"When I fall in love again, I’ll know it’s by choice. I know it because I searched for it and it found me. And I know I chose to receive it. And if by chance my relationship fails, I don’t want to be the person that hates love. I want to be accountable for the things I could’ve done better. I want to acknowledge those times where I could’ve compromised but didn’t, where I could’ve given but didn’t, where I should’ve listened but didn’t. I don’t want to be the person who forever blames love for my shortcomings.
I don’t want us to be the ones who gave up when it was time for us to put the work in. I want to be real and realize that love isn’t responsible for when I spoke in anger or the time I lashed out in revenge in spite or even the times I blindfolded myself from the truth with fear. I want to be the person who acknowledge their imperfection, who accepted their wrongs, and weaknesses but knew that love was just as perfect as god designed it to be. I want my partner to understand that we are complicated things. We ran from chances and that we made mistakes. I want it to be understood that we tried our best. I want him to know that we loved and learned, and that we don’t fall short because we loved and lost. I want it to be known that we chose to give pieces of ourselves that were priceless. We chose compassion, understanding, and trust over the fears, doubts, and insecurities. I want you to know that we did what real lovers do. I want to trust that even though we didn’t give perfectly that we still gave it our all. I want to believed we kissed before goodnights and said “I love you” before goodbyes, but more than anything I want us to have faith that as long as we’re still breathing we’ll live to love another day”