Imagine Sebastian being really annoyed because you’re taking forever getting ready. He fusses and whines and sits on the bed waiting for you. And then when you walk out of the bathroom, he can’t help but smile his cheeky grin because you look so damn beautiful and he knows he can’t stay mad at you.
I’m not quite sure whether to classify you as dumb or cute. Seriously, Park Chanyeol? You sent a ring along with a letter with the words “will you marry me?”and a doodle of yourself kneeling, I can’t believe you!
Plot: the night before the wedding y/n gets nervous
I turn in bed, tired, nervous, anxious. So anxious. My chest felt tight and the thoughts of everything that could go bad enters my mind.
What if the tux is wrinkled?
What if the veil rips?
What if I trip in front of everyone?
What if Harry leaves?
What if he says I don’t?
I bring my knees to my chest in the position that had always helped me calm down but I couldn’t stop thinking about all the terrible possibilities. I couldn’t stop thinking about the worse. I wanted Harry to be here, to reassure me that nothing would ever happen, that nothing could ever happen. I wanted him to tell me that it would all be okay, that tomorrow was going to be perfect and so were the days to come. I grab my phone, calling him. I’m quiet, making sure to not wake up Gemma or any of the other girls who had camped out in my room to make sure that Harry wouldn’t sneak in.
“Harry,” I whispered into the phone. From his end I can still hear the party going, I can hear boys cheering and asking for more drinks.
“Hi baby,” his slow and deep voice fills my ear, he doesn’t sound drunk which makes me feel slightly better, “how’s the party?”
“We’re all in bed, it’s two am,” I whispered, hugging my knees tighter, “how about you?”
“The boys and I left to my hotel room, the guys are just having a drink and watching some movie, but I’m tired and I don’t know how to kick them out,” he admits and I bet he’s pouting slightly, “and I miss you.”
My hands slightly shake and I keep imagining walking to an empty alter. I sniffle, “Harry,” I say, “are you sure we’re ready?”
I hear shuffling on the other side and I imagine he’s moving to a silent location, I’m right when I don’t hear the boys and I hear a door shut, “hey hey,” he coos, “of course I’m ready Y/N I wouldn’t ask you otherwise.”
A silent sob leaves my lips, “I’m really scared,” I admit.
“Of what baby,” he asks, “don’t cry lease don’t cry.”
“I feel like something is going to go wrong,” I admit, walking out of the hotel room I resided in, I’m sure to be as silent as possible.
“Nothing is going to go wrong I promise,” he assures me, “I love you and you love me and that’s all that matters.”
“There are so many people,” I say. Harry’s parents loved me, but some of his other family members didn’t, and I have met a lot of people on his side which meant tomorrow was the day. My parents who were divorced and could never stop arguing were going to be in the same room, I could already tell there would be a fight.
“We can have the ceremony with close family and invite everyone else to the reception,” Harry says, “we can do whatever you want, this day is about you.”
I pace the hallway my hands gripping the phone tighter and another sob leaves my lips, “I’m just really overwhelmed,” I cried, “a-and I can’t stop thinking about everything that could go wrong and everyone is snoring and I can’t sleep,” I say in between hiccups.
The elevator dings and I look up to see Harry stepping out of it. He’s in his grey sweatpants and a black shirt, his phone in his hands and he hangs up placing it in his pocket. He frowns seeing me, opening up his arms and I let them wrap around me.
“Hi kitten,” he whispered in my ear, “it’s okay.”
Harry’s finger tips run up and down my back soothingly. Once the tears have stopped he kisses me, “everything will be perfect,” he promises me.
I nod, he wipes away the extra tears, “I love you,” he reminds me.
“And I you,” I tell him.
“Come on,” he grabs my hand, “those idiots are so drunk they won’t notice I’m gone,” he says.
“Where are we going?” I asked, following him. We must look like a mess, Harry in his PJ’s and me in a pair of shorts and sweater with no shoes. My hair had been tossed up in a ponytail but by this point it was insanely messy.
Harry holds up a key card, “I got an extra room in case you needed me or I needed you,” he says, swiping us into the hotel room.
I smile at my future husband as he closes the door, locking it behind us. I get in bed and Harry follows, wrapping a blanket around the both of us, “this time tomorrow we will be halfway to Italy and married,” he grins.
I smile at the thought, “I’m excited and nervous, like the first day of school you know?” I asked, “I’m excited to move in with you and make breakfast and yell at you about keeping the toilet seat up and listening to you play your guitar, and I’m excited to hear your very cheesy breakfast tunes.”
“Well I’m excited to hear you sing in the shower and eat your overly burnt rice and over cooked pasta, and I’m excited to whine about how you leave your clothe everywhere and not folded away were it should be,” Harry says, “and not mention I’m excited to be able to share a bed with you.”
“Eh you’re a very loud snorer,” I teased.
We keep discussing what we look forward to till we fall asleep.
“It was bad luck,” Gemma taunts as she helps me get in my dress, Anne and my mother standing and talking to each other about the dress I picked out, “we thought we had a runaway bride,” Gemma adds.
“Gemma it’s okay,” I laugh at my maid of honor, “I was really overwhelmed and he was there. Plus he hasn’t seen me in the dress.”
She rolls her eyes playfully but laughs, zipping me up and I turn. My mother in law and mother smiling as they hug me, “oh you look so perfect,” Anne gushes, “I’m so happy.”
“You look beautiful,” My mom says squeezing my hand.
“We better go take our seats,” Anne grins, tears pooling in her eyes.
The two older women walk out and Gemma steps back looking at me, “I have to go grab your veil,” she says.
She walks out leaving me inside the dressing room by myself. I admire myself in the mirror, the white dress was breath taking and I wished I could wear it every day of my life. I’m nervous, more nervous than last night. I felt sick, I never enjoyed being the center of attention and I wanted a small wedding, really small. But Harry couldn’t not invite some family member and not others, he had his mother and fathers side, cousins, aunts and uncles, friends and their plus ones, and some people he worked with. I simply invited some of my friends and parents. I can hear Gemma outside the door.
“Harry no, you already broke the rule last night. Now you’ll see her in less than thirty minutes,” Gemma scowls.
“How is she?” He asked.
“I don’t believe you,” Harry whines, “five seconds Gem please.”
“No,” Gemma says firmly, “suck it up.”
“Gemma you don’t get it when she gets nervous it can become overwhelming and she shuts down-”
“Harry I can handle her, she’s my family too,” Gemma says.
“Harry,” I say through the door, “I’m okay.”
“Hi baby,” he says in a much gentler voice, “are you sure? Because I can totally go out there and kick some people out.”
I giggle and lean against the door, “I’ll be fine, are you dressed?”
“Yes,” he says as the same time Gemma says, “no.”
“He doesn’t have his tie on,” she adds.
“Snitch,” he grumbles, “I love you y/n.”
“I love you too,” I say.
“Bye Harry,” Gemma says and walks in, she rolls her eyes, “he’s not even dressed. God luck with that.”
I laugh as I sit on the chair and she pins the veil to my hair, “you look beautiful y/n.”
I feel better once I’ve managed to walk down the aisle Harry is grinning from ear to ear, his eyes glossy. He holds my hand, leaning over and whispering to me that I look beautiful. I squeeze his hand as my cheeks turn pink, my face feeling hot. His thumb rubbing circles on my hand in a soothing matter.
Bang is my bias but he like avoided eye contact with me (mostly) until hitouch and photo op I’m gonna make a video about it bcuz literally I died.
But anyway during the concert Zelo gave MAD fan service to me and stared so hard.
Zelo gave me the most attention and
DAE stared so hard I think my friend got in on video I waved at him and
he waved back and gave me a heart.
The girls next to me were freaking out cuz Zelo kept giving me hearts, he literally
did it right to me.
Here’s Zelo shooting me hearts a few times
I literally died and he smiled so hard 😭😍ugh I was like
you’re not even my bias but damnnnnnn. Also in the beginning of the video when he’s drinking water he’s totally
laughing at me cuz I was telling him to take off his jacket 😂
🔥.Anyway so I’m salty af cuz I got
nothing from bang until the hitouch.
But let me talk about photo op first, this is where I nearly went to be with the lord
Okay anyways Yongguk legit like would avoid eye contact with me during the
concert, Except for that one last minute moment when he came to our section waving at the fans, he looked in my camera!:
And Daehyun was also looking:
Me and my friend got separated
cuz I had hitouch and photo but I was with another black girl Devon who I
made friends with SHE LITERALLY SAW EVERYTHING so I have a witness. lol
hitouch was like so quick u blink it was over and I saw they were
literally only hi fiving people so I was bummed.
Zelo was first I don’t
even remember what happened, but bang was next and instead of hi fiving,
girl he held my hand legit for like 5 seconds and I told him he was my
type and he smiled so BIG and my friend next to me said he was so busy
still staring at me while I walked away her time got cut short! 😂😂😂
the only other person I remember was dae I told him he was cute and he
thanked me and held my hand.
I was still with my black girlfriend Devon and luckily when they
numbered us off we were 1 and 2. So Idk if you’ve seen the pics
powerhouse has posted but the girls were legit standing in FRONT of the
boys leaving space for Jesus… I did not. I bee lined right to bang I
didn’t even look at anyone us so it was blatantly obvious I was there
I got right on him like my body was on his leg and then I was like fuck
I’m covering him so I turned around and asked him if I was too tall
He looked at me and said no you’re fine then moved NEXT to me so we were
side by side and put HIS ARM AROUND ME. I honestly think I mentally
blacked out. Lol anyway they were taking forever to take our
pic(luckily) so I look at him and go you are so cute and he smiles his
gummy smile and thanks me and says you too or so are you tbh I ain’t
gonna lie I don’t remember cuz I was BLACKED out.
When we were done I held his hand and my friend said he stared after me
as I walked away. So to conclude Bang Yongguk is my future husband he
just don’t know yet 😂😂😂😂
They took 3 pictures of my group and they freaking put the
picture up where u CANT SEE BANGS HAND AROUND ME! I’m gonna sue lol But here’s the group photo:
Okay so here is what I got done last night and I tried to edit it as best I can! This is the first chapter so there will be more comin.
ANYWAY I hope you enjoy and there is more coming, this is just what I managed to write until I got exhausted and went to bed (I’m lame I know)
So like disclaimer: three PAST character deaths. I also changed up the prologue a little to fit the story. I’m taking a light spin on it, not too many drastic changes (if you count the reason Jack was turned into a beast a drastic change idk)
Once upon a time in a faraway land, a prince lived in a shining castle. Although he had everything his heart desired, the prince was spoiled, selfish and unkind.
“Yo, Jack-O!” Bartholomew Knight, strides up to his best friend, admiring the party in front of them. “Wicked party man.”
Jack clears his throat as a few people from his court glance over with judgmental expressions.
“Right. Prince Jack-O.” His best friend bristles a little, slightly annoyed by Jack’s dismissive behavior.
“Where did Kent go?” Jack can’t help but ask, because his other closest friend was nowhere to be seen upon the lively dancing of the party. Usually he’s in the middle of it all.
“Don’t know, Brah. Probably fucked off somewhere–”
Jack shoots him another glare for the language, causing ‘Shitty’ (he liked to call himself just to get on Jack’s nerves) to sigh dramatically.
“Can you be a little less vulgar?” Jack practically bites the words out, sounding extremely unkind. “Why are you with me anyway? Usually you’re following Larissa around right about now.”
“Never mind. Thought you’d want my company, but I guess I’m an embarrassment. Now I know why Kenny dearest isn’t around. I wouldn’t be surprised if he left the palace again.”
The words struck a chord, and Jack watched helplessly as his friend left his side.
But then, one winter’s night, an old beggar woman came to the castle and offered him a single rose in return for shelter from the bitter cold.
“Hey yo, your highness?” Adam Birkholz, one of the guards approached him with his other pair in tow, Justin Oluransi.
“–there’s someone at the door. She’s kinda sketch, but we don’t want to turn away a guest.” Justin says.
“I don’t remember inviting any outsiders.” Jack grunts, but he still follows them and weaves himself through the party. Once the three get to the door, a crouched figure with horrible posture shakes from the cold in a dark cloak covering most of their body. He feels the slightest bit of sympathy, but ever since his parents were assassinated, he trusted absolutely no one, and probably never will again.
“Who are you?” Jack demands, placing himself safely behind his two guards.
An old and scratchy voice responds. “Georgia Martin, no one special. I’m just looking for shelter from the cold. It’s quite a storm out there.”
When Jack doesn’t respond, she clears her throat and reaches down to pull something out of her cloak. Jack stumbles back in fear, and his two guards immediately block him from view.
“Relax, Jack Zimmermann,” –she can’t just address me informally like that– “It is only a rose. A peace offering and a gift, in exchange for your hospitality.”
Repulsed by her haggard and sketchy appearance, the prince sneered at the gift and turned the old woman away. But she warned him not to be deceived by appearances. For beauty is found within, and not every unfamiliar mundane is evil.
“No way am I letting you stay here.” Jack snarls at the woman, setting himself in front of his guards in a fit of anger. “A stranger can’t just waltz in here. This is a palace, not an inn.”
“I will not harm you.” She reassures him. “You have my word. Give me a chance?”
“Only fools allow complete strangers into their home.” Jack says sternly, still a little bit shaken.
“Like your parents?”
His blood runs cold and his hands begin to shake in the beginnings of a panic attack. “Get out.” He snaps, and his tone holds heavy malice that was sharp enough to cut anyone.
And when he dismissed her again, the old woman’s ugliness melted away to reveal a beautiful enchantress. The prince tried to apologize, but it was too late. For she had seen there was no trust or kindness in his heart.
“Wrong answer, Prince Zimmermann.” Her appearance quickly changes in a flurry of gold light, changing her appearance faster than Jack can process. The gold dissipates, revealing a kind and beautiful face that couldn’t possibly be ‘mundane’. Jack suddenly feels the cold twinge of regret as the woman gives him a soft smile. A smile that reminded him a little of his mother, and he felt his heart constrict in sadness.
“Whoa– what the hell are you?” Adam mutters with a look of blatant surprise, while Justin’s mouth is glued shut in silent terror.
Then Jack feels something warm begin to flood over his body, which he assumes is the feeling of magic. There’s no other explanation.
“Stop it.” Jack glances behind him at his frenzied party guests trying to escape. “I’m sorry. You can stay one night. Just stop whatever you’re doing–”
Those were the last words Jack spoke before he felt his body change, causing slight pain deep in his bones. The heartbreaking shouts from his guests and his closest friends fill his ears, which was the most painful of all.
“Jack!” He hears Kent’s voice sound in the background noise, horrified and frightened. “Goddammit, what have you done?”
And his punishment: she transformed him into a hideous beast and placed a powerful curse on the castle and all who lived there.
Like a snap of someone’s finger, everything went silent as objects clattered to the floor and his body burned with a raw sensation.
He glanced in a nearby mirror and reeled backward from what he saw. That woman– that witch– had turned him into some kind of monster.
Ashamed of his monstrous form, he concealed himself inside his castle with a magic mirror as his only window to the outside world. The rose she had offered was truly an enchanted rose. Which would bloom until his twenty-first year if he could learn to love and trust another and earn their love and trust in return.
“Until you can learn to fully love another and trust them with your love, you will stay like this.” The enchantress’s voice rang loud and clear, and quite frankly terrifying in the sudden, eerie silence.
And when the last petal fell, then the spell would be broken. If not, he would be doomed to remain a beast for all time. As the years past, he fell into despair and lost all hope.
Being around kids is sadly validating that heteronormativity is so hurtful to lgbt+ kids or all kids for that matter
A 4 year old girl I babysat told me about an adorable girl in her gymnastics class that she likes. She literally asked me “are girls allowed to marry other girls because I wanna marry Abby?”
-I couldn’t say anything bc I met her parents through church and I’d probably lose my babysitting job
Same girl told me she wished she was a boy so she could marry a girl. Like the poor little girl isn’t allowed to know she can marry a girl she likes bc why?
I remember when my cousin was younger we had a “girl” elf on the shelf and our elf one night showed up in a little christmas tree with an elsa barbie and my cousin was convinced that our elf and elsa were married. Like it was the cutest thing ever but our uncle literally told her they cant get married because thats illegal. She freaking comes back with “ They got married in the north pole so it’s not illegal.” like kids can make shit up just like adults can. He just kept arguing with her. A grown man fighting with a 7 year old because she has a healthy imagination? ok.
My cousin who’s 6 has been begging me since he could talk to paint his nails and do his makeup. He has adhd and is literally the most energetic child, will not sit through a movie but will watch me do my makeup for an hour, mesmerized.
I played pretend salon with him the other day and he was so happy but the actual saddest thing when he heard my door open he jumped scared that someone would come yell at him for being happy and doing something he likes. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?
-I can’t let him actually paint his nails or put on makeup because when I do I get in trouble and so will he
Same little boy told me the other day he wishes he was a girl. He asked me if I ever wanted to be a boy. I answered honestly and told him yes.
-I tried not to elaborate much so he wouldn’t get in trouble for repeating it. Do you know how much I wanted to tell this child that he’s feeling such a common thing though? or that he doesnt even have to be a girl to wear makeup or paint his nails? or if he does want to be a girl then thats OK??
THE MOST FUCKED PART IS ITS ALL MADE UP. Gender roles/stereotypes are made up and they are hurting our children.
Like come on people! These kids have had only heterosexual media shoved down their throats their whole existence, yet they still have these questions and feelings!!! and I’m telling you the children i’m talking about are sheltered catholic kids who have no exposure to anything promoting positivity towards lgbt+ people. How are these feelings so unnatural if children who know NOTHING about gay people/culture have these questions.
Maybe parents don’t see this because they are so heavily clouded by their upbringings. or these kids trust me because i’m their babysitter/cousin and they know I won’t yell at them for asking valid fucking questions. Idk how parents are so blind that they can’t see they’re hurting their own children.
How does my mom still refer to my potential future life partner as he him your future husband man when I don’t even fucking know. Why can’t we let our kids discover these things themselves????
ps. I know gender identity is not the same as sexuality I’m not sure if I miss worded anything, if so I’ll change it.