Anon: Hi! Can I have one with San E? Like, he’s receiving a lot of hate lately so, even tho he acts like everything is fine I know he’s just trying to be strong in front of other people so after a while I give up on asking him and he shows up at my house really late at night and have a breakdown showing the side he only shows to me. Thank you ❤️
a/n: i don’t know if it’ll meet your expectations but i hope you like it 🌞
Everyone told me dating someone famous would be hard. But let me tell you it’s been the best 6 months of my life! San E isn’t one to neglect you for other things, he gives time and i do the same. Im not saying he’s the most cutest and sweetest rapper you’ll ever meet but that’s exactly what i’m saying and his music is just amazing!
San E, along with other rappers and singers got many hate comments. Not everyone will like you and i guess saying your opinion is completely valid but some haters just take it a bit too far and their comments are just completely unnecessary. But San doesn’t let it get to him he just gets on with his life with the sweetest smile, this being one of the many reasons i love him!
Lately the hate was getting worse and i noticed San wasn’t his usual self. I decided it was best to get him to talk to me about how he felt so i went to his studio. He wasn’t really doing anything he was just sitting in front of his computer screen with a blank look on his face, this is when i knew the comments had gone too far, he needed me.
I slowly opened the studio door and slipped myself in, i softly placed my hand on his shoulder, i didn’t say much i just called his name and waited for his reply. He didn’t say anything he just looked at me and then back at his computer screen. I couldn’t help him if he didn’t tell me how he felt or what was going through his mind! “San E” i called again, “you need to talk to me! I know the comments have gotten worse bu-” he had cut me off before i could finish, he threw my hand off his shoulder and stood up towering over me he didn’t say anything except “get out”. He was being ridiculous! I wasn’t mad, i couldn’t be! i knew he was hurting and that he needed me. Instead of edging him on i left the studio like he wanted me to, it probably wasn’t the best thing to do, but i knew if he needed to talk he’d talk.
It had been a few days since i last spoke to San.
I kept a close eye on the comments, the hate seemed to have died down. It was late at night but i couldn’t get to sleep i was too busy worrying about San, it was nearing 3:30am when i heard a knock at my door. I made my way over opening to find San, he looked sad and tired. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my apartment closing the door behind. I got him to sit on the couch while i got him a glass of water, we hadn’t said anything until i sat next to him and pulled him into an embrace and that was all it took. He spilled out how he felt, tears running down his face, i told him it was okay to feel this way and that he wasn’t worthless, that his music was amazing and loved by loads.
I grabbed his face and got him to look at me, i told him how much he meant to me and how much i loved him. He finally stopped crying i dried the remaining tears on his cheeks and pulled him in for a kiss, a kiss to show how much i loved him, how much he meant to me. He pressed his forehead on to mine, looking at me with adoration and love and said
"i love you, i love you for not pushing me away and accepting me with open arms, i love you for always being there when i really need you, i love that i can show you my weak side without you judging me. i love you y/n"
Everyone told me dating someone famous would be hard. But let me tell you it’s been the best 6 months of my life!
I like to imagine Neil giggles a lot when he gets tipsy. Imagine: Andrew and Neil sitting on the roof, sharing a bottle of whiskey, Andrew’s bitching about Kevin and Exy and Neil is just lying with his head on his lap, staring up at his stupid face and losing his shit. Andrew alternates between glaring at him and shutting him up with a kiss.
He’s the sweetest, cutest and most adorable person in the world..? His hugs are so comfortable? I thanked him for what he did with SKAM and how “his” Isak helped me a lot with understanding myslef and admitting issues I wasn’t able to say aloud earlier and he looked at me, smiled and said “you’re not alone”. I can’t believe he “du er ikke alene”-ed me with this wonderful, warm smile.
No, but, hear me out, I can’t stop thinking about the way Cassian looks at Jyn like she’s some sort of extraordinary creature he can’t understand but longs to fathom out and also like she’s both the most beautiful and the cutest person he’s ever seen. And the way Jyn looks at Cassian like he brought back the sun in her life, like he’s both the urge to fight and the peace …