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re: 1.04: One of my favorite things in the entire series is how Dean’s homemade EMF meter was introduced to Sam’s mocking of it… and yet they’re still using the same one (or at least one built pretty much the same way) 12 years later. They never felt the need for any sort of fancier model, because it works. Because Dean knows what the hell he’s doing and built a quality thing that does what it’s supposed to do.
EXACTLY. And it’s funny/sad the way Dean internalizes some of Sam’s attitude about him after a while, because we’re in S1 where Dean is confident and building impressive tools and literally tells Sam in 1x07 that “you don’t need to graduate from college to be a genius only to descend later on into “I’m just a grunt” and…not necessarily hiding his smarts, but only bringing them out occasionally.
It makes me wonder a little bit about whether/how much Dean experienced gaslighting growing up. As someone who did, I still find that the weirdest things can flip a switch in my head about what’s real about me/the things around me.
re: 1.06: Agreed, when you combine points 2 and 5. If nothing else, the fact that Sam never told Jess about any of this (which had surprised Becky), Becky’s reaction probably served as a painful realization that he could’ve told Jess, maybe should’ve told her, dredging up yet more guilt that he wasn’t able to prevent her death (which he was also still feeling guilty about… he brought the supernatural into her life, after all, but without warning her about the risks, because he felt he was out and safe with her).
Thanks, Mittens. I didn’t need this heart. *sobs quietly into his coffee*
Bleh. S1 does have some weird bits to it, like they were still sort of wandering around blindfolded trying to feel out where the story would eventually go, trying to keep as many options open as possible. I try not to get too hung up on the odds and ends that just seem randomly weird like that.
Oh gods yes. It’s one of those things that makes my inclination to interrogate the text from inside the text super frustrating during S1. Because hey, it’s not a fully-formed anything yet. There are a dozen little mysteries that are very cool in their own container that look very odd taken with the whole.
I mean, knowing this will probably never stop me poking them with a stick, but…