You took my Heaven away
A/N: This was requested by anonymous! It is based off the song; ‘Heaven’ by, PVRIS. I’m so sorry if it’s short and crappy! I tried! I hope you enjoy!
I think we were cursed from the start, Second I let you into my heart, Do you think we were speaking in tongues, Or simply not enough? Do you ever wonder, Who took the light from our life? The light from my eyes?, All we did was suffer, Why couldn’t we just say.
I was currently sitting on the roof of Samcro’s clubhouse, overlooking the sunset.
“Hey, (Y/N)!” I turned to see Jax coming up the ladder.
“Hey, Jax,” I said with a big smile. Jax began to walk towards me as a cigarette hung from his lips.
“What are you doing up here all by yourself?” Jax questioned. I giggled before glancing back at the beautiful sunset.
“Well, I thought I might try to fly like a bird you know?” I questioned sarcastically as Jax chuckled.
“Ha, Ha, Ha. Listen, I wanted to talk to you about something,” I turned myself to face Jax.
“Okay, continue,” I responded.
“Well, I’ve been meaning to talk to you about this for quite some time but I never had enough- Anyway, that doesn’t matter,” I laid my hand on Jax’s knee in the most comforting way I could.
“Jax, just spit it out,” I said with a giggle. Jax sighed before looking at the ground and then back at me.
“I love you, (Y/N). I always have, will you do me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?” I sat in complete and utter shock. I did feel the same for Jax but I didn’t want to ruin our friendship.
“Uh… Jax…” I watched as Jax’s expression changed from hopeful to heartbroken.
“You don’t feel the same way, do you?” I went to speak up when Jax cut me off. “Fuck! I’m sorry I said that. I shouldn’t have brought it up,” Jax said as I took a hold of his face in my hands.
“Jax, please. Just give me some time to think it over,” Jax sighed before nodding his head.
“Of course. Take all the time you need,” Jax said while I smiled I leaned over and wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into a hug.
“Thank you,” I said as I began to stand and head for the latter and down to the club.
(You took my heart), (You took my heart), You took my heaven away, Away, Our love is pushing out and pulling in, Just like a rising and falling chest that’s barely breathing
And didn’t you ever wonder, About the dread on my tongue?, The blood in my lungs?, All I did was suffer, I was too afraid to say.
Once, I reached the club, I began to head for Opie’s dorm to gain some advice. I walked down the hall and down to the dorms as I knocked on the door.
“Come in,” I heard Opie mutter. I pushed the door open to see Opie sitting on his bed with his elbows on his knees as he leaned on them.
“Hey,” I said once I got fully into the room before closing the door behind me.
“Oh, hey,” Opie said as I smiled at him.
“Can I take a seat?” I questioned while Opie smiled before scooting over and patting the spot next to him. I went to ask Ope a question when he turned to me and spoke up.
“Can I talk to you about something important?” I nodded my head as Opie continued. “Well, you see, ever since Donna passed, I’ve been kind of lonely and you’ve been by my side through every step of the way,” I smiled as I nodded my head for him to continue. “And, I’ve been developing feelings for you and I want to embrace these feelings. I’ve come to grasp that I’m in love with you and I want to be with you,” I sat in shock. Did Opie just tell me he loved me? Did I love him back? I had so many thoughts and emotions running through me that I didn’t hear what Opie had said next. “(Y/N)?”
“Huh? What did you say?” I questioned as I broke away from my thoughts.
“I asked if you would be my girlfriend. I understand if you don’t want too,” I shook my head as I spoke.
“No, Opie. It’s not that, it’s just I need some time to think,” I said quickly, I began to stand and head for the door without taking another look.
” What am I going to do?” Was the number one thought that was going through my head. ‘Both of my best friends not only had feelings for me and wanted me to be their girlfriend but they both loved me. Me?! Like what’s so special about me?!’ I thought to myself. I ignored the calls of Opie and Jax as I walked out of the club. I needed some time to think, I needed to get away.
(You took my heart), You took my heaven away, You took my, you took my heaven away, Away, You took my heaven away, You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away, You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away, You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away, You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away.
I walked and walked until I came upon this local park. There had been no one here which I was thankful for. I walked to the closest park bench before taking a seat.
“What am I going to do?” I questioned to myself.
“If I choose one of them, I’ll only end up hurting the other one and making them hate me,” I sighed to myself as I felt tears brimming my eyes. No matter what I do, I was going to end up losing one of my best friends.
I sat there for hours fighting with myself of the pros and cons of Jax and Opie until I finally gave up. Deep down inside I knew who owned my heart but I just didn’t know what to do about it. I sighed as I overlooked the empty park. I stood up and walked over to the abandoned swing set as I took a seat and began to swing back and forth.
So, many thoughts raced through my head as for how I should approach this situation until I finally came to a conclusion. I sighed as I stood up from the swings and took a deep breath.
I know what I need to do.
I began to walk back to Samcro, as I rehearsed what I was going to say. I reached the club to see Jax and Opie sharing a cigarette on the picnic table.
“(Y/N)! Where the hell were you? We were worried sick.” I smiled at them before walking up to the picnic table and took the seat between them. I took the cigarette from Jax as I took a puff before handing it back. While I blew the smoke out I mentally prepared myself for what was about to come.
I think we were cursed from the start, You took my, (You took my heart), (You took my heart)
You took my heaven away, (You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away), Away
(You took my, you took my, you took my heaven away), (You took my heart), (You took my heart).
“Jax. Opie. For some unknown reason, you both decided to confess your feelings to me today which left me in quite a predicament. Yet, I did come to a conclusion.” The boys nodded for me to continue. “I choose… Jax,” I said as I felt a weight be lifted off my shoulders. “Opie, you are one of my best friends but that’s the thing… we’re best friends and that’s how I want to stay. I do love you too but not in the way you want me too. I’ve always had feelings for Jax and when he confessed them to me I felt as if I died and went to Heaven,” Opie chuckled before laying his hand on my knee.
“It’s okay, I understand,” I looked at him in disbelief.
“You do?” I questioned in disbelief while Opie looked at me with a smile.
“I do, I think It’s because that I’m not quite over Donna and her death that I just developed feelings for you,” I smiled before reaching over to Opie and pulling him into a hug.
“Oh my God, I am so glad! I thought you were going to hate me!” I said into the hug. Opie chuckled before pulling away and shaking his head.
“I could never hate you,” Opie said as I smiled.
“Well, since we got that settled and done. I know of this blonde that totally got the hots for you. So much so that she’s been here every night this week trying to get you attention,” I said with a smirk. Opie looked over at me with a raised eyebrow and a smile.
“Her names Lyla and she works for Luanna,” I began as Opie nodded before sliding off the table.
“If you don’t mind, I have a blonde who’s calling my name,” Opie said with a smirk. Jax and I chuckled while Opie headed into the club, leaving Jax and me all alone.
“So…” Jax began as I turned back to face him.
“So…” I repeated while Jax chuckled.
“So, where does this leave us?” I pretended to think for a moment before turning back to him with a smile.
“Well, I was thinking about taking you up on that offer about being your girlfriend, what do you say Teller? Do you want me as your old ball and chain?” I questioned which made Jax laugh.
“I would,” I smiled back at him before leaning in and pressing my lips to his. The kiss was gentle and loving, the way I always imagined it to be. We pulled away to only lay our foreheads against each other.
“You took my heart, Jax Teller. You always did,” I said with a smile.