Dracula fights against a group of Nazi scientists creating an army of artificial vampires who is led by a short chubby nerd who wants to throw the world into war for shits and giggles. Also, a deranged priest bent on killing vampires is thrown into the mix and he hates Dracula and wants him dead. He’s under the employ of an even bigger nutjob who hates protestants and wants them all dead.
And then a big tittied Police Girl because it’s not an anime if there isn’t at least one girl with big titties.
GIF Request: Reunion with Lover: Hellsing + Millennium
He is not one to make a big deal, no matter how long he and his partner have been separated. His affection will instead show in private or while his partner is unable to react, in which he will look at them tenderly or run his fingers through their hair.
At first, she will remain calm and collected. However, when she was in front of her partner, her composure would fade and she would throw her arms around them, a soft smile on her lips as she held them tight.
She would be angry at first, screaming how they were gone for so long and she had no idea if they were even alive any more. Then, the embrace would happen, most likely brought on by her partner, as tears streamed down her face.
He would approach his long-lost love casually, remarking how he knew that they thought he would never return. They would run to him and he would catch them, playfully teasing them about their lack of faith in him.
Though no one would have known, the separation had a huge impact on Walter, and he went through a severe mourning process when you left. However, when you were in his arms again, he squeezed you hard, wanting to make sure you were real.
He would use all of his strength to sweep you up, eliciting a giggle from you. He would exclaim his happiness for all to hear as he held his most beloved in his arms once more.
It would definitely be a classic run-into-each-others’-arms deal, only going in slow motion in their heads. He would wrap them in his arms, not wanting to let go of you ever again.
The two of you would stand a bit apart, tears forming in your eyes as you looked at him from a distance, disbelieving what you were seeing. When you finally cried out his name, he would run, fast as he could, to hold you.
While her partner would be ecstatic, should act indifferent, never allowing her joy to show through after being away for so long. She would hold them, probably not realizing how long she’d been holding them.
A reunion with Schrodinger would be playful. He would lift his partner into the air, twirling them around as he laughed and shouted how much he missed them.
Her joy would be immense. She would want to dance with you before ever allowing you to hold her. She would quote every romantic line she knew before you shut her up with a kiss.
He would find you, wanting to surprise you with his return, before appearing behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist. At first, you didn’t know who he was, until he spoke your name, causing you to smile and turn to rest your head against his chest.
He would act like it was nothing, allowing his partner to run to him, probably tease them on how he didn’t recognize them. He did miss them, but his pride wasn’t going to allow them to know that.
He would want to touch every part of his partner, especially their face, when they back together. He wanted to remind himself of everything the two of you had, and somehow memorize it.
How would you describe hellsling to someone who hasn't watched it before?
It’s about a vampire-hunting organization headed by a badass woman named Integra Hellsing who is aided by a vampire with Lovecraftian powers known as Alucard. And then there’s their rival organization known as Iscariot Section XIII. Their main enforcer is Father Alexander Anderson who really likes killing vampires and really has it out for Alucard. They have a bit of a friendly rivalry as they attempt to kill each other.
They all get mixed up in a plot by a chubby nerd only known as “the Major” heading a Nazi organization known as Millennium to start a war because… well, he just likes war, to be honest. He assembles an army of artificial vampires to fight in the battle. There’s also a Nazi cat-boy on their side (yes, you heard that right) who liberally abuses the rules of quantum mechanics. (It’ll make more sense in the end.)
And then a big-tittied Police Girl because it’s not an anime if there isn’t at least one girl with big titties. (And her name is Seras Victoria, by the way, not “Police Girl.”)
It’s very gory and bloody, but it’s a fantastic series with a lot of character development and an interesting story.
Hellsing & Vulnerability: Alt. How Sad is Alucard?
Gentlemen… I am a nerd.
Case in point: during my
lunch breaks, instead of surfing Facebook—something I save for the
comfort of my couch—I am on the TED talks website. Nothing makes my
day like learning something new; I would take infinite college
courses if they didn’t cost a dime, no matter how stressful the
workload would be. Give me a lecture on anthropology or ancient
history and I am happy as a lark.
Recently, my lunchtime
lecture was given by self-proclaimed researcher-storyteller Brené
Brown. It was entitled “The Power of Vulnerability”, and I highly
recommend you view it [link here], if you’re interested in human
nature like I am. Anyway, so I’m sitting there, half-reclined with
the door to my classroom locked and fully engrossed in both the video
and the sandwich in my hand, when it hits me. I’ve heard of
inspiration washing over people like a wave, but when I get it, it’s
like an arrow straight to my brain: sudden, unexpected, and I can’t
think of much else afterwards.
My brain sent a single
thought through my head, one that made me stop chewing and run it
through two or three times to make sure I’d heard it right:
Alucard’s greatest fear is vulnerability.
Emotionally, that is.
wait, I countered myself, taking another bite
of my sandwich. Who isn’t afraid of
vulnerability? It’s sort of a given: we
don’t want to let anyone else—who can do harm—into the deepest,
most secretive part of our souls. But then, as I thought more, I
realized that although we as humans try to hide it, vulnerability
also has a little habit of sneaking through.
Humans, as a species, are
amazing. My favorite thing to learn about is universal experience.
For example, all nations seem to have the odd occurrence where a
child’s father tells corny jokes that often fall flat, but are
funny because they
fall flat. But dad jokes aside, universal experience bleeds into
vulnerability like pink on a white dress. You don’t have to know
someone’s language to know that they’re smiling because they’re
happy, or covering their eyes and cowering because they’re afraid.
Body language, facial expression, the look in their eyes—it all
goes without saying, no matter who you are or where you’re from.
Isn’t that amazing???!
(Clears throat) Since I
was supposed to be talking about Hellsing, I’ll use an example from
the manga/OVA. Also—do I even have to mention spoilers at this
point? It should be assumed, but even so: spoilers!
The scene I’m thinking
about is not Alucard, but rather his master. When Walter shows up on
the streets of London, dressed in conveniently found leather and
sporting some impressive age reducing cream, everyone is astounded.
Seras gasps dramatically, Alucard smiles like he always does, the
Iscariots go “No, no, don’t step there!” collectively. But what
always got me was Integra’s reaction. Not immediately, though she
does kind of waste her nicotine on the bloody ground, but afterwards,
when Alucard asks her what he’s supposed to do—kind of. That one
page became one of my absolute favorites in the manga, and it’s an
excellent jumping point for our talk about vulnerability.
See, Hirano didn’t have
to say “Oh, she’s super sad. That was her butler and kind of her
second dad and now he’s thrown their relationship away to fight
another dick also dressed up in leather”. He didn’t need to say
it. She says it all without a word in edgewise about it: clenched
fists, watery eyes, a tightness in her stance that suggests fighting
back tears… she’s in despair. When you see a panel like this,
it’s all too easy to remember that she’s a young 20+ woman who
just lost the last person she could theoretically call family.
but what’s my point? Think about it. She was in the middle of a
war, her house is on fire, vampires are trying to bite her, she was
unofficially kidnapped and held hostage by a bunch of weirdos working
for the Vatican, and she remains calm and cool. Her breaking point
only comes when something cuts her to the core, something that she
can’t deal with without instantly having to fight against the tears
that would show everyone—enemies included— “hey, I’m hurting
emotionally, I really need comfort and reassurance.”
#1: Vulnerability shows when a person feels a
pain so great that it strikes a chord within their soul. Remember it,
bookmark it: it’ll come back up later.
big thing, that I didn’t really think about until Mrs. Brown
touched on it, was that the only people who don’t feel shame are
the ones who lack the ability to connect empathetically with others.
Now, I know you just read that and thought “Wait, weren’t we
talking about vulnerability?”, but trust me on this. It’s just
another point I’m making.
let me ask you this: What is the defining term between the words
psychopath and sociopath? Most people put them on the same lines, but
there’s a major, major difference. That term is conscience.
Psychopaths lack a conscience. They feel no sense of right or wrong
about what they do. They can’t connect with others. Sociopaths,
according to experts, have a weak conscience. They feel guilt or
remorse, but it’s not strong enough to guide their hand like it
might be in the average person’s mind.
Mrs. Brown found in her research that the underlying cause for shame,
for people saying ‘I’m not ___ enough, I don’t deserve love or
happiness” is excruciating vulnerability. The people who were
ashamed of themselves were also afraid to let their inner selves show
to the world. And the only people who don’t feel shame are
psychopaths, who lack empathetical connections with others.
#2: Sociopaths can feel shame; therefore,
they can feel vulnerable. You can probably see where I’m going at
this point, right?
point: Mrs. Brown, in her findings, talked about something called
“numbing vulnerability”. She talked about how humans will try to
numb the emotions that they don’t like or agree with, the ones that
cause them pain or go against what they consider their morality.
Think of monks and nuns giving up pleasures for devotion, that sort
of thing. But humans can’t just numb things that make them suffer.
When they do, it starts numbing other things, too. You can get rid of
shame, of guilt, disappointment, but at what cost? Joy, gratitude,
#3: Those who chose to fight against
vulnerability, become miserable.
Think of the London
Blitz, or as I call it: manga catharsis. Everyone—Iscariot,
Hellsing, Millennium: they all blew up, shot a man or two, got their
emotions out, and if they lived they went on with their lives. SAY
THAT I’M WRONG. Out of all the people that could have cried their
eyes out there, which one of them did? (looks at camera like the
office) Which one of them had a complete screaming, crying meltdown
and showed a surprising amount of true vulnerability to a dying man
as well as like, fifty other people who were just kind of hanging
back and watching it all play out?
It wasn’t Seras, I’ll
tell you that much. T_T;
Let’s take our three
main points and apply them to the 600-year-old… uh… guy.
Point 1: Why did he have
that fit in the first place? Catharsis, I tell you! Anyway, he was
angry at Anderson for becoming a… plant thing dude. Ugly. He was
mad at Anderson for turning ugly. (coughs) But if we take that point
into thought, Anderson’s ugliness—okay, the nail loophole—cut
him so deeply that it struck a chord within him, and he couldn’t
help but rant and rave against what had happened. And, we can assume
that unlike Integra, it went so deeply that he couldn’t stop the
tears in time. Why? Because—and this is a bit of conjecture, but I
think I can safely say—what Anderson did hit on a source of deep
shame for Alucard, shame that he hadn’t been strong enough, brave
enough, whatever enough to stay a human and instead became a vampire.
Summation: Alucard has
the ability to feel emotions, and these can be forceful enough to
provoke a reaction from him.
Point 2: Alucard is, I
believe, a sociopath. Prevalent more in the manga, and subtle in the
anime/OVA, he does appear to have the ability to connect with others.
In the manga, he’s seen joking around with Walter, teaming up with
Seras to tease Integra, getting along with Pip in a business-like
way, and you can even go so far to say that he has an—albeit
unhealthy—connection with both Anderson and the Major. Of course,
it’s sometimes possible for people to fake these connections, but I
don’t think that’s the case BECAUSE of his breakdown in London.
As stated earlier, to
feel shame and vulnerability, to be burdened with emotional pain, is
a sign of someone who has morality and can form relationships. Now,
that’s not saying he’s a good guy—not at all. As a sociopath,
any emotion he feels that gets in the way of his ultimate goal is
easily ignored. He might feel guilt, shame, pain, or remorse for his
actions, but he simply chooses to do it anyway and probably doesn’t
bother to consider it more than a minute or two.
Another example is his
and Seras’s little spat in the hotel room. She argues that the
people he killed are humans, innocent of anything other than
following orders. He shouts at her, yanking her up by the collar and
yelling in her face. Then, when she starts to cry, he puts her back
down and is more subdued. Now, there’s two ways I look at this:
firstly, his expression when he sees her tears. He looks, in the OVA
at least, almost shocked that she’s crying, and then seems to
rethink his actions. Now, he wasn’t rethinking the killing, per
say, but instead he felt something about making her cry. This leads
back into the ability to make connections. He felt—bad?—about her
tears, so he promptly stopped the offending action and reformed his
behavior to something more acceptable: a quieter tone, placing her
back on the floor, backing away to give her space. A psychopath
wouldn’t care that he’d made her cry, having no emotional
connection to her. But Alucard cared enough to stop the behavior,
which means that he cared enough about her to
at least think “I should not be doing this to this person. Let’s
stop and do something else.”
Summation: Per the
clinical definition of a sociopath, Alucard has the ability
to both make meaningful connections with others. Whether he makes
those connections or not is up to him.
Point 3: Throughout the
manga/OVA, a close observer can see Alucard fighting against
himself—and his emotions. When he dreams about his demise at the
hands of van Helsing, he cries in his sleep. However, upon waking he
is apathetic about the experience, dismissing it as “a dream; it
was nothing”. He feels disgust and anger when a guard kills
himself, rather than let Alucard rip him apart while alive. He speaks
out against monsters “like me[himself]”, pleading with Anderson
to stay human even if it costs him his life. He demeans himself at
different times, often in soliloquy or as an undertone to a sentence.
This provokes the
question: Does Alucard consider himself worthy of happiness? The
answer is probably no, he does not. He shows himself to be very
self-critical of his past choices, although he accepts all of them
for what they are. However, instead of learning from his past and
starting over a new leaf, he remains on the same path of death and
destruction. One can assume that he might feel trapped by his own
actions, unable to rise up and overcome to begin life anew. This
might be why he waits for someone to kill him—a punishment that
would, ultimately, free him. This would be a miserable, endless
existence, one of self-loathing and an eternal feeling that he is,
and always will be, beyond any sort of redemption.
shame and constant fighting against his own emotions has caused him
to turn bitter against the world, as his existence is a cold, bleak
realm of misery.
Now for the (deep, echoing
REALM OF OPINIONS:
If all of the above is
true, and can be said about Alucard, here is what I think.
Alucard would view his
vulnerability as something weak and useless, to be despised and
ignored for as long as possible. In short, I think that he would
consider vulnerability to be something wholly
and that as a monster he has neither need nor inclination for
exposing that side to others. As a human, he was taken at a young age
and abused, which set the foundations for what would have otherwise
been a happy, healthy adulthood. Surely as a prisoner of the sultan,
any weakness would have been mortifying to show to his captors. Even
now, as a servant to the Hellsing Organization and British Empire, he
would feel it better to hide any emotion that he truly felt behind a
mask, so that they could have no ammunition to use against him if the
does not, however, stop him from at the very least forming a social
bond with a few select people, even if they remain outside the field
of acquaintances. It is shown through the manga, anime, and OVA that
although he walks with both feet in the lawless side of existence, he
has the ability to be polite, civilized, work with others, be a
teacher, understand the implications of his actions, tease others,
even laugh and cry. Despite hating the human part of himself, it is
still a core element of his being.
leave you now with questions and thoughts: you are more than welcome
to continue the discussion in the comments, PM me, reblog, etc. In
fact, if you liked this read, please reblog it so that others can see
Alucard can feel vulnerable, what other situations might he
willingly/unwillingly show it?
are automatically expected by society to be more aloof and
emotionless than women, though it is not the case in the slightest.
How might this also play a factor in Alucard’s psyche? Is this
another part of the reason he loathes himself?If he
were ever willing to step back and take a look at himself, or even go
to therapy, how would that affect his behavior? As a sociopath, would
he make a willing change, or would therapy only further complicate
also want to do a talk that’s more about my fanfiction side of
things, which will be coming up VERY soon. I hope you enjoyed! Please
let me know what you think! I leave you now, with a quote from the
TED Talk that Mrs. Brown gave, that I think sums it up nicely.
But there’s another way, and I’ll leave you with this. This is what I have found: To let ourselves be seen, deeply seen, vulnerably seen … to love with our whole hearts, even though there’s no guarantee — and that’s really hard, and I can tell you as a parent, that’s excruciatingly difficult — to practice gratitude and joy in those moments of terror, when we’re wondering, “Can I love you this much? Can I believe in this this passionately? Can I be this fierce about this?” just to be able to stop and, instead of catastrophizing what might happen, to say, “I’m just so grateful, because to feel this vulnerable means I’m alive."