here comes the rain again falling from the stars

I’m searching
For the meaning
In-between the stars.

The blackness
Looks like a mouth
Hung agape for us.

I’m waiting
For the answers
To fall out like rain

Onto us,
But I’m sitting
Alone on this earth

Built up on
Millions of years
Of history repeating.

It reminds
Me of the time
I felt seasons move

Throughout time,
Being the one
Consistent comfort;

Everything
Comes to an end.
This life is transient.

There is no
Epiphany
After these feelings.

It’s just more
Feeling again,
Felt at a new place,

A new time.
I fly through the
Years, away from here,

But here moves
At the same speed
And same direction.

I’ve fought it,
Always cursing
It’s name for being.

Following
Me everywhere,
It became my friend.

Loneliness
Was a victim
Of my own choices.

I hate me
The same as fate,
But it doesn’t matter.

It’s no use.
We are both here.
We might as well learn

How to love
Each-other like
Adopted siblings.

No meaning,
Just us huddled
By memory’s fire

Still burning
But still no home,
So we keep moving.

Transient
People of fire
Leaving ash behind.

Nothing left
But remnants of
Things we touched and loved.

It’s so sad,
But it’s in us.
It’s in our bloodstream.

Coarse through me
Epiphany
That you don’t exist.

There is now,
And I live here
On this moving point.

I don’t run
From myself now.
I run into fate

And embrace
This boy afraid
Of his own being.

There will be
No more searching,
Because I am home.
—  Epiphany
4

today I saw so many comments on a green day photo on facebook. of course they were about waking them up and how october has started, september ended and all that shit.
once again.
if you joke about wake me up when september ends, green day and billie joe, I will not only unfollow you, but also sacrifice a child to satan and tell him to grab your ankles, rip them out, shove them down your throat and then make polyjuice potion out of your blood. fuck you. this song is about his dad dying of cancer. I’d like to see someone you love die of cancer and then watch other people joke about it. wouldn’t that be just fucking funny. see how much you laugh then.
fuck you.

P.S: I’d also like to thank all the people who are supporting billie, green day and his family on instagram or twitter. you guys are true fans. ♥

“Here comes the rain again 
Falling from the stars 
Drenched in my pain again 
Becoming who we are 
As my memory rests 
But never forgets what I lost 
Wake me up when September ends 
Wake me up when September ends”

Ngày cuối tháng 9 mưa rả rích và se se lạnh.
*Anh trai bị té xe, mình về nhà từ mấy hôm nay. Năm tháng qua đi, cuộc đời này chỉ có tình thân là bất biến. Nghe điện thoại Mẹ gọi mà tim hụt đi một nhịp. Mẹ bảo anh chỉ bị té nhẹ thôi, ko sao đâu. Vẫn nghỉ làm bắt xe về nhà, nhìn thấy anh không sao mới thở phào một hơi.

*Bạn đang có những tháng ngày cực kì khó khăn vất vả. Khi tất cả những đức tin, điểm tựa đều sụp đổ. Bạn nói lòng bạn giờ trống rỗng như ngôi nhà hoang, mặc gió lùa vào. Mình thương bạn, thương đến đau lòng. Vì cuộc đời luôn là những thử thách, cái gì không làm mình ngã được thì sẽ làm mình mạnh hơn. Mạnh mẽ lên cô gái của mình, bạn làm được mà. Mình tin bạn!

* Phải mua xe đi làm mà ko biết nên mua xe gì T.T. Phân vân nọ kia mãi, có khi mua xe đạp chạy đỡ.

* Tháng 10 sang, mùa hanh heo man mác gió lại về. Mùa đông năm nay dự sẽ buồn lắm. Lại muốn đi, những chuyến đi ko đầu không cuối, ko banh đồng hành. Chỉ là đi để biết I’m still alive!

Listen to the complete playlist!

1. Seamless - Sabrina Carpenter “You & me together take on the world forever. I know all your secrets & I promise you, I’m gonna keep them~”
2.
Ordinary Day - Vanessa Carlton
“As he spoke, he spoke ordinary words, although they did not feel; for I felt what I had not felt before.”
3.
Crazy Stupid Love - My Crazy Girlfriend
“I’ve been looking everywhere, wishing on stars. There may never be a love as f***ed up as ours.”
4.
Quiet - Lights
“I’m not yours & you’re not mine, but we can sit & pass the time. No fighting wars, no ringing chimes, we’re just feeling fine.”

5.
I Really Like You - Carly Rae Jepsen
“It’s like everything you say is a sweet revelation; all I wanna do is get into your head.”
6. Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson
“He’s a tragedy with more damage than a soul should see. Do I try to change him? He’s so beautiful; such a beautiful disaster.”
7. On the Way Down - Ryan Cabrera
“I took a dive & on the way down I saw you & you saved me from myself. On the way down, I almost fell right through—but I held on to you.”
8.
Oh Darling - Plug In Stereo
“You seem quite shy, but you’re oh so cute & I’m the kinda guy that would love to be yours if you’d ask me to, so just take a chance and try to hold my hand!”
9.
I Do Adore - Mindy Gledhill
“Grace just isn’t my forte but it brings me to my knees when you say: ‘Hello~how are you, my darling, today?’”
10.
I Wouldn’t Mind - He is We
“Merrily we fall out of line; I’d fall anywhere with you. I’m by your side: swinging in the rain, humming melodies. We’re not going anywhere until we freeze.”
11.
All You Wanted - Michelle Branch
“If you want to, I can save you—I can take you away from here. So lonely inside, so busy out there & all you wanted was somebody who cares.”
12.
The City Lights at Night - Sail by the Stars
“Let’s run away & leave this place; we won’t come back again ‘cuz tonight is the night we are everything that we wish we could be.”
13.
Criminal - Britney Spears
“I hear people talk, trying to make remarks, keep us apart. But I don’t even hear; I don’t care. I’m in love with a criminal.”
14.
Everything to Me - David Lehr
“I’ve been sleeping in way too late for the past three days straight, ‘cuz I’ve been talking to you.”
15.
Pieces of Me - Ashlee Simpson
“How do you know everything I’m about to say? Am I that obvious? If it’s written on my face…I hope it never goes away.”
16.
Rescue Song - Mr. Little Jeans
“My dress is torn, you have a black eye you got from a giving kind. But your coat is big & I am warm; I’ll ask if I can walk you home.”

17.
With You - Goodnight Sunrise
“Just like that, all my walls come down. It’s like a private joke just meant for us to know. I relate to you naturally, everybody else just fades away.”

Rain and a Smile

(it finally started raining again here in California and that gave me the idea for this. Forgive any weird typing, it’s hard to type through my own tears :’[ also I’ll just go ahead and show myself to the corner….)

The Shooting Star is falling from the sky. Her blazing tail is fading as its path is remembered in reverence and gratitude by those who had seen it.
_______________________________________

Mable lies in bed, its been a month since the visitors started coming. First was family, her darling triplet babies Acacia, Willow and Hank and their clan. Great grandchildren run through the mystery shack, some are laughing with gamgam Mable, some who are old enough to understand are crying. Mable can see the tears hidden behind the smiles and hugs each one gently until there are no more tears to give.
Next was friends, everyone that could make it came. Humans, spirits and supernatural alike came to say their farewells. Jokes were traded, stories were told, tears were spilled and promises of drinks in the next life were made.
Finally were the people who simply wanted to say their thanks. Political leaders who had fought alongside her for supernatural rights, Supernatural’s who gained so much thanks to her work, all the families she had helped and all the people she inspired came to give tribute and say goodbye.

For the month of farewells the small figure of a 12 year old boy could be seen sitting in a corner wearing a worn out vest and shorts with a faded baseball cap covering his eyes as he stared blankly at the floor. He had been the one to call them all and let them know her time was ending. When everyone would leave for the day he would sit next to the old woman and they would talk. No words were ever exchanged; instead the boy had taken them deep into the mind. Where they ran and played under the sky until there was nothing left to say.

“I could make you stay you know…”

“I know you could bro-bro”

“You wouldn’t need to grow old, people wouldn’t need to say goodbye. You wouldn’t have to…… leave”

“….. You know I’ll never really leave Dipper, you’ll see me again and again and again”

“but you won’t be… YOU

"sure I will, you just might need to remind me a bit”

“…”

“…… you know I’ve lived a long enough Dipper. You’ll be fine without me! Don’t tell me the great demon Alcor is gettin all weepy about his sister”

“heh…. Mystery Twins till the end?”

“Mystery Twins Till the end! and beside I feel tired Dipper, but a good kinda tired. Like I’ve played all day during summer and now it’s time to go to sleep, and it’ll be nice to see Henry again”

“yea, tell him I said hi”

“ I will. ‘Night Dipper see ya soon”

“…….It’s a Deal. Good night Mable”

The Shooting Star has fallen.

______________________________________________________

You couldn’t have asked for better weather during the funeral. It was bright and sunny, not a cloud in the sky. There was no need for a eulogy, or a service. Everyone who had wanted to say their goodbyes had come before. One by one they laid flowers on her grave. Even great demon Alcor came and rained petals from the sky and played violin in honor of her passing. As the day turned to evening, all the mourners had turned to their journey home to spread the new of her passing. The triplets were the last to leave, silently hugging Dipper before going to be with their family. As the last car drove away and the sound of crunching gravel faded he could feel the restrain on his emotions breaking as the hot tears spilled down his face. He was alone. His Twin Star, The great Mizar was gone. Mable was really gone. The heavens opened and wept with him.

Dipper didn’t know how long he had been crying, the rain had kept him cold company the entire time. Some days were a violent storm when he thought of everything he could have done or said but didn’t. Other days were a light drizzle with the sun almost peaking through the clouds as memories of her smile and hugs enveloped him. The rain didn’t stop until one day a little girl had found her way to the grave.

“Mister! Mister! Are you the one making the sky cry?”

Alcor whipped around, there had been visitors to her grave before but none had dared to try talking to him. And yet here stood a little girl with long dark hair tied with a pink bow clutching a stuffed animal

“Mister! Everyone says you’re the one making the sky cry. Mommy and Daddys car got stuck in the mud and we haven’t been able to get it out, I wanna go home”

He could do nothing thing but stare… Her soul it was so familiar… was she really? Had it really been that long?

“Mister are you crying too?”

“yes I’ve lost something important, and it hurts” Why was he telling her this?

“hmmm We’ll I’m not good at finding things but I can give you a hug! Mommy gives me a hug and a big smile whenever I get hurt and it always makes me feel better!”

“a hug and a smile huh…. ” He looked up at the sky and could see the clouds already begin to break
“tell ya what kid, it’s a deal”

The little girl smiled and gave him a big hug as the sun began to show.

“Alright mister I gotta go before my mom gets mad! Make sure you keep smiling so the clouds don’t come back!”

“haha Sure thing kiddo!”

Dipper turned and stretched as the girl ran back to her parents, the sun was out in full blaze, just the sort of day she liked. Dipper smiled wide it still hurt, but it wasn’t the end. He had a deal to keep, and he intended on doing just that.

The End

"Lyrics I've taken from songs on shuffle" starter sentences
  • "I'll be there for you."
  • "There's no hope, that's what we're told."
  • "God ain't on your side."
  • "So, take the photographs and still-frames in your mind."
  • "I'm not happy, but I hope you're happy."
  • "Everybody feels the same."
  • "I'll raise you like a phoenix."
  • "There's no you and me, this impossible year."
  • "Kill that mob!"
  • "I'm a book half unread."
  • "Ever since I found you, I wanna be around you."
  • "Communication breakdown all around."
  • "Well, death to the girl at the end of serenade."
  • "Share one more drink with me?"
  • "No matter how many times we search, the answer is the same."
  • "Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars."
  • "Won’t you smile for me anymore?"
  • "I swear the happiest day of my life is the day that I die."
  • "It's time to get up and let go!"
  • "I just wanna live."
  • "Those days when I got swept away by other people, I’ll say goodbye to that me."
  • "Just like me, they long to be close to you."
  • "I think my mom’s an alien."
  • "See how the sun shines brightly in the city?"
  • "I am an arms dealer, fitting you with weapons in the form of words."
  • "It's empty and cold without you here."
  • "I don't give a shit about the modern age."
  • "I haven't drank or smoked nothin' in over 22 days!"
  • "If you wanna start a fight, you better throw the first punch - make it a good one."
  • "I change the channels for an hour or two..."
  • "I can't express it all in words."
  • "But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late."
  • "Heads or tails; you decide."
  • "Don't say a word, I know you feel the same."
  • "Run and tell the angels that everything's alright."
  • "You'll find out that this world is just an idiot's parade."
  • "Why do you always act in such a passive way?"
  • "Lesson learned for me and you."
  • "I know you have to go."
  • "Ain't this uniform so flattering?"
  • "Take it slow."
  • "Too many war wounds and not enough wars."
  • "I wanna be the minority."