Ep 3’s Eros and Agape Assignments, Yuuri/Yurio Parallels, and how they feed into the GPF Short Programs
So I’m sure that you’ve probably seen a million metas about
this topic by now but I’d like to talk about something pertaining to this that
I don’t feel like many people have realized (or at least I haven’t seen anyone
talking about these particular angles/interpretations myself).
We know as of episode 10 that when Victor was assigning Eros
to Yuuri that he wasn’t actually assigning something to go against his inner nature but actually to bring out what was there all along. But then I started to think. What
about Yurio? Would the same apply to him or does he just get the short end of
the stick? And then all the similarities started to hit me.
There are actually quite a few parallels with Yuuri and
Yurio’s journeys. If we use Yuuri as a base, specifically his experience where
he actually touched on his inner Eros before he even knew what it was and then promptly
forgot about the entire thing (and delayed a relationship with an individual
that would have allowed him to grasp that realization a lot sooner), we can
actually see that Yurio goes through something very similar.
It always hits me whenever I re-watch episode 10 that Yurio
goes through almost the exact same thing. He had an experience, in his case
meeting Otabek (who could have been a friend) that would have allowed him to
get in touch with his inner Agape sooner, and then forgot the entire encounter.
So if we look at it that way, both Yuuri and Yurio go
through the journey of trying to get in touch with their inner selves. Not some
false self that they’re trying to grow just to put on a show for a crowd (as it
may have initially seemed), which actually is what it might have been had they
not had any of those feelings within them to start out, but their real, hidden selves.
Both of them even get reminded of their previous encounters
within the same 24 hour period, the night before the GPF SPs. But both of them
handle these revelations completely differently and this is where the parallels
Yurio, with the reminder that he had actually experienced
Agape before (both from himself towards others and from others towards himself),
masters his SP. He uses his previous encounter and newfound knowledge to power
himself and push himself to greater heights. On the other hand, Yuuri crashes,
and he crashes hard.
Now why would they react so differently? I have a couple
theories on this and the second actually feeds in from the first.
The first is more obvious. Yurio had yet to master his Agape
before the GPF and the opposite was true of Yuuri. Yurio himself had not yet
achieved Agape in his personal life until he was able to become friends with
Otabek the night before the GPF SPs (that isn’t to say that he didn’t have
Agape-like relationships with others, but it wasn’t enough to allow him to understand
and master the emotion in relation to himself yet). Yuuri had mastered his Eros
by the Rostelecom Cup and that was spurred on by the evolution in his
relationship with Victor. He understood and achieved Eros in his personal life
and it carried over to his skating.
But the question remains, if Yuuri already mastered his
Eros, then why would he bomb his Short Program so hard? Even with the added 4F
that ended in touching one hand down, his score would not have dropped as low
as it did without him missing something else. He bombed in his performance
score, not his technical (which is what the 4F falls under, TES). And this is
where my second theory comes in.
I feel that when Yuuri was reminded of the experience he
forgot, it actually broke his Eros. The
reason why both skaters reacted so differently comes down to a fundamental
difference in Yurio and Yuuri’s characters. Yurio has self-confidence. He knows
he’s a good skater and he pushes himself to be better because of an internal
motivation. Yuuri, on the other hand, does not have much self-confidence that
comes from within himself and he skates almost exclusively for others – most notably
I remember reading something along these lines after episode
10 aired, about how someone was glad that Yuuri wasn’t being affected by the
realization he got regarding the banquet in a very negative way, and then I never
saw anyone mention it with this particular light again. On the other hand, I
think that he actually was negatively
affected, and the idea is this: Yuuri now feels that he has to compare his
current Eros – the Eros that he has mastered through months of hard work, his own introspection, and his blossomed
relationship with Victor – to the Eros he had exuded back at the night of the
banquet. The banquet where he seduced Victor (and others) over the course of a few hours; and the worst part is that even
with the reminder, he still can’t
Yuuri now feels that he needs to one-up his previous self –
a self that Victor was attracted to, that mastered Eros in the space of hours
instead of months, and that he can’t even remember – along with upping the program
difficulty to compete with the other GPF contenders. He’s fighting against a
ghost of himself along with the competitive spirits of the other GPF members.
In that light, it’s really no surprise that he bombed the way he did. I’m
actually more surprised that he didn’t crash harder but that just goes to show
how excellent of a skater he really is.
This doubt, however, also feeds into his anxious downward
spiral of thoughts that we see clearly displayed the next time he sees Victor
after the kiss-and-cry, when Victor is taking in Yurio’s performance with that
final mourning look, and leaves Yuuri to come to the self-deprecating
conclusion that he does.
On the other hand, Yurio actually quite often uses his
doubts to fuel his skating. We saw it at the Rostelecom Cup with his free
program and how he used his doubts about beating JJ/Yuuri to really improve. The
same can be said about his episode 12 free program, how his doubts about Yuuri
retiring fed into the stunning performance that he ended up giving. But Yuuri
is the opposite. We see time and again how doubts in himself, his skating, and his
relationships all have massive negative impacts on his programs; especially
when we put the technicals aside and look at his performances themselves. But
that’s for another analysis.
the end of the day, Victor’s choice in assigning Eros to Yuuri and Agape to
Yurio could actually not be any more perfect. Even if Victor didn’t realize how
applicable Agape really was to Yurio at the moment of assignment (unlike Eros
to Yuuri which, well, I don’t even need to explain), it actually ended up
helping him grow as a person and discover an inner motivation that was really
there all along. Good going Victor!
things that happened at yesterday’s band competition
a freshman tuba player tried to kill me by tickling me when i called her adorable. in my defense, she’s shorter than me, and not many people are. we spent literally two hours trying to pinch each other’s faces.
much later, when we were waiting for the finals awards ceremony, i fell asleep on said tuba player’s shoulder, only to have someone try to wake me up by whispering the pen pineapple apple pen song in my ear.
a trombone player asked me if i had any spare reeds. i play flute. i told her that all my reeds are either chipped or nonexistent. she understood the sentiment.
one of the field judges seemed to be following me around the entire show. when i had to go pick up my fifteen-foot-tall lantern prop, he looked me right in the eye and gave me such a creepy smile that i almost screamed dropped it. later, i nearly hit him with it.
my school uses sparkly plastic plumes with a layer over them to cover the sparkles, and we all take off that layer together during the big climax moment. mine didn’t come off at all no matter how hard i pulled. i was two steps away from the front sideline. creepy field judge was still staring at me.
people from other schools kept asking to touch my the sparkly part of my plume. someone nearly started crying when i bent down so they could touch it. “finally i’m living,” they whispered. “finally.”
after our finals performance (did i mention we made finals?), some guy from another school went for a high-five but ended up holding my hand instead. it was weirdly cute.
the foot-joint of my flute got stuck so three other people had to line up and pull on it together to get it off. it worked. my flute is so broken it doesn’t matter. i had to steal so much cork grease from the clarinets.
Now this person answered this under this post and I’m curious about what they meant to be perfectly honest because I feel like they don’t understand the situation as we see it - as we’ve been seeing it since, haha, forever actually. Visibly they don’t understand why we, Jin Stans, are complaining about the lack of attention Jin gets (don’t hesitate to correct me if I’m wrong, really I’m curious about how these guys think).
Well let me tell you guys how I think about all of this. Seokjin is a beautiful, hard working, talented human being. He’s the visual of the group and has a very beautiful voice - he made me cry a lot with Awake, Eomma and I Love You. Yet he’s being slept on so fucking bad??? In almost every single song he has like, barely 3 lines. I could understand that back in the days when they were singing true, hard hip hop because his voice wasn’t really made for this type of songs but now? He could get so much more than what he has.
And now what do we see in Not Today? Well, haha, nothing actually. The boy has 1 second of screen time (best 1 second of my life) and he’s supposed to be their freaking visual remember? He also sings for 4 second in a 4 minute long song which is, hahaha, a ridiculously short amount of time??
And now the worst thing is : no one reacts? Literally last week the entire fandom imploded because Hobi got no lines in Spring Days (friendly reminders that the entire album is about him with the Outro, the Interlude, his gorgeous solo and BS&T so they don’t really get the right to complain) but when Jin’s left out “It’s okay guys, it’s just Jin so no one gives a shit” how in Hell is that fair? We see this situation negatively and we have the right to do so because Jin is a member of BTS, not a fucking back-up singer/dancer!
You see, this kind of person is the reason why the situation hasn’t changed over the past few years. These guys refuse to acknowledge how unfair bighit is to Jin, how talented this beautiful boy is, so nothing changes. And I’m pissed, and salty, and bitter about it because I’d like to see my bias more in MVs and I’d like to listen to his voice too! Because he worked his ass off to have such a pure and stable voice, so he deserves to be heard!
So there you have it. I could go like that for days but you probably stopped reading this a while ago, so I’ll shut up now and go reblog for the 100th time these 4 very short gifs we have of him from the Not Today MV. Have a good one.