Hi. im wondering what you think of Hook and his hand dilemma so far and his reasons were for sentimental reasons and also what to expect for his character development and with Emma? Im fascinated by just how deep Hook self loathing is, coz i think he has that despite the im so dashing comments and confidence he has… but deep down has walls, will we ever see more? will Emma see he is keeping that part of him so locked up. Also i kinda feel the same in what u said about Emma and Neal thing
I thought i was kinda the only one who thought and wants Hook to feel alittle jealous of Emma and Neal, to have the kind of scene we had in the last episode when he saw the pic of them - i interpreted like Hook felt for Bae as we know as a kid (thats one side) but also felt the tension of looking at the pic and then seeing also Emma’s reaction and expression to Hook looking at it, expecting some reaction from him i guess - what do you think?
Hey have you or anyone wrote a meta on what was going through Hook’s mind and so on whilst looking in Emma’s memory box and seeing THE pic of Emma & Nealfire. And also add in Emma’s look and watching Hook?
Okay, I hope you all don’t mind that I put your asks together. They kind of all touch on the same subject. What do I think about Hook’s insecurities in general and where they relate to Neal and his hand in particular?
First of, I have no idea if there is a meta out there on the topic. I haven’t read a lot of CS metas lately. Simply, because I find the CS storyline right now kind of self-evident. I expect I’ll read more CS metas when the conflicts start coming. Because then Emma and Hook will probably be a little less open and easy to read. So I’ll want to see different interpretations. As of right now, I think we see a lot through them.
But I can still give you my interpretation since you guys seem interested.
I think that Hook acts cocky, but he actually hates himself. He is very secure about his looks, but outside of that he finds himself pretty disgusting. And even when it comes to his looks, his missing hand makes him feel self-conscious. Season 3 showed that. Peter taunted Hook with the fact that his missing hand would make him less attractive to Emma. Something Hook didn’t contradict. And we were shown Hook trying to do thing one handed before Charming stepped him and did things for him. That was shown to bother and humiliate Killian. So yes, Hook has insecurities there. He does think that he is less attractive and useful to Emma because he only has one hand.
But that’s not all he is insecure about. He has a darkness to him and he knows it. His first impulse is sometimes still to punch and hurt people on a whim. He is still capable of murder in order to serve his own interest. He is still capable of being that selfish and that evil. Hook knows it and he is ashamed. But not enough for these impulses to stop. Not enough to come clean to Emma because that would mean losing her. And he would rather be selfish than not have her. He hates himself for that. He thinks that if he wasn’t scared of losing Emma, he might just go back to his past ways. Season 3 and the missing year showed him that he could. He knows it is still in him.
Meanwhile, Hook kind of put Emma on a pedestal. Pretty much all True Loves on the show do that to some extent. It’s normal. But here the consequence of his admiration for Emma is that he will feel extremely inferior to her.
Because here is how Hook sees Emma. He thinks she is a powerful witch capable of anything she puts her mind to. He thinks she is unstoppable. He believes that she is incredibly brave, selfless, and heroic. In a way, she probably reminds of Liam. A hero he would do anything to gain the approval of. He knows Liam would have proudly fought by Emma’s side. Except Hook is no longer the young Killian; that boy full of hope and good intentions. He has years and years of blood and general villainy on his hand. He has done things that he never want Emma to know about. He feels ashamed of them now, but he knows he didn’t then. And so it hurts to look at himself when he thinks she shines so bright in comparison to him.
He think Emma has a bit of a badass side. She is capable of a bit wickedness. She can be a bit of a trickster. She can defy the rules. She can steal. And she can take pleasure in it, but nothing as bad as he has ever done. Just enough to make her even more sexy in his eyes.
She can also be hard and cold, but only because she has known the same loneliness and despair he has. So that’s not unattractive to him. It makes her more desirable to the contrary because she can understand him.
And Killian knows that beneath all her hard edges, Emma has an incredibly soft center. She has a heart of gold. It’s capable of incredible love and devotion as she has shown with her son and her parents. Even strangers sometimes. She has so much love to give and you can bet Hook craves to be loved like that. He’d do anything for it. But he doesn’t actually think he deserves it. Not from someone like her anyway. Not for the man he actually is.
And if that wasn’t bad enough, it’s canon that Hook thinks Emma is drop dead gorgeous. Last finale established that.
So for him Emma is way way up there and he is way way down there. She is completely out of his league. That didn’t stop him from pursuing her. He is a pirate after all, but he doesn’t actually think he deserves her.
But Hook wants to do everything to be good enough for her and if he can’t, he’ll do everything to fool her into thinking he is. Because Hook doesn’t want to lose her. He knows he might lie and cheat in order to keep that relationship. He’ll do it, but he will feel like shit about it. He’ll pretend to be whoever she wants as long as she stays. Or at least that is what he is telling himself right now.
And that brings us to Neal. Hook has been shown to be jealous of Neal. I can’t say I am glad for it. I personally find it sad. But I am glad that we have hints that says this will be acknowledged and dealt with in the future.
In season 3, Hook was afraid of Neal as competition. That was established in the Neverland arc. Now, Neal is dead. Hook does mourn him because he was Bae. But he also wonders what Emma felt for Neal when he died.
His questioning of Emma saying she felt guilty, I believe stemmed from that. He doesn’t think her guilt was all about Regina. He thinks Neal factored in too. He is wondering if Emma is still in love with Neal. He is afraid of the answer, I think. And I do believe he even feels guilty for wishing she didn’t love Neal when Bae died. But he does wish it.
Neal, as far as the show is concerned, died a hero’s death. Neal doesn’t have the blood Hook has on his hands. I am pretty sure that when he compares himself to Neal, Hook finds himself lacking. Neal died a hero and maybe he deserved Emma more (Hook’s thoughts not mine at all). Emma was in love with Neal. They had a child together. And now Hook wonders if he is the consolation prize. Would Emma rather be with Neal if she could be? And he is scared that the answer is yes or should be yes because he himself is not good enough for Emma. Emma’s silence on the topic only makes his fears grow. Because what if she is trying to spare his feelings here?
Hook would rather be Emma’s second best choice rather then not have her at all. And he is afraid that he is. He’d rather not find out that his fears are true. Right now, anyway because that might change.
Meanwhile, Emma is in a happy bubble. Emma thinks she has never been this lucky. Because here she is, in a relationship with a guy that truly cares about her. Someone she can trust and rely on. Someone she can ask for help and count on. Someone that cares for her kid. Someone she can trust with the vulnerable part of herself. Someone that she finds heroic, and funny, and kind of adorable. A man that understand the pains and fears she hides because he shares them. Someone that makes her feel beautiful and wanted. Someone that is always on her side. A man that she also think is incredibly sexy and hot and that makes her feel flushed and excited like a teenage girl.
Emma can’t believe her luck. And she won’t do anything to rock that particular boat. So talking about the ghost of Neal is a big no for her. She just wants to be happy with the man she has realised she is seriously falling in love with. Of course, ignoring problems is not making them go away. But Emma is so busy trying to let herself be vulnerable and open in order to have a good relationship with Hook, that she isn’t seeing that Hook is keeping part of himself locked away. She doesn’t even think that he could see himself as not good enough for her. She thinks he is so damn wonderful, she can’t imagine that he doesn’t know it.
But sooner or later her bubble will burst. And it will be painful to watch, but it also mean that Hook will get to find out that he is loved the way he is eventually. So that when they find their way back to each other, their relationship will be even better.
And that’s my interpretation of the CS relationship right now.
A/N: Happy Birthday to one of the sweetest and most adorable people I have gotten to know on Tumblr, emmaslovebug. Rain, I do hope you like what I whipped up for you ;)
There’s also a little shout-out to some of Vicky’s ( captaainswaan‘s) funny stuff.
Also, tags will be at the end of the story. If I tag you and you aren’t and smut fan, feel free to ignore.
was 6pm on a cloudy Wednesday evening. Of course Emma wouldn’t have known what
it looked like outside then, since she had been stuck in the office by herself.
David had gone home earlier than usual, because Mary-Margaret had called and
said Neil was running a fever. He explained the situation to Emma, feeling
guilty that he had to leave her at the office with so much unfinished paper
work, but she understood that the health of her baby brother came first. He
thanked Emma by placing a soft kiss on the top of her head, and then threw on
his jacket as he rushed out of the office. Emma simply smiled as she watched
her father scurry home to her mother and her brother.
her focus shifted back to the mounds of paperwork in front of her, her cell
phone chimed. She knew who it was immediately, because he was the only person
who had the Jack Sparrow “But why is the rum gone?” line as his text alert. Smiling,
Emma reached into the pocket of her red leather jacket and swiped the screen of
her phone to view his message.
Going to do a bullet list to make this easier and so I don’t clog up people’s dashes.
MISCA on Misha’s trailer door. Omg. And then MISCAH
((It’s around this point where I realize this is a joke and of course Misha is being a silly being, acting like it’s a usual thing))
Gina’s voice: Oh My God It’s Jensen.
Bullshit he does Yoga. Liar Lol If he does Yoga, I’m the fucking Pope.
Scratch that, if he does Yoga, ten bucks says he does it with Dee and Misha
Maybe Misha taught him. Mmm yes. Let’s go with that.
LOL Jensen meditating. What the actual fuck.
OOh Jared working out. I could watch a good ten minutes of that.
Fucking Jeremy Carver.
Misha taking pics of himself on his phone. You fucking dork.
OMG LOOK AT ALL THE TRENCHCOATS!! *grabby hands* CAN I HAVE JUST ONE? JUST ONE?!
Also Look at the fucking Misha sweater from the French Mistake. I need to get that. That’s online somewhere right?
“This is where they make us look pretty” Fuck you and your fucking face. You know damn well you are already pretty.
OMG *dies laughing* Jensen in a face mask. I love this image so much. What the fuck are you doing Jen?? You are such a fucking doof. Did Misha put you up to this? And you just went along with it? Really?
Seriously though, I want to know how that conversation went.
Yeah, Jensen can you do like a mud mask thing? Like all over my face with the cucumbers and shit? Yeah. Yeah I’ll do that.
If you do something for me later…
Okay maybe not that last part, but THIS IS MY LIVEBLOGGING FUN TIMES, OKAY?!
“Jensen this is your playlist on your iPod.” Dude, this is just making my night. This is fucking hilarious.
Ugh Jensen, you are a gorgeous fucking asshole. Look at your face. Look at it. Just. Stop it. I can’t breathe over here.
“Floppy eared, dopey teddy bear”. Weird. That is also how I describe Jared.
Misha’s bedhead–Christ–Okay, can we just bask in that for a minute. I want that woman’s job. I want to run my fingers through his hair. Seriously.
JARED IN A BEANIE.
I may have blacked out. Jay in a beanie is my weakness.
Riiiiight Jared needs a hairpiece. Mhm. Sure.
MISHA IN WHITE SHIRT AND TRENCHCOAT
I may have blacked out again. But fuck can you blame me. Man is looking really fucking good. Really really fucking Good. Yeah. Good not, good. Capital fucking G.
OMFG IS THAT RICHARD BEHIND THE FOOD?!
*Flails for the next three minutes straight* RIICCHHAARRDDD
*dies for a good five minutes*
Timothy fucking Omundson. CAIIIINNNN
Lol at Richard running away
Lol at Jensen peeking behind a corner. Winchester hiding skills at work
Again with Jared working out. I could watch him all fucking day. Really I could.
Fucking Jeremy Carver.
Jensen you are…a fucking. Dork. Capital D.
Misha is wearing off on you bby.
Jensen reads poetry huh?
Does he read your poetry, Mish?
Jared working out with sunglasses on? Really?
I would also not mind being the mirror holders for Jared.
What even is this shit.
I am just
I cannot right now
Jared you are just as big of a fucking doof
Honestly this is cool and all, but I want to see what it’s actually like behind the scenes. We all know this is bullshit, so the real stuff is probably coming soon, right?
“Your welcome” *dies laughing*
“I don’t cry in real life” BULL FUCKING SHIT. I HAVE SEEN YOUR GODDAMN WEDDING PHOTOS YOU BLUBBERING FUCK. I SAW YOUR FACE WHEN YOU FIRST SAW GENEVIEVE. SHUT YOUR STUPID MOUTH.
Jeremy calling Jared an asshole is just super fucking funny to me. Pot meet kettle.
Not that Jared is an asshole. Obviously I know this isn’t how he is.
Oh my God, Misha didn’t wait for her. That poor girl.
Yes, I blacked out again.
I want to touch it. Just pet her. Just once.
Fuck you Jeremy Carver.
Fuck off you fucking fuck.
Your face annoys me.
And offends me personally.
is going on now?
Jensen with the dog screaming has officially made my night.
Aww Misha bby
You look like you need cuddles
You look tired as shit
You can’t act that.
Look at him for a moment.
15 mins in.
Bby you look beat.
:( Is he okay?
Mr. Krushnic *fans self* I sometimes forget he isn’t Misha Collins and am always pleasantly surprised to hear Krushnic.
“Look what you did!” *giggle fits*
Okay so obviously a big joke and yeah funny, but I would like to see a real version of this shit. It’d be awesome. Like an hour long thing. Fuck yeah.
Okay, the credits are fucking gold
Jared “Blue Steel” Padalecki
Jensen “Where’s the Steak” Ackles
And Dmitri Krushnic as Misha Collins
Can I hear Jensen call him Dmitri just once??
I’m sorry cowboy hat? What fucking cowboy hat?
WERE YOU AND JENSEN FUCKING ROLEPLAYING?!
I KNEW IIIIIT
Not really, but a girl can dream
Special thanks to Mark Sheppard. Did I miss him? Was he in there and I missed him?
Fucking cowboy hat. I want to fucking know. Okay? All the details.
All of them.
Of course you will be remembered Mishy
And his little giggle
That little giggle gives me life.
That gummy fucking grin. My God. He just makes me so happy. And those eye crinkles.
Okay, so all in all, this is good shit, but I mean it. I want to see the real deal. That would be super interesting to me. They did that stuff on the season one dvd, but there was no Misha then and I’m super interested to see actual behind the scenes stuff.