he's always in a positive attitude though

Is Orihara Izaya lonely or not?

I have been asked that question.

This is just my personal opinion. I think he feels lonely, but at the same time satisfied.

His love has been, is, and always will be unilateral. It is not that he has never been loved; however, he always denies such love access to him. As long as he loves others, he feels connected to them and satisfied.

When he wants to use you, he does allow you to get close to him. But there will still be a thick wall between you and his heart.

Sounds pretentious, doesn’t it? But those were his very own smug words in my chatroom that day. Talk to him if you want to complain. Though I don’t think he even blushed when he said those words. Well.

This unblushing attitude, I think, is exactly what keeps him in the advantageous position, whatever the situation. Even so, he still keeps saying things like  "Because I love all the humans in this world, all the humans in this world should love me back.“ Well, whether it’s a lie or not, it does sound like something he would say.

But if you were to ask me, "Does Orihara Izaya love himself, then?” - I would have no answer for you but silence.

That’s something only Izaya himself knows. Whatever he chooses to tell you, there is nothing you can do about it.

Because even if people try to persuade him to change himself, he would probably never let their words sink into his heart.

That was my opinion.

Sorry. To be frank with you, I feel embarrassed.

—  Tsukumoya Shinichi
a step.

Feeling motivated to make positive changes in my life for no particular reason. I woke up feeling tired, yet now I feel awake a full of ideas!

I’ve actively been practicing to have a positive outlook and everything, no matter what the situation is. I was messaging a friend yesterday and realized how happy and positive I came off, even though we were discussing a rough patch between us. I went to bed feeling satisfied with myself, and knew that I was better off with my outlook than he was with his negative attitude. I was the person I’ve always wanted to be. And that was a pretty big step for me, and I’m just now realizing it as I write this.

I work later in the day, so I’m spending my most creative hours trying to set up a better daily system for myself. I’ve picked a few topics I would like to journal on at the end of the night, and I’ve also set some new goals to help me progress.

I’m doing what I want, and honestly it feels so peaceful being alone in my space right now. I trust that I will be okay, therefore I trust that I will be able to handle whatever life throws at me next :)

Okay, so like honestly, forreal forreal, referring to my Ashton photoset this morning. When I say that I’m bringing more Ashton to Tumblr, I mean that with every cell, muscle, and organ in my body. This cute little sliver of radiating light, deserves all the recognition in the goddamn world. He’s so fucking underappreciated and it’s unfair when he’s the living breathing example of an angel. Like, yes all of the boys matter, and we should care about all of them, but it seems like Luke, Mike, and Cal all get more recognition/appreciation than Ash ever really has.

He’s so caring and genuine and devoted to what he does. He’s always concerned for the well-being of the fam, even if he’s not okay—which he’ll never let it show. Let’s just talk about this for a minute, though. He’s never let his depression or just any negative emotion even, shine out. Instead, he counteracts it with positivity and lifts up the attitude and confidence of others.

We’re talking about the same boy who comes from a not-so-good background, wanted to die, and used to self-harm, yet stopped for us—who’s now selling out arenas, talking about the world’s problems, making his dreams come true and inspiring others to accomplish theirs. We’re talking about the same man who’d draw butterflies over the scars of anyone’s self-harm marks when he saw them.

I’m not saying that the other boys don’t matter and we shouldn’t pay attention to them, but, please, take more of a look @ Ashton because whether you’ve noticed it or not, that boy is always looking out for us, always thanking us, he’s constantly thinking of us and trying to keep us involved, no matter how much shit we do or say.

I’ll always love him with every fiber of my goddamn being because he’s just such a motivating, uplifting spirit. Like, thank you for allowing the world to be blessed with the majestic human that is Ashton Fletcher Irwin.

This is by far not the most important part of tonight’s episode but I don’t want it to get lost that Greg Universe rented a fishing pole even though he’s a millionaire.

And I don’t mean this in a cute like aww look at the cinnamon roll thing, though it is a cute and funny moment, but in the sense that like… I think it’s important that we’re seeing a working class person respond this way to getting money, that the anxiety about spending money is still there even if it’s not always rational. 

The attitude of needing to make do and be careful and prepare for the worst doesn’t, in my experience, really go away even if you’re in a relatively ok position and I don’t know that I can recall another sort of depiction of this over a longer term narrative continuity in a show like this.