ever since i could remember, everything inside of me just wanted to fit in
i was never one for pretenders, everything i tried to be just wouldn’t settle in
if i told you what i was, would you turn your back on me?
even if i seem dangerous, would you be scared?
i get the feeling just because, everything i touch isn’t dark enough
i f  t h i s  p r o b l e m  l i e s  i n  m e

(merry christmas nat!)

Lol I’m late af.

11. Talk about the best dream you ever had:

  • One time I had this dream that I was driving on the hwy in Hawaii. I was in my 86, and I remember just cruising around the outskirts of the island with some no name, no face badddd bitch the baddest bitch. It was around sunset so we pulled off onto some beach, and I spawned a pizza for us to munch on. We nibbled on that, while talking about various life stories. We were speaking japanese, so I’m not sure what was said, but we were having a deep conversation and it was pretty chill. I got up to throw away the pizza box, and right when it landed in the trash can, I woke up. Seems uneventful, but that was probably the sunset I could’ve ever witnessed.

14. Talk about a vacation:

  • When I was 16 I actually visited Oahu, HI with my dad, his female companion, and my cousin. Hands down one of the best vacations ever. We stayed in a hotel right on the beach with an ocean view balcony. My cousin and I got bored when they went out with some tour guide or some bs, so we were just walking around tryin to find some shit to get into. We ended up finding an arcade a couple blocks from the hotel, so we played like $20 worth of Wangan Midnight 2 and Initial D Version 3. Otw back we actually spotted a prostitute roaming the streets. He didn’t believe she was a ho, and I’m like “Dude she’s totally a fkn slut”. He still didn’t believe me, so I bet him $10 that she was, and we low key followed this bitch for a couple blocks haha. Sure enough, she hopped into some Benz with some random dude, and took off into the night. Lol a lot more happened on that vaca, but that’s some of it. Watching the sunset from that balcony was jaw-droppingy beautiful.

33. Talk about what you do when you’re sad:

  • If I’m sad, usually I’ll go for a drive. Driving always gives me some alone time to clear my head, and take my mind off of whatever I was sad about. If the conditions are right, then I’ll go for an all night mountain road drive. That has always been the one surefire thing to pick me up when I’m down. I’ll just grab my cigs, pot, music, and jacket, then just take off into the night. I’ll practice my racing line (no two laning allowed with me), try to figure out good placement for the car upon corner exit, and increase speed with every run. In between, I’l pull over at the chill spot, smoke a bowl, lay on my hatch, and feel the bass coursing through my spine as I watch the stars twinkle. Such a perfect night always puts a smile on my face and leaves me feeling fresh. But sometimes, I can’t hit the hills. So I’ll also cruise up and down the coast, smoking bowls/cigs. I know of this small beach that I always go to, and I just sit on the rocks and listen to the ocean speak to me. So soothing.

36. Talk about your guilty pleasures:

  • Well the whole mountain driving thing was one of them lol. Sometimes, when I’m alone, I’ll play some house music or some happy hardcore, and shuffle wildly throughout the house. Or sometimes when I”m driving, I’ll put on some of the blackest, niggarocious rap/trap music and just bump super hard. Bouncing around, arm flailing, and finger tapping to the beat, rapping outloud lol gettin ratchet af.

make me choose: herevilness asked regal believer or outlaw queen

The PB, MG, and YA flowcharts were so popular last year we decided to do them again! Thanks to designer Phyllis Sa for the great layout. This is the Middle Grade listings broken down by categories.

Looking for a great MG Book?

Graphic novels
Lowriders in Space by Cathy Camper
Roller Girl by Victoria Jamieson
Secret Coders by Gene Luen Yang & Mike Holmes
Hereville: How Mirka Got Her Sword by Barry Deutsch

Realistic fiction
The Turtles of Oman by Naomi Shihab Nye
Indian Shoes by Cynthia Leitich Smith
Gaby, Lost and Found by Angela Cervantes
George by Alex Gino
Kinda Like Brothers by Coe Booth

Little Miss Evil by Bryce Leung & Kristy Shen
Tiger Boy by Mitali Perkins
How I Became a Ghost by Tim Tingle

A Dragon’s Guide to the Care and Feeding of Humans by Laurence Yep
From the Notebooks of a Middle School Princess by Meg Cabot
Better Nate Than Ever by Tim Federle

Moving Target by Christina Diaz Gonzalez
Geeks, Girls, and Secret Identities by Mike Jung

The Toymaker’s Apprentice by Sherri L. Smith
The Jumbies by Tracey Baptiste
Bayou Magic by Jewell Parker Rhodes

Historical Fiction
Echo by Pam Muñoz Ryan
Stella by Starlight by Sharon M. Draper
Nest by Esther Ehrlich
I Lived on Butterfly Hill by Marjorie Agosin
The Lightning Queen by Laura Resau

Turning 15 on the Road to Freedom: My Story of the Selma Voting Rights March by Lynda Blackmon Lowery
Separate Is Never Equal by Duncan Tonatiuh

Check out these picks also selected by WNDB
Blackbird Fly by Erin Entrada Kelly
Abby Spencer Goes to Bollywood: The Exciting Story of How I Met My Father by Varsha Bajaj
The Red Pencil by Andrea Davis Pinkney & Shane W. Evans
The Way Home Looks Now by Wendy Shang
In the Footsteps of Crazy Horse by Joseph Marshall III
Unusual Chickens for the Exceptional Poultry Farmer by Kelly Jones


Race, life’s a race, and I am gonna win, yes, I am gonna win. And I’ll light the fuse, and I’ll never lose, and I choose to survive, whatever it takes. You won’t pull ahead, I’ll keep up the pace, and I’ll reveal my strength to the whole human race! Yes I am prepared to stay alive, and I won’t forgive, vengeance is mine! And I won’t give in, because I choose to thrive! Yes, I’m gonna win! [listen]

(merry christmas nat!)