heartbraking

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Robin Williams July 21, 1951 - August 11, 2014
I finally got round to watching this film and I cried through the last 20 minutes. It is heartbreaking to know that there will never be another film with this fantastic man in it. He has been one of my biggest inspirations in acting and in my opinion is one of the greatest performers of all time.
Thank you.

Dear Journal,

This morning I got woken up by Lily and Teddy both jumping on the bed.

“Today’s the day! You’re getting married!” She said.

I smiled instantly. Merlin, today was the day.. I’ve been waiting for this moment since Sirius proposed in 7th year. Teddy jumped in my arms and I hugged him tightly.

“Have you slept well love?” I asked Teddy, remembering how cuddled up we fell asleep.

He nodded with a big smile on face. I kissed both of his cheeks and placed his messy curls.

“Maybe you should go wake up Padda love, we don’t want him to show up at the wedding in pyjama’s!” I said, hugging Teddy once again.

“Okay! Kissie!” Teddy said, making a kissy face.

I gave him a quick kiss and he ran to the door with Lily following him. I colapsed on my bed and smiled to myself. I was nervous but so excited to marry Sirius. I started getting ready and Lily came back with her dress on. She looked breathtakingly beautiful.

“Wow Lily.. You look amazing!” I said, hugging her again.

“Thank you Remus.. Do you mind if I get ready here? I don’t want you to be alone.” She said, her smile still present.

“It’s okay, I actually need help with my hair.. they’re a bit messy and I can’t style them properly.. Can you help me?” I asked.

She placed my curls so they would stay on place all day long. I felt a bit fancy with all those hair products in my curls!

As I was putting on my suit, I heared a knock on the door. Mum and Dad.

“Oh Honey look at you!” Mum said with tears in her eyes.

“Mum please you’re going to make me cry!” I said, hugging her small figure.

“I’m so proud of you my son.” Dad said, joining the hug.

“I love you both..” I whispered.

Teddy then came rushing in with a piece of paper in his small hand.

“Padda is awake!” He yelled, handing me the paper.

“Thank you Teddy. Do you want to go get ready with grandpa?” I asked.

“Okay!” He smiled, taking dad’s hand.

I unfolded the piece of paper and instantly recognized Sirius’ neat handwritting.

“I can’t wait to marry you my love… See you down the aisle.. Sirius xox”

I smiled and hugged the paper to my heart. Sirius was maybe a badboy heartbraker but sometimes he was just as romantic. I folded the paper and placed it into my suit pocket so it could be with me all day long. I couldn’t wait to put it in my memory box at home. I started working on my bow tie but Sirius usualy helps me with it. Mum noticed my strugle and helped me tie it beautifuly and whispered in my ear.

“You know, I always knew you two would end up together. The way you talked about him and the way he looked at you.. it was written in the sky.” She said.

“I love him so much mum.” I smiled.

“Oh honey I know you do. I’m so glad you found someone perfect for you. You found the right man.” She smiled.

She then left to go get her hair done with Lily. I was alone in my room, ready as I’ll ever be. I stared at my reflexion. One of my old scars could be seen on my neck but I didn’t think about it because I knew Sirius loves them. I took out my vows and read them again. Was it too cheesy? I hope not.. Suddently I heared a soft knock in the door. I instanlty recognized the voice.

“Moons?” Sirius asked.

“Pads? Don’t come in here you’ll break the tradition!” I said, running to the door.

“I won’t love.. I won’t.. I just wanted to hear your voice that’s all..” He said.

I leaned my back against the wooden door and closed my eyes, imagining Sirius’ face in my head.

“I’m nervous Pads..” I said.

“It’s just me love.. don’t be nervous..” he said.

“I just want to hold your hand.. It would calm me.” I said.

The door cracked open and his hand peaked in. I took it and squeezed it.

“I can’t wait to see you..” he said.

“Me too..”

After a few minutes, James entered and told me it was time. The room we had reserved was actually a rooftop from which we could see the Eiffel tower. It was beautiful. The flowers made it even prettier. Lily was holding her flowers, ready to walk the aisle with Teddy’s hand in hers.

“You can do this Remus.” She smirked.

I took a deep breath and the music started. My heart started pounding. Lily took Teddy’s hand and walked down the aisle to the music. My mum was the one walking me down the aisle. I felt safe with her by my side. She wrapped her arm around mine and smiled. That was it. It was our moment. Sirius’ and I.

I walked down the aisle and the moment I saw Sirius, I felt all my worries go away. He was so handsome. Merlin I was lucky. His black hair neatly placed, his flushed cheeks and his shaky hands. Suddently I just wanted to run and jump in his arms. He was biting his lip and tears were running down his cheeks. James had a big smile on his face and also had his hand on Sirius’ shoulder. Sirius’ eyes never left mine. He wipped his tears away and smiled. When I arrived at the altar, I gave my mum a kiss and Sirius took both of my hands. I looked into his grey eyes and he mouthed me something while the priest talked.

“We gather here to unite these two lovers in marriage..” The priest said.

“You look beautiful.” Sirius mouthed, not caring about the wedding that was going on.

I smiled and blushed.

“I love you” I mouthed back.

To be honest, I wasn’t really listening to the priest either. He was saying some nonsence! I couldn’t stop looking at Sirius. His eyes were still a bit glossy but he looked so handsome. I got woken up from my dreamland when I heared the priest say some important words.

“It is now time for you both to read your vows.” He said, nodding so I could go first.

“Hum.. okay. My dear Sirius, I can’t even put to words how much you mean to me. Believe me, I would write it in the sky, carve it on mountains and scream it on rooftops. Since the day I met you, I had this feeling in my stomach. The feeling that makes you happy. After all these years of me loving you, the feeling is still there. I want it to be there until my heart beats his last beat because I know that my heart will always beat for you. Yesterday you asked me if I thought we were meant to happen.. I would say it’s more than that. We were made for eachother. I love you so much Sirius. I will always love you, to the moon and back…” I said, looking up from my shaking hands holding the paper.

Sirius was crying and smiling at the same time. I wanted to kiss him. To hug him. He wipped his tears away and took his paper out of his pocket, his hands shaking.

“Well, it’ll be hard to top that.. okay..When I was younger.. Before I went to Hogwarts .. I always thought I would hate my life. I thought I would have to live with a pureblood wife.. I didn’t want this life.. But when I saw you Remus, I knew anything was possible. I knew i could be loved and more important, i knew I could be with someone I love. I was always taught that love wasn’t real. That you couldn’t fall in love. But when I saw you I found it hard to believe. Imagining my life without you is painful. You are my whole world Remus. We’ve been through so much.. I love you.. to the moon and back…” he said, tears running down his cheeks.

I was also crying. Merlin I loved him so much. I extended my hand to wipe his tears away which made our family and friends laugh. The priest smiled and continued talking.

“Remus John Lupin, do you take Sirius Orion Black to be your husband? Do you promise to be faithful to him in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love him and to honor him all the days of your life?” He asked.

I smiled and looked into Sirius’ eyes.

“I do.”

“Sirius Orion Black, do you take Remus John Lupin to be your husband? Do you promise to be faithful to him in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love him and to honor him all the days of your life?” He repeated.

“I do” Sirius said, looking into my eyes.

“ I can now pronounce you.. Husband and Husband!” The priest laughed. “You may now kiss.”

Sirius layed his hands on my cheeks and crashed his lips on mine. It was the best kissed we ever shared. Our family and friends were all cheering. Teddy ran to us and Sirius picked him up so we could have a family hug.

We spent the night with our friends and family. It was amazing. Everyone was so happy for us. We danced a lot! It was the best night of our lives. James even made a speach using only words with no a’s which was pretty funny to listen to. It was perfect.

When it was getting really late, everyone came back to the hotel. Teddy was asleep in his car seat and it was adorable. James and Lily were going to babysit him for our first night as husbands. James had told us that they would take care of him and we could have fun.

“C'mon we all know you’re going to have some fun.. Soooo we got you two a royal suite!!” James said, smirking.

“Are you insane!!” I said.

“Nope! You two go have fun.” He smirked, giving us the royal suite key.

Sirius and I walked to the room and it was beautiful! The bed was giant! Sirius and I laughed because we always joke about how we can both sleep in a single bed, cuddled up. Just like our Hogwarts times.

“Okay, my dear husband, now we get you out of this suit.” Sirius laughed.

We both undressed slowly. Sirius kissed every inch of my body while my hands touched every inch of his. His broad shoulders were full of marks. So was my neck and collarbone. Our hands tangled in eachothers hair. It was slow and pleasurable. We kissed and kissed and kissed.. It was perfect. Being alone with Sirius made me happy. Plus, he kept calling me “husband” and I couldn’t stop smiling. Once we collapsed on the bed, panting and sweating, Sirius laughed.

“Oh my god..” Sirius said.

“What?”

“We just had sex for the first time as husbands!” He said.

I just started laughing.

“Merlin you’re so funny!” I giggled.

“C'mere.. I want to cuddle you.” He said, wrapping his arms around me.

“Your vows were beautiful..” i said.

“You think so? Yours made me cry!” He chuckled.

“I love you.” I said, kissing him.

“I love you too baby.”

“Wanna get some sleep?” I asked.

“Yeah.. I’m exhausted.. Goodnight my Husband.” He said, kissing my forehead and then my lips.

“Goodnight my husband.. It’s weird to finally say it.” I chuckled.

“It is. But i can get use to it. It suits you well.” He smiled.

“I love you Sirius.” I said.

“I love you too.”

We fell asleep cuddled into one another. His hands on my bare back and mine on his bare chest. We were united. We were finally married.

-Remus
May 20th 1998

Big Bang reactions when their toddler says the f word for the first time beacause he heard it from a member

[GIFs not mine]

T.O.P
He just woke up and woke up his daughter too. She was in a really bad mood today because she couldn’t play with toys she wanted. You made them both breakfast while they were playing. She was playing with her Barbie and just started to say ‘fuck’ out of nowhere. He couldn’t believe what he just heard. He picked her up and put her in his lap looking her directly in her big brown eyes. He asked her where she heard that word and told her she’s forbidden to say that word. He would later search for Seungri and make him apologize for what he said in front of her and make him a babysitter for a day.
“Sweetie, Honey, Cutie, where did you hear that word? You should know this word can’t be used, okay? It’s a really bad word and you shouldn’t speak it because your Barbie Princess will be disappointed at you, okay?”

Originally posted by ygzutter


G-Dragon
You just came home and your son was playing with Jiyong. Your son loved playing with T.O.P and he always just kept saying his name when he wasn’t here with him. Today T.O.P couldn’t come and say hello so he suddenly just said 'fuck’ like it was a word to describe sadness. It wasn’t only you who wasn’t surprised but Jiyong knew he would probably hear it from other members. And T.O.P was the one who is cursing the most, he probably got really angry and the word must’ve just slipped out of him. He wasn’t mad at T.O.P but he told him to watch his words next time and he had to think of a new word that your son would like.
“Say Heartbraker. Heartbraker. This is daddy’s song.*plays the song and dances for him*”

Originally posted by ceokwons


Taeyang
He just came home and brought Daesung with him to take care of your daughter while you would go out. Taeyang knew Daesung can lose his nerves after a while so he specifically told him not to say any bad word in front of her. Daesung tried his best but when she cried for a while he lost it and said 'fuck’ which actually made her laugh. After that, he felt worse. When you came back home and he mentioned he might have said 'fuck’ he face-palmed and just stared at the wall for a while. He had no idea how to react to this situation. He waited for the next day and when she was happy she started saying it. He told her that word is forbidden to use and that Daesung is a villain because he said it.
“AH? DID YOU SAY THAT? NO, NO, NO. YOU CAN’T SAY THAT. IT’S A FORBIDDEN WORD AND YOUR DOLLS WON’T LIKE YOU ANYMORE IF YOU SA IT AGAIN, OKAY?”

Originally posted by bigbangersball


Daesung
He went out with all the members and took his son with him. The members all loved playing with him because he was cute and loved every member. He left him with them for 30 minutes because he had to go to the grocery shop to buy something for his son and when he came back and asked his son if the uncles were nice, he just answered with the word 'fuck’. Daesung stared at him for a while and then stared at every member’s face expression and found Seungri and GD guilty of teaching him that. He made them look after him for a couple days as a reward and punish. Later when he came to pick him up after hanging out with his uncles he only heard good words and he was satisfied.
“Yes, that uncle SHOULD learn prettier words, you’re right…”*talks to his son while pointing at Seungri and GD*

Originally posted by ibmariji


Seungri
He himself couldn’t control his language sometimes and that’s why he was always there when he left his daughter with any of the members. He knew they would teach her something he wouldn’t want. Once he left her with T.O.P at his house for a while and she ended up drawing on the table and he couldn’t control his words. When Seungri got a call from him what she’d done he just laughed but when he heard he is cursing he told him to stop and came to pick her up as soon as possible. She was laughing and saying 'fuck’ and T.O.P laughing. He picked her up and told her not to say that word and slapped T.O.P’s butt because she was angry at him for laughing.
“NO. You can’t learn words from T.O.P-samchon, darling. Say he is pabo. *slaps his butt and smiles* You can do it too. *lets her slap his butt too*”

Originally posted by taeyangspecs

i know this is hella old news now but just imagine being dirk strider and growing up alone in a post apocalyptic world with a small handful of friends to talk to but who youve never met

and over the years you sort of feel like you screw everything up. you feel guilty because you cant return the feelings of a friend who is in love with you. because you fall in love with a different friend, then push him away. then alienate your other remaining friend in the process. you’re overcomplicated and intense and overbearing and manipulative and you know all your flaws but youre confused and lonely and 16 and you hate yourself so much and 

youve modelled yourself your whole life on an ancestor. your bro, who was brave, and talented, and important, and heroic. and you can meet him. a version of him thats your age. and itll be a blank slate and youre so excited to meet your idol.

and you meet him

and one of the first things he says to you is 

and he tells you all about your abusive alternate self who you cant seem to detach from your identity and

all you can think is that everything you touch you destroy

5

Last night i watched the last movie of director So Yong Kim, Lovesong (2016),  with Jena Malone and Riley Keough. 

By the end of the movie i was so touched in the most heartbreaking, but also, the most beautiful way. I had butterflys feeling how real the movie felt. The young love. The soulmate love. That ‘I will love you forever’ love. 

This is a story of falling for your best friend, but more, is a story of two people that love each other so much and should be together, but for some reason the time never felts right. 

Sara and Mindy prove the whole history that even not having the time in their favor, their amazing and unique connection ang their genuine romantic intimacy would only grow more and more, same as that kind of electricity that you only have with one person in the entire world and nobody else. 

It could have pass 100 years, their feelings would still be there, and it would feel like they never left each other in the first place.

Why this movie felt so real you ask? Because we all have that unfinished love story. A love that it wasn’t fully lived and at the same time, will always be in our lives, not matter what.

It’s is painful and heartbraking, but you know what ? It’s also one of the most romantic things you could ask for. It’s a love of a lifetime.

The fact that they declare their love for each other in the end but still did what they thought was the right thing at that time is so real, that it hurts. Also, it reminds me of something: “If you love someone tell them right then and there. Otherwise the time will pass on and time is a powerful force that can heal, but also can close doors”. 

But you know what?

In this case tho, if there was one thing that we could’ve been sure of is that Sara and Mindy ‘s doors will be always open for each other.

13 Reasons Why

I have just finished watching the last thirteenth episode, and decided to wright my review of this tv series. I read a book 2 years ago and I really liked it, at least as much as you like reading about our f*****d up society that make people want to end their lives. So, when I heared that there will be a tv series based on the book and producer of it is Selena Gomez, it was interesting for me to watch. So there came the premier and I watched maybe 3 episodes and today I watched the last one. I don’t know why, but I didn’t have very high hopes for this one, but this show was a hundred times better that I could imagine. “13 Reasons Why” is very emotional, sombre and really heartbraking. When I watched every episode, and espesially the last one, I wanted ro cry or I cried, actually right now I am sitting with tears on my eyes after watching 13 episode. 

It is actually hard to watch how ugly our society is. All those people on the tapes, not all but the majority of them didn’t feel themselves guilty, they just wanted save their own asses and live happily ever after, forgetting about the fact that they were the main reason why Hannah will never have a future. And I think that it’s very interesting that when Clay remembers Hannah, everything is so bright and sunny and when there shown present everything is grey and colourless, it’s like Hannah was that person to Clay that made him happy and when she’s gone everything around him is reflection of his devistation. She also had plans for future, she had her dreams that’ll never come true. Hannah Baker was a pretty positive and friendly person, we can see it in the beggining. But this school and those people broke her and unfortunatelly this is happenning not only in the book or tv series it is happenning in real life.School was a hell for me, teachers didn’t gave a f**k about us, no, they actually did but only about popular kids, and kids were really cruel, I was bullied too and I know that It might also happened to you too. We can all relate to one of the characters, whether you are Hannah, Clay, Jessica, Alex or someone else.

 I truly believe that every person have to see this tv series and think about how we treat other people and to what consequcses it may lead. We have to be less egoistic and care more about others. Also, I think that parents should watch it too, because it very presiecly pictures teenager’s life nowadays and parents have to know what is going on with their children. Moreover not only parents have to talk with their children, but we also have to be more open with them. And if you are a person that think that your story is similiar to Hannah’s in some way, please listen to me( I know that I am a complete stranger, so why would you listen to me, but), if you feel that your life is pointless just stop for a second and think, imagine your life after all this shit will be over, and you’ll have a long life ahead of you, you can move to another city or country, get a job of your dream and you’ll have a people around that will care about you. So, if you have a problem talk about it, tell it to your parents, or friend or just write me, I promise I will listen to you and I know that for some reasone it’s much easier to talk to the stranger than to people that are close to you.

EVERYONE THAT IS HATING ON NOORA. CAN YOU PLEASE GROW UP?
1) THEY WERE JUST TALKING.
2) SANA NEVER TOLD NOORA HOW SHE FELT ABOUT YOUSEF SO NOORA CAN DO ANYTHING
3) NOORA IS TRYING TO GET OVER A HEARTBRAKE. EVERYONE WHO FELT THAT, KNOWS HOW HARD IT IS.
4) NOORA AND SANA ARE BESTFRIENDS, ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT AND REAL FRIENDSHIPS SO NOORA WILL NOT DO ANYTHING, YOU’LL SEE. NOORA AND SANA DESERVE TO BE HAPPY INSTEAD OF AGAINST EACH OTHER. AND YOU CAN’T COMPARE WHAT NOORA “DID TO VILDE” AND WHAT NOORA PROBABLY WILL DO TO SANA. VILDE DIDN’T LIKE WILLIAM, NOT FOR REAL. SHE LIKED THAT HE WAS POPULAR AND THE FUCKBOY (EVEN IF HE WASN’T) AND SHE WAS JUST LOOKING FOR ATTENTION, NOORA LOVED WILLIAM, THAT’S THE DIFFERENCE AND THAT’S WHY NOORA DID WHAT SHE DID. SANA LIKES YOUSEF AND EVERYONE KNOWS THAT SANA AND NOORA HAVE A SPECIAL RELATIONSHIP AND REAL SO PROBABLY, NOORA WILL REALIZE WHAT SANA FEELS AND WILL NOT DO ANYTHING WITH YOUSEF! PLEASE DONT FORGET CHARACTERS ARE HUMAN AND THEY ARE ALLOW TO FUCK UP.

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