My name is T.J. I have anorexia and bi-polar disorder with psychosis. I’ve been anorexic for about 3 years and if I had a pound coin for every time I’ve heard things like ‘boys don’t get anorexia’ then I’d have all the Marvel Funko Pops my wee heart desires. Boys/Men can and indeed do get anorexia and it would be awesome to see more support for the anorexic males out there. It’s the support from my loving boyfriend, the stucky fandom and the amazing love-buckybarnes that have made me realise that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that recovery, while fucking hard, is possible. So, to all the people struggling with eating disorders and other mental health issues, keep going, kick some ass and do what you need to do to make yourself feel better. Sleep, eat and look after yourselves.
And a special shoutout goes to the wonderful writer ohcaptainmycaptain1918 who has had a rough couple of days. You’re beautiful cupcake, you’re strong and we love you. You can do this.
I know I bang on about weight loss a lot but I’m super proud of how far I’ve come. My friend Jess found a photo from when we were a lot bigger and had very bad hair. It’s really made me realise how important your health is and how I will never be that big again.
Bitches love before and afters it’s been 357 days difference in the two photos. Over December - February I fell off the whole getting fit and eating healthy but come march I decided to kick start it all again. To today I’ve lost 24 kilos and 33% body fat. Along with going down multiple bra sizes :( haha. I couldn’t find my swimmer top so I just held them instead.
Sorry for my delay in updating you guys….I had a performance yesterday that I was stressing over, so I didn’t have much time for blogging.
So, I’m not really proud of myself this week, and actually I secretly kind of want to eat the world so that I can gain back the weight that I so undeservedly lost this week. You see guys, I’ve been sick in bed all week with a combination of allergies/fever/sore throat/hangover from hell. My sore throat was so bad this week that I literally could not eat any solid foods for 4 days. So I basically have been surviving on Boost (you know the meal supplement drink). 3 of those a day and now all the fat I wanted to WORK off, just kind of disappeared. I feel like it wasn’t fair. I was actually enjoying watching it slowly melt away. Now I feel like I cheated in a way.
Here’s the pic for this week:
One thing I can say however, is the back fat has diminished significantly. And that’s one part of my body I knew would be frustrating for me.
Well now that I’m back to good health, I’m heading to the gym now to get back on the workout regimen. Check back with me next week to see some REAL PROGRESS : )