For the people that think I overshare on my blog, ill tell you a little secret.
In real life, noone knows that Josh has cheated on me. Noone knows how he treats me. Everyone thinks we are a perfect happy couple. Everyone thinks im happy…
If I didnt have this blog to release my emotions and experiences on too, I would literally go insane… I would be even more alone. If I didnt have the support from so many nice people (even though its virtual), I would probably kill myself. I would be so aline in all my thoughts. Noone in my life knows what Im going through… Noone knows any bad thing that has ever happened to me, because I hate people feeling sorry for me.
Im so ashamed that I have put up with being treated this way for so long. I should have left him the night we moved in together 5 years ago, when i found out for the first time he was cheating on me, after only being together for 6 months.
I am so ashamed and embarassed that I let this man walk all over me from the very start, that I hid myself and everything else in shame.
This blog has saved me.
You guys have saved me.