i think my favorite message in moana is that you don’t have to get things right the first time around. you’re allowed to make mistakes and you’re allowed to fix them, whether it takes a couple days or a thousand years.
I mean… humans are so frigging hard to kill that if you die people will just be OH NO YOU DON’T and start pumping your heart themselves and breathing in your lungs until you do it by yourself again. most races consider someone dead when the heart stops, but not humans. not you-can’t-kill-me humans. until there’s even a teeny tiny grain of hope they fucking won’t let death have them. they know that they have a few minutes to do so, at best, and it would be simpler to just let go, but not humans.
cardiac arrest? not on my shift, buddy. respiratory failure? heck no.
whatever happens, they will try to literally bring you back from the otherworld.
MonCalamari: I feel very sad. Human Jessie died the other day… a cardiac arrest. She was such a good friend, I can’t even-
Human Steve: buddy, Jessie is alive and well. she’s still in medic bay of course, what with the heart problem and everything, but now she’s good! who told you that she died?
MonCalamari: … are you kidding me? her heart stopped, of course she is dead!
Human Steve: she most definitely isnt, I just went to medic bay and she’s still kicking- mind you, they saved her by a hair, they tried for almost ten minutes… they almost had given up on her, but she is strong and they managed to restart the heart in time.
MonCalamari: they… they got her heart beating again? but that’s surely impossible…?
Human Steve: go in medic bay if you don’t believe me. surely by now you should have learned that humans don’t like to die?
it’s finally october, which means the beginning of fall, aka the best time of the year 🍂 i put together a playlist of songs to listen to while the leaves change and the weather cools off ✨🍁🌙
1. all is now harmed - ben howard 2. all too well - taylor swift 3. always - panama 4. angela - the lumineers 5. antichrist - the 1975 6. atlas - coldplay 7. autumn leaves - ed sheeran 8. better love - hozier 9. big bad world - kodaline 10. bloom - the paper kites 11. bones - ben howard 12. call me in the afternoon - half moon run 13. canyon moon - andrew mcmahon in the wilderness 14. change of heart - the 1975 15. cherry wine (mahogany sessions) - hozier 16. clocks go forward - james bay 17. coming down - halsey 18. conrad - ben howard 19. days go on - greg laswell 20. dive deep - andrew belle 21. down in the valley - the head and the heart 22. the emotion - børns 23. everlong (acoustic) - foo fighters 24. fade away (acoustic) - rebelution 25. faded (odesza remix) - zhu 26. fire and the flood - vance joy 27. the ghost on the shore - lord huron 28. gold - imagine dragons 29. grand optimist - city and colour 30. habits of my heart - jaymes young 31. half moon - blind pilot 32. haunting - halsey 33. heartbreak warfare - john mayer 34. heartless - the fray 35. hometown - twenty one pilots 36. i found - amber run 37. i know places (taylor swift cover) - vance joy 38. i’ll be good - jaymes young 39. if you ever want to be in love - james bay 40. jerome - zella day 41. the last time (feat. gary lightbody) - taylor swift 42. meet me in the woods - lord huron 43. mess is mine - vance joy 44. northern wind - city and colour 45. one day - kodaline 46. peaches - in the valley below 47. rebellion (lies) - arcade fire 48. red - taylor swift 49. red eye - vance joy 50. shadow preachers - zella day 51. silver and gold - city and colour 52. sleeping sickness - city and colour 53. somebody else - the 1975 54. sparks - coldplay 55. stop this train - john mayer 56. the stranger - lord huron 57. sweet disposition - temper trap 58. to zion - trevor hall 59. trojans - atlas genius 60. trouble (stripped audio) - halsey 61. way down we go - kaleo 62. the wolf - mumford & sons 63. the wolves (act i and ii) - bon iver 64. yellow - coldplay 65. 90210 (feat. g-eazy) - blackbear
This spell is designed to quell (but not obliterate) romantic feelings you have toward someone. If this person is taking up too much of your heart’s and mind’s energy, this spell is for you. You will need:
♦ Bay leaf (healing, protection, purification and strength)
♦ Cinnamon stick (healing, success, power)
♦ Pink fabric (self-love, calming, personal harmony, matters of love)
♦ Black pen/paint and string or ribbon
1. Cut a small square of pink fabric and lay it on your workspace.
2. Write your name on one side of the bay leaf in large letters, and your chosen’s name on the other side in smaller letters. When finished, whisper to the leaf: “May my heart loosen its grasp on (name) and promote healthy feelings.”
3. Lie the bay leaf in the center of the fabric, and pick up the cinnamon stick. Whisper to it, “may your magic heal my heart and allow health in love.”
4. Place the cinnamon on top of the bay leaf and gently fold the fabric over it into a little envelope. Hold it in your hands for a moment; visualize you and your chosen holding hands, and then let go of their hand. Feel contentment in this thought.
5. Wrap the ribbon/thread around the envelope and hide it in a drawer.
Rewind and Pause interviewed Rebecca Sugar in this fifteen-minute interview. Here’s a sorta-transcript–not word for word, but basically what the questions are and how she answered, paraphrased.
Question: A lot of the show’s symbolism is inspired by Utena. Can you discuss that show’s influence?
Rebecca: When I was a teen, that show was an epiphany for me! It plays with the semiotics of gender and I was a bisexual teen relating to it in a way I’d never related to anything before. The show is beautiful and I love that she decides she wants to BE a prince after being saved by a prince. And it’s also funny. It’s so extreme that it’s funny, and that was a huge influence on me as well, that something could be so dramatic and so beautiful but also wacky. It’s so extreme that it’s powerful at the same time as being funny. I got to see the origins and see Guys and Dolls at the Takarazuka Theater when I visited Japan. Osamu Tezuka grew up in that town! You know, Princess Knight, which has everything to do with Utena. I got to see some of the roots there and it was a big influence. Amazing.
Question: Another influence, especially lately, you can draw comparisons between Steven’s miracles and Christ figures. Are you exploring this, and potentially modernizing that allegory, with different kinds of love?
Rebecca: We’re inspired by every voice that has ever spoken about peace. I think–I’ve been reading about Hillel the Elder and how he said “If I’m not for myself, then who will be for me?” The gentleness with which he approached everything is really inspiring to me. I think that I’m very influenced by my Jewish upbringing. I’m half Jewish and was raised Jewish. I’ve felt the feeling of belonging but not belonging. I’ve been moved by this incredible history and this wonderful community that I wanted to understand and be a part of. That’s all been a big influence on the show as well. It was all about growing up with my brother, and that was a big part of my life. There’s a lot of spiritualism in the show.
Question: I wanna ask you about the color symbolism? And I’d be remiss if I didn’t say thank you for showing our community on TV. About Steven: His Gem is pink, his shield is pink, his sword is pink, his shoes are pink! It subverts the tropes of a traditional male hero. Was that intentional?
Rebecca: Oh, it’s COMPLETELY intentional. Yeah, I think one of the things I wanted to do as I went into the show was address how intensely gendered shows for children are and dissolve that. That was my first goal. And I think it came in large part because as a little kid I always gravitated toward boys’ shows, and I felt extremely guilty about that. And I don’t think my child self should have had to feel bad, but I understood “this is not really for me.” So as we went into this, I wanted NO ONE to have to feel that. I wanted everyone who wanted to, to feel it was for them. Especially since it’s gender nonconforming as a show.
Question: Silly question: Peridot and Lapis are roommates. What do you think their biggest pet peeves are of each other? If they have any, I mean.
Rebecca: Gosh. I think Lapis is sort of both annoyed and comforted by Peridot’s infinite energy. I often thought of them like the sort of old cartoon idea of a small dog and a big sort of like doesn’t-really-care dog. With a small very very excited dog. I felt that that was a dynamic for them. So I think that that, like those characters, it’s annoying to Lapis but she doesn’t actually dislike it.
Question: Congrats on the Emmy nomination!
Rebecca: THANK YOU!
Question: I hope we get to see “It’s Over, Isn’t It?” and “Both of You” during the Emmys. How do you feel?
Rebecca: I’m so excited, and I’m so glad it’s that one. It was such a fun dream to make a musical episode. I always loved those, they’re always my favorite. I couldn’t wait to do ours. Everyone was firing on all cylinders for that episode. I got to do music with Jeff Liu and Ben Levin, and Aivi and Surasshu’s compositions for the finals were stunning, the backgrounds are incredible, the art is so beautiful, it’s Jeff Liu and Joe Johnston’s last board together, it was one of the last episodes I got to work on with Ian before he left to do his show, so it also has a special place in my heart, I remember seeing it come back and being in the edit bay watching it and my eyes were welling up because “this is it, this is everything I ever wanted.”
Question: Not to mention Deedee crushing it.
Rebecca: She’s amazing! And that was when she was doing Tommy! So we got her on a day she’d been doing shows all day, and she came and knocked that out.
Question: First take?
Rebecca: We did several, but all of those takes were amazing. I love writing songs for Deedee. And that one, it has some notes in it that I cannot hit. But I know Deedee can do it.
Question: Now when you write songs, you hear a lot of the demos you write on ukulele a lot, but you play other instruments. Do you find that you write differently depending on what instrument you’re writing for?
Rebecca: Yes! Oh, completely. I have my go-to ukulele chords. But I also like to write songs on the omnichord, which is like a synthetic harpsichord from the 80s. And it has a row of buttons, you hit a button and you get that chord. I can use it for experimentation for chords I might not have thought of. I got one off eBay, the OM-84, and it was a little buggy, it wouldn’t play right, would go out of tune, and I took it to get it looked at, and these incredibly corroded batteries fell out of it! With this cloud of red dust! So I can’t put batteries in it anymore. But I can plug it in and it still works.
Question: So for “Love Like You,” is it connected to any of the characters or any point of view, or was it more a one-off?
Rebecca: “Love Like You” is so unusual. It started as a point-of-view song for all Gems, and the thesis of the whole show, sort of toward Steven, and my own brother Steven, but because it was the credits, I wrote the song over three years in little pieces. I thought at the start that this is about an alien that’s looking at a human, who loves them, and the secret meaning of this is that they don’t have the capacity to feel this way. By the middle of it I was deep into the show and going through a real crisis of confidence, where I was like “why are people looking to me? It’s not right!” and these people were coming out of the woodwork to thank me for the show, people who had been able to speak to their families in these wonderful new ways, people who had become comfortable with themselves in these incredible ways that I had not been able to do! Where I was like “I’m so inspired by everyone! Why are they thanking me?” So the middle of the song I was sort of in that place. And about a year later, I realized the beginning was not what I had thought it was about at all. It’s not a secret meaning about an alien who doesn’t understand humans. It’s about the fact that I had always loved my brother and had these people who would love me unconditionally in my life, and because of my insecurity I had not been able to be there for them 100%, and I realized this was maybe one of the most human things I’d ever written, and I had written it by accident. So I got to conclude it. It was seriously written over 3 years.
Question: Recently we talked about how the show has been dramatic and full of conflict. It’s great but do you ever have concerns about taking the show–it’s a very positive show, so does the conflict have the potential to go too far, or do you like making it more challenging?
Rebecca: I’m excited to be more ambitious with the story, and the danger they’re experiencing also feels like a danger for us who are writing the show. Writing stories that are more ambitious and challenging. It feels necessary, because it’s about how love conquers all, but you can’t write that story without showing what comes up against that. I’m excited to explore the–you’re right, it’s scary to explore where hate comes from in a show about love. I want to–it’s a challenge to stay positive while exploring that. But that’s a challenge I experience in LIFE. And that’s a challenge we’re all experiencing right now. So it also feels like the time to explore that in myself and in the show.
🕯🕯🕯Dispel negative energy and put your heart at ease.🕯🕯🕯
🕯White Candle (to dispel negative energy)
🕯Bay Leaf (for protection)
🕯Turmeric (for purification)
🕯Salt (for protection and purification)
🕯Basil (for protection)
🕯Amethyst (for calming and good feelings)
🕯Quartz (for healing)
🕯Take the salt and basil and sprinkle it around the room, lining all the walls. Make sure to put extra around doors and windows.
🕯Place your candle in the center of the room, or as close as possible. Place the quartz and amethyst next to it. Then light the candle.
🕯While sitting next to the lit candle place a dot of turmeric on each wrist.
🕯Light the bay leaf, then carry it around the room. Make sure to use proper fire safety. After you’ve circled the entire room let the bay leaf burn completely.
Let the candle and bay leaf burn out completely. Fill yourself with the positive energy of the objects around you. Breathe deeply and reject the wickedness around you. This is your space, and you are safe there. Repeat when needed.
To Build a Home - the cinematic orchestra | Let it go - James Bay | Cherry Wine - Hozier | I Found - Amber Run | I’ll be Good - Jaymes Young | Cold Coffee - Ed Sheeran | Follow you Home - Matt Millz | River and Roads - The Head and the Heart | Shelter - Birdy| Runaway - Aurora | We Found wach other in the Dark - City and Colour | All the little Lights - Passenger | You were the home I wanted to grow up in - Flatsound