Tokyo ghoul re spoilers but
I still can’t get over how perfect Juuzou was in the auction raid
how he walked right back into the fucked up place that almost broke him, met with his darkest and most personal demons alone and just smiled and threw knives at them
he told big madam he doesn’t hold a grudge and like… back in the first series, he clearly held a grudge against TWO RANDOM STUDENTS he didn’t even KNOW very well from his academy days, just because they’d always LOOK AT HIM WEIRD. He told Mr. Shinohara one time he basically kinda wanted to kill everyone he’d ever met. And just three-ish years later he meets the person who, some would argue, completely ruined him, and certainly severely fucked with the trajectory of his life, and all he has to say is that he only remembers scars but he doesn’t hold a grudge.
and he doesn’t accomplish this great victory as some pure untouched shining knight who magically shook off every trace of past abuse and is “all better now”… he ruins them as everything they raised him to be. A delicate figure in a dress showing violence with no remorse. They thought everything they did to him was the equivalent of breaking him for sure. They thought that if you do all of that to a person well you’ve already won, that person can’t possibly be threatening anymore, right? But Juuzou didn’t have to deny what happened to him to come back and conquer them. At some point he learned to look at himself, all of himself, every good quality and every horrific scar, in the mirror and decide “all of this is me; all of this is who I am; I am worthy and acceptable." He showed up at the auction like. Hey. All of this? All the stuff you did to me? It’s mine now. And here I am.
(and I don’t mean to imply dress wearing/femininity = bad/weak/negative/etc., I’m talking about an abuse victim reacting to and coming to terms with things other people forced into his identity against his will)
and then like. He was completely ready to stand up and face big madam as the victim-turned-conqueror, and he started to; that’s how the story is supposed to work, right? but then she started talking shit and HIS FRIENDS, or coworkers who respect him and care about him at least, stepped in and finished her off. Because he’s not alone anymore, and he doesn’t have to be. They didn’t care how the revenge story is supposed to go, they saw that she was going to say hurtful things to Juuzou and they were like uh no sorry we can’t have this here bye.
It’s hard as HELL to even begin to know how to react to abuse, I don’t think you could point to any one example of somebody, real or fictional, reacting to it and say "this is the only way to do it/ this is the best way to do it/ this is what everybody has to be working towards/ this is possible for everybody." I’m talking about a comic book but real people are more important, and this story doesn’t have to be important or realistic or relatable to everybody who’s experienced abuse. …But for me personally it’s so beautiful and I am dead.