following up our self-titled album didn’t seem like it was going to be an easy task and, unsurprisingly, it was not. the problem about comparing yourself to… yourself… is that even though it’s better than looking elsewhere, you’re still looking in the wrong direction. for me, it wasn’t until i trusted that the past is finished with me that i could go looking for what’s next. our pasts can be a great comforter, or a horror movie; a noose, or a shield… but it is “past” for a reason. after a rest, we have to go looking for what’s supposed to come after that. - h
Beauty is a symptom of self-love. It’s not something you create. And
even if you do create it in a look, it’s fleeting. You need to get to
the bottom of what makes you feel powerful, smart, valued, pretty, blah
blah blah. It really does come from the inside.
hard times. gonna make you wonder why you even try. hard times. gonna take you down and laugh when you cry. these live. and i still don’t know how i even survive. hard times. hard times.and i gotta get to rock bottom.
Don’t let being sad or being upset about something take your hope away from you. Ever. You know, sometimes life just hits you, right in the face. And it’s alright. Because I, for one, think it’s kinda cool to have a black eye every now and then. And I think it’s definitely okay to have scars, and it’s definitely okay to hurt, and be in pain and show it. And that’s why we have friends in this life. And it’s why we have music.
The hair thing is so emotional for me. About a year ago, I called my colorist and was like, “I’m going through so much emotionally. I need a reset. I need you to bleach my hair.” This has been really important for me, as a 27- and 28-year-old, to show myself every morning when I get up that I’m not someone who is going to live in the past. When it’s time for Neon Hayley to come back to life, she will. But right now, this is me.