here's my first real post

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Oh look, it’s the reason I didn’t have a social life in the past few months.
*cough* I mean this is the first animated short film Sarah, Maya and I worked on, I’d love to hear what you think! :D
Quite proud how it turned out, if I am being honest.

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bisexual female/nonbinary/genderqueer/who knows tbh (she/her)

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Partners in crime.  | for @julietta-gg  ♥

The Real INFP: Advanced

My first “The Real INFP” (click here for a link to that) post really touched alot of people in special ways and i have been getting alot of requests to do another. So here it is; part two!

In the last part i talked about how INFPs have an unfair “pure, sugary sweet, nice” stereotype. Are there those INFPs? Yeah, they’re called type 2 INFPs. That’s a valid thing. They are about 10% of INFPs. Type 2s want to love and be loved, they offer help, support and assistance in the hopes that they will be held in high regard because of it. This type of INFP is likely to have a smiley and calm expression. They are more likely to be open and sweet than the average INFP.

I accidentally invalidated this sort of INFP in the last part, so i sincerely apologize. The point of the post was to validate INFPs who struggle with a certain stereotype and i ended up ignoring like 10% of all INFPs. My bad.
So let’s kind of be a little more varied. There are 5 enneagrams associated with the INFP. 4, 9, 6, 5 and 2. Of these types, 2 fits the general INFP stereotype the most. This is not to say that if you are a happy, open, and sweet INFP you must be a 2, because you could just be very developed. However, it is very strange that we define INFP by the most pleasant creme of the crop. If you define INFPs by their pleasant sweetness you will find that only about 35%-ish percent of INFPs will meet your description. Being on tumblr and seeing “every type posts” people usually pin INFPs as being scared, fumbling, adorable, sweet, and non-confrontational. 2s and 9s might fit that description. At least to some extent. However putting 9s into that category is iffy, as their motivation is much different than that of the 2. 9s are more focused on acceptance, non-confrontation, and suppression of anger. They may simply be placating you rather than being cute. 9s more often will try to do what they feel like others want them to do in order to wiggle out of any kind of consequence of disagreeing. So, non confrontational? Check. Type 2s act lovable on purpose. They use flattery and gifts in order to get people to adore them. They could definitely be considered sweet and adorable. Check.

However, let’s remember; this is a minority. 4s and 6s are not like this. This is >60% of INFPs. 4s and 6s care much more about being authentic and guarded. They’re intense. They’re confrontational. They have strong opinions. They’re not social butterflies.

4s are an violent tempest of emotion contained in an ornate jar. They want to be understood they NEED to be understood. They want someone to look at them, they want someone to see them. They want to be singularly loved. They are likely to avoid all labels because they don’t want to be loved categorically. They have emotions they sometimes can’t contain. They can become very obstinate and aggressive to being ignored or misunderstood. If you have shown that you don’t understand or seem to not be able to, they may become vengeful or disrespectful. If most of the people in their lives can’t see them, understand them, and love them singularly, they may become volatile and depressed. A perfect storm of enigma and estrangement.  Even at their best, 4s have a certain disrespect for the common. The vast majority of people might find a type 4 INFP abrasive, because a type 4 INFP naturally doesn’t want to be lumped in with the vast majority of people and will resist liberally. Even a beautiful storm is destructive.

Type 6s are skeptics, they are not trusting. They can be described as scared but thats only part of the truth. They are loyalists and investigators. The Type 6 INFP is, perhaps, the most intuitive form of INFP. This kind of INFP is half philosopher, half scaredy cat. They are more rational and intelligent than average, but less artistic and emotional. They are guarded, very guarded, likely to see kindness as a trap and extravagant emotion as threatening. They are contained and analytical. This type of INFP is also often very insecure, often becoming socially counterphobic (regardless of if they are a c6 or cp6) and lashing out because of their insecurity. Like the 4, the 6 maybe become counterculture out of fear of authority. distrust of authority. This is the type of INFP is the most likely to argue based on the perceived self-evident legitimacy of their own opinions. They might be extremely loyal to certain music, art, people, ideas, philosophies and opinions and push back hard and abrasively against opposition. They might tell you they don’t want to listen to you music or insult your taste in movies to feed their own opinions.

So tell me, how does this fit with that sweet, adorable dopey INFP stereotype?  It doesn’t. And the NTs can laugh and the STs can snicker but we’re all 3 dimensional. MBTI has no relation to intelligence, cuteness, or niceness. If anyone ever tries to tell you you’re not an INFP because you’re cold, guarded or less than sweet don’t question yourself. Don’t let them get to you. Its amazing how some people can treat something like this, which is meant to add dimensions of complexity to people, with such two dimensional thinking. Since the posting of “The Real INFP” I have read the reblogs and replies. People telling stories about people telling them they aren’t an INFP because they aren’t cuddly. It’s ridiculous. Is any type cuddly? Is every type cuddly? Hey, ESTPs, don’t you wanna have sensitive cuddle sometimes? Hey, INTPs aren’t there some days when you walk around with a smile? Hey ENTJs, aren’t you sweet and adorable sometimes? Hey ISFJs, ever have a bad day when everyone is on your bad side?

We always forget that this is all about cognitive functions and general temperament. Myself included, sometimes my thinking gets a little linear. We all do this, and it’s a trap we all fall into. We keep treating MBTI as a collection of stereotypes that prove our misconceptions with pseudoscience. You can say “INFPs are all moody, #2deep4u pithy babies” or “INFPs are sweet and shy little cuddly bears” and you would be equally as wrong. Whenever you treat MBTI and enneagram as little stereotypes you defeat the whole purpose. MBTI observation should be based on the extrapolation of the meaning and affect cognitive functions have on behavior and personality. Enneagram is about fears, traumas and motivations and should be treated as wounds and damage people carry, to be thoughtfully considered, not paraded around as a flag of uniqueness. 

This is logic, reason and categorization, folks. It’s an observational science. Be sensible or get out. This knowledge should be used to fight our biases not enable them. It should be used to increase our understanding, not validate misunderstanding. INFPs should never have to question their identity because NTs consider intelligence their domain. (and vice versa, NTs should have to question their identity over having robust emotions) Feisty INFPs should be able to be true to themselves without everyone questioning who they really are. Whenever someone doesn’t make perfect sense to us we shouldn’t seek to redefine them, but instead to better understand our definitions and their limitations. You shouldn’t question the validity of their self-concept, but rather seek a newfound understanding and respect.

~INFP-sama

me: *posts a ryan ross photo* this is my favourite picture of ryan

me: *two seconds later posts another picture of ryan ross* this is my favourite picture of ryan

me: *waits a minute and posts another ryan ross photo* no wait, this is my favourite picture of ryan

first real post here…! inspired by my own tabletop hobby.

MM imagines + Tabletop Gaming Night

Yoosung - Dungeon Master

  • the one who started this mess
  • Has never DM’d before but by god is he going to do a Good Job. Has all the source-books and has read them back to front and back again. This boy can study, and he’s funneled all of his absurd potential into memorizing every aspect of Dungeons and Dragons.
  • He’s also decided to make this grand, sweeping, awesome story that’ll blow everyone away, inspired by all his favorite games and the fantasy novels he loves to read! It’s going to be so great!
  • He wants everyone to be SUPER COMFY so he sets up a table and pillows for people to sit on and he gets snacks and oh man uh what kind of snacks?? does everyone like to eat??
  • hey Seven hook me up with some Honey Buddha Chips my man, please, it’s for a good cause.
  • He gets one of those ridiculous folding screens so people can’t see his ~diabolical DM plans.~ It makes him feel really silly though so after a few games he drops it.
  • Tries to properly voice all the NPCs, but bless his soul he’s not very good at it.
  • He writes scripts and big long passages of dialogue to read to during conversations but it’s just so… stiff and stilted… and it seems like he’s going to collapse and give up after the first session because running a tabletop game is hard.
  • 707 and Zen help him out a lot, and they start getting the banter going, help things flow naturally, and generally force everyone to have fun.

Zen - Bard 

  • honestly wasn’t into it the idea until Yoosung told him that tabletop games are basically like acting a character but with other people.
  • Of COURSE he rolls a bard, of COURSE he has an 18 in Charisma, and of COURSE he has Disguise, Bluff, and every single social stat in the game.
  • In the ‘appearance’ section of the character sheet he elaborately describes every aspect of his incredibly, staggeringly handsome half-elf. He also gives him an incredibly tragic backstory, and he ends up filling out piles of ‘get to know your character’ questionnaires. He gives this all to Yoosung, who is understandably overwhelmed.
  • He always reminds Yoosung about how handsome he is and uses this to his advantage at every opportunity.
  • Despite being one of the least interested at the start, he’s the one who gets the most into Yoosung’s story. He finds the struggle of the seven sages trying to find the seven elemental crystals to save the world deeply compelling and bothers Yoosung for spoilers at every opportunity.
  • He gets really attached to NPCs, and Yoosung introduces a princess that Zen’s character ends up in a relationship with. It’s… actually surprisingly sweet and compelling roleplay? Though he’s weirded out by Yoosung portraying this princess at first, he gets into it. Zen always mentions that his character brings presents back to her, tells her stories about the world outside the castle, and stops flirting with other girls because of her. 
  • Whenever his character sings songs in battle, Zen ACTUALLY sings - at least, until Jumin starts flicking pretzel sticks at him.

707 - Wizard

  • fact one: wizards start off pretty under-powered at first but get STUPIDLY GOOD later
  • fact two: magic is just a limitless supply of stupid funny bullshit
  • ok let’s GO
  • 707 uses his telekinesis spell to tug at diplomat’s clothes during important meetings. he uses shocking grasp like a hand buzzer. he uses feather fall instead of taking the stairs and min maxes like crazy to be incredibly powerful.
  • He’s looking over his spells one day, and then he realizes two important pieces of information. 1.) he has a spell called Summon Creature that can conjure just about any large animal you can imagine. 2.) he has a spell that can teleport him over a mile in any direction. ANY direction. 3.) he has a spell that will slow him down and allow him to safely fall from any height.
  • After pausing a moment to contemplate his genius, 707 calculates the terminal velocity of a blue whale.
  • He presents his math to Yoosung when the group is trying to figure out how to take out an enemy base. If he teleported himself a mile into the air, summoned a blue whale, and then let it drop on the base, it would strike the ground with a force equivalent to a MOAB.
  • Yoosung is crying at this point. There was a boss battle in there. He’d planned complex encounters with clever mechaniCS AND SEVEN DROPS A FUCKING WHALE ON IT
  • Immediately after that the gods curse Seven and take away his ability to summon creatures. Seven is okay with that. He did it. 
  • There’ll always be some new trick to pull.

Jumin - Sorcerer 

  • Only vaguely interested in this “commoner” game. He’s the one that buys all the dice for the group.
  • he picks sorcerer because they’re ~special~ magic users who get their powers based on their blood. also, they function off of charisma.
  • His familiar is a cat. (Of course it’s a cat.)
  • He chose to be an elf. (Of course he’s an elf.)
  • Jumin is honestly only doing this because V really, really wanted to play, and V’s having a lot of trouble seeing so Jumin wanted to be there for him and give him confidence.
  • After acquiring some gold, Jumin realizes just how many cats he can buy with 50 gold, and It Begins.
  • Jumin buys cats.
  • Jumin buys lots of cats.
  • Jumin starts investing in cat businesses and, because of his absurd charisma stat and magical abilities, he actually rolls high enough to make them work.
  • he spends so much time drafting up proposals to implement various cat projects and telling yoosung exactly what he’s doing in-between sessions that, before long, he has an extensive cat empire that is actually?? bringing him profit?
  • Only in a fantasy world can Jumin live out his dream.
  • he doesn’t stop with cats. He invests in farms, he invests in livestock, he reinvests that money into other businesses. jumin’s character becomes terrifyingly wealthy and there’s nothing Yoosung can do.
  • jumin rolls a natural 20 on a bluff roll and convinces an entire town that a cat is suitable for being the mayor.
  • he starts a cat cult, which blossoms into a full-on cat religion.
  • jumin han - with his alarming amount of capital and disgustingly powerful magic - destroys the entire economy and brings about a societal collapse which culminates in him becoming king.
  • shit.

Jaehee - Monk

  • none of these losers have actually rolled a melee class, okay, let’s be a monk. She likes Tae Kwon Do. She appreciates the work ethic of the class. Let’s Do This.
  • Jaehee puts in about as much reading the rules as Yoosung does, which means she is an absolute expert.
  • She reads forums, she does research, and she stumbles upon an interesting fact about the rule-set they’re using - with the right buffs from Zen, merits, and items, she can do upwards of 20 damage in one hit, and she gains an ability that gives her progressively more hits in a single turn.
  • Jaehee adjusts her glasses.
  • Jaehee is ready to play.
  • She doesn’t talk a lot during dialogue scenes and doesn’t really understand how to act out her character, but she’s the eternal voice of reason for everyone.
  • please don’t blow that up, saeyoung
  • please don’t kill that man, saeran
  • please, jumin, no more cats
  • No one listens. poor Jaehee.
  • For a long time, no one really notices how OP Jaehee is. Everyone else is taking up the spotlight with their bullshit, and Jaehee never feels the need to use all the items she’s stockpiled up.
  • One encounter, though, everyone’s been knocked out, tied up, or otherwise eliminated. It’s just Jaehee and the boss, and everyone is miserable, except Yoosung who is happy he FINALLY knocked this ungodly party down a peg. People are telling Jaehee to run, telling her to go get help…
  • Jaehee rolls up her sleeves.
  • Jaehee tells Yoosung what items she uses.
  • Jaehee asks Zen to buff her up and start singing for her…
  • Jaehee rolls to attack, lands a critical hit, and punches the boss so hard that it’s been taken from about 75% health to less than zero.
  • Everyone stares. Yoosung throws up his hands in the air. Jaehee smiles softly and leans back in her chair.
  • Jaehee has made One Punch Man.

Saeran - Barbarian

  • He thinks this is all really, really stupid, and continually asks “can I kill this guy”, “can I burn this building down”, and “I don’t want to help them, let’s just leave.”
  • He’s That Guy who always tries to kill his teammates and take the nice items. Unfortunately, he’s super under-powered compared to everyone else because he didn’t really read the rules, so Seven keeps having to save him from getting killed.
  • At some point, his character - a huge, burly, viking man - ends up getting a dog during a quest.
  • Yoosung takes special care to describe how much this dog loves Saeran’s viking man. How his tail wags, how he licks his character’s hand, how he sleeps outside his tent and guards it…
  • There’s no reaction for awhile, but during an ambush, a bandit tries to attack Saeran’s dog.
  • He flips.
  • Saeran’s character goes rage mode and is the most useful he’s been all campaign.
  • In the town after that, he mentions getting his dog a ‘cool leather collar’ so nobody steals him or anything.
  • Under his possessions, Saeran writes, ‘1x Dog - Cloud’.
  • No one ever mentions it, but that Christmas, Saeyoung gets his brother a stuffed toy dog with a dog tag that says ‘Cloud’. 

V - Cleric

  • Spent a long time working with Yoosung about his character, his backstory, and the god his character follows.
  • Every time they’re in town, V’s character spends his time helping the poor.
  • V just wants to heal people. He always immediately tries to treat the party’s injuries after combat, and he’s always worrying after everyone’s characters.
  • When Zen’s character has a fight with the princess, V’s character is there to comfort him.
  • Jumin helps him with his character sheet at first, but after a few sessions V’s got a pretty good handle on dealing with it. The game becomes a lot more descriptive because V needs it to be able to picture the map, and it ends up getting everyone into it a lot more.
  • Yoosung gets really into describing the environment - the sights, the sounds, what the enemies look like and the rooms that people go into - and even starts setting up playlists of atmospheric music to get everyone into the mood. It starts actually turning genuinely cool from a story perspective, even though everyone’s character is stupid and ridiculous and Zen and Jumin keep fighting over cats.
  • V always mediates these fights.
  • All the NPC children in the villages they visit love seeing V’s character, who’s craft is making toys.
  • 707′s character gets in on this, and they start a toy business on the side.
  • V really likes roleplaying, and he does it with Zen a lot.
  • V’s character ends up adopting an orphan girl whose village gets destroyed by orcs.

Vanderwood - Rogue

  • Always slipping notes to Yoosung about the secret stuff they’re doing on the side… and they’re ALWAYS doing secret stuff on the side.
  • They team up with Seven a lot to do really stupid, ridiculous bullshit, but they also spend just as much time undermining his character for shits and giggles.
  • Their character is always sassing the situation and providing witty commentary and banter - so basically they’re just roleplaying themselves. Yoosung never calls them on it, though.
  • Yoosung never seems to call them on anything, really? They don’t really need it. They seem to behave, don’t do anything SUPER absurd, and generally obey the rules of the game. Most of the time, they stay on track and actually herd people into doing the mission…?
  • People kind of forget Vanderwood is there a lot of the time, because they’re so caught up in all of the other squabbling.
  • Vanderwood is still passing notes to Yoosung.
  • After a few months, things seem to be wrapping up with the campaign. The big bad is right where the party wants him. The princess Zen’s character is in love with is about to use her special power in combination with the Rainbow Crystal to seal him away forever. It seems like a happily ever after is just around the corner, and Zen is already planning his character’s wedding when…
  • Vanderwood: My character steps out of the shadows, picks up the princess, and uses a teleport scroll to escape.
  • Everyone is stunned. What are you doing, Vanderwood? What the hell? We need the crystal to defeat the bad guy! Without it, he’s invincible!
  • Vanderwood, you’re joking, right?
  • Vanderwood?
  • They just steeple their hands and grin. Just. Grin. And Yoosung is grinning too, and just. Just giggling about it.
  • Jumin realizes it first.
  • Vanderwood has been in cahoots with Yoosung the entire time. Their character is actually the final boss, they just betrayed the entire party, and there’s an actual possibility of a total party wipe because the current boss they’re facing is now invincible without the special rainbow gem they spend the entire game making.
  • SCREW YOU GUYS, YOOSUNG IS FINALLY GETTING BACK AT Y’ALL FOR ALL OF YOUR BULLSHIT.
  • thanks, vanderwood.
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Enjolras looks around at the group, everyone gaping at him and sitting in stunned silence.

“What?” he asks defensively, a touch rude. “What are you all looking at?”

They don’t say anything, but everyone saw it. They saw his thread.

Soulmate AU where soul mates have a red thread tied to each others pinkies that can be seen by everyone but themselves.

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We lost ourselves on our way.

Okay so this is my first real post on this blog, so here goes!

ABOUT ME: My name is Kiran. I am entering my sophmore year in high school, I really like history (especially theology aspects), I like English (that’s probably my best subject), I am an artist (traditional), I’m not that good at math but I’d like to be, and I am fairly good at science (best at biology). I am taking French 3 honors in school, and will be pursuing Spanish, German, and Korean by myself.

1ST SEMESTER:

  • AP US History
  • Early British Lit
  • Bio (1)
  • French 3 (Honors)
  • Algebra 2
  • Painting 1
  • (I don’t know what wellness class I’m going to have, but I’ll update once I choose it!)

2ND SEMESTER:

  • AP US History (Only up until May, which is when the AP test is)
  • Biblical and Classical Lit (Stuff like the Illiad, the Odyssey, and certain sections of the Bible)
  • Bio (1)
  • French 3 (Honors)
  • Algebra 2
  • Drawing and Painting 2
  • (Again, unsure on what wellness class)

EXTRA:

  • I like to listen to music when I study, so there will probably some music posts on here, or on my other blog, @icarusisinthesea
  • A lot of the studying materials on here will be about Biology, History, or Math, as those are the subjects I struggle with
  • Math is hard for me, but I don’t want to give up, so this blog will be some of my motivation to keep trying!
  • My dream is to be a doctor or a nurse, but I love art, so I’m not exactly sure what path I’ll take
  • I’d like to try to post once a week after school starts, but this is my first time trying to stick to a schedule with a blog, so we’ll see!

INSPIRATIONS/COOL STUDYBLRS:

(basically these are just cool people that I look up to!)

@jiyeonstudies, @b0nie-studies, @diamondlifestudies, @studyingchan, @ohlookimstudying, @inqueerie

Against all odds, I actually had a LOVELY time with my in-laws today! 😊

The road to get there was perfect, all small roads and going through sunny woods, it felt like going on holiday. There was champagne, so after three glasses of it I felt pretty buzzing and nice, and did what I do best, which is actually care about people’s lives. Had a long talk with two of my brother in laws about their lives, their careers and aspirations (the youngest told me of how he was aspiring to become a better manager than the managers he had to deal with right now, someone who’d be willing to tackle problems and would care about his employees, it was cute), and spent the rest of the time talking and giggling with my youngest sister in law (who’s a whooping 16 years younger than me) about life and also about how tipsy we both were. The sun was shining, it was lovely to be in a garden instead of my in-laws’ flat, and it did me a world of good.

This being said, next week we’ve got nothing planned and even though it’s still Sunday I’m already looking forward to next week-end for the chance to chill at home, heh.

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I just realized, I never posted these! I posted them on Amino and I meant to post them here too but I guess I never got to it. Sorry! But here you go! My first ever Luana art. Posted real late. Another thing I forgot to do is say, I’m sorry for height inconsistencies. I’m still trying to get a good feel for drawing these guys. I’ve only been drawing em for a few days. XD

Hi everyone, this is my first real post here. I will essentially post about my studies and my bullet journal. (I am part of the studyblr community ) I hope you will enjoy my posts xx

Okay so to start, here is my desk with my bujo and a cup of tea, I couldn’t find anything better to introduce myself .