens keeps getting closer and closer to burr at “well i head you got a special someone” and keeps getting closer until he’s like almost up his nose at “what are you trying to hide, burr?” 
  • burr looks so uncomfortable and he’s like trying to back away but laurens just keeps drawing in closer with the biggest dopey grin on his face and then finally ham’s like “gooDBYE GUYS”
  • “she’s married” the little old lady behind me goes “mmm and her friend goes “oooh” and then “she’s married to a british officer” “oh, shit…” the crowd DIES
  • “congrats again alexander, smile more” he just sounds so genuine like “pls alex slow down and take a moment to just be happy and satisfied with what you have. you are so blessed to be where you are right now just take a minute to let it all in and smile about it” and hamilton’s like “i will never understand you” and i SOB BECAUSE HE NEVER WILL UNDERSTAND. HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND THAT IT’S OKAY TO STOP MOVING FORWARD EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE AND JUST TAKE IN WHAT’S AROUND YOU AND SMILE ABOUT IT INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE ‘GOGOGOGOGOGO’ ALL THE TIME AND BECAUSE HE NEVER TAKES A MOMENT TO SEE WHAT HE HAS HE MISSES OUT ON SO MUCH OF THE JOY IN LIFE AND I CRY FOR THE 13TH TIME THAT DAY
  • i’ll see you on the other side of the war i cry again and the lady behind me goes “oh…” gently and sadly to herself because on the other side of the war theYE ENEMIES I CRY

Wait for It

  • it’s just leslie center stage, standing totally still. the entire ensemble is watching him from the perimeter of the stage. all eyes on him. it was amazing
  • it was the most surreal moment tbh because the music is so light and delicate comparitively speaking to the songs that preceed it and so the whole crowd is like hanging on his every word
  • plus his voice is so soft and contained at the beginning of the song and we’re all hanging on his every word, everyone watching him and it’s literally as though the entire world is watching him to see what he’s gonna do
  • ensemble is around him to join in and harmonize for the second verse, but like all attention is still on him
  • “but if there’s a reason im still alive when everyone who loves me has died, im willing to wait for it” the lady behind me gasped 
  • the pause before the big WAIT FOR IT i like grasped my armrests and at “I AM INIMITABLE, I AM AN ORIGINAL” i like fistpumped
  • he looks right up at the upper mezzanine at that line and he legit looks right at me and i almost DIED
  • HIS VOICE IS SO GORGEOUS I CANT DESCRIBE HEARING IT LIVE IT JUST
  • “what is it like in his shoes?” 
  • when everything comes down for “hamilton doesnt hesitate, he exhibits no restraint” and the delicate piano is playing the whole crowd is back hanging on his every word (the woman behind me sniffled at this point)
  • i cried
  • the crowd clapped and cheered for so long

Stay Alive

  • hamilton is sitting center stage left at a desk, writing with his glasses on 
  • eliza is on a balcony singing “stay aliiiiive”
  • and a redcoat is front stage right with a musket. a women is dancing behind him as he lays aim at hamilton, and she portrays a slow-moving bullet which passes right over him 
  • washington like storms in and is pacing around and ham is standing still
  • “i ask for french aid” lafayette is like all worried
  • “i stay at work with hamilton” he like walks over to hamilton and its super gay and just. listen. they are so gay at this point i would seriously hope no one is trying to deny it
  • washington is holding a pamphlet out for hamilton to sign at “and everyday ‘sir entrust me with a command’ and at “No.” sydeny goes to roll up the paper and almost drops it so he had to quickly recover 
  • “instead of me, he promotes *charles lee*” and lee like basically skips out and stands at front stage right for ‘im a general, wheeeEEEEE!!!” and the crowd is hysterical
  • washington is up on the stage right balcony and lee is at center stage at battle of monmouth and washington is literally like “what the actual fuck are you doing?!” he looks so annoyed omg
  • there is a bigger pause between “have lafayette take the lead” and hamilton’s “yes, sir!” in the show and you can actually see his shoulders drop a bit before he stands at attention and agrees to washington’s request
  • lee goes up to the center balcony and starts ranting and a spotlight is on him and he gets so annoyed and leans over the balcony railing and basically spits at washington at “go back to planting tobacco at mt. vernon”
  • sydney delivered his next line with an emphasis on “history” rather than the way jackson emphasizes “wrong” and i just really liked that subtlety. i feel like sydney plays a different washington and i quite love it tbh
  • ((like: “dont do a thing. history will prove him wrong” rather than: “dont do a thing, history will prove him wrong”)) i just thought it was really nice 
  • laurens like embraces hamilton at the end of the song it’s so wonderful

Ten Duel Commandments 

Meet Me Inside

  • lee throws his pistol aside and falls and is clutching his side and burr is like “yes he yields????” like almost as if to say ‘what the actual fuck did you think??”
  • laurens is like so HYPED UP and he goes over to hamilton and is like jumping up and down like a boxer who’s just won a match and is ready for more 
  • “im satisfied” he delivers so strongly and aggressively i LOVE
  • lee is like staggering around stage 
  • washington is so angry
  • at “meet me inside” the lady behind me went “oooooh” 
  • from this point on it was different from how i had the scene storyboarded out in my head but it was so much better omg 
  • hamilton and washington are standing front stage left and both looking out at the audience, not at each other. washington is on hamilton’s left (audience’s right)
  • “son-”  “dont call me son” hamilton looks at the ground in annoyance, washington is still looking at the audience
  • hamilton looks back up at the audience”this war is hard enough without infighting” 
  • “lee called you out, we called his bluff…” he still isnt looking at washington. 
  • “you solve nothing!” washington turns to look at hamilton “you aggrevate our allies to the south!” hamilton still cant look at him, he’s still looking at the audience when he says “youre absolutely right, john shoulda shot him in the mouth, that would’ve shut him up”
  • wash walks around behind and paces until he is standing on hamilton’s right (audience’s left) 
  • “son-” “im notcha son” ham is still standing upright and looking out at the crowd, but you can see in his body language he’s getting more and more angry with each second. like closer to exploding. his shoulders draw in ever so slightly and his fists clench a bit
  • he interrupts washington and yells to the crowd “charles lee! thomas conway! these men take your name, and they rake it through the mud”
  • “my name’s been through a lot, i can take it” - sydney’s emphasis is different here than jackson’s version. i loVE IT
  • “well i dont have you name, i dont have your titles” - the live version of this is so much better than the original cast recording tbh because you can hear how much it’s killing hamilton. he’s like almost pleading with him and his voice breaks at one point and it sounds like he’s almost about to cry
  • at “but if you–” “no!” sydney like drags out the “no!” so it sounds more like he’s saying “no, are you kidding me?!” rather than how jackson plays it very short and to the point
  • he finally snaps out of standing still and facing forward at “i am more than willing to die!” by turning to look at washington, who is still pacing around him. washington stop and pleads with him, and for the first time in this song since “meet me inside” they are looking at one another as they speak
  • as washington keeps talking alex is getting more and more tense until finally “CALL ME SON ONE MORE TIME!” he legit gets right up in washington’s face and presses his forehead again his and you can see him holding back a punch. like, his fists are clenched behind him and he’s standing on his toes to seem taller and breathing so heavily that even from the rear mezz i could see his chest rising and falling 
  • gently and calmly washington goes “go home, alexander” while alex is still right up in his face. and alex falls back onto his feet from standing on his toes and just looks at him “that’s an order from your commander” alex unclenches his fists and drops his shoulders, looks up at him and whispers “sir…” and sydeny bellows out a great big “GO. HOME!” and alex looks so sad and im just like :’((((
  • it was all just so intense and so well played and i love it so much holy shit (i just really like when characters who have been bottling up their temper let loose and have that one thing that pushes them over the edge and they explode and its intense i just love it)

That Would Be Enough

  • eliza walks up and is holding her belly and looking tenderly at it as she speaks to hamilton
  • they go over to a bench and hamilton sits down and eliza is walking around him and hamiton’s crying and im soBBING
  • “will you relish being a poor man’s wife, unable to provide for your life?” his voice breaks twice during this and it kILLS ME
  • eliza sits next to him and he kisses her hand. he’s still crying and she’s like holding his shoulder and arm and trying to comfort him and it is so cUTE GOD
  • also phillipa’s VOICE LIKE GODDAMN

Guns and Ships

  • burr is up on the stage left balcony 
  • and at LAFAYETTE he jumps up onto a high table and is rapping up there and i was like ‘WHOOOO!!!” and it’s amazing omg   
  • at “guns, and ships” he jumps down on the “guns” and washington walks on stage 
  • the lady behind me went “whoa!”
  • “we can end this war at yorktown” he’s looking right as washington, and the rest of his part is delivered like “c’mon dude, get real. you know this is what we need”
  • when washington goes “i know” sydney plays it like super defeated sounding, like “i know, i know…”
  • washington writes his letter to hamilton and all the ensemble members are lined up from the bottom of the stairs up the stairs and around the balcony, and during washington’s solo part they pass it from member to member until it reaches hamilton 

History Has Its Eyes On You

  • he’s talking right to hamilton and ham like tears up 
  • its really intense
  • the HARMONIES
  • ham and washington are facing each other and saluting each other on the final ‘history has it’s eyes on you/me’ and its v heartfelt
  • I DONT EVEN REALLY HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY EXCEPT THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG AND I CRIED AGAIN IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL

Yorktown

  • i know that we have the video im gonna try to make this super brief so but HOLY SHIT IT IS SO FUCKING AMAZING 
  • the song opens and lafayetter and ham are standing front stage right talking to each other 
  • “immigrants, we get the job done” they high-five and the lady behind me goes “yeah, they do!” and people cheer and it’S SO GREAT OMG
  • OAK’S RAPPING THOUGH
  • “when you knock me down i get the FUCK back up again!” the crowd was like YAAASS
  • after the music drops the crowd starts cheering so loudly and then they continue with “after a week of fighting”
  • “wonder if this really means freedom” “not yet” the lady behind me went “ohhh”
  • the whole staging of everything was so good. it was my favorite number and the choreo and staging is just so fucking GOOD. 
  • ALSO THE HARMONIES
  • I CRIED THROUGH THE ENTIRE SONG
  • B Y E 

What Comes Next

  • he comes out, wearing fewer robes and instead of walking out from the rear stage entrance and just looks more annoyed in general and the crowd is hysterical again even though he hasnt even said anything yet
  • his spotlight is red and on “im so blue” he stomps his foot and the spotlight changes to blue and everyone flipped out it was so amazing
  • the lady behind me with the infectious laugh was eating it up and was hysterical thoughout the whole song and it just made the whole thing even funnier for me it was amazing
  • after “you’re on your owwwwwnnnnnn” on the very last note he like throws his arms up in the air like “what the fuck i dont even care anymore” and i DIED

Dear Theodosia

  • I SOB DURING THIS SONG
  • its just two chairs in the front left and right of the stage and burr goes over and stands behind his chair and starts singing out toward the audience and itS SO BEAUTIFUL
  • hamilton comes out for his part and as he starts singing burr sits down in his chair, hamilton standing behind his
  • hamilton is SO PROUD
  • like he looks like he’s about to cry and his voice breaks a few times and he’s just so happy and im soBBING
  • at “ill do whatever it takes” “i’ll make a million mistakes” i LOST MY SHIT and started actually sobbing and the lady next to me just looked at me with the most considerate eyes and i was like “oh dont mind me im just having a moment here”
  • at the end of the song, hamilton sits in his chair and is looking out at the audience (his son) with the happiest most gentle face you could possibly imagine 

Lauren’s Death Scene 

  • HOLY SHIT OKAY LEMME JUST TELL YOU I WAS NOT PREPARED AND IT WAS SO. SAD. 
  • okay so dear theo immediately transitions into laurens coming and standing on the far right side of the stage and sings “i may not live to see our glory” and im hystericAL
  • burr leaves and hamilton is sitting looking out at the crowd with that same pride-glowing expression and eliza walks in behind him a letter in hand and is like “alexander you have a letter”
  • he’s like “its from john laurens, ill read it later”
  • she’s like “no, its from his father”
  • and he goes “his father? will you read it to me?” and im like NO
  • and she reads it and says how laurens was killed in a small fight by retreating british troops. the war was already over. john dreamed to emancipate and recruit 3000 men for the first black military regiment. his dream of freedom for these men will never be realized and hamilton like throws his face into his hands and looks so sad and im like NO.
  • and laurens goes “tomorrow they’ll be more of usssss” and it’s so sad and beautiful and I LOSE MY SHIT
  • she goes “alexander, are you alright?” and he just goes “i have so much work to do” and i SOB

Non-stop

  • hamilton immediately goes into ‘non-stop’ and im like NO PLEASE JUST STOP AND GRIEVE FOR LIKE 5 SECONDS 
  • “burr worked next door” the crowd laughs
  • there is a table and one chair and across from them is the jury and theyre all spinning on the turntable
  • hamilton starts “gentlemen of the jury, im curious” and burr is standing sort of next to him and behind him and levi weeks is next to burr
  • burr grabs his shoulders and is like “hamilton sit down” and he sits and burr is like “that’s all you had to say” like “god, hamilton! just shut up for like five seconds!” and then “okay, ONE MORE THING!” and burr is like wtf bruh
  • hamilton stands on the table center stage and starts his solo bit and at “i practiced the law i practically perfected it and he kicks his leg in front of his other leg and it was so funny to me 
  • ‘i was chosen for the constitutional convention!” the whole ensemble is clapping quickly along with the beat of the song and hamilton jumps off the table he was on and is so giddy and child-like and it is SO CUTE
  • “who the eff is this?” the guy throws his arms up
  • he talks to burr and burr is like “wtf its the middle of the night pls go” and keeps looking back at his door as if to sorta cue hamilton to leave but ham’s like ‘NOPE I HAVE STUFF TO SAY’ 
  • at “the new US constitution” he like looks to the audience and gestures as if presenting a billboards kinda like how he ‘spells out his name’ in ‘my shot’ its v cute
  • angelica walks him around the turntable as she’s leaving for london
  • burr goes to front center stage and there are 3 chairs making a triangle behind him. the front 2 are empty and the back one is facing backwards and ham is sitting in it. spotlights on each of them and on burr
  • “in the end, the wrote 85 essays in the span of 6 months” - one lady behind me whispered “oh my god” and another one hummed in disbelief i loved it
  • when he says who wrote each number he turns the chair around and the spotlight drops on each of them
  • HAMILTON WROTE THE OTHER 51!!! he like practically screams and the audience was like OH MY GOD like you could hear the general disbelief in the audience it was so cool
  • HOW DO YOU WRITE LIKE TOMORROW WONT ARRIVE
  • HOW DO YOU WRITE LIKE YOU NEED IT TO SURVIVE
  • HOW DO YOU WRITE EVERY SECOND YOURE ALIVE? EVERY SECOND YOURE ALIVE? EVERY SECOND YOURE ALIVEEEEEE? i was like AHHHHHHHH
  • washington is up on the right side balcony and hamilton is on lower center stage and its almost like he’s asking himself “treasury or state?” and washington is like “treasury” and ham goes “lez go” with the most adorABLE SMILE YOU CAN IMAGINE 
  • then all the songs overlap and it’s basically like the most incredible feeling in the world like the heaven have been opened for you or youve reached nirvana is it just this moment of pure euphoria and bliss i cant even explain it but its even better in person than on the sountrack if you can believe that
  • he is standing front center stage, and the staircase has been moved so it’s behind him, center stage. angelica is holding his left hand and eliza is holding his right
  • on each of his two “i am not throwing away my shot”s, he aggressively pulls away from angelica and eliza and then runs up the stairs, and turns around for his final “I AM NOT THROWING AWAY MY SHOT!” and im like HOLY SHIT

END ACT ONE (part one of act one is here!)

((also i noticed that in the playbill they dont list ‘aaron burr, sir’, ‘story (reprise)’, ‘what comes next’, or ‘meet me inside’ as their own songs))

GOOD GOD IT WAS SO AMAZING

Act One Recap: [Part 1] [Part 2]
Act Two Recap: [Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]

Okay, so at a request from padawankorra I have decided to dissect anidala in a similar treatment regarding Season 2 Episode 4: Senate Spy, in which the council asks Padmé to spy on Senator Clovis cause they think he’s a separatist. 

first let me say MATT LANTER WAS SO STANDOUT IN THIS ugh (Catherine Taber too of course was wonderful as usual but omg he blows my mind every time) The banter at the beginning was amazing.  Just all the voice actors on this show unf.

Disclaimer: I’m looking through… I dunno, green tinted glasses? (whatever the opposite of rose is) here, since this post’s being kind of a response to the last post would mar these observations a bit. I’ll try to remain neutral lol. I will also give a bit of a synopsis in case you forgot what happened (it’d been a while for me since my last watch lol) so bear with me if it’s been a recent watch for you.

The first picture is Anakin surprising Padmé  because he thinks he has a day off. When Anakin is summoned back to the Jedi temple, Padmé appears somewhat disappointed. Anakin says, “Padmé, you can’t take this personally. Duty comes first, especially in wartime.” (me: uh huh yeah anakin you hear that?)

Back at the temple, Anakin tries to keep it casual when Mace Windu explains that they chose Padmé for the mission because she and Clovis have a history.

My fave part of this episode is when Obi Wan silently calls Anakin’s bullshit poker sabacc face. 

Jedi master? More like judgment face master. 

Anyway, so in this episode Anakin is tasked with convincing Padmé to accept the assignment, since she initially declined. Anakin, of course, sees this as trying to make her associate with an old flame, and walk directly into danger. Obv he ain’t wild about this. 

Fast forward to the next day where Anakin so delicately asks, “are you still mad about last night?” Padmé’s response: “Mad? I’m not mad.”  (see bitchface above in figure 4.)

The first anidala red flag I noticed in this ep (of course, I’m also looking for them and what you look for you often find) was that Padmé seems reluctant to talk about being upset with Anakin or feeling wronged by him (or regarding him, at least). I think this is an early example of how she may end up either forgiving Anakin quickly with a handwave or even convincing herself that she’s the one at fault. This kind of language, even though she might not mean it now, I think might be influencing her thought patterns until she believes those words.

Anakin tells Padmé he needs to ask her about Clovis to brief someone else he chooses for the mission, instead of her. He tells her it’s too dangerous. Her response: “I’ve been in tough situations before. It never seemed to bother you. I’ve never stopped you from facing danger!”

He says he won’t LET her go, even when she assures her own capability. Huge communication gap if you ask me. Padmé changes her mind, I think, from a spiteful place. She throws the “don’t take it personally” line back at him. Ooo burn. Not mad, huh? 

Before the council, Anakin shows he already has judged Clovis to be a huge danger, even though it hasn’t been proven yet. He’s using it to cover up his jealousy at C/P’s old relationship, I  think. 

Clovis invites Padmé to Cato Neimodia on business (also to “”“rekindle their “”””friendship”””””””). He obviously has one thing on his mind. I suppose Anakin is right to see right through this. Clovis is acting like a gross pig lol. When he kisses Padmé on the cheek before departure, we see her looking to Anakin, who returns a cute little snarl. (And where do we se this happen later. I’ll tell you. Season 6. Gold star.)

But really I have to call Anakin out on this. They have a secret marriage. What is Padmé supposed to do? Anakin’s little growl is just going to call attention to this. I mean, what does he expect? I think this could be interpreted as distrusting others with Padmé (which kind of objectifies her in a way by putting her on this pedestal). However, I’m willing to write this off as Clovis being a creep and making him uncomfortable. 

I think Anakin might say he’s trying to protect Padmé, but what I think he’s really more concerned about is protecting his monopoly on her. (again, being a slave fucks people up and he should’ve gotten therapy a long time ago)

Anakin’s childish response is to, on the shuttle, break the middle seat so they can’t sit next to each other (even though there’s a whole nother row on the other side? jeez). And he flies like an asshole to make Clovis fall over. Cute, Anakin.

Fast forward to after the Neimoidian senator poisons Padmé to get Clovis to submit to him (note that Clovis’ computer passcode is Padmé. He also seems actually hurt that Padmé simply renewed their friendship to spy on and steal from him. I think Clovis really does have genuine feelings for her. Anakin is right. Sucks to be you Anakin).

I think that Anakin being right this time conditions him to think that he’s right all the time. Not at this one particular instance. It’s one among a pattern. I think he begins to form the idea in his head that he knew all along and Padme was wrong to not trust him and she should defer to his judgment on things because he’s the chosen one and he’s always right. (Even if he is lol).

Then, Padmé again apologizes. In contrast to the next time this happens (regarding Clovis), Anakin says “For what?/// Your mission was a success.” He seems to not hold her at fault at all. Padme says, “No. I made you doubt me.” Like any of this was her fault at all?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I think Padme kind of established accidentally in his mind that Anakin can get away with doubting her.  She placed herself below him. 

Anakin’s response: “Never.” (lie? does he have a bad memory or something?)  Nevertheless this is how it should happen every time. He should be validating her always. Sigh.

But next time it comes to Clovis, Anakin doesn’t react this way. Padmé fell at his feet when she didn’t have to. She was too insecure, I think. Bottom line, Anakin is her weakness, and she’ll do anything to keep him in her life and stay in his good favor. Her being so self-sacrificing for the relationship only fed Anakin’s power complex, I think.

I don’t think that this episode would cause a lot of raised eyebrows if you’re watching it for the first time. But after watching the season 6 arc, the parallels are pretty stark, and I really realize you kind of can see it coming. 

These could arguably be the seeds of an abusive relationship: Anakin’s possessiveness and power complex, Anakin’s jealousy and immaturity, Padmé’s need to prove others wrong when she’s in the right (her own spite nettled Anakin even more), Padmé’s self-sacrificing view of greater good (which differs from Anakin’s), etc. Padmé plays right into Anakin’s sort of god complex as much as he does, I think. She glosses over his misdeeds and faults just so things will be smooth sailing again. (I’m generalizing; she doesn’t always do this, but it seems to me that she does do it here. And I think this is a key point in their relationship.) 

Now, I don’t mean to be blaming Padmé for this at all. It’s just an unfortunate mishap and communication gap. It’s tragic, you know?

Your thoughts?

anonymous asked:

What about a fluffy nygmobblepot, where they were arguing and Oswald confesses his feelings in the middle of the argument? Thank you! :)

Oh, anon, you are more than welcome!! Hmmm…let’s see. Okay, so this is a fluffier take on what should have happened the day after Oswald sees Ed and Isabella kissing at the end of 3x07.

It had been hours since Ed left the mansion and this time Oswald knew better than to assume that some sort of harm had befallen Ed. No, it was something even worse - he was out with Isabella. As he tapped his cane in agitation and let the sound reverberate through the empty halls of the great house, he admonished himself silently for his own stupidity. If he had just confessed his feelings to Ed sooner, none of this would have happened. But he had to go and pick the worst moment of all time to freeze up. Stupid, stupid Oswald.

But much to his great shock, another sound cut through the chaos of his mind beyond just the feverish tapping. It was the sound of the door opening. Just by the sound of the footsteps, Oswald could tell these hasty, long strides belonged to none other than Edward Nygma. He sighed, hating that fact that he simultaneously wanted nothing more than to stand and bask in Ed’s glow and yet also wanted nothing to do with him.

Ed entered the room humming silently to himself, shifting papers back and forth in his hands from a massive pile he had tucked under his arm. He looked up and stopped humming abruptly at the sight of Oswald, taking a step back in surprise.

“Oh, Oswald. You startled me there. Hello.” Ed smiled, regaining his composure.

“Hello to you too.” Oswald hissed.

“Something wrong? You seem tense.”

“Just thinking about last night.”

“About the Founder’s Dinner, right.” Ed said. A small shadow of shame crossed his face, “I read about it this morning. Just terrible.”

“Mmm.” Was Oswald’s only reply, his mouth pursing into a hard, angry line.

“Wait a moment. You seem angry with me. Why are you upset with me, I didn’t do anything?”

Oswald leaned forward and knitted his hands together, shocked by the wave of sudden emotion his Chief of Staff’s words elicited.

“And you know, Ed, that’s precisely why I’m mad at you!” he barked, “You did nothing. Because you weren’t there! No, you had a date with your little harlot!”

“Oswald, this is Gotham. You’re mad at me because a lunatic appeared in Gotham? What could I have done?”

“You could have been there to support me! You could have been there to protect me! You said you would do anything for me, but apparently that offer expires when a pretty face comes along! How is Miss Isabella anyway? Well, I hope.” Oswald’s tone cut with a biting mockery and hurt he had been trying to hide.

“I wouldn’t know,” Ed snapped, eyes wide in astonishment, “We’re not seeing each other anymore.”

“Oh really? Then where were you just now?”

“Preparing press releases, Oswald!” Ed remarked tersely, slamming down his burden of papers with a loud thump, “Doing my duty as Chief of Staff! Isabella may have turned my head for a moment - she reminded me of the past, of a different time in my life, I’ll admit that. But I know she’s playing me. No one could accept that part of me. Only you did that. I came to my senses this morning and ended it. Not that it’s any of your business.”

“It’s very much my business, you are my employee! You work for me now, Ed!”

“Funny, and here I thought we had more of a relationship than that.” Ed scoffed.

“We could have had more of a relationship than that if you had come back home on time!”

“What are you talking about?” for once Ed look genuinely befuddled, which only irritated Oswald further.

“What do you think I’m talking about, you oblivious giraffe?! The thing I wanted to tell you at that dinner is that I love you!”

Oswald realized what he had said the moment the words escaped his lips. He gasped and slapped a hand over his mouth as if that could force the words back inside, but of course it couldn’t. Ed had frozen stock still like an animal caught in a snare and merely stared at Oswald with huge eyes.

“Say that again.“ Ed breathed at last.

“Uh, uh…I uh…what I meant to say, of course, is that I love your sense of loyalty to me and I…”

But Ed put an end to Oswald's stammering, cupping the smaller man’s face in both of his hands.

“No, no. Say what you said before exactly as you said it. I want to hear it again.”

“I love you…” Oswald whispered, feeling relieved and terrified all at once. It wasn’t how he had wanted this to go, but it was said.

Ed blinked for a second as if gazing into a light. Then, very slowly, a smile crossed his face.

“I knew it!” he said and pressed his mouth against Oswald’s with a grin of triumph, the heat of their argument forgotten.