Kuki Urie received a tremendous amount of character development during the past several arcs and despite starting off as a greedy egoist, he has become a favorite for many readers (me included). In this post, requested by our fellow fan @darknachokid, I will look into Urie’s path and his behavioral patterns and his subconscious decisions.
We’ll start with bullet number one! His past and the loss of his father:
We don’t know the absolutely full details to his childhood, apart from the memories we have from recent chapters. However, we can conclude that his family is limited to only him and his dad. Before Mikito Urie’s death Kuki was a happy child that wanted to follow the footsteps of his hero and become an investigator himself. But after his death at the hands of Eto, his world and the perception of it are shattered to pieces. He loses his safe ground and the only things that remain for him to cling to are the passion to become an investigator and the grudge he holds against the Kuroiwa family. They haven’t personally hurt him, but the hole in his heart cannot be filled, so love was replaced with hatred. This will be a pivotal point for his development, as it shows his primal defensive mechanism that will emerge throughout :re - his search for a family(his past life and happiness) in others and when he doesn’t find this closeness, he seeks revenge at the world for making him so miserable.
When Urie was introduced, we see him as a closed, egoistic individual, who ignores the obvious attempts of Haise and the others to get closer. At first this is contradictory to my theory that he searches for family. However, the reason behind it is the fact that he can’t easily trust these people, because after his loss, he doesn’t want to emotionally attach to people, especially in such a dangerous job where you can die at any given moment. And what is more, he seeks promotion and credit in this job, because he blindly believes that reaching his dad’s rank will get him the closeness he needs.
Going on, for now Urie doesn’t have a family and his only true love is the damn promotion. He prosecutes ghouls mainly with the thought of his rank in mind, not caring that much about the “man-eating” part. Fortunately, he does not receive the darn promotion so early in the manga, otherwise he wouldn’t have become such a lovable character. During the Auction Raid arc, he does his best to kill his enemies and become the best soldier on the stage, even by going mad with the release of his Frame 4 kagune. Even after his performance as an excellent investigator, he still doesn’t receive the wanted praise, because of his rival, Takeomi Kuroiwa. Despite not even being a Quinx, he managed to defeat a ghoul by his sheer strength. Takeomi, being a humble individual, congratulates Urie, but he cannot help it but feel empty, because of this loss of reputation.
During the weeks, following the Auction, he gets closer to the other Qs, in a natural way. Sasaki’s investigations of the Rose situation get them closer and he starts working harder for the team. But this isn’t just an unconnected event. It stems from what happened at the Auction - Urie hurt Mutsuki and endangered his life. Urie had expected his team to start treating him like a bad guy, but Mutsuki did not, leading to Urie feeling indebted to him. Afterwards, we see the development of his relationship with Mutsuki and it all became reality because of what happened on the Auction. He now leaves the maniacal desire for a promotion behind and concentrates more on his team.
All these events lead us to the Tsukiyama Extermination arc. The fact that the hole in his heart has gradually been filled with the sense of being part of the big Qs family made Urie a more caring person - he was concerned about both Saiko and Shirazu during the battle. His teammates have now become this family he craved so much and he finally finds this feeling of belonging somewhere,
However, Ishida rarely plans a path of happiness for his characters, so it was completely natural for Urie to experience a traumatizing loss in the near future. This arc was where many characters had to choose their future and were put before a crossroad. It was a crucial arc for Urie, Kaneki, Tsukiyama, Ui and so on, as the death of their respective loved ones showed them the mercilessness of this world. Shirazu’s death (and the following stealing of his corpse) proved several things for Urie: despite their strength and their affiliation with the CCG, the Qs are not immortal; that the world often takes away our loved ones when we least expect it; that the future is full of uncertainties.
During this arc Urie also lost his mentor, Sasaki, who became cold-hearted and had to give up mentoring the Quinx Squad. The full responsibility for the remaining members, plus the 3 new additions from the second batch, is in Urie’s hands. Sasaki really did confront Urie in a rather shocking manner after Shirazu’s death, but he later showed empathy when he asked his ex-underling to save Mutsuki after he was kidnapped by Torso.
One would expect that after such losses Kuki Urie would withdraw into his shell, just like after his dad’s death, but the truth is that he becomes more responsible for his squad and goes great lengths to save Mutsuki, the person that showed him for the first time that he was wanted. This happens for a reason - he feels morally obliged to take care of his remaining family and this relates to his deep need for a place to call home. This later turns into an almost maniacal obsession with Mutsuki and the Chateau, their previous home.
Ishida has the habit of introducing characters with flawed mindsets and psychological issues, so he can explain their backstories further in the manga. This is why we actually understand what drives Urie more than 100 chapters after his debut. The thing that I mentioned in the beginning and that was the common thing between all of the relationships he had established - Kuki Urie could not get over the death of his father and kept on trying to find his “family” in the CCG. These attachment issues only brought him sadness and even more loneliness. Ironically, the one to explain to him that the reason behind all of his suffering and losses is his dad’s death was nobody else, but Donato Porpora, the ghoul that Mikito Urie had defeated years ago.
Unfortunately, when Urie realizes the truth about himself, it is already too late. He has lost Shirazu, Mutsuki (or at least the past Mutsuki) and has left his humanity behind. He slowly comes to the realization that his “family” is destroyed beyond repair. This is when he can reach the point of actual maturity - he figures out that he wants to protect Saiko, one of the only people that has always been by his side, that he does not actually hate the Kuroiwas and that justice is important for him, not just mindlessly killing ghouls. All this leads to his decision to confront Furuta, CCG’s current chief, essentially marking the start of a revolution (if he survives the following several chapters, that is).
The title of this post is “The Muffled Screams of Kuki Urie” for a reason. All his life, Urie was seeking a way to return to his past life, when he had a family. He craves the calmness and happiness that were part of his childhood. As I stated above, his subconsciousness constantly reminds him that he needs to be part of something, so hard that he has become extremely introverted, because if he let out his negative emotions, he would lose his friends (we all know his passive-aggressive comments in brackets when he speaks). This is why he stores it inside himself, until he is driven to madness, which has already happened twice or thrice and may happen very soon as well. This is also why he is associated with the “Speak No Evil” monkey and is often drawn without a mouth.
And one side note, which may actually be more related to Ishida’s writing than with Urie’s issues. It has been a running motif in the manga that every time Urie decides to protect something, he ultimately loses it one way or another. The list is quite painful:
1) Mutsuki has become a psychopath with a murder tendency and has broken all his frames (just like him)
2) Shirazu not only died, but his body was stolen, so he did not even receive the honor of having a real funeral.
3) Once he was reminded to be careful with his frames, he had to face Donato and ultimately lost his humanity, as he can no longer eat human food.
4) When his relations with Sasaki were relatively good (at least he didn’t hate him anymore), Sasaki betrayed the CCG and formed Goat as the One-Eyed King.
5) Just after he forgave Iwao Kuroiwa for letting his father die, they were attacked by Roma Hoito and Kuroiwa will most probably die as a result.
I hope you enjoyed reading and leave us recommendations for future metas!
a collection of my favourite covers made by a boy who just turned 20; a boy who loves the night, the stars, the quiet, and music. a boy who loves with abandon but shows it with restraint. a boy with a voice like lemonade and a personality like the stars he so loves - flickering and luminescent
. a boy whose singing kept me company when no one else did, not even my own mind. i love you, jeon jeongguk, in the sincerest, most honest way possible. happy birthday, & thank you.
**i listed the original artists of the songs for reference. the playlist comprises completely of jungkook’s covers.
like. r u okay, dan. do u need an aspirin, perhaps.
He might be a cold, unfeeling monster, but he’s also still a very overdramatic teenager.
Danno, the only reason you’re a threatening villain is because you have basically limitless potential and no conscience. You’re not much of an evil mastermind. You don’t come up with diabolical schemes. You don’t have some sort of ultimate goal, really. No twisted worldview or anything that we can dig into.
You’re just laughing diabolically in your stupid dramatic cape with your stupid flaming hair going “look at me I’m so evil I can wipe out entire cities by exhaling watch me pick up this tank!”
So when the Series 10 episode titles came out, I thought the second to last title, “World Enough and Time,” looked familiar… turns out the line comes from Andrew Marvell’s poem, “To His Coy Mistress” (below) and, peoples of the twissy/thoschei universe, please attend/discuss.
P.S: That first stanza tho.😭 Sound like any time lords you know?
P.P.S. do the phrases in bold seem…familiar to anybody else?🤔
Had we but world enough and time, This coyness, lady, were no crime. We would sit down, and think which way To walk, and pass our long love’s day. Thou by the Indian Ganges’ side Shouldst rubies find; I by the tide Of Humber would complain. I would Love you ten years before the flood, And you should, if you please, refuse Till the conversion of the Jews. My vegetable love should grow Vaster than empires and more slow; An hundred years should go to praise Thine eyes, and on thy forehead gaze; Two hundred to adore each breast, But thirty thousand to the rest; An age at least to every part, And the last age should show your heart. For, lady, you deserve this state, Nor would I love at lower rate.
But at my back I always hear Time’s wingèd chariot hurrying near; And yonder all before us lie Deserts of vast eternity. Thy beauty shall no more be found; Nor, in thy marble vault, shall sound My echoing song; then worms shall try That long-preserved virginity, And your quaint honour turn to dust, And into ashes all my lust; The grave’s a fine and private place, But none, I think, do there embrace.
Now therefore, while the youthful hue Sits on thy skin like morning dew, And while thy willing soul transpires At every pore with instant fires, Now let us sport us while we may, And now, like amorous birds of prey, Rather at once our time devour Than languish in his slow-chapped power. Let us roll all our strength and all Our sweetness up into one ball, And tear our pleasures with rough strife Through the iron gates of life: Thus, though we cannot make our sun Stand still, yet we will make him run.
Set in season four episode eighteen (04x18) where the school shooting occurs, and you’re dating Sebastian in secret.
The first shot startled everyone quiet. No one moved and Mr. Schue paused his statement.
The second was like a confirmation that what they heard wasn’t just a slam or a firecracker a football team member smuggled into the school, but a gunshot.
People in the glee club let out yelps and shrieks as they hit the ground. Ryder grabbed you and pulled you down with him. The kids in the glee club hid behind the pianos and other items in the room as Mr. Schue and Coach turned off the lights.
You pushed yourself against the wall, heart racing at an unsafe pace. Sam and Ryder were on either side of you, and you could see Artie fall out of his wheelchair and pull himself to the wall.
“Start texting your families,” Mr. Schue ordered quietly, “let them know what’s going on but don’t tell them where you are. Shooters have cell phones too.” Quickly, you grabbed your phone and started a group text with your parent(s)/legal guardian(s).
You hear footsteps as you start spamming your boyfriend with text messages. Deciding that you had to speak to him one more time, you called him. You squeezed your eyes shut as a tear fell down your face, hearing Sebastian’s voicemail.
He didn’t pick up.
“Seb, it’s me,” you whispered in the voicemail, sniffling, “Listen, there were gunshots. Someone’s in the school with a gun. I-I’m with Mr. Schue and the glee club. I don’t know what’s going on, but-”
Someone suddenly started jiggling the handle to one of the doors, causing your classmates to yelp and cower into each other. You let out a sharp gasp and curled into yourself, starting to cry harder as you forced yourself to hold your breath.
The person ran to the other door when they couldn’t get in and wiggled the doorknob. You let out a small sob, but the person quickly left back down the hall.
You let out a shaky breath. “I love you, Seb,” you whispered, crying quietly, “I don’t know if any of us are gonna get out of here. I just wanted to tell you that I love you.” You stopped th voicemail, hiding your face in your knees.
Back at Dalton, Sebastian sat in class, not noticing his phone vibrating in his pocket as he took notes and stared at the clock, counting down the twenty minutes that was left in class.
About ten minutes later, Mr. Schue got up and went to the door. “Where are you going,” you whisper-hissed, “You can’t leave!” Mr. Schue turned to you, seeing your terrified frame. “I’m going to get Britney,” he assured you, “I’ll be back.” And then he was gone, leaving you and the rest of the glee club members in the hands of Coach.
You leaned your head against the wall, fishing your phone out of your pocket. Quickly, you dialed the one other person you could think of calling, praying that he’d pick up. “Hey, Y/N,” Hunter’s voice echoed in your ear, “What’s up?”
You let out a sob as emotions filled you, relieved that you were able to talk to your best friend, but also extremely upset at the fact that this may be the last time you’d ever talk to him.
“Y/N,” Hunter asked, concern lacing his voice as he heard you cry, “What’s wrong-” You sniffled, “There’s a school shooter, Hunt.”
Hunter was silent for a couple seconds, before he spoke again. “What did you just say?” He asked. You felt the tears roll down your cheeks as your friends began to record their possibly final words and statements to their families. “Someone shot of a gun,” you cried quietly, “The entire school is on lockdown. Someone tried to get in but the doors were locked…I…”
“Oh my god,” Hunter gasped, “Sebastian’s about to get out of class. Try to stay on the line with me, okay kid? You’re gonna be fine.” You bit your palm, trying to stop a sob that wanted to so desperately rip from your throat. “I called and texted but he didn’t answer,” you told your friend, “Hunter, I’m so scared.”
There was a knock on the door and you yelped, sending Hunter into a panic on the other line. Mr. Schue, Britney, and two other students entered the room, locking the door. “Hunter-” you went to say, but your phone suddenly died, causing you to chuck your phone across the room and let another sob escape your lips.
Hunter was shouting into the phone when the line cut off, just as Sebastian walked in. “Hey man.” He greeted, unaware of anything. He threw his bag down and walked over to his friend, furrowing his eyebrows. “Dude, the phone can’t talk to you,” he joked, “Stop yelling at it.”
Hunter looked up from his phone to Sebastian, and Sebastian’s infamous smirk faltered when he saw Hunter with tears in his eyes. “Woah, Hunter, what’s wrong, man?” Sebastian asked him.
Hunter only stared at him, “There’s a shooter at McKinley.”
That’s how the two Dalton boys ended up outside William McKinley High School, behind barriers of police officers and SWAT members. Students that were able to get out were running to meet their families or hopping onto busses to get away and off to safety.
To Sebastian’s surprise, Blaine, Finn, and other alumni members of New Directions were waiting outside by the barriers. Blaine was the first to notice the two men that were out of place, being able to spot a Dalton blazer fro, a mile away.
He walked over to Sebastian and Hunter, ready to snap at them for trying something during such an awful time, but stopped himself when he saw how distraught the boys looked. Instead, he tried with a different approach.
“Hunter? Sebastian? What are you doing here?” He questioned, walking next to the blond boy. Sebastian didn’t respond, simply stared at the doors of McKinley with worry and sadness. Hunter wrapped an arm around his friend and turned his head to Blaine.
“His (girlfriend/boyfriend) is inside,” Hunter frowned, “Y/N is my best friend.” Blaine’s eyes widened at the name of his fellow glee club member, and Sebastian couldn’t find himself to give a damn that your relationship was outed. You could be dead. Blaine was the least of his worries at the moment.
“All I can think of is that voicemail,” Sebastian sniffled, “(She/He) left me a voicemail when I didn’t pick up the phone…god, (she/he) sounded so scared.”
The New Directions watched from afar as Blaine talked with the two Warblers. They were sure Blaine was giving them a piece of his mind, but were utterly confused when Blaine turned to them, shook his head, and blocked Sebastian and Hunter from their view.
“Y/N’s a fighter,” Blaine tried to reassure the boys that seemed on the edge of breaking, “I’m sure Mr. Schue is taking care of (her/him).” The three of them stared at the front doors as police officers and SWAT team members ran in and out of the school and barked orders at each other. Blaine put his hand on Sebastian’s arm, trying his best to comfort his enemy…friend?…frenemy?
It felt like hours upon hours when the captain of the SWAT team announced that the school was all clear. Moments later, students were pouring out of the doors, and even some fire escape windows, in a frantic rush. They ran down to meet their friends or family members.
Sebastian watched in panic when the flow of students began to diminish and you still weren’t in his line of sight. But then, there you were, pushing Artie out of the front doors with other members of the glee club by your side. The alumni New Directions at the barriers ran towards their members, screaming and yelling and hugging each other.
People began swarming by Sebastian and Hunter as they reunited and ran to the busses, blocking their sights on you. “Blaine!” You yelled, jumping on your good friend in a hug. Blaine hugged you before pulling away. He pointed to the barriers, were you saw a familiar pattern of Dalton blazers push past people and shout for you.
You looked to Blaine, who gave you a smile, nodding. You turned back to the two Warblers. “Sebastian!” You yelled, taking off in his direction. The name caught the ears of many people around you, but you didn’t care. There was your boyfriend and your best friend, running towards you as they shoved people out of the way.
You began pushing past people, not caring about the scene you were making or that the entire glee club was watching you. You were so close. He was yards away…feet away…just an arms length…
And suddenly, there you were, crashing into Sebastian with a cry. He held you tight, pulling you as close as he possibly could. You both broke when your skin touched, and you nestled your head in the crook of his neck as you started crying harder than you ever have.
Sebastian kept his arms locked around your body as he, too, began to cry. Hunter was by you in an instant, wrapping his arms around the both of you. The three of you embraced each other, hiccuping and sobbing and muttering “I love you,” “I missed you,” “Don’t leave me.”
You pulled back and held Hunter in a tight hug, before you reached up and pressed your lips against Sebastian’s. It was messy, fast, and desperate, as if the two of you were trying to assure yourselves that you were okay, and that everything was fine.
A swarm of blue and red blazers invaded the grounds of William McKinley High, surrounding you, Sebastian, and Hunter. The New Directions watched in shock as the Warblers panicked over you, making sure you were okay.
“Why didn’t Y/N tell us?” Finn asked, staring at you wrapped up in Sebastian’s arms. “Well, he is our arch enemy,” Puck replied, more surprised that you and Hunter were such good friends than you and Sebastian being a couple, “er, was. Still is? I dunno.”
You could hear what they were saying, being only about a yard or two away from them. You didn’t care, though, and it seemed that none of the Warblers did, either. You just clung onto Sebastian, who draped his blazer around your shoulders.
Hunter turned to the New Directions as the large group of Warblers started walking off the grounds. “We’re all going to Seb’s dorm to relax,” Hunter told them, “Do you want to come?” Rachel, Finn, and Kurt looked exceptionally surprised at this, as did all the members of the glee club.
“You want New Directions to come hang out with the Warblers,” Blaine asked in suspicion, “What’s your game here, Clarington?” Hunter sighed. “No game,” he admitted, “Y/N’s my best friend. You’re all good friends of our Y/N and it’s only fair that we have a truce right now. For Y/N.”
The New Directions looked absolutely shocked, but Blaine walked forward, “For Y/N.” He stood by Hunter, looking at his friends expectantly. Finn sighed, “For Y/N.” Marley quickly followed, then Jake, and Ryder, and Artie, and soon, the New Directions and the Warblers were laying around in Sebastian’s dorm room at Dalton, watching with small smiles as you and Sebastian slept on one another, curled up on his bed.
They could handle a truce for today, if it meant that you were happy.
i need more shit with taako and barry just being like, best fucking friends? like they spent most of the beach year hanging out together and taako barry and lup had their own personal mongoose language and taako and barry worked tirelessly together to try and find lup and call each other family without hesitation
even after getting his memory wiped when barry is killed in phandalin and the town in about to be engulfed taako’s insisting that he won’t leave without barry and then on the moon he gets on merle’s and magnus’s case for getting his name wrong
just give me taako angry because not only was he forced to forget his sister but then he was tricked into thinking his best friend was his enemy
Ji Chang-wook (born July 5, 1987) is a South Korean actor. He rose to fame playing the leading role of Dong-hae in daily drama series Smile Again (2010-2011), and has since had roles in Warrior Baek Dong-soo (2011) and Empress Ki (2013-2014). Ji has headlined the television series Healer (2014-2015), The K2 (2016) and Suspicious Partner (2017), as well as crime-action film Fabricated City (2017).
Ji began his career in musical theatre. He made his onscreen debut in the 2006 film Days… and had a minor role in the 2008 television drama You Stole My Heart. He only officially debuted in the 2008 film Sleeping Beauty.
In 2009, he appeared in My Too Perfect Sons, playing the timid, sissy youngest brother who ends up raising his best friend’s daughter while just turning 20 years old. The weekend family drama received 40% ratings. He then had a supporting role in the action-comedy Hero.
In 2010, Ji was cast in his first starring role in the 159-episode daily drama Smile Again. Playing the role of a Korean-American short track speed skater, Ji trained four to five hours daily at the ice rink. Smile Again topped the ratings chart for 15 consecutive weeks, and he was awarded “Best Actor in a Daily Drama” at the KBS Drama Awards.
He then played the titular character in 2011 action historical drama Warrior Baek Dong-soo (2011). Adapted from Lee Jae-heon’s manhwa Honorable Baek Dong-soo, it is an origin story about Joseon-era swordsman Baek Dong-soo, showing his growing years until political intrigue creates a rivalry with his childhood best friend-turned-enemy. The series was number one in its timeslot for 13 weeks, and Ji received a “New Star Award” at the SBS Drama Awards. Later that year, he played the lead role in cable drama Bachelor’s Vegetable Store, based on the true success story of Lee Young-seok, a young man who turned a tiny 350-square-feet vegetable store in 1998 into a nationwide franchise with 33 stores.
In his first villain role, Ji played a pianist who envies his older brother’s natural gift for music in 2012 melodrama Five Fingers.
Ji returned to the musical theater in 2013 with The Days, playing a presidential bodyguard who went missing 20 years ago along with a mysterious female companion. The Days was a jukebox musical using the folk rock songs of Kim Kwang-seok.
Ji’s breakthrough came when he played Toghon Temür (also known as Ta Hwan), the 16th emperor of the Yuan Dynasty, in the historical drama Empress Ki. The drama drew solid viewership ratings nationwide throughout its run with an average rating of 35.12%. Ji’s portrayal of the young king left a strong impression on both critics and the audience, earning him critical acclaim.
Ji then starred as the title character in Song Ji-na-penned action thriller Healer from December 2014 to February 2015. He took martial arts lessons for his role as a mysterious errand guy in the series.After the drama aired, Ji became popular in China and other parts of Asia. He then took on roles in Mandarin-language dramas like The Whirlwind Girl 2 and Mr. Right.
In 2016, Ji starred in tvN’s action thriller The K2, as the title role, a bodyguard who gets betrayed by his fellow countrymen and falls in love with a girl with fear of people. The drama received favorable reviews, topping cable channel viewership ratings throughout its 8-week broadcast. In November 2016, he co-starred in the promotional web drama titled First Seven Kisses for Lotte Duty Free.
In 2017, Ji starred in the action film Fabricated City, playing the role of a jobless game addict who becomes a framed murderer. He was next cast in SBS’ romantic comedy thriller Suspicious Partner, which premiered in May. Ji is also set to star as a reckless rookie constable alongside Sol Kyung-gu’s apathetic veteran officer in the period-comedy film Two Constables, the fourth installment in the Two Cops franchise directed by Kang Woo-suk.
Me: Man, Jon of the House Targaryen/Sansa of the House Stark reminds me of SOMETHING but I just can’t put my finger on—
Me @ Me: Two households, both alike in dignity, In fair Westeros Verona, where we lay our scene, From ancient grudge break to new mutiny, Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean. From forth the fatal loins of these two foes A pair of star-cross’d lovers take their life.
Ok think anxiety saying "I love you so much you can make me forget what hating myself feels like" to everyone cuz polysanders
tw negative thoughts and self harm under the read more. Stay safe loves
The unofficial title of this is “Again. Again. Again.”
They’re all playing board games when Morality says that he loves them all. Quickly, it becomes a contest to see who loves the rest the most by one upping each other’s ‘I love you’s, all ridiculous and light-hearted, Anxiety stays mostly silent, until he quietly says, “I love you so much that you make me forget what hating myself feels like.” He doesn’t think they’ll hear him, but they all do.
Jongin sighs, throwing his bag onto the table and flopping down into the seat.
Finals week has taken a huge toll on him, and while studying in the quiet of his room would be ideal, his roommate Sehun and his stupid boyfriend Luhan won’t stop giggling and sending him pointed glances.
so i just discovered your fic list and oh gawd u don't know how happy i am with this discovery. thank u for this. anyway i just finished reading ur alternate meets canon fic and. i want to roll and jump and. oh my gawd i really wanna know what happened next?? do u have some other headcanons/ideas for this? is it ok with u to divulge them? no pressure if u don't want to though! just really wanted to thank u for it! i adore alternates meeting with canons so it was really a joy to read. thank u!
Oh anon, thank you <3 I loved the idea for that fic, had plans for it floating in my head for months before the ask got me to write it down. It was going to be this huge epic, like 100k words probably, switching between Derek and alt!Stiles in the canon universe and Stiles trying to make sense of the warped landscape of the alternate world he’d been thrown into.
Derek’s just standing there in his bedroom doorway, looking softer than Stiles has ever seen him: his hair loose and ungelled, hanging over his forehead.
“Hey Derek,” he says, trying to blink his way back from the visual. “You look…”
“What?” He seems totally lost on what’s making Stiles stare, and after a few seconds Stiles decides not to even try explaining it. You look nice keeps running through his head, but that’s not close enough. It’s not that Derek never looks nice. (Hell, Derek always looks nice, but that’s a whole other issue.) He looks happy sometimes too, and that’s the only other word Stiles can pull up that edges close to accurate. You’re in my bedroom is the third, half-formed option, but that’s happened before too. It’s just something about the combination of those things right now, and the comfortable way he’s standing in the space –– hands not in his pockets, shoulders not slumping in like he’s offended by the general pressure of someone else’s air –– that’s catching Stiles up. And there’s no way to fit any of that into words.
“You’ve got flour on your shirt,” he says instead, and Derek glances down with a soft laugh. Brushes the powder off so it wafts out in a soft cloud between them. The open smile he’s wearing when he looks up again is enough to make Stiles heart tug with how devastatingly dreamlike this all is.
“I was making breakfast,” he answers, and Stiles blinks. Ok, yeah. So, definitely a dream.
I had an entire timeline listed out for the alternate universe –– how things had all gone differently, in a chain reaction starting with Laura surviving Peter’s attack (link to that scene, if you’re interested) and just cascading outward, through the fracturing of Scott and Stiles’ friendship when a very human Scott was lured into the Argent side of the divide (via his interest in Allison and, ironically, concern for Stiles and the dangers of “vicious werewolves”) and Stiles sided with Laura and Derek.
“Wait… I still got with Allison, even if I wasn’t…”
“You two are so together it’s disgusting, alright? Apparently she hit a dog with her car and you guys got to know each other at the animal clinic and right after that you two were like, destined. A week in I could see like… wedding bells and white picket fences going on in your head. It was obnoxious and I was thrilled for you, dude. And then all the hunter crap happened.”
How Laura being alive kept Derek from being quite as dark and broken as he was in the first few seasons, how she made the executive decision to bring the Sheriff in early to earn his trust and support against hunters and supernatural threats alike, and how the town more or less broke down into a cold war zone between the werewolf and hunter sides of the conflict.
The tragedy is that somewhere in all that planning and preparation my detailed notes and timeline completely vanished. I have no idea how. Pages of details and alt!character development and plot planning… and all I have left is a page or so of scenes and stray quote segments, and I just don’t remember enough about the details to make it the way it originally would have. I can tell you a few details, though, and maybe throw in a few of the excerpts too.
I know that it still took a long time for Stiles and Derek to come together. Stiles had sided with the werewolves mainly because Laura had come to the Sheriff (and the Sheriff, remembering the fire and the lost kids the Hales had been when he’d told them the news, and appreciating finally being handed answers to all the mysteries that don’t quite add up in this town, agreed to work with them at least to stop Peter… and then the bond just built from there), and because it had been the right thing to do. And Derek wasn’t shattered the way he was in canon season one maybe, but he was still Derek. Laura’s skeptical, snarky, and untrusting little brother, the cynic to her careful optimism. And Stiles is sarcastic and blunt and, in this version of reality, also hurt and bitter from losing his best friend to the enemy, so he wasn’t exactly super open to bonding with one of the reasons Scott wasn’t around anymore. (It was easier to forgive Laura, who was more sympathetic, but Derek’s general if he sided with hunters he’s not worth having around anyway attitude did not help relations early on.) Stiles and Derek butted heads and snarked constantly at first but their alliance against Peter and the hunters, various life-or-death situations, and Laura’s friendship with the Sheriff (especially when he took her on as a deputy), kept them close, and eventually they fell together just like they’re always going to.
Beacon Hills is a constant danger zone, though, because the hunter threat still hasn’t died. Scott reaches out to Stiles from time to time, earnestly believing every Argent lie that wolves are dangerous monsters and that Stiles is going to get himself killed for being with them. But he’s basically a hunter at this point, believes their philosophy because he’s been on the Argents’ side in every showdown, and honestly thinks Stiles and the Sheriff have been seduced by the Hales’ supernatural wiles (Kate has indoctrinated Scott and Allison with a very different version of her history with Derek) and he needs to do whatever he can to save his former best friend from them.
“Scott’s not a werewolf?”
“What?” Stiles starts to laugh, before his brows arch sharply. “Oh my god, you’re serious. No. No, Scott’s practically married in with the Argents; he’d probably kill himself if he got the bite.” Bitterness floods his features; he fights and fails to smooth it away.
And Stiles is wounded and bitter and cuts off any attempt at contact from his old friend because they’ve both chosen their sides, there’s too much bad blood, and thinking about Scott as anything more than the enemy or the creep who’s allied with killers is too painful at this point.
Lydia’s also in with the Argents, from virtue of being Allison’s best friend and having been smart enough to catch on after a couple months that something decidedly supernatural was going on. She’s a very different Lydia, though, having never had her banshee powers awakened (she was never bitten by Alpha!Peter because… well, there was no Alpha!Peter) and is likely still more similar to her pre-Peter-possession self. I had a lot more details about all of the side characters and how they fit into the developing arc, but most of it’s sadly lost now.