Sometimes I ask my boyfriend things about his past. I know I won’t like the answers, but I can’t stop myself from asking. Then I get quiet afterwards. It’s not that I’m mad or upset with his answers or that he did the things. it’s that negative voice in my head convincing me that he won’t want me anymore.
This is ridiculous of course. He really is the best boyfriend I could ever want. I love him so much! He literally does everything he can to make me happy. He even bought me Prince cd’s because he knew I was sad that I broke my old one.
I also know it’s bad of me to think the way I do. To always undercut myself, I try not to, but I’ve never thought of myself as worth it. So now that I have him and he’s so amazingly perfect it hard for me to not listen to the negativity in my head.