do u ever cry because neil has been through so much abuse from both his parents and yet he’s still kind. i know people will lose their goddamn minds if you claim that neil is soft but like y'all gotta understand that softness =/= weak or nice. softness is the way neil tries to mend aaron and andrews relationship. softness comes from neil telling andrew that he was amazing before walking to his death. neils softness is the way he lets allison put make up on him, it’s knowing he’s going to die so he dives headfirst into spending time with matt and dan. it’s how he’s willing to spend the money he’s conditioned to save on a vacation for the foxes. he’s soft in the way he’s surprised when nicky hands him andrew’s gift, in the way he asks nicky if they’re friends, he ditched exy and kevin to get ice cream with nicky for them all, this all comes from a place of softness and tenderness and i know i know neil is still rough edges and anger and pettiness and harsh words spit as bodies collide but this isn’t exclusive from being the same boy who tried to calm down andrew on a plane bc he’s afraid of heights. don’t erase his tenderness because you can’t fathom that it can exist alongside his fire and passion. after everything he’s been through, after his father’s abuse and his mother trying to beat his essence out of him, he still has kindness and softness left. let him have it.

I want to talk about what Rhys says about Cassian here because I haven’t seen it mentioned before (although I’m sure it probably has, because this fandom misses nothing) and it just says so much about the type of person Cassian is.

I mean he’s a born and bred warrior, honed from a young age to fight and kill. Is one of the most powerful Illyrian’s of all time, is the commander of Rhys’ armies, has fought in centuries worth of battles and wouldn’t for one second hesitate to kill anyone who harmed his family or any innocent (which is another thing I love about him!).

But he doesn’t enjoy killing, doesn’t take any pleasure or glory in it. He even mourns the death of people he’s killed. Because no matter how good or bad they may have been their lives meant something. And to take a life takes a little bit of your soul. No matter how battle hardened Cassian might be he still feels that impact on his soul. Death still has an affect on him, even when it would be so easy after so many years of killing to lose his humanity, to become hardened to its effects and stop caring, stop feeling. Yet he remains so incredibly kind hearted despite everything! I just think this one little sentence speaks so highly of Cassian’s character and I love him so much!

he knows it matters. it’s not something he’s done or did because fans threw the flag on the stage no one forced it upon him. it’s a choice he makes because he knows it’s important to us, he knows it matters and is needed.

anonymous asked:

Apparently Anne was there in a red dress with black roses on it? So his suit was not only lovely but it also matched his mummy ☺️☺️☺️ Apparently he dedicated sweet creature to her too? And played story of my life cause it was her favourite one d song? Anyways I love him so much.