here you have it carmen

hi everyone, its carmen!! this is my first follow forever and its basically a big thank you to everyone who follows me and all the lovely mutuals who stuck with me ♡ this year has been a really tough year for me - there were serious health concerns in my family, university has been wearing me out, and i lost sight of a lot of my goals. but this year, i also met so many lovely people on this site and i’ve made so many new friends who listened to me rant and helped me get back on my feet and i will never, ever be able to express how grateful i am for you guys. i love you ♡

before anything, i would like to give a HUGE shoutout to my squad (aka my favourite people in this entire world) for putting up with my bullshit and dealing with my whining on twitter. you guys were my comfort zone, you guys put me at ease and made this past summer so much fun. i love you guys so much! (hover over the ♡ for a message)

@lahviis     @durararas     @vampykeith  

so before i start rambling more, here are my lovely mutuals ♡ ♡

bold = i would kill a man for you

@ageha , @aizawashoutah , @akutagawah@allenswalkers , @asaaemon@atsushisnakajima , @azumanei@batsuki , @dietsoba , @dirkgentlys , @dirkgentlyx , @durararas , @eliuthia@gurens@haiyse , @hideyoshisnagachika@hiwazumi@hvnamiya@hyodo@izukus , @jojotaros , @josay@juminss , @kamuisyato , @keikakus@kgeya , @kimbokjo@kinkymegane , @kishibe@kishitan-iis , @kmuiyato , @kovuku@kurovo , @lahviis@nicorobins@nozumu@ohreigen@ponchizs@ranpohedogawa , @ryoutakises , @ryuzakki@saeyoungchoi , @sakichi@sakkurachiyo ( @kkookiedough ) , @sakuaka@sesukes , @setantas , @softshouyous@sougu@t0ukas , @tachibana–chan@todorokiih , @toshiiros@vaisravanas @vampykeith@yagyuu-kyubei@yasho , @yuukaanda@zuura

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Barisi Episode Tag, 18x15

(and 18x13, and 18x14, and 18x11. Let’s just say it’s a multi-episode tag, spanning the entirety of S18, because I wanted to make up for the ones I didn’t write all season long. Inspired by the messy schedule, by Sonny’s temper, by Barba’s secret, and by my ability to see Barisi in everything. 16.4K.)

Note: This is a 3-part story. 3 mini-episode tags, rolled into one. Each “part” of the story takes place after each of the last 3 episodes, except I’m tackling them in their intended order, namely: 1) Know It All (18x15, with the reveal of Barba’s secret) 2) Genes (18x13, with Sonny’s subsequent outburst) and 3) Net Worth (18x14, with a happy Sonny doing a crossword puzzle). And I’m also heavily referencing Great Expectations (18x11, with the reveal about Sonny’s past).

Please enjoy.




Sonny braces himself before he enters Barba’s office.

It’s been a while.

He doesn’t know which Barba he’ll encounter. Worse than that, he doesn’t know which Sonny he’ll be.

Sonny swears there only used to be one of him. One Sonny, for all seasons.

Not anymore.

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