I want to be ready to heal internally
I want to be ready for real love
I want to be ready to be fearless
I want to be ready to travel
I want to be ready to learn new things
I want to be ready for real family time
I want to be ready for new possibilities
I want to be ready for new friendships
I want to be ready financially
I want to be ready entrepreneurship wise
I want to be ready with Gods guidance
Let you go if you want to, but in the distance I’ll still watch over you until you’re strong enough to see what I see in you. I pray you’ll come back, but I won’t press you to be who you aren’t ready to be for me. It’s only fair to let our hearts heal.
hope that when you wake in the morning you feel that I prayed for you the night before because being alone in something that was never yours is scary and I let myself sink to save you. I can’t read your mind..but I wish I could just to peek into your world. Then I realized I’ve already figured you out and your inconsistent heart just wouldn’t let me in. It was never my fault and it hasn’t been easy but I was willing to love through the falls and put broken pieces back together while still feeling half full on my end. I must be stupid because I still believe in you..my heart beats faster just hearing your voice and I still get butterflies just from being in your presence and I hope you noticed I took notes on all the little things that mattered. They were big to me. I know what it’s like not to give up and I’m just glad it wasn’t me who wasn’t willing to care through the fight.
Life is shifting things are changing and relationships are different. These are the times we start knowing who we really are, these are the moments that shape us to being our true self. Embrace this learning stage. I’m convinced and experiencing this journey not being easy… but it’s needed for growth.
You’ll just know love found you when you’re willing to accept someone’s flaws on your best of days and still love them all. Even after the beginning stages wear off you’ll still be in awe of who they currently are without anticipating the future so much. You’ll trade in sweet talks and holding hands for meaningful conversations and silent cries together. You’ll figure eachother out through the silence and realize that real love is not easy. You’ll understand in vulnerability there is strength and at some point you may hate eachother because the realization that this person knows you almost better than you know yourself…is scary. You’d take the bad as blessings to balance out the good and in turn strengthen a bond that’s too sacred to fuck with. You’ll know you’re in love when you’d ask yourself, “how did I get here” when at first you never saw it coming anyway but 10 years from now could you picture them no longer around? You’ll then realize you’ve met them for a reason and you’ll allow yourself to stay as long as you’re supposed to be and meant to be. After all you didn’t go looking for love, love found you.
Im sure God has a plan for me. He knows my heart, my intentions really are pure in all relationships. Most days I’m not to sure but I know that I have a purpose while I’m here on Earth. I’m learning while growing… I’m humble because I know I’m not perfect. I pray for people to be genuine this is what I crave… honest love, committed trying, consistent growth. Selflessness.