hindimoakomahal

The1975MNL and some more stories; 012415

Came to Calamba by 1 PM and met Paul John (hindimoakomahal) immediately, waited for John Paolo (paolokoloko) until he sprouted beside me and I went a bit emotional because last Friday we were having problems if PJ would still go, or else I’d be watching the concert alone by myself which is really sad if that happens because I want to watch it with them. But look, the three of us were together, we had fun together, we shared each moment and each minute together. After the incident which made people around us stare at us for like 3 minutes, we went to the bus station (unfortunately before that, we lost our way. haha paolo’s fault haha jk :))
We got down the bus in Magallanes by 4 PM, I think? And since it was Johnny’s first time to ever travel outside Laguna and Batangas, we couldn’t let him go by his own, so in total in this whole story we were just altogether. We went straight to MOA, and on the road, some questions are asked by the Boy First Time (understandable, yes, because it’s his first time in the place, I’m a second-timer in Pasay, PJ is a third-timer in MOA.) And then we were there. A bit early. Strolled the pavements, and since Lolo’s a student of architecture, most of the time he can’t stop himself from looking at the structures’ designs, concepts and more. And since they hadn’t eaten their lunch yet, we ate something of course before going to the Arena itself. Johnny got his merch by that time.
Then we were there. Inside Coral. We decided to drink coffee, courtesy of PJ. The names we put there were “Matty”(PJ’s), “Truman Blaque” (Pao’s), and “Gdans1975hann” (mine). And then we met Shayne (angbabaengmoody) with her bestfriend and her bestfriend’s cousin. We came with them on their way to their section, and we came back to ours. Entering the exact place, the concert ground, we were stunned by it’s simple beauty. We went to our seats, which are just a few seats apart, but different rows. And then the front act, who was a DJ, started mixing mixes, lights were turned down, and all who got the VIP seats stood infront of the stage, while the three of us regrouped ourselves, and were together already, yes. We actually stood on the seats, even if the marshalls and ushers and the guards said doing so is prohibited. They can’t just say that to fans tho. Then Anne Curtis came, I saw her face.
And then the reason why we were there entered the center stage and we all went “Woah there they are and they’re really close.” We sang along to all the songs, I mean, really, all of the songs they sang. PJ, he was silently watching and listening, while Paolo and I were singing out our lungs, even fell a lot of times to the ground. But we don’t mind the downfalls, we just enjoyed the whole concert. How many times did we both open our mouth in awe at the same time? I don’t know, but I know about a 100 times Johnny’s cap fell because of me. Haha. The concert ended with the song requested by the audience, Sex. And then they were out of sight.
Going out the place I saw James Reid and Nadine Lustre walking in fast pace onto the same direction we’re heading, and then Cheena, a GMA artist. I saw her first, I recognized her face, and we had some small talk, even pictures. Tuwa naman si Paolo, crush daw niya kasi yun. Haha.
And we got nowhere to go, with dehydrated lungs and headaches and smiles on our faces. We walked the streets, the roads until we stopped and sat down on a corner, and rested a bit, then decided to go to Luneta.
We came to Luneta by 12 AM. And our Boy First Time was still with us. Haha. Again, strolling down the pavements we talked, the three of us, then we sat down on a bench, the cemented one, and finally rested our legs and feet and hands with just stories of each other. Anything we like to talk about. Syempre kasi first time na magkakasama kami ng lagpas dalawang oras tapos kami kami lang minsan lang kami magkita kita since galing pang Bicol si PJ, si Paolo sa Lipa, ako dito sa San Pedro. That time when we three were together talking, a thought came into me and made me wish and hope that we we’re just neighbors or something. I wish we were nearby each other.

Then, by 1:45 PM (I think, lol i’m not conscious about the time) PJ needed to go back to Pasay, so kami ni Johnny, nagpunta kaming Cubao para makauwi narin kami. Siguro mga 45 minutes yung byahe ganun. Tapos sabi samin ng driver, “Baybayin niyo lang yan, may bus diyan pa Batangas.” So we did. Haha. Para kaming mga naliligaw na bata. Pareho kaming walang alam sa QC. Haha. But we came to get in a bus papuntang Lipa. I came with Paolo para sure na makauwi agad yun, kasi nagaalala nanay nun for sure. Yung inay ko naman pinayagan akong hindi umuwi samin ng gabing yun kasi obviously mahirap sumakay papunta sa bahay nang ganung oras, hindi safe.
So yea, we were on the bus, we decided to sleep. Naunang nakatulog si Paolo, kaya pinicturan ko muna hahaha (Sorry Lolo minsan lang kita makitang tulog kaya ayan hahaha) tapos natulog nako. The bus stopped at Tambo aournd 4 AM. We walked the highway, until I got in a bus, tapos naiwan si Johnny dun e malamig pa naman sa Lipa as in super. Naguilty ako nung naiwan siya magisa dun, pero alam ko makakauwi yun. Nung time na yun, si Shayne pauwi palang din. Tapos napahaba yung byahe ko pauwi. By sunrise, nasa bahay nako. :)
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To make the story short, THE CONCERT ITSELF IS INEXPLAINABLE HAHA

Few days from now, I’ll be celebrating my one-year existence in Tumblr. Yes, mag-iisang taon na ako yet walang nakakaalam kung sino nga ba ang tao sa likod ng account na ito.

Sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit ang lungkot ng account ko, nagmahal po kasi ako at nasaktan, nasaktan ng sobra. Kapag naaalala ko nga ‘yung mga gabi na umiiyak ako, natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka dumating ang araw na hindi na ako maniwala sa pag-ibig.

Masayahin naman talaga akong tao nagkataon lamang na maling tao ang pinag-alayan ko ng aking pagmamahal. Actually, siya ang reason kung bakit ako nagtumblr. Sa tumblr ko kasi nalalaman kung may problema s'ya o wala. Ngunit sa kabila ng mga karanasan ko sa kanya, nagpapasalamat ako sa kanya dahil kung hindi ako gumawa ng tumblr account hindi ako makakakilala ng mga magagaling na blogger, mga bagong kaibigan na nagbigay ngiti sa aking mga labi.

Kaya salamat ha. Hindi man ako madalas magpost ng personal sa Tumblr (kasi palagi na lang reblog ginagawa ko), lagi n'yo sanang tatandaan na repleksyon ito ng aking nararamdaman, mga damdaming sa Tumblr ko lang malalabas.

Magandang gabi!

Bakit sa tuwing nakikita ko larawan mo, dalawang bagay lang gusto kong gawin, ang umiyak at matulog.

Umiyak dahil sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing naaalala ko ang mga sandaling pinadama mo sakin na ako lang ang tanging ligaya mo. Matulog dahil baka sa aking muling paggising wala na ang sakit na idinulot mo.

Hayy. Masakit balikan ang mga bagay na alam mong kahit minsan hindi na mangyayari pang muli. Kapag nabasa mo ito, sana maramdaman mong mahal na mahal kita. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan ang mga araw na pinapatawa mo ako at kinukulit ng mga text mo. 

Patawarin mo sana ako kung hindi ko nabigay ang mga gusto mo, kung may hindi ako nagawa sa mga pinagagawa mo.

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