he grabs my hand

my boyfriend talks in his sleep and I wish it was just cute gibberish but instead it’s TERRIFYING. so far, he has:

- grabbed me by the shoulder and put his hand over my mouth at 3am and pointed to the wall, whispering “do you see it? the barbed wire.”
- woken me up and muttered “he’s here” while staring at my bedroom door
- rolled over last night and said “you don’t know what’s out there. You don’t know what’s in the swamp.”

he’s taken like 20 years off my life.

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justrandomeveryday: Story time with jre!
First of all the fan meet was Dope!
Then after was the photo op! They were really strict with phones and you cannot touch the members. So I put away my phone and got in line with KML and friends I met at the fan meet. It was my turn. Instantly Jackson saw me (excited as hell lol) saying “it’s you!!!” He comes up to me close to my face, hands on my shoulders shaking me saying “it’s you!!” And all I could say with a big smile on my face laughing and saying “What’s good!!” 😂 he grabs my hand and shakes it too. I quickly asked (while showing my phone in my pocket) can I record a bit?! Jackson quickly says “yea yea quickly!” Even though security said no before …. hey I got permission from My bias Jackson himself! So as you see in the video, I took out my phone and recorded a bit as he was Saying “HE’S here!” 😂 with JB(he had a sore throat ☹️ hope he feels better) putting up them duces ✌🏼 then security started coming and the host @limited.89 (what’s up bro lol nice to see you as always😁) saying “JRE…” quickly I put down my phone and smiled for the picture… or I bit my lips or some derpy face I forget. I said hi to the rest of the members and during this time security gets in front of the got7 members separating both them from us, but… Jackson then again comes and shakes my hand again and bam bam talking on the mic about watching my videos and mentions Me and @kennyboyslay (he remembers you kenny lol) while shaking my hand (again you are not suppose to reach to got 7 which I didn’t they stuck their hands out to me so ofc I’m going to shake it lol) with a big ass smile on my face laughing I say what’s up to the other members exiting outside the venue! #bless wooow sorry for this long story but it’s still fresh in my mind. And I just really can’t believe it. Also I think it’s funny that I sat in between my bias Jackson and thee bias wrecker JB 😂. Got7 I hope you have an amazing time in Miami! Todays weather in Miami has been beautiful and I hope you enjoyed it as well! Thank you for choosing Miami. 🙏🏽 come again soon.

You completely destroyed me. You shattered my heart into a million pieces and didn’t even help me pick them back up.

But now there’s a new guy who actually cares about me… although that will never change the fact that whenever he touches me I will always feel you. When he runs his fingers down my leg all I want to do is cry, when he kisses my lips I want to scream, his gray eyes somehow turn into your brown ones, and when he grabs my hand I want to run away and never look back. But I need to tell my heart to relax, because I know he won’t break me like you did.

And can you try to explain that to me? Even though he gives me the world when you couldn’t, I will always be helplessly brought back to you. You treated me like dirt but I will always love you with every piece of my broken heart.

I start to dig my nails in my hand,
Feeling the anxiety.
Without saying a word,
He grabs my hand and holds it.
Calming me.
Im driving and I’m nervous because I don’t know where I’m going.
I’m biting my nails.
“Honey.” He says gently
“calm down I can tell you’re freaking out.”
Calming me.
My heart is pounding,
because I don’t know any of these people.
He wraps his arm around me and rubs my back.
Calming me.
I don’t even have to speak,
For him to get what’s going on with me.
And that makes me feel more comforted,
And safe then I ever have before.
—  Chapters from my life
I have a terrible memory, really. Names and birthdays, and past conversations, everything fades away too soon. Maybe that’s why I started writing everything down, because there are some memories too important to forget, and so I write it all down. I write down the way my heart was booming against my chest, like a speaker with the volume all the way up. I write down the way he grabbed my hand and squeezed it tight, I write down the streets we drove and the songs that were playing. I have a terrible memory, I really do, but I don’t forget the feelings. I don’t forget how it felt like my heart was finally thawing, like the beginning of us was the beginning of spring, and the icicles started to melt, and I welcomed the warmth. I fly over the details, but they’re not gone. Every word becomes a memory, and I’m moved to love as if this second is going to end any minute, so I day dream about the future like it might not come because it isn’t guaranteed and so I pull you closer right now. And right now will fade to dust inside my mind faster than I’d like, but it makes no sense to me that we were ever apart. So if I can’t have the memories, I’ll settle for trying to make every minute last a little longer
—  laceerainspoetry, Memories
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JRE Instagram update with Jackson and Jaebum

Story time with jre!
First of all the fan meet was Dope!
Then after was the photo op! They were really strict with phones and you cannot touch the members. So I put away my phone and got in line with KML and friends I met at the fan meet. It was my turn. Instantly Jackson saw me (excited as hell lol) saying “it’s you!!!” He comes up to me close to my face, hands on my shoulders shaking me saying “it’s you!!” And all I could say with a big smile on my face laughing and saying “What’s good!!” 😂 he grabs my hand and shakes it too. I quickly asked (while showing my phone in my pocket) can I record a bit?! Jackson quickly says “yea yea quickly!” Even though security said no before …. hey I got permission from My bias Jackson himself! So as you see in the video, I took out my phone and recorded a bit as he was Saying “HE’S here!” 😂 with JB(he had a sore throat ☹️ hope he feels better) putting up them duces ✌🏼 then security started coming and the host @limited.89 (what’s up bro lol nice to see you as always😁) saying “JRE…” quickly I put down my phone and smiled for the picture… or I bit my lips or some derpy face I forget. I said hi to the rest of the members and during this time security gets in front of the got7 members separating both them from us, but… Jackson then again comes and shakes my hand again and bam bam talking on the mic about watching my videos and mentions Me and @kennyboyslay (he remembers you kenny lol) while shaking my hand (again you are not suppose to reach to got 7 which I didn’t they stuck their hands out to me so ofc I’m going to shake it lol) with a big ass smile on my face laughing I say what’s up to the other members exiting outside the venue! #bless wooow sorry for this long story but it’s still fresh in my mind. And I just really can’t believe it. Also I think it’s funny that I sat in between my bias Jackson and thee bias wrecker JB 😂. Got7 I hope you have an amazing time in Miami! Todays weather in Miami has been beautiful and I hope you enjoyed it as well! Thank you for choosing Miami. 🙏🏽 come again soon.

THIS IS SO CUTE AJDHAKSDHA

You were strange to him… Very strange. Especially since you blindly followed the instructions of some stranger who was messaging you through some app. He couldn’t tell if you were just pure and trusting, or downright stupid… But as strange as you were, oddly enough, he had always been fascinated by weird things.

Tumblr request of UnknownXMC fluff I guess haha. Idk MC is licking him.

More Than Fuck Buddies

Request: Hey love, well I had a fabulous dream last night and I thought you might write something out of it? :) Me and bucky Barnes were having some kind of secret affair while living in the tower but also developed strong feelings for each other. One night after we had passionate sex I wanted to leave but he grabbed my hand pulling me back to him and finally admitting his feelings and asking me to stay? I told him the same and it got official? :) That would be great! Also some smut hihi ? 😘😘😘 Thanks

-SMUT WARNING-

Originally posted by luvinchris


You were currently cleaning up in the kitchen after dinner, telling everyone else you had it taken care of. Steve and Vision tried to stay behind to help, but you’ve always taken the cleaning roll in the tower. So, they all decided it was time to relax and go to bed.

You felt a pair of arms snake around your waist as you finished up and you smiled, drying off the last plate you washed. Bucky stuffed his face in the curve of your neck, inhaling your scent. Goosebumps rose onto your smooth skin.

“Mm, you smell good enough to eat. I just might let you sit on my face tonight.” Bucky chuckled darkly, nipping at your skin. Your eyes momentarily rolled into the back of your head and you rested your hands against the edge of the sink. “Bucky, I am not doing that.” You giggled softly.

Bucky smirked against you. His hold tightened around you and he was about to say something else until you both heard footsteps approaching. Bucky quickly pulled away from you, standing off to the side.

“Hey, have you guys seen my tablet?” Tony asked with a heavy sigh as he walked in. You turned around, trying to keep your composure. Your heart was beating fast in your chest and your face felt hot. “N-no, maybe check the common room?” You said, hoping Tony couldn’t detect the nervousness in your voice.

Bucky walked to the fridge now, pretending to look for something. Tony nodded at you then looked at Bucky. “Didn’t you just eat?” Tony asked, knitting his eyebrows together. Bucky froze and cleared his throat.

Oh god, what if he figures it out? You thought as your heart started racing even faster. You turned back to the dishes, stacking the plates to distract yourself and hide your embarrassment.

You and Bucky have been having a secret affair for the past few months. You’d have secret sex all throughout the tower and nobody knew; at least you hope they didn’t. You both tried your best to keep quiet.

It’s not that you don’t want the team to know, it’s that you don’t want Bucky to know you have feelings for him. You fell in love with Bucky two months after you started this affair, and you knew that Bucky probably didn’t want anything more than friends with benefits.

You enjoyed the secret sex, of course. You just didn’t want to ruin anything with telling him how you feel.

Bucky shut the refrigerator and turned to Tony. You peeked over your shoulder. “A man’s gotta eat a lot to keep his muscles, Tony the tiger.” Bucky said with a smile as he flexed his muscles. You held in a moan and looked away. Tony rolled his eyes dramatically and left the room, searching for the tablet he so desperately wanted to find.

You sighed out, shaking your head lightly. You’ve almost been caught in the act dozens of times and nobody pieced it together. Not even when Bucky’s shirt was thrown on the floor in the common room and your hair was messed up as you sat on the couch.

Either the team was really dumb or they didn’t care.

You moved to the cabinets, putting the plates and other dishes up, thinking about what just happened. Tony would never let you guys live this down if he had found you two. Bucky had left the room for a moment and you knew he was making sure Tony would leave for good.

As you were putting the silverware away in their rightful drawers, those strong arms wrapped around you once again. “He found the tablet. Now, let me find your g-spot, baby doll.” Bucky whispered in your ear, letting one of his hands move down to your clit over your leggings.

You gasped and leaned back into him, closing your eyes. “No no, that’s not it. I need to keep looking.” Bucky said in a husky voice, slipping his hand down your leggings.

Bucky’s rough hand moved your panties aside and rubbed small circles around your opening. “Y/N, you’re so wet for me.” Bucky moaned into your ear, causing a small whimper to escape between your lips.

Bucky chuckled softly and slid his finger inside of your pussy, gently moving it back and forth. Your breathing became heavier and you felt Bucky curve his finger and hit that delicious spot. Your hips jerked and Bucky smirked. “There it is.” He said proudly, hitting it continuously.

Bucky’s palm was rubbing against your clit at the same time and you tried so hard not to moan loudly in fear that someone would hear you.

Much too soon for your liking, Bucky pulled his hand from your leggings. He lifted his hand to your mouth. “Open.” Bucky ordered. You opened your mouth and he stuck his finger inside, letting you lick your juices from his finger.

You moaned softly and sucked on it now, slowly bobbing your head back and forth. Bucky growled lowly, biting on your shoulder. He placed a kiss there and pulled his finger away from your mouth and you chased after it, wanting to suck some more.

“Doll, let’s take this to the bedroom.” Bucky said as he grabbed onto your wrist. You smiled and let him drag you along. You flicked off the light in the kitchen and hurried to the elevator.

As soon as the doors closed, Bucky picked you up and pinned you to the wall with force. A small grunt fell from your mouth and Bucky ground his hips into yours. He was already hard and you could moan at the thought of how delicious he looked.

You tangled one of your hands in Bucky’s hair and tugged on the roots. You heard a low growl in his throat and you smirked. Bucky had the biggest hair pulling kink and you used that to your advantage. The sounds he made were a bonus, only adding to your own arousal.

Bucky’s lips were attached to your neck and he sucked on it harshly. You whimpered and moved your hips against Bucky’s, getting impatient. Bucky pulled away from your neck and bit his lip, looking down at you.

You noticed something different in the way he looked at you but you couldn’t tell what it was or what he was feeling. “I want to try something new tonight.” Bucky said as the elevator came to a stop.

You wondered what he could be talking about as he set you down. Bucky’s hand wrapped around yours and he laced his fingers with yours, something he’s never done before. Your heart started to race again and you felt your feelings for him start to grow.

You both exited the elevator and quickly made your way to his room down the hallway. Bucky pulled you into his room and shut his door gently and turned back to you. Smirking, he slipped off his shirt and picked you up before lying you down on his soft bed.

You started to take your shirt off and Bucky held his smirk, unbuckling his belt and slipping off his pants. The chill in the air made you shiver and you both were down to your underwear now. Bucky hovered above you on the bed and kissed along your neck and your collarbones.

You moaned, feeling his tongue trace along your skin as he went. “Bucky, hurry.” You begged, wanting him inside of you already. You felt Bucky groan against you and he pulled your bra straps down. “What do you want, kitten?” Bucky asked, using your favorite nickname.

You let him take your bra off and you felt his cock twitch in his boxers against your thigh. “Your cock, please.” You whimpered breathlessly. Bucky breathed out and leaned back on his knees. He smirked and looked down at your clothed pussy.

Your cheeks turned red and he licked his lips as his hand moved down your torso. His fingers added the slightest bit of your pressure on your clit and your hips jerked. Bucky chuckled deeply. “Always so ready for me.” He said, hooking his fingers into your panties and pulling them down.

You inhaled a deep breath, watching him. “God, you’re so pretty, Y/N.” Bucky whispered, kissing your knee before hovering above you again after slipping off his boxers. You blushed more and looked up into Bucky’s eyes. “What did you want to try?” You asked nervously.

Bucky sighed softly and looked down at you. “Can we take our time?” He asked shyly, the same look in his eyes reappearing. You knitted your eyebrows together a little. “Yeah, that’s fine.” You breathed, feeling nervous.

You and Bucky always started and finished quickly. It was mostly rough and fast sex. You didn’t do too many risky things since you had to sneak around the tower most of the time. You would like to be more adventurous in the bedroom, but you didn’t want to push Bucky away with any of your ideas. 

Bucky’s flesh hand moved to your cheek and his thumb traced along your lips. He leaned down and captured your lips with his and you felt his hips sink closer to yours. Bucky’s cock started to slide into you and you whimpered, goosebumps rising on your skin again.

Bucky pushed in further and bit your bottom lip, causing you to moan his name. “Shit.” He muttered, finally filling you up. Bucky gave you a moment to adjust to his size and you wrapped your legs around his waist.

Bucky stared down at you and brushed your hair out of your face before thrusting in and out of you slowly. You gasped, never feeling how big he actually was like this before. Bucky would always go so fast, you never had him go slow. “God, Bucky.” You whimpered as his tip gently brushed against your g-spot.

You felt Bucky holding back and you desperately needed him to go a tad faster. “Bucky.” You whimpered his name, watching his hips meet yours. Bucky gripped the pillow beside your head with his metal hand and let his flesh hand rest on your side.

His thrusts sped up a little as you moved your hands to his hair and tugged on it. Bucky grunted and quickly leaned down to kiss you. You were surprised at first and you felt him start to fuck you harder. Bucky’s tongue swiped along your bottom lip, begging to play with yours.

Slightly opening your mouth, his tongue started to fight for dominance. You moaned into the kiss, moving your hips against his. “Fuck, that’s so good.” Bucky moaned, his voice strained. You knew he wanted to go crazy but something was different about this time.

Bucky looked into your eyes as he thrust into you and you noticed that look again. You didn’t know what it was but it made your heart beat faster. Bucky’s lips ghosted over your chin before placing a kiss there. His lips moved to your neck and down, then back up to your ear.

Your pussy clenched around his hard cock, making him moan into your ear. You smirked and did it yourself this time, earning a moan from your own mouth. “Play nice, naughty one.” Bucky chuckled, his flesh hand moving to your hand.

Bucky laced his fingers with yours again and held it beside your head on the pillow. “You’re so beautiful.” Bucky breathed, his chest rising and falling. You felt his thrusts become harder and your face contorted with pleasure. “Fuck.” Bucky grunted, snapping his hips against yours with more force.

Your breath caught in your throat when Bucky’s metal hand moved to grip onto your throat. “You like that?” Bucky asked with a small smile. You nodded, moaning your answer. “Can you go faster?” You asked, hearing Bucky’s arm whirring. His fingers tightened and he groaned.

Bucky did as you asked, sliding in and out of you with more speed. Skin slapped against skin and you gasped, only to have it cut off by Bucky applying more pressure around your throat. “So good for me. You’re so good. You like that, Sergeant’s little girl? God, you look amazing.” Bucky said, whispering as he fucked you.

You moaned out particularly loud but you didn’t care. Not when you could feel Bucky’s cock slamming into you harder now. His balls slapped against your ass and you couldn’t wait anymore. “I want-I want to ride you. Please.” You begged, looking at Bucky. His hair was sticking to his face from it being coated with sweat.

Bucky grunted and released your neck, flipping you two over. You’ve never been on top before and Bucky would always decline, but now you get to and you couldn’t be happier. “Fuck. Ride me, kitten.” Bucky said, watching you grip his shaft in your hand. You’ll never get over Bucky’s size.

He was thick and heavy, veins protruding from his cock and your mouth watered at the sight of his red tip. You moved your hips over Bucky’s cock, sliding his tip along your slit. Bucky’s breath hitched and you heard him growl as you sank down.

He filled you up even more it felt like and he was definitely deeper inside of you. “Y/N, you feel amazing.” Bucky rasped, gripping onto your hips. You started to ride Bucky, bouncing up and down on his large cock. Your tits were bouncing along and you gripped them, looking down at Bucky as you pinched your nipples.

Bucky bit his bottom lip, bending his knees so he could meet your thrusts. “Fuck, I’m getting close.” You squealed, feeling Bucky’s cock hit your g-spot repeatedly. You couldn’t hold yourself up anymore so you let your chest rest against Bucky’s. His arms wrapped protectively around your back and he picked up speed.

You kissed his chest, breathing heavily. You moaned as Bucky’s hand now tangled in your hair. He pulled your head up, making you look down at him. “Y/N, look at me when you cum.” Bucky said, his eyes hooded and mouth slack from pleasure. You moaned and watched his face, his eyes glazed over.

Bucky pounded into you now and you felt his thighs slap against yours. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” You squealed out. You moaned and Bucky leaned up to kiss you quickly. You gasped and pulled away, feeling your pussy clenching around Bucky’s cock again. “Go slow. Oh god, go slow.” You begged.

Bucky slowed his movements and slid in and out of you like before, only much deeper. As Bucky stared into your eyes, your orgasm finally washed over you and you moaned, trying to keep your eyes open.

Bucky’s hand reached down to rub your clit, his movements faster than his thrusts. You held your breath and felt hot spurts of Bucky’s cum coat the inside of your pussy. He grunted, sliding his cock all the way in and keeping it there until you both finished.

Bucky let out a satisfied breath and looked at you. “Breathe, Y/N.” He said, rubbing your sweaty back. You let out a long exhale and felt lightheaded. “God, that was amazing.” You whimpered. Bucky slid out of you and you stayed on his chest, breathing rapidly.

Bucky caressed your hair and kissed your forehead. Sighing, you closed your eyes for a moment. As your breathing calmed, you rolled off of Bucky. Your pussy was sore and you groaned, feeling your thigh muscles twitching.

You sat beside Bucky and smiled down at him. “I’ll see you next time.” You said with a hint of sadness. Bucky furrowed his eyebrows and gripped onto your wrist before you could leave. “No, don’t go!” Bucky quickly pleaded. You looked down at him confused. “Why? I always leave afterwards.” You stated matter of factly.

Bucky sat up and sighed, running his hand through his hair. “I know, I just don’t want you to leave me.” He said quietly. Your eyes widened as you thought about it. The slow, thoughtful movements, the amount of eye contact and even the kissing. It was much different than the other times. You two just made love.

Bucky stood up and left to get a wet cloth to clean you both up with. He was silent and you weren’t sure what to say. You saw Bucky’s shirt lying on the floor and you moved to pick it up. Slipping it on, you sniffed it and it smelled like him.

“What are you doing?” Bucky asked after he slipped on a clean pair of boxers. You blushed and smiled. “Staying.” You whispered. Bucky threw the wet cloth in his dirty basket and walked back over to you. You sat at the edge of his bed, playing with the hem of his shirt.

Bucky’s hands held your cheeks, letting the pads of his thumbs caress your skin. “I think I love you.” Bucky whispered, watching you intently. Your eyebrows raised and your mouth fell open. He likes you back. Bucky actually feels the same way about you.

You were so surprised you couldn’t speak and Bucky’s hands fell from your face. “I understand if it’s not the same for you.” He said, sitting beside you. You blushed and turned to him. “Do you think or do you know?” You asked, feeling your heart start to race again.

Bucky looked at you, his hair falling in his eyes. You reached over and tucked it behind his ear. “I know.” He said, nodding to himself. You leaned in and placed a kiss on his cheek. “Good, because I love you, too.” You said.

You heard a gasp fall from Bucky’s mouth and he looked at you with the cutest surprised face you’ve ever seen. “You do?” He breathed, pulling you onto his lap. You giggled softly. “I do.” You said, wrapping your arms around Bucky’s neck. “God, you’re amazing.” He muttered, pulling you in for a kiss.

Note: I feel like this sucks, omg. I’m not sure about this, but I really hope you like it! thanks for the request! .c

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one time i was at a cafe with a guy friend and i had gotten pretty close with him so i was telling him about how i hadn’t pooped the day before and he was like “wtf girls can poop” and i said “yeah we have buttholes” and he said “i thought you had buttholes for anal” and i went “who tf would do anal” and he looked at me, grabbed both my hands and whispered “the team i play for would”

and that ladies and gentlemen is how my best friend came out to me and i’ve never been so amazed

He whispered in my ear the entire night how much he liked me. I was hesitant, eyeing the beer he has in his hand, not trusting his words. The shots of vodka that I took earlier started to catch up to me and so my guard fell little by little. So he grabbed my waist with one hand and pulled my face up into his lips. And I let him.
—  Baby you cloud my judgement and I’m too weak to stop you
Diabolik lovers Lost Eden Kino (heaven 1) ~translation~ (Esp and Eng)

La traducción esta en español abajo de todo!

This translation was made by @rkyt1965

Place: Shopping mall

Yui: (Suddenly he called me when I was going back from the school… What happened?)

*Yui walks*

Yui: Ah, Kino-Kun! …Wait, that clothes…!


Kino: When we have a date after schooltime is better using this clothes, isn’t it. Let’s go.

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it honestly pisses me off so much when dudes in bjj decide to throw all concept of technique out the window and just try to muscle and manhandle their way to a victory… i see it all the time, esp with new guys who haven’t had the ego beaten out of them yet

because i was one of the higher ranks in class i was paired with this really big dude. stand up grappling, he grabbed a handful of skin on my shoulder and yanked me around… so when he ducked his head down i grabbed a guillotine hold and hurricane threw him

i do n ‘t like that shit

i apologized later lol

“I can stand a lot! But just because I can, does that mean I must? Do I have to bear everyone’s weakness? Can I not have my own?”

“You canna ask it of me! You, you of all people! You, who know what … what…” He
choked, speechless with rage.

He nodded once or twice, rapidly, as though making up his mind about something, then drew the dirk from his belt with a hiss and held it in front of my nose. With a
visible effort, he spoke calmly.

“You may have your choice, Claire. Him, or me.”

The candle flames danced in the polished metal as he turned the knife slowly. “I canna live while he lives. If ye wilna have me kill him, then kill me now, yourself!” He grabbed my hand and forced my fingers around the handle of the dirk.

“Please believe me, please. I wouldn’t do this if there were any other way.” I took a deep, quivering breath to quell the leaping pulse beneath my ribs.

“You owe me your life, Jamie. Not once, twice over. I saved you from hanging at
Wentworth, and when you had fever at the Abbey. You owe me a life, Jamie!”

He stared down at me for a long moment before answering.

When he did, his voice was quiet again, with an edge of bitterness.

“I see. And ye’ll claim your debt now?” His eyes burned with the clear, deep blue that
burns in the heart of a flame.

“I have to! I can’t make you see reason any other way!”

….At last he came to a halt before me, feet planted wide apart in silver-buckled shoes, hands still clasped behind his back. He waited for me to look up at him before he spoke. His face was set, with no twitch of agitation to betray him, though the lines near his eyes were deep with strain.

“A year, then” was all he said.

…It was past midnight when I went at last to our bedroom. Jamie was there, seated before a small table, apparently watching a pair of lacewings fluttering dangerously around the single candlestick which was all the light there was in the room. I dropped my cape on the floor and went toward him.

“Don’t touch me,” he said. “Go to bed.”

Edward: my boyfriend talks in his sleep and I wish it was just cute gibberish but instead it’s TERRIFYING. So far, he has:

-grabbed me by the shoulder and put his hand over my mouth at 3am and pointed to the wall, whispering “do you see it? The barbed wire.”

-woken me up and muttered “he’s here” while staring at my bedroom door

-rolled over last night and said “you don’t know what’s in the swamp.”

he’s taken 20 years off my life.

He was leaving me
but I didn’t want to believe it

So I stood there
hanging on for dear life

With my eyes squeezed shut
hoping it was an awful dream

Trying to treasure
these last few moments

Until he spoke my name so quietly
as I forced my eyes open

Seeing his tear stained face
as he grabbed my hands
to make me let go

Because I had a death grip
on his shirt as he kissed my forehead and silently closed the door
behind him

—  Chapters from my life