this city's gonna break your heart

Creator: everylineeverystory
Type of Work: Fanmix
Title: this city’s gonna break your heart
Summary: A mix for an alternate universe where Derek and Stiles decide to leave Beacon Hills, to get out before it can take anything else from either of them, so they can buiold a real life somewhere else. It’s not perfect, but they’re safe and they’re together and that’s what matters most.

-one- Out Alive - Kris Allen

We can run
We can hide
We can show off our guns and put on a fight
If it’s love
Hold on tight, hold on tight
Maybe we’ll make it out alive

-two- Remedy - Adele

When the pain cuts you deep
When the night keeps you from sleeping
Just look and you will see
That I will be your remedy
When the world seems so cruel
And your heart makes you feel like a fool
I promise you will see
That I will be, I will be your remedy

-three- Shattered - O.A.R.

In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town, another everything
But it’s always back to you
Stumble out in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There’s more I need
It’s always back to you

-four- Anywhere - Evanescence

Forget this life 
Come with me
Don’t look back you’re safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one’s left to stop you

-five- Our Time - Secondhand Serenade

This is our time to run away
It’s our time we don’t have to stay here
‘Cause all the things that I never knew
That I wanted, are here with you
This is our time, to forget the past
It’s our time we can make it last
‘Cause all the things that I never knew
That I wanted, are here with you

-six- If The World Turned Upside Down - Goo Goo Dolls

When the road ahead just goes in one direction
And for every word you write there’s contradiction
When the inner voice of reason’s full of doubt
What’s the point in fitting in, if you’re designed to stand out

-seven- Ran Away To The Top Of The World Today - O.A.R.

I’ve been crying and losing lots of sleep
cause the roads are getting longer
winter snows come kinda deep
but I still will move along
and I still can feel the sun
and I see or hear a thing
and I’ll break into a run

-eight- Someday - Rob Thomas

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it’s good to be someone

-nine- Sooner Or Later - Mat Kearney

You can feel fire in the night lying here
Baby it’s like we’re walking on a wire through the fear
Take my hand
We’ll get there

-ten- Before It’s Too Late - Boyce Avenue

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don’t live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ‘til it’s gone

-eleven- We’re Not Gonna Fall - Daughtry

Cause when these four walls try to cave in,
And the ground underneath starts shaking,
It’s the hope in your eyes that I cling to,
And I hope to god it never leaves you

-twelve- Demons - Imagine Dragons

Don’t wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don’t wanna hide the truth

-thirteen- Youth - Troye Sivan

My youth is yours
Run away now and forevermore
My youth
My youth is yours
A truth so loud you can’t ignore
My youth, my youth, my youth
My youth is yours

-fourteen- Here In Your Arms - Hellogoodbye

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whispers “Hello, I’ve missed you quite terribly”
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there’s no place else I could be but here in your arms

-fifteen- Something I Need - OneRepublic

You got something I need
In this world full of people there’s one killing me
And if we only die once,
I wanna die with you 

-sixteen- All That You Are - Goo Goo Dolls

And I feel
All the faint morning light
Filled with hope
Cause you’re here in my life
And we’ve gone
From the edge of our souls
Made it back to a place we call home
You… See me through
I was alone in the dark and the fear was my truth

-seventeen- Home - Gabrielle Aplin

‘Cause they say home is where your heart is set in stone
Is where you go when you’re alone
Is where you go to rest your bones
It’s not just where you lay your head
It’s not just where you make your bed
As long as we’re together, does it matter where we go?

Link: l i s t e n

Alex Grey - Progress of the Soul pt. 22

“Zena Lotus” 1990, oil on linen.

Our daughter, Zena, was born November 15, 1988. Astrologically she is a Scorpio, very passionate and curious about scary things. In this painting she pulls from her center a rainbow sphere, a heartdrop of spiritual potentiality with the Tibetan syllable Ah. The Ah is used in the Dzogchen teachings as a symbol of primordial purity. Joyful children radiate this purity and spontaneity, free from conceptual thought, but it is not integrated or stabilized as true realization; that only comes after the conceptual mind has developed and been transcended by spiritual practice.

How Dean Coming Out Should Go Down PT2
  • -in impala-
  • Dean: hey...Sammy?
  • Sam: Yeah, Dean.
  • Dean: Can I Tell you something?
  • Sam: Sure, what is it?
  • Dean: ...-obviously nervous-
  • Dean: nothing!
  • Sam: Well, Then Tell me.
  • Dean:
  • Sam: are you..okay?
  • Dean: -Teary eyed-
  • Dean: I'm
  • Sam: -concerned- You're what?
  • Dean: Gay (orbipleasedon'tkillmedeancanbegayorbiidefk)
  • Sam: -Laughs-
  • Dean: -heartdrops-
  • Sam: wait, you're serious?
  • Dean: ...Yes, Sammy.
  • Sam: -laughs- and you're Telling me now?
  • Dean: -confused-
  • Sam: Dude, I already knew.
  • Dean: WHAT
  • Sam: YEAH
  • Sam: YES
  • Sam: when I was like what? 6?
  • Dean: -angry-
  • Sam: WHAT?
  • Dean: you know i would have Told you earlier if you hadn't been quiet ALL THESE YEARS
  • Sam: Well, i didn't want To pressure you...
  • Dean:
  • Sam: Why are you so angry?
  • Dean: I'm not angry
  • Sam: nervous?
  • Dean:
  • Sam: You just came out why are you still nervous?
  • Dean: Dad
  • Sam: Dean, Dad loved everyone, and especially you.
  • Dean: but I'm not him
  • Sam: obviously, you're Dean.
  • Dean: no, he wanted me To be like him, Sam.
  • Sam: and why does sexuality make a difference?
  • Dean:
  • Sam: Dean, dominating a man Is manlier than dominating a girl. It takes courage for a man to love his man imeanifyouhaveone...I'll love you no matter what, you're my brother.
  • Dean: Thanks samm-what do you mean "if you have one"
  • Sam: You know like Cas or something
  • Dean: -violently blushes-
  • Sam: Desti-
  • Dean: GET OUT
  • Sam: el
  • Dean: -unlocks The car doors-
  • Sam: I know you love him, Dean.
  • Dean: -blushes- Can we Talk about This some other Time?
  • xD if you guys want a more serious one just Tell me,but Dean and Sam are really silly so i Thought This would fit
last heartdrop

once upon a time you were more important to me than myself.

I used to talk about you like you were brighter than the sun,

I used to talk about you like you were oxygen.

I used to talk about you like you were every wave in the sea.

I used to talk about you like you told the stars when to shine.

I used to talk about you like you created god.

I used to crave you like my veins crave the flow of my blood.

Your lips were my existence,

Your eyes were every heartbeat I ever had. 

Your soul was everything that perfection would ever come close to.

Where were you?

Where were you when I was all about you?

Where were you when my tongue was addicted to your name?

But now, darling

The roses that were once your lips have died,

Every galaxy that I saw in your eyes has faded into darkness.

I have loved you.

And I loved you so violently.

And I loved you for so long -

That I cannot dream of talking about anyone the way I used to talk about you. 

And as time will make me old and bitter,

I will surely find someone new.

And he perhaps may love me, but I will not love him too.

And he’ll wonder why i’m so cold-hearted, and my feelings can’t be true,

And darling that’s because,

I used every last drop of my heart on you.


It’s backbreaking
Sun hot on my neck
Sweat drips
in my eyes
Boot on shovel
Sling blade flies
Hands pull and
blisters bleed
It’s hard work
culling the
bad memories
from the good
in this over grown
garden of a heart
Drop seeds of hope
tamp them down
water with yesterdays
Wait for the sunshine
of your smile
hope that the
was worth

JWB 2016