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(TRANS) Luhan - 如果 (What If I Said)

My hand pauses midair, I can’t press ‘send’
Tossing and turning with unfinished dreams, even my pillow feels lonely
Memories come along, spilling over a thousand sentences
I keep the words I wish to tell you at the bottom of my heart
The text I write and delete, maybe white space explains it best
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
We were once so happy
If young love is meant to end in parting, should I say it later instead
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
I’m afraid of losing you, so I doubt you, so I run away Fear of love after we embrace, you’re not the only one
Memories come along, spilling over a thousand sentences
I keep the words I wish to tell you at the bottom of my heart
The text I write and delete, I’m still not brave enough to say 'I miss you’
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
We were once so happy
If young love is meant to end in parting, should I say it later instead
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
We were once so happy
If our love is too young
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave
We were once so happy
If young love is meant to end in parting, should I say it later instead
What if I said, don’t turn away and leave

neil and kevin discuss exy in bed all the fucking time especially when they can’t sleep and it annoys the hell out of andrew so he’ll whack them both in the face with his pillow and tell them to shut. up. 

all it does is turn their attention on him instead though which.. he’s okay with that. neil leans in close with his lips hovering right in front of andrew’s in a silent question that andrew answers by closing the gap and kissing him. kevin meanwhile is hugging neil from behind and has his lips pressed gently to the back of his neck. not too long after they drift off to sleep and andrew has some peace and quiet finally