man, I just….I just wanna be happy. I’m so, so tired of being this walking ball of depression who only feels negative emotions, if she feels anything at all. some people are always so happy, so positive no matter where they are in life….studying in school, working as a doctor, a lawyer, a desk job, working in retail, unemployed, or even not having a lot of things but still managing to be happy and positive. I’m so tired of waking up every day wishing that I were still asleep so I wouldn’t have to feel the depression I feel. I wish I could get to a place where I’m happy.