okay listen dude i just. my mind is continually BLOWN by the realization that the entire sequences of events in Rogue One: A Star Wars Story; everything that happens, the future of the rebellion as it is hinged on the off-chance that an anxious shaky cargo pilot wouldn’t give up or get caught or turn himself in or die or totally blow it immediately??? think about that for a second just consider it w o w BODHI ROOK WAS THAT ONE LITTLE FRAGILE PIECE WOBBLING ON THE EDGE AND THEN HE MADE THE CHOICES HE DID
there’s something gutwrenchingly beautiful and true to an entire series of incredible events resting in the trembling hands of one ordinary, uncertain, seemingly unqualified man, a man who then chooses to take those uncertain steps forward and makes himself so heroic is that not the freaking tightest ish you’ve ever heard because dang son
I feel like He Tian would dress like a total pimp later while Guanshan stays with his bomber jackets or warm winter jackets (bought by He Tian and the devil personified refuses to take anything for it in return *cough* Maybe Momo’s soul, but that’s a different story *laughs*)
So it took me 3 days to emotionally prepare myself to make a proper post about Hwang Minhyun. I thought JR would make it to top 11 as well. All this time I was thinking “as long as Minhyun is there to reassure Jonghyun it will be OK”, I never once thought that Minhyun would make it alone. I never once thought he would be the one who needs to be consoled. But the PD101 result was unexpected and devastating for me.
For the past 3 days I’ve hardly eaten or left my room. I cannot stop thinking about MH and Nu’est. I’m not gonna lie, people who follow me know I’m kinda negative person, but after a day I can see on the bright side. However this time it took me a lot longer. It felt like I had lost my best friend.
Minhyun is an incredibly strong human. He bottles it all up inside. I have only seen him cry once before when JR read out a letter to Nu’est at a Japan concert, saying he had failed as leader. MH is a force of positive energy, who always vows to work harder, even until his body stops functioning, he doesn’t know how to stop. Jonghyun is sensitive, but Minhyun is always brave, always looks on the bright side.
I have never in my life seen him have such a massive mental breakdown before. The way he sobbed into his hands, tried to keep strong, but then broke down seeing his members broke my heart. I know his heart is broken as well right now.He couldn’t stop crying, even when the members told him it’s OK “because one of [them] made it” backstage.
I won’t lie, I really wanted MH to drop out of Wanna One. For his own mental health, I wanted him to. The guilt of making top11 alone was killing him on the inside. I want him to go back to Nu’est. I don’t want him to be apart from his family, his brothers who he loves as is loved by deeply. They are one of the cloest groups ever (no lie). I know being away from them will hurt him profoundly. I don’t want him to leave.
But I have to accept the reality.
He can’t escape now. Minhyun updated the fan cafe and called himself “Nu’est and Wanna One’s Minhyun” as much as that sentence feels wrong, for MH’s sake I will get used to it. He has made his resolve.
Desperate time calls for desperate measures.
As much as I despite MNET for preying off trainees talents then discarding them (*cough* Samuel and JR) and capitalizing off MH’s despair by promptly uploading a vid of him crying (which made naver no.2 most watched), they wouldn’t have survived without produce 101. Their albums wouldn’t have sold out and they wouldn’t be topping the charts right now.
So I will support Minhyun is Wanna One. I will probably cry every fucking day for OT5 to return but I will support this beautiful, talented, hard working man no matter what. He is hurting right now so we need to look after him, We need to send him immense love and support! (insta comments, fancafe, fan projects)
I will support Nu’est (hopefully come back soon as 4 if Pledis isn't stupid for once) and I will support Hwang Minhyun for 2 years in Wanna One with every fiber of my being. Because I love him with all my heart. Our fandom has been through the most pain, I know, it’s not fair right? But they never once gave up and we shouldn’t either!
i refuse to believe thet keith “*voice crack* i cradled u in my arms” kogane has completely let go of the possiblity of reminding lance about the bonding moment at every opportunity he can get. lance on the other hand, tries to constantly mess w/ him.
*sitting all together* lance: ahah i just remembered a funny story from my childhood that only hunk knows you guys wanna hear it?
keith: so you can remember something that happened long ago but not our bonding moment ://
lance: maybe it wasn’t as iconic :///
keith: *eye twitches* fine
lance: ahah remember when that beautiful mermaid kissed me…
keith: remember our bonding moment?
lance: i literally don’t know what you’re talking about ://
shiro: keith are you..crying?
keith: uh? no, OF COURSE NOT…. i’m just allergic to.. LIES
at some point lance decides to stop messing with his head and actually step up his flirting game:
lance: hey keith…are you our bonding moment? because…. you’re pretty hard to forget *finger guns*
keith weeps for 3 hours and finds difficult to sleep that night