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Dont think ill will just forget about it…

“i cant stand that you’re talking when you shouldn’t be living
i didn’t dodge all your bullets i just denied that they hit me
so when my body is bleeding i wont admit that this hurts
because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth
so to say you’re unhappy is like saying you’re sorry
its nothing that i care to hear”

my heart goes bum bum bum
flatsound
my heart goes bum bum bum

but you admit that you’re lonely, you’re as cold as a statue
pleading ‘fuck me’ on the marble that was used to create you
i cant stand that you’re talking when you shouldn’t be living
i didn’t dodge all your bullets i just denied that they hit me
so when my body is bleeding i wont admit that this hurts
because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth
so to say you’re unhappy is like saying you’re sorry
its nothing that i care to hear

everything you thought you wanted

WARNING: songs contain sensitive subject material | starts out “nice” but turns darker toward the end


  1. Nowhere to Run // Stegosaurus Rex
  2. Side Effects // Fog Lake
  3. Genghis Khan // Miike Snow
  4. Criminal // Fiona Apple
  5. inside you // Elvis Depressedly
  6. salvia plath // teen suicide
  7. What Kind Of Man // Florence + The Machine
  8. The Mission (M is for Milla Mix) // Puscifer
  9. You Don’t Know Me // Son Lux
  10. Trouble // Halsey
  11. Do I Wanna Know? // Arctic Monkeys
  12. My Heart Goes Bum Bum Bum // flatsound
  13. Sedated // Hozier
  14. The Gardener // The Dresden Dolls
  15. Crystalised // The xx
  16. Dog Teeth // Nicole Dollanganger
  17. Cocoa Hooves // Glass Animals
  18. Desperately Safe // Alias C. Coldwood
  19. Run // IAMTHEKIDYOUKNOWWHATIMEAN
  20. Sprawling Idiot Effigy // Nero’s Day At Disneyland

[ 8tracks ]

i couldn’t sleep last night so flatsound.

Now that I know what it means to be dead, I can start living again.

all those scratches on your little arms are spelling out i’m sorry…

But drinking cough syrup when you didn’t have a cough is ironic because in reality you’re sicker than you thought but like hearing new music and being to afraid to turn it up virgin blood told me to stop at the surface cuts and sometimes i wouldn’t eat more than a couple nights and sometimes id go a week and not sleep more than a couple nights.

I’ll go to sleep at a decent time when i find something worth waking up for

I get so lost in the thought of life that i forget to start living mine i can feel its weight on my chest like i am drowning.

I didn’t dodge your bullets i just denied they hit me so when my body is bleeding i wont admit that this hurts because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth?

I exist. I exist. I exist.

And to all the self destructive people who feel they’ll never be themselves again just know i understand that self inflicted pain is self defense so don’t sell yourself short or label yourself as stupid because when you’ve hit rock bottom every movement is self improvement.

These monsters in my closet are watching over me the days are getting shorter and at night its hard to sleep.