So this isn’t my best despite all the time spent on it, also REALLY long, but wanted to give you guys something…so enjoy
But then what? You drop your guy and take me on, it’s everything i wanted…but then what? Would you get tired of my time? -21 questions, Waterparks
Your boyfriend got a new gig, a major one. Or
at least that’s what he made it seem like. You had no idea what this 5 seconds
of summer was. What kind of name is that for a band anyway? Regardless you were
happy for him. This was his first big gig in months. Sure he’d have to follow
them on the American leg of their tour, and be gone for awhile but that’s what
you signed up for.
“I can’t wait! This is going to be so
awesome! And I already met the guys, they’re super chill. You’ll like them a
lot. Now have you seen my box of SD cards? I can’t them anywhere…or that new
lens….Where’d you put them?”
“You already packed them” You
laughed. “And what’s this about me liking them?? You never mentioned I
have to meet them…”
He looked up at you and sighed.
“Dammit…I blew it. Oh well might as well
“Well Y/n, you see….”
“You’re coming with me for the first
“You get to come on tour! Look babe I
know it’s been hard between us lately, but I think if you came with me and we
just got away for awhile it’ll fix things…” He said, pulling you close.
“Oh Jesse…that sounds wonderful…this
will be so much fun!! Oh my god, I have to start packing. A month?? What am I
going to wear, what can I bring, oh my gosh” You said, giving him a quick
kiss before rushing to your closet to start packing.
You walked into the venue. The band had to be
here early for set up, so they thought it would be best for all of us to meet
there. That way Jesse could also plan out his shots.
From the look on his face, you can tell he
was already doing that as he looked at the stage in front of you both.
“Hang on, I’ll be right back” He
said, disappearing somewhere on the side of the stage.
“Ya, sure just leave me here…” You
sighed. He was already gone though.
“Are you supposed to be here?”
Someone said from behind you.
You turned to see a boy with dark hair and
tanned skin. He was wearing a sleeveless shirt, leaving his bulging arms
exposed, and giving full view to his tattoos. You couldn’t help but stare, then
in embarrassment you fumbled for the lanyard around your neck.
“Yeah….” You said holding up your
“Oh ok, I thought you might be some fan
that snuck in”
“Haha, no…I honestly don’t even know who
the band is…I’m supposed to meet them later though. And of course I’ll be on
tour with them for awhile…”
“Really?” He grinned
“Yup. Do you know them?”
“Yeah. Quite well actually. They’re all
assholes.” He laughed
“Oh yeah. They’re the worst. Here, I’ll
introduce you” He said, pulling you by the hand.
Once you were backstage, he went straight for
the dressing room.
“Hey we got company, you all better be
decent” Calum yelled as he opened the door.
“Hey guys this is…what was your
name?” Calum asked you.
“Y/n…” Calum said, smiling at you.
“You brought her backstage with out
knowing her name? What is she’s just some stalker fan” A tall boy with
blonde hair and blue eyes asked.
“Yeah Calum, come on think dude” Another
boy with blonde hair asked, dark scruff covering his chin.
“Um hello? Yes, I’m right here. What is
with the whole stalker fan thing? You guys actually have those? And why am I
assumed to be one? What because I’m female? Look I’m actually meant to be here,
see this badge? I don’t think I could have stolen a photographer’s badge.”
“Ohhh! You’re Jesse’s girlfriend
yes?” A boy with curly brown hair asked, holding a pair of drumsticks.
“Yes, thanks for finally realizing.
Calum here was right, you guys are a bunch of assholes.”
“Calum said that?” The taller
blonde boy asked, laughing. The other two laughing with him.
“You’re Jesse’s girlfriend?” Calum
asked you, giving you a confused look.
“Ok Y/n, so when Calum said the band is
made up of a bunch of assholes, did he mention he’s our bassist? ” The one
with the scruff said.
“What? Seriously?” You said turning
“Wow…you really aren’t a stalker fan are
you?” The drummer asked.
Calum seemed lost in thought, but quickly
returned to normal at this.
“Yup! See I told you!” Calum
laughed, throwing his arm around you.
“Woah watch it buddy, she’s taken. Hi
I’m Michael.” The boy with the scruff, Michael, said while shaking your
“Luke” The tall blonde boy said,
shaking your hand as well.
“Ashton, and I’m more of a hugging
type” The curly haired boy said, giving you a huge bear hug.
“Hi…Well, nice to meet you guys”
“Y/n! There you are! I’ve been looking
all over for you! I see you met the guys… hope you all have been nice…”
Jesse said, giving them a smirk. He then went to stand by you and put his arm
around your waist.
As he did this, you couldn’t help but see
Calum staring, and you couldn’t quite place his expression. Was it anger,
jealousy, hurt? All three?
“They’ve been great. Don’t worry. I
think we’ll have a lot of fun” You said smiling.
One hour until the show started. You were
really busy, making sure all the cameras, lenses, batteries, and SD cards were
in order. You had front row seats to the show (thank you boys) but you wanted
to make sure everything was in place for your boyfriend.
“Wow looks great babe! Thanks! Why don’t
you go get some snacks or something? There’s the catering table right over
there. Relax for a bit before the madness starts.”
You had just filled your plate with various
snacks when you felt someone walk up next to you. You looked up to see Calum.
“Hey Calum. Ready for the show?”
“Yup. I think you’ll really enjoy
“Yeah? I don’t know we’ll see…” You
said giving him a wink.
“Oh I know you’ll love it”
“And why is that?”
“Because your sitting front row on my
side of the stage. Complete view of all of this” He said, gesturing to
“Oh really?” You laughed.
“Yup. So you see, it’s a real party on
my side. Impossible not to have a great time.”
“Haha well I think that all depends on
“Oh that? We’ve got that covered”
“I’d hope so since you are
performing” You laughed. “But I’ve never heard you guys before”
“Really? Well then we really must play
our hearts out” He said, giving you a wink before grabbing a chip off your
plate and walking away.
“That was mine!” You yelled after
him. He gave you a thumbs up in response.
“Dork…” You muttered to yourself.
You didn’t expect to like the show. You
didn’t expect to actually have a good time, despite Calum’s confidence that you
would. You didn’t expect to actually like there music, but look at you now. The
whole show, you couldn’t stop dancing and smiling. The whole crowd seemed to
know every single word to every single song…you didn’t even think that was
possible. You desperately wished you knew the words too, you wished you could
connect to the songs like they did before now. They were amazing, and Calum….
Well there’s a lot to say on that matter. You thought he was very attractive
before, but put a bass in his hands and he instantly became 10x more
attractive. The way he played and sang….and not just him, all of the guys. You
could definitely see the appeal. Of course it didn’t help that Calum was constantly
smiling or winking at you. Every time he merely glanced at you, your heart
pounded in your chest. You never instantly liked someone so much, not even with
The whole show you kept glancing at your
boyfriend, just as a reminder that you were in a committed relationship, and
despite all the problems between the two of you, you did in fact love
You had been on tour with the guys for a
little over a week now. They had the weekend off, and were planning to spend
the weekend right. And by that, they weren’t spending their precious time off
relaxing and catching up on sleep. Oh no, the whole weekend was going to be
spent partying. You couldn’t wait, and were super excited the guys invited you
and Jesse along. Everything was supposed to start Friday night, only you woke
up puking your guts out Friday morning. Yup, on the best weekend of your life
you woke up sick. Wonderful. So much for partying. You insisted Jesse go
though, no use in the both of you missing out. However, you didn’t actually
expect him to just leave you there in the hotel room sick while he went out and
So here you are in bed at 9pm Friday night
watching Netflix. You were a little better than this morning, at least the puking
stopped anyway. Your stomach and head were killing you though.
Suddenly you heard the door open.
“Jesse? I knew you wouldn’t just leave
me here, and- Calum?”
The tall boy who walked into your room wasn’t
your boyfriend after all.
“Hey Y/n…I heard you were sick. So, I
brought you chicken soup” He smiled as he held up the container of some
really yummy looking soup.
“Thanks Calum. You really didn’t have to
do this. Why aren’t you out tonight with everyone else?”
“Well because someone has to take care
of you, and when your boyfriend made it clear to me he wasn’t going to do that
I decided to take it upon myself”
“Ya…I told him to go and have fun”
“That doesn’t mean he should have done
it. He should be here bringing you soup instead of getting drunk at the bar. I
mean that’s what boyfriends are for, they should take care of their girl”
“Your girlfriend is truly lucky isn’t
“Haha, no girlfriend here”
“Seriously. Now here eat this” He
said, handing you a bowl of the soup.
You never asked Calum about his love life,
just naturally assumed he had someone. The news he was single shocked you, and
also made you feel happy and relieved.
“This is delicious” You said,
scarfing down the incredible soup.
“I’m glad you like it”
One you finished the soup, he took the bowl
from you and set it down on the counter. He then felt your forehead, moving
your hair out of your face with his fingertips.
“You’re burning up. Let me go get you a
He then walked into the bathroom, to get a cold
wash cloth. He made you lay down, then set the cloth on your forehead. He then
jumped into the other side of the bed with you.
“So what are we watching?”
“Calum, you’re gonna get sick”
“I’ll be fine…and I promised to take
care of you! That means I can’t leave your side all night” He winked.
“Fine. You’re lucky I’m feeling better
than I was earlier.”
“I didn’t know you were sick earlier.
But I’m here now, and so what are we watching?”
You laughed and shook your head, but decided
to flip through your options. You settled on some movie and tried to ignore the
fact that Calum was laying in bed a mere few inches away from you. You couldn’t
however, so of course you had no idea what was going on in the movie.
It was nearly midnight by the time the movie
ended. Calum got up off the bed and came to stand next to you.
“How are you feeling? Do you need
“Coming right up” He smiled, then
went to get a bottled water from the mini fridge.
“Here you go my lady”
“Thank you kind sir, how would I have gotten
over this without you?” You teased.
“We’ll never know” He laughed.
“Hey so I’m going to go, I don’t want Jesse coming in here and getting the
“Yeah…of course. I understand.”
“Goodnight Y/n. I’ll come see you
tomorrow ok?” He then surprised you by kissing your cheek. He smiled, then
left the room before you could find words.
The next night your apparent 24 hour sickness
was gone, so this meant you could go out with the guys. You decided to wear a
classic black mini dress to whatever club the guys chose tonight. As soon as
you entered the venue, you were overwhelmed with bright lights and pounding
music. Jesse went straight for the bar saying he’ll find you later (no surprise
there) while you looked for the guys.
“Y/n!” A voice said from behind
You turned to see Luke.
“Hey!” You said, giving him a huge
“Glad to see you’re feeling better! We
were all worried! Come on we’re over here” He said, grabbing your hand and
leading you to their table.
“Guys, look who I found!”
Michael and Ashton cheered, shouting for you
to sit down. Calum’s eyes went wide as he saw you, his gaze dropping down your
body, admiring the dress. His staring was making you blush. The only spot at
the table was next to Calum, so you sat down right next to him.
“You’re feeling better”
“Yeah…must have been one of those 24
“Well you look incredible….”
“Hey Y/n have you had anything to drink
yet?” Michael asked.
“Of course not Mikey, here Y/n have a
beer” Ashton said, sliding a beer towards you.
“Thanks” You said, taking a sip.
“Where’s Jesse at?” Calum asked
“Um…I’m not sure actually…he said he was
going to get a drink then would meet us later, but I don’t see him
“Great. Wanna dance?”
“You’re kidding me”
“Nope. Come on! It’ll be fun” He
said, giving you one of those big cheesy grins you couldn’t resist.
He grabbed your hand as he pulled you to the
dancefloor, spinning you to face him as you both moved to the music. Calum
surprised you, he was actually a really good dancer. He moved his hand to your
hips as you wrapped your arms around his neck, loving being this close to him.
You were so lost in each other and the music that you didn’t notice who was
“What the fuck!!” Jesse yelled,
pulling Calum off of you and pushing him into the crowd.
“Jesse what are you doing?” You
“What am I doing? What are you doing
Y/n?! I brought you here so you and I could get closer, not so you could hook
up with this-”
“Woah mate, hold up” Calum said
“Jesse you’re drunk” You said,
shaking your head.
“And you’re a slut” Jesse slurred
“Fuck you. We’re done”
“You can’t just-”
“Yes I can, and I will. I’m through with
this shit Jesse! I’ve put up with a lot, but you being drunk and acting like
this? Treating me like this? No. We’re done.”
You didn’t give him a chance to reply, just
stormed out of the club. You heard someone running behind you.
“Y/n! Wait up!” Calum said, finally
catching up to you. “Are you alright”
“I will be…for now I better go pack up
“Here let me call a car, and I’ll help
You and Calum finally repacked all your bags,
luckily you never really unpack at hotels.
“Hey so I know you probably don’t have a
place to stay, but Michael and I were originally gonna share a room, but then
management went ahead and got us separate rooms, so there’s an extra bed in my
room. It’s yours if you want it. You don’t have to and-”
You interrupted him by crushing him in a huge
“Oh my gosh Calum that would be so
wonderful! Thank you!”
“No problem” He said, wrapping his
arms tightly around you.
You stayed like that for a moment, wrapped in
each others arms. With Calum’s strong arms holding you tight, you never felt
more at home. For once in your life you just felt happy, and warm, and just at
peace. No stress, no worries, well just one….
“We better get out of here before Jesse
comes back” You said, reluctantly pulling away
“Yeah. Come on, my room is a floor
You threw your bags on the bed you assumed
was yours, since the other one was unmade.
“Well this is it. Wanna watch a movie or
something?” Calum said, sitting on the edge of his bed.
“Um yeah, sure” You said, sitting
down next to him.
“How are you feeling”
“Kind of numb to be honest”
“You’re not upset or anything? You did
just break up with your boyfriend”
“Weirdly enough no. I don’t regret it.
Its something I should have done a long time ago, tonight was just the
universe’s way of telling me that”
“So you’re good?” He asked, putting
an arm around you. “Because if you need someone to talk to or a shoulder
to cry on-”
“Omg no” You laughed, laying your
head on his shoulder. “It’s ok. Really.”
“Ok. If you say so” He said,
wrapping his arm tighter around you.
“Calum, thank you so much. You really
didn’t have to do this” You said, looking up at him.
“But I wanted to”
“And I’m grateful, but you keep doing
all of these things for me, and there’s no way I can repay you-”
“Hey listen to me” He said, raising
a hand to cup the side of your face. “I wanted to”
His actions brought you both a lot close to
each other, and he seemed to just realize that. You stared up at him, unable to
break his gaze. You maintained eye contact as he leaned down closer to you,
finally closing your eyes when his lips brushed yours.
His kiss was hesitant at first, him being
unsure if this was ok, if this was something you wanted. His concerns vanished
when you brushed your fingers through his hair. His kiss deepened as he pulled
you in his lap, digging his fingers into your sides.
“Mmm…I’ve wanted this for so long”
He said, kissing your neck
“Have you now?” You laughed as you
pushed him down onto the bed.
“Oh yeah..” He said, flipping you
over so he was on top of you. He kissed you again, hard.
You woke up the next morning half-dressed in
Calum’s bed. You could hear his soft snores behind you. You wiggled out of his
arms that were firmly wrapped around your waist, and quickly go dressed. You
were very careful not to wake him up. You smiled as you saw his sleeping form.
Then you turned to leave, you quietly closing the door behind you.
You got in the elevator and pressed the
button for the first. You still couldn’t wipe the smile off of your face, in disbelief
of all that happened within the past 24 hours. Of course this moment didn’t
last long, for soon the elevator stopped and another passenger got on, one so
unwelcome right now.
“Y/n? Hey…I was so worried” Jesse
said, wrapping you in an embrace.
“Don’t even Jesse” You said,
pushing him off.
“Look I’m sorry, I really am babe-”
“Don’t call me that”
“So you’re serious then? You really want
to break up…”
“Ya no I get it…Y/n we’ve been through a
lot together, and I love you, I really do, but maybe this is what’s best for
“We’ve been putting it off for too long
“Yeah…I guess you’re right. So you gonna
“Calum?” He scoffed, teeth clenched
and standing upright.
“So I was right last night?”
“No tell me the truth. You owe me
“Did I like him? Yes ok I’m not gonna
lie. But that was all Jesse, nothing happened between us, I care too much for
you to do something like that to you.”
“Now, things between me and him are
He sighed. “Well…I’m not sticking around
“What do you mean?”
“I’m leaving. Enjoy the rest of your
The elevator dinged and the doors opened.
“I was offered a really good job, and
I’m gonna take it. Tell the guys thanks, but they’re gonna have to find another
And with that he walked out of the elevator,
You were stunned by his words as you walked
out of the elevator. Suddenly you weren’t so hungry, and decided to just grab
coffee and donuts from the hotel buffet and just bring that up to Calum instead
of a full breakfast. As you walked though his hotel room door you found him
You set the donuts on the counter and climbed
next to him on the bed. You looked at his sleeping form, he looked so peaceful.
You ran your hand down the side of his face, and through his hair. He smiled as
he blinked awake.
“Morning” He smiled at you and
looked at you as though you were the most precious thing in the world.
“Morning” You smiled back, and for
the first time in a long time it was a genuine smile. You were so happy, that
not even everything that happened with Jesse would ruin that.
He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you
closer to him as he brushed his lips against yours
“You keep doing that, and we’ll never
get out of this bed” You laughed, breaking his kiss.
“Mmmm…and that’s bad?” He said,
nuzzling your neck
“Well I brought breakfast and
everything..” You said, gesturing to the coffee and donuts.
“Fine, we’ll eat. But don’t think you’re
getting out of this. I don’t have a show again until tomorrow so this
here-” He said kissing your lips, slightly biting your bottom lip as he
pulled away “Is to be continued”
“I look forward to it” You laughed.
Watcha think? Thanks for reading! Love you guys!! -Lydia
i’m so tired of people who accepts seokjin only as bangtan’s visual. y’all better realize that jin can sing different genres of music, he can dance really well, he can write lyrics and compose and produce songs. jin can act and he even has a degree in this field. he is a good performer, he even knows how to play with audience, our hearts and musical instruments. jin looks after the rest of the members, he cares about them and cheer them up. he is truly beautiful inside and out and he is really talented man. i just want people to know this fact: kim seokjin is more than jast a face of the group, he is an artist.
I would like to have a small talk with you Jeon jungkook
Sweetie you were a fetus who finally grew up into a man. Now you can’t change back to baby mode whenever you like !
Just pick a goddamn phase and stop playing with our hearts !
This has been a rough week, personally and professionally.
I’m sad about Lauren. I didn’t know her well, but we shared a love for VNV Nation and I enjoyed her observations. She was good people. I grieve for her husband, friends, and family. And for the general community, who won’t get to know her now.
Her passing inspired me to be more proactive with my friends and loved ones. No more sitting back, waiting for texts. I need to make an effort and to let people know how much they mean to me.
I sent a bunch of messages this morning and got a lot of love back. It filled my heart.
I’ll see Rockstar and Snake at the annual reunion concert tomorrow night. I messaged Rockstar and he asked when our next date is. Jeebus, that boy plays with my heart. I told him if he’s going to call it a date, he might need to put out.
We picked July 1, which I didn’t realize is the day of the big poly pool party. I’m kinda meh about the pool party anyway, so I don’t mind the conflict. If the “date” gets rescheduled, as sometimes happens with Rockstar, I’ll got to the pool party.
While I’m off rocking tomorrow night, Sir will be out with Bones. He suggested we get dinner, but I wasn’t sure if I’d be meeting up with my old roommate before the show, which would have been awkward for me. So I don’t think that’s going to happen.
Work was rough this week, as I was dealing with my direct report and a resurgence of his feelings about the complaint against him due to the main complainant leaving us this week. He put some things into his performance evaluation that were inflammatory, I encouraged him to consider whether his words really reflected what he wanted to say. I was pleased to see that he thought about it and reworked his commentary. He even said some kind things about my support for him.
So the end result there was good, but it was stressful to get there.
I have 4 meetings today - it’s a light day! - and the rest of the day is mine to get work done. Then I’m freeeeeeeeeeeee for a few days.
Lots of love to all of you who are hurting right now. If you want to talk, I’m here. I love you guys!
(Anton may not be here anymore, but he’ll always be in our hearts, as will the precocious character he played.)
1.Chekov/Sulu Very popular, but just doesn’t appeal to me.
2.Chekov/McCoy: It all depends how it’s written–can be really good or really bad. (I tend to avoid the whole “Daddy kink” thing.) There was a great, angsty “aliens made them get married” fic that was really well done.
3.Chekov/Kirk: ❤️❤️❤️❤️ My sweet yellow shirt genius prodigies. Highly recommend “Winter Kisses"and "The Chess Game” if you like adorable Kirkov fluff.
4.Chekov/Alien woman from the end of Beyond: totally ship it.
5.Chekov/Scotty: Again, it all depends on how it’s written. There tends to be a lot of mpreg stories in this ship, one of which involved their poor kid having an almost indecipherable Russian/Scottish mashup accent that few could interpret.
So last year in my government class a beetle managed to get into the room and one of the kids killed it. My teacher took the bug, set it on the chalkboard chalk holder thing and had us stand up with our hands on our hearts while he played Taps and gave the bug an epitaph.
What really pisses me off about Steven Moffat is that HE CAN FUCKING WRITE I mean he has written some beautiful stuff and some terrifying stuff and he has played with our hearts and our heads and HE CAN FUCKING WRITE in a small window. One episode? There’s no one better.
But character development, story arcs, sensible, interesting plot? He’s completely incapable. And that just really pisses me off.
There are always people who say: people die and suffer from cancer every day and you only start caring while famous people pass away because of it. Yes, people die form cancer and it hurts every time I hear about it. But some famous people being amazing things to the world that deserve a lot of appreciation for this until end of the times. Think of it before saying he is just a person. I can’t agree with you and I have to say that Alan Rickman is a LEGEND. His voice is something THIS VOICE IS GOD’s voice! And he is part of childhood! And the way he plays every character.he will be in our heart forever and always. And to haters: if you don’t have nice things to say at least shut up and go away.
Alright, so, I’ve been re-watching SPN and I was watching the whole “Winchesters in hospital/dean’s going to die” arc of the second season and John had this monologue. Now, before I explain this monologue, let me explain something else. Out of every SPN fan I’ve met, almost every single one of them is more partial to Sam than Dean. Which is understandable. Sam is definitely written as the “main character you fawn over.” He plays on our heart-strings and whatever leftover angst we have from puberty. But I’ve always favored Dean more, and I think John’s monologue made me realize why.
I lost my dad at 14; a very young, crucial age. My mother and little brother went into full blown depression. Neither would eat or leave their rooms for anything other than the bathroom. I wanted to lock myself in my closet and never leave, but they were more important. I aged twenty years that day. I had to make sure they both ate, slept, showered, etc. I grew extremely over protective over both them and our family as a whole. They were all I had.
John mentions how Dean has always kept his head above water and took care of the family. He never had time to be a kid because he was too busy taking care of John and Sam. That’s why he always ends up in the middle of their arguments. Why he’s always the peace maker. Why he puts them above killing the thing that killed his mom. And I think that’s why I favor him.
I’ve never connected with a character the way I connect with Dean. Every action he takes, every line he says I understand. When I see Dean, I see me and my need for my family to stick together. My mom didn’t act like a mom for a long time and I never give myself time to work that out because that possibly means me not wanting to be around her or forgive her. And I think that same reasoning fuels how dean acts towards his dad. He does whatever it will take to keep everyone together. That’s why he feels like Sam abandoned them.
When John stopped being a father, the responsibility fell on Dean, as the older child. When my mom stopped being a mother, the responsibility fell on me. We can all relate to how Sam acts, for one reason or another. Being obsessive, wanting to be independent, wanting to do something other than what his family wants him to. But I think it takes being in Dean’s shoes, or similar, to relate to him. Everything Dean does is for his family. He sacrifices himself for them time and time again, and then when he comes face to face with death he says “I’m the only thing keeping them together.” And he, and anyone else who can relate, believes that whole heartily.
That’s why I am, and will always be, a Dean Queen.