Bitches love before and afters it’s been 357 days difference in the two photos. Over December - February I fell off the whole getting fit and eating healthy but come march I decided to kick start it all again. To today I’ve lost 24 kilos and 33% body fat. Along with going down multiple bra sizes :( haha. I couldn’t find my swimmer top so I just held them instead.

Fitness Journey - Week 3 Down (No Progress)

Sorry for my delay in updating you guys….I had a performance yesterday that I was stressing over, so I didn’t have much time for blogging.

So, I’m not really proud of myself this week, and actually I secretly kind of want to eat the world so that I can gain back the weight that I so undeservedly lost this week. You see guys, I’ve been sick in bed all week with a combination of allergies/fever/sore throat/hangover from hell. My sore throat was so bad this week that I literally could not eat any solid foods for 4 days. So I basically have been surviving on Boost (you know the meal supplement drink). 3 of those a day and now all the fat I wanted to WORK off, just kind of disappeared. I feel like it wasn’t fair. I was actually enjoying watching it slowly melt away. Now I feel like I cheated in a way. 

Here’s the pic for this week:

One thing I can say however, is the back fat has diminished significantly. And that’s one part of my body I knew would be frustrating for me.

Well now that I’m back to good health, I’m heading to the gym now to get back on the workout regimen. Check back with me next week to see some REAL PROGRESS : )

Fitness Update - May

Wow I really didn’t realize it had been soooo long since my last update. For that I am very very sorry. It’s been a busy month….filled with lots of ups and downs - gains and losses. I’ve been working a lot on music, which is food to my soul so that’s awesome. But I think this month has been especially hard for me mentally. I haven’t been taking my meds (too expensive), so it’s been pretty rocky. I’ve been see-sawing between manic and depressive states….neither of which has done me any favors. Whenever my mood swings are out of whack like this I find it hard to focus on many things, blogging being one of them, hence, my absence from tumblr this month. Honestly, I really hope I am not on the edge of another breakdown, I couldn’t handle it right now. And this is where I think the fitness really comes into play. Whenever I workout I get a satisfying feeling of accomplishment, however small it may be, it boosts my mood just enough to get me through the day. And Lord knows I need that.

I’ve been exercising hard and often - trying to keep the bipolar in check. I’ve hit some personal bests (deadlift 165lbs, squat 155lbs, neutral grip pull ups) which I’m pretty proud of, and I’m very pleased to see my abs making an appearance again - welcome back boys. I feel like I’m looking good, and definitely getting closer to my body goals. I like feeling strong, and I want to continue with that….maybe get into martial arts at some point. 

Here’s the update pic from today….as you can see I’m getting a little definition here. Nice. I’m really diggin back muscles right now and I think my back is coming along nicely…..still got a little ways to go for the mid section area. But all in all, I think this is great progress. Let’s just hope my mind gets with the program too.


Today marks the beginning of me getting back into gear! I’ve put on a few kilos from my desired goal weight so I wanna get my ass moving again and be fit and slim. My goal is to get back into the 40s range which is not to far away and build some more muscle, especially on my legs and tum. So no more excuses! No more junk food! I’ve been eating doughnuts or Icecream for breakfast for like 2 months..time to be friends with fruit again. Also have to cut back the drinking which I’ve been doing in excess with friends over lunch and dinner!
So this photo is my body today! I will post another in a week to see if there’s any positive change haha 👏💪

Fitness Journey - Week 6 Down

The last couple of weeks I have really been taking it seriously.I’ve been desperate to start seeing some real results and I do believe that it’s finally working. I am very pleased to say that my abs are now showing…I don’t want to get too muscular, but this is definitely a step in the right direction.

I’ve also been juicing a lot for my meals lately….especially for breakfast just because when I wake up in the morning, most days I just don’t feel hungry. I mean only for breakfast do I have this problem, so the past week in particular I just either do a juice meal supplement, or a Boost meal supplement. They really have been helping to get that extra couple of inches on my waist down.

Now last week i know I said all this exercise was helping with my mood and depression/anxiety, however, I had a couple of major setbacks emotionally this past week. One was me having to deal with my old group mates about getting some of the sessions back for a few songs that we did, and it’s been a huge pain. One member is holding all the songs and is being quite stubborn about releasing them to me, when it’s my intellectual property as well as his that we’re talking about here. It really sent me down and it’s been hard work not letting this struggle affect me so much.

The other issue I had last week was with my sister. We’ve been fighting a lot more than usual lately and that always makes me feel terrible simply because she is my best friend and confidant, and when we are not on the same page, everything in my life seems bleak. It’s looking like both of us will be better off if we just don’t live together anymore. I really do not want our relationship to suffer anymore. So these little issues kind of sent me in a downward spiral, but I still stuck with my fitness goals, and even achieved a personal best last night when I dead lifted 145lbs. So yay for me!

I know all this shall pass, and I will keep working my hardest on music and will be releasing music this year if it’s the last thing I do. Also my body will be ON FUCKING POINT! Bet.

Aaaand here’s the smellfie!!