A dream: 

We are… no, not we. 


I am at the bar, and I am with friends, and I am safe. We are laughing. They are teasing. I have always been small. He has always been large. He lifts me from behind, hefts my weight. I am no longer with friends. I am no longer safe. I state calmly that I do not like this. I state it again and again and again. I stutter a bit as I say it, calmly, rhythmically.

I am put down. Of course I am. He is my friend. I am safe.

There is a haze in front of my eyes… no, not my eyes.


There is a haze in front of my mind that was not there before. It is panic. He realizes I am panicking and collects me. He escorts me out, me, trailing, me, murmuring, me, confused.

I am in a stairwell and I am frantic.

Why, they ask me, and they ask me again: why

He hefts my weight

did I react

He lifts from behind

so badly?

Let me tell you a story, I begin. I am in a stairwell, and I am frantic. My words are jumbled, rushed, loud. Frantic.

It was the last time… no, not the last time.


Her name was Mary… no, not her name.


How To Relate To Multiples: What To Expect When You Meet a Headmate

In order to get other perspectives and help flush out this guide, I’m sharing this rough draft. Please feel free to correct me or suggest additions.

If you’re observant, there are certain behaviours and clues that something is going on with your friend. Maybe you’ve noticed that your friend is dissociating, or maybe they’ve switched due to a trigger or at random. Or you run into your friend in another context and might realize that you’re talking to somebody else.

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What's it like being a system in college?

Curious about what shenanigans we get up to in our time at college? Want to hear funny college stories? Curious about how we get through classes and day to day life? Ask away! We’ll be making a YouTube video within the next few days and we would love to receive some questions about what you’d like to hear!

Really quickly before I pass the fuck out I would like to give a shout-out to Jack for being a Weird Fucking Dude in ways we never expected

He’s like the most “normal,” functional, unassuming guy we know but he keeps fucking blind-siding us with more Weird Shit

Like… “Surprise! I’m not actually an imaginary friend, I’m a fully sentient being who occupies your headspace due to past trauma!”

“Oh, and I’m also the original!”

“And did I mention I’m an angel? I see the future, too, but you’re probably not interested in anything trivial like that…”

And every time it happens we’re like woah, Jack, that’s so cool that we finally learned your Secret and then like a month later he fucking shocks us again like the goddamn Billy Mays of Weird Shit, all “Sure, that was some quality weirdness… But wait! There’s more!”

just had the best idea

HOW ABOUT if you don’t have DID you don’t tell DID systems:

-how they can/can’t act
-what types of alters they can/can’t have
-how many alters they can/can’t have
-how they can/can’t talk about their illness
-how they can/can’t interact with the DID community
-how they can/can’t “romanticize” their illness
-what terms they can/can’t use
-how they can/can’t cope
-literally anything else that you obviously can’t understand 1st hand because you don’t have DID so stop trying to police how we deal with something that you will never understand as well as we do

System Ask

1. Give examples of their different writing styles/handwriting.

2. Who argues a lot?

3. Does anyone have any weird habits that they do with the body that annoy the others?

4. Who makes cofronting the worst decision ever?

5. Do you have any alters/headmates you keep away from your friends at all costs? (because they are embarrassing or weird)

6. Who will listen to you talk about something and then tell your friends your secrets as soon as they front?

7. Is anyone dating each other?

8. What does your headspace look like?

9. If they could all chose to have their own bodies, would they?

10. Do you have any non-human members?

11. Do you have any members that no one ever sees or talks to?

12. Do you have a schedule for fronting?

13. How many have blogs on here that are separate from each others?

14. Who is the dad/mom/parent of the system?

15. Who hates everyone and doesn’t want to be there?

16. Who talks all day in the headspace and then never opens their mouth while fronting?

17. Who would be most likely to blow all the money on food?

18. Who would be most likely to antagonize a fight and then leave front right when it starts?

19. Are there any familia relationships in the system? (brothers, sisters, moms, cousins, etc)

20. Do you have any fictives?

anonymous asked:

hey thomas, are your "characters" actually headmates ? it seems like theyre more than just characters youve created ? sorry if i'm overstepping my bounds and feel free to ignore this question if it makes you uncomfortable

I would actually say they’re more like the imaginary friends I’ve always had. I would always have full on ridiculous back-and-forths with them that it’s super easy to create these characters that have similar behaviors and interactions! Haha

I love seeing those posts where people are like “if you have headmates or whatever you should be on meds because that’s not okay” posts. Like neurotypicals just think that there’s some magical pill out there that will ‘cure’ anything they don’t consider 'normal.’ Meanwhile, in the land of reality, my shrink thinks it’s pretty healthy that I’m finally getting to know my headmates, and has no intention of putting me on magic pills, because as long as I’m not hurting myself or anyone else, who cares what neurotypicals think is 'normal?’ Actually, let’s be real: who cares what neurotypicals think at all?

Your Headmates aren’t real

Okay, I’ll admit. I was jealous of you guys when I was younger.

“Aw man! They get someone to talk to!”

“Wish I had voices in my head.”

Then I had friends who actually had mental issues like BPD, DID, and Schizophrenia.

Then I looked back again and one thing came out, every time I looked.

You are all faking it. Some aren’t but holy shit is that number tiny.

Whether it be the binary star Alpha-Beta-Omega-Wolf, Trent THE EXTREMELY HOT DUDE, Shadow the Hedgehog, Shadow the Wolf, Shadow the WolfHedgehog, etc. 

I got to admit, some are good ideas for a character. Maybe you should write a book instead of faking a mental illness.

Now I got a tip for you, before you start yelling ”ABLEIST! CIS SCUM! REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!”

Take a minute and ask yourself: “If I told my employer about my headmates, would I get a job?” If you say yes, you are delusional or don’t have a job. If you say no, CONGRATS! You are on the path to sanity.

Best Wishes, 


 3/24/2017 9:41 PM

Name: Farkas Darcry
Age: 2 million
Gender: Male
Sexual Orientation: Pansexual
Relationships: Married to Logan, parent to Helena, Fenrir, Narvi, and Vali
Differences From Picture: more muscular and well dressed, red eyes
Job In System: Protector
Likes: Playing the organ, his family, poetry, weaponized staffs
Dislikes: Fireworks, poor posture
Description: Farkas is one of the most powerful members of the system. He was the secondary host until he dueled Liberty for the position and lost. He was a strict leader who ruled with an iron fist, yet had somewhat of a soft side. Farkas used to be a regal emperor, but was recently de-throned by his ex-lover Soujin. After that, he’s spent a lot of his time getting high in the forest with his hippie brother River. Although he’s had a lot of problems in the past, he really cares for his family and will do anything to protect them

Fuck you M. Night Shyamalan - From an angry multiple

Fuck you and your twisted, ableist, piece of shit, insult of a movie called “Split.”

We are not your horror flick.

We are not your entertainment.

We are not your thrill ride.

We are not your nightmare fuel.

We are not your punchline.

We are not your twist ending.

We are PEOPLE. We deserve respect. We deserve to be taken seriously. We deserve the right to our own voice. Our abusers and people like you have silenced us for far too long.

Fuck you and your lies, your plague of misinformation. Fuck you for making people even more afraid of us than they already are. Fuck you for demonizing me, my friends, our headmates. Fuck you for making light of so much trauma and keeping the truth in the dark, exactly where our abusers want it to be. Your film is truly a spit in the face of innocent abuse survivors. Fuck you and the utter disregard for our existence and consideration.

People abused US and made us this way, yet WE are the dangerous ones?

Fuck you, Shyamalan. I hope your movie tanks so hard no one will ever work with you again. Rot in hell.