heartbeat for life

You still make my heart skip a beat
You still take my breath away
And I still fall in love with you, more for each day that pass

November always gives back
my mind all the things
I have done within a year.

A month that makes me
feel old and young
at the same moment.

November makes me
remember the time when
my heart started beating.

—  ma.c.a // Eleventh
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dream doodle time!! I keep a dream journal for particularly good experiences and this dream is one that really stuck with me, so I wanted to draw it.

basically the premise was that after high school, when people usually get ready for college, a perfectly acceptable and comparable career prep/career choice was to just…fuck off into the woods and turn into a magical creature. Like, the guidance counselors in this setting were covering it as a career option. It was seen as a sort of weird and esoteric life path, but not a bad one.

ANYWAY my dream self was like Yeah, I’m Doing That and checked themselves into a national park (parks were HUGE in this world, bigger than populated areas, and prospective monsters were allowed to move in) and anyway long story short it was a cool dream about learning to be a river troll and making friends with local catfish mermaids. ate a lotta fish and had a very nice cave

  10/10 dream why isn’t this an option in the real world

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The worst part is that even though we haven’t spoken in months, even though she habitually ignored my texts so much that I just stopped trying, even though I know, deep down, that she doesn’t care about me anymore and that she probably has all new friends up in fucking Seattle…I still miss her. If she came back tomorrow and said “Hey Chloe, want to dress up like pirates and be stupid together?”, I would take her back in a heartbeat.

My world seemed quiet, for it was a calm yet mundane cycle. How it passed by like a gentle breeze;caressing the gentle colors of blue and grey. But ever since you came, my heart started to beat at a different pace. How the air rushed in sweetly taking the shades of blue and grey, as it birthed a brighter and more beautiful variety of shades. And your love made me see colors that will always leave me utterly amazed. I guess that’s how love makes everything never seem the same.
—  Before You // Conee Berdera
I want to be in love
I want to fall asleep in your arms and listen to your heartbeat
I want to fall asleep with you next to me not having to worry about you not being there when I wake up
I want to hold your hand and call you mine
I want to be in love and be with you, but I can’t because you don’t feel the same about me
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10 Movies with LGBTQ Main Characters Directed By Women

Appropriate Behavior dir. Desiree Akhavan (2014)
Bound dirLilly & Lana Wachowski (1996)
Fire dir. Deepa Mehta (1996)
Heartbeat dir. Andrea Dorfman (2014)
Life Partners dir. Susanna Fogel (2014)
Priest dir. Antonia Bird (1994)
Puccini for Beginners dir. Maria Maggenti (2006)
Saving Face dir. Alice Wu (2004)
Tomboy dir. Céline Sciamma (2011)
Your Sister’s Sister dir. Lynn Shelton (2011)