When Even finally does tell Isak/when Isak finds out about what happened between him and the balloon squad (cause it’s gonna come out eventually, pretty or not), I’m sure Ev will be all scared that Isak’s gonna judge him. There is obviously something about what’s happened that he feels bad about and as much as I am a big believer in the fact that Even shouldn’t have to tell Isak all of the stuff about his past, there is definitely a reason why he’s keeping it tucked away.
I just keep imagining Isak taking a sec to process everything, and Even doing that nervous “avoid eye contact at all costs” look, and he’s freaking out internally, thinking he’s gonna get left behind again, but then Isak just blurts out:
“I helped ruin Jonas and Eva’s relationship”
And Even is kind of thrown by that because what does that have to do with what is happening now??? But Isak just keeps going without stopping.
“Eva cheated on him and she told me about it and I promised not to say anything, but I went and told the girlfriend of the boy who she cheated with instead.”
And Isak looks down at the floor and scuffs his shoe, cause he doesn’t really feel good about saying the next part.
“I was jealous. I had a crush on Jonas and I resented Eva for being with him when I couldn’t be and so I fucked everything up with them. Jonas found out and dumped her and she found out that I told. People called Eva a slut and got into fights with her. It was a huge fucking mess and I helped cause it. I was a terrible person.”
Even just blinks and shakes his head.
“No you’re not. I know you. You aren’t terrible.”
Isak smiles a little.
“And I know you.”
Even is still confused, but then Isak is holding his hands and looking at him in the eyes.
“I’ve done stuff I’m not proud of too, and I had much less valid reasoning. I did shitty things because I was bitter and lonely, you did what you did because you were manic. So if you think I’m gonna hate you for it, you are so wrong. I’m not going anywhere as long as you aren’t.”
And then Even is smiling in that soft way that he saves just for Isak and he squeezes his hands back and says
“I’m not going anywhere.”