herman's

Somehow

Originally posted by ohteenscanrelate

Author’s Note: This is a Herman Kozik imagine based on Turn the Page by Metallica as requested by the lovely @winterladybr as well imagine number 5 for TT5. This imagine is rate T. Hope you all enjoy.


Somehow

-XX-
On a long and lonesome highway east of Omaha
You can listen to the engines moanin’ out it’s one note song
You can think about the woman or the girl you knew the night before

But your thoughts will soon be wandering the way they always do
When you riding sixteen hours with nothing much to do
And you don’t feel much like ridin’, you just wish the trip was through

Here I am, on the road again
There I am, up on the stage
Here I go, playin’ star again
There I go, turn the page
-XX-

Kozik is tired. Not the good kind, but rather the kind of tired that comes from too many hours on the road; and usually he doesn’t mind the cross country runs, but his thoughts don’t have the freedom to roam this time around.

Not with Laney’s voice echoing in his head.

‘You can’t just keep avoiding things Kozik…you have to talk to me…please just talk to me…’

Whenever he blinks his eyes he swears he can see her, brown hair falling in waves over her shoulders as she stands before him, hazel eyes shining. He knows Laney loves him, she’s stuck through some of the worst with him, but something in her tone tells him this time it’s different.

‘You promised me Koz…you promised it wouldn’t be this way. I can’t do this…’

This time she means it.

He should have stayed. He wasn’t even really needed on this run so why he was adamant about going he doesn’t understand; and while he considered releasing some of his pent up frustration by bedding any willing sweet butt he could get his hands on, he couldn’t bring himself to do it.

Things may be over for Laney, but they aren’t over for him.

Not yet.

Not ever.

-XX-
You walk into a restaurant, strung out from the road
And you feel the eyes upon you, as you’re shaking off the cold
You pretend it doesn’t bother you, but you just want to explode

And most times you can’t hear ‘em talk, other times you can
All the same old clichés, “Is it woman? Is it man?”
And you always seem outnumbered, you don’t dare make a stand
Make your stand

Here I am, on the road again
There I am, up on the stage
Here I go, playin’ star again
There I go, turn the page
-XX-

He knows every eye is on him as he walks into the little diner, he’s gotten used to the stares over the years that he’s worn the Cut, but for some reason tonight he feels the stares a little more acutely.

His awareness of the scrutiny he’s under is only heightened when he settles into the corner booth, pulling glances from the tables surrounding him. He levels his gaze at his onlookers, and when every head turns away he focuses on the cup of coffee in front of him, the light glinting off of the simple silver band that circles his finger, and rubbing his thumb over the shining metal he wonders what Laney’s doing right now.

Is she thinking about him? Is she missing him the way he’s missing her?

“What’ll it be?” the waitress asks, pulling him from his thoughts and offering a tight smile he rattles off his order which is simple since all he can stomach this deep into a run is black coffee, and watching the waitress walk away he goes back to contemplating his life, and letting out a shaky breath he spins his wedding ring around his finger.

He’s tired, and he just wants to go home.

-XX-
Out there in the spotlight you’re a million miles away
Every ounce of energy you try to give away
As the sweat pours out your body, like the music that you play

Later in the evening, as you lie awake in bed
With the echoes of the amplifiers ringin’ in your head
You smoke the days last cigarette, rememberin’ what she said
What she said

Here I am, on the road again
There I am, up on the stage
Here I go, playin’ star again
There I go, turn the page
-XX-

“I left you know,” Laney’s voice is soft and all Kozik can do is stare at her back, and when she turns he can’t help but notice her red rimmed eyes. She’s been crying, and he could kick himself for being the cause. “I made it all the way to Klamath…do you remember the first time we drove through together?”

“How could I forget?” Kozik asks bracing his hands on the counter as he stares at her.

“You didn’t think I meant it when I told you I’d make the run with you,” she laughs as she brushes at a tear, “but I did. We stopped at one of the overlooks, we must’ve spent hours there, and you scratched our initials into the guard rail. I think I knew I loved you then.”

“Laney…”

“I knew what I signed up for when I chose you,” her voice is soft as she cries, “and God knows I love you Koz, but you have to talk to me. You can’t just keep freezing me out. If this is going to work, if we’re going to work, you have to let me in.”

“I’m trying,” Kozik murmurs as he reaches out for her, and when his hand covers her he snaps awake.

It’s been three years since he got the call that Laney died in a crash just outside of Klamath Falls, and he as much as he tries he can’t move past it. A million times he’s reimagined that weekend. A million times he never left. But all the wishing and reimagining doesn’t change what happened. Laney’s gone and that’s something he’s just going to have to learn to live with. Somehow.

-XX-
There I go, turn that page
There I go, yeah
There I go, yeah
There I go, yeah
Here I go, yeah
There I go
There I go
And I’m gone
-XX-

anonymous asked:

Natso would look so rad with little skull clips in her hair tbh

bonus(back to herman):

Natso: git gud  -/sorry mind my crappie handwriting qwq/- 

::TT5::

There we have it my Lovey’s, Tune Tuesday is officially at a close! I had a lot of fun writing these imagines, and want to thank you all for the patience and support. It means the world to me.

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*Gif not mine, found on Giphy all credit goes to original poster*


Music Monday/Tune Tuesday Playlist 1-11


Never Be Free-A Herman Kozik Imagine

Family-A Happy Lowman Imagine

See You Again-A Jax Teller Imagine

Happy, Tig, and the Missing Socks-A Happy Lowman Imagine

Somehow-A Herman Kozik Imagine

Even If-A Jax Teller Imagine

She Knows He Will-A Happy Lowman Imagine

One Good Reason-An Alexander “Tig” Trager Imagine

The Brazilian government forbids you to visit Snake Island, which is infested with golden lancehead vipers. 

There are about 1-5 snakes per square meter of land.

Expectations:

Reality:

Originally posted by sonjackcarl

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Parallels in WINGS short film and idek what era to relate anymore

Okay so Bighit has absolutely zero chill because now they want to relate to danger era to wings, and I even saw a post saying it goes back to no more dream era rip army theorists but anyways lets begin. 

Just as I mentioned in my previous post this third short film connects very well with the novel Demian by Herman Hesse, where Sinclair begins his rebellious behavior. And this film parallels that with the pairing of vmon.

Here is vmon of course doing graffiti in the RUN mv.

While taehyung is here before a mural of graffiti similar to the RUN mv setting but carving/scratching out the word “Abraxas”– the ancient God Sinclair is presented to after he begins his rebellious streaks. And whats pretty crazy is that when Sinclair is presented with the idea of Abraxas, that is when he begins to face his own thoughts of himself.. thoughts of self discovery. 

Now here we have parallels within the actual films themselves, using the exact same eye. But in STIGMA we have what looks like to be a mother holding a child(?). So could this mean a sense of comfort for taehyung like how Eva was for Sinclair? Maybe.

Next you have the reference to Rap mon from the RUN mv japanese ver and I NEED U mv, but like the previous films he’s not there… Why is it that the films connect the pairings to the rap line but their actual presence isn’t shown? Jungkook with Yoongi, Jimin with Hoseok, and Taehyung with Namjoon? I think it’s because they (rap line) are possibly their (vocal line) mentors, as Demain was to Sinclair. Like idk if you guys remember my first post, but when Sinclair is in trouble he calls out for Demian… and in the beginning of prologue:

Tae is calling our for his hyung.. BUT HES NOT THERE.. JUST LIKE THE PHONE BOX IS EMPTY IN THE FILM. So then, could these scenes:

be the connection to Sinclair getting injured in war, and calling out for help as taes commits a crime and asking for a call at the end of the film? I’m getting goosebumps.

Now here I was mad because why would you bring back references to the danger era? But if you think about it, Taehyung cutting his hair could mean a lot of symbolic things. It could be the act of decision, taking forth the opportunity to say enough is enough. It could mean new beginnings. Starting fresh with a new self. It could mean disgrace, as some cultures believe that the length of hair represents strength, and if one were to commit a crime or was deemed unworthy the hair would be cut. So I was confused a bit, but when I watched the film again I noticed this:

Tae is wearing another nirvana shirt.. 

Specifically wearing the album called In Utero. omg omg omg this is where having a ex boyfriend that listened and taught me this comes in handy lol

In this special edition album there are 5 new songs. And one of them is called All Apologies..

You guys I could go on and on and make a separate post about this but i’ll cut it short. 

Taehyung sings a song with the lyrics:

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry my sister
even if I hide it nor conceal it, it isn’t erased
so cry, please dry my eyes
that light, that light, please illuminate my crime
deeper, I feel like i’m dying
please punish me, please forgive that crime
please 

and these are the lyrics to the song All Apologies:

What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I don’t have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

This cover, as my ex once said to me once, could possibly signify rebirth. In utero..the location of a human’s beginning. And like the story Demian,Sinclair is being symbolically born again:

So… BOOM. Him cutting his hair could mean new beginnings. Just like the first film of the series: BEGIN.