have you ever just looked at someone

You know what??? I’m done with having to hate my body just because someone doesn’t like it. I know I’m beautiful and other people think so too. I’m sick of being torn down right when I’m feeling comfortable in my own skin!

All of my life I hated how I looked… my voice (too deep), my body (too skinny etc), my face, etc etc. I always wanted to be someone I wasn’t just so my family and strangers could be happy with it. People I know to this day still claim that I hate my body and that when I was skinny I looked great and “how could you ever hate being thin???? U looked good!!.”

Time and time again I say that I hated it and tried to conform to something. Like why do I have to beg people to believe me? Why do I have to beg people to believe that I’m healthy? (I was told that I’m gonna end up struggling health wise eventually and that I’m destroying myself) Or that my boyfriend finds me attractive? (I was told that if I was a certain weight then I’d have less and less chances of someone loving me)

And you know that shit really hurt and I think about it a lot.

BUT WHY DO I HAVE TO CONVINCE YOU THAT IM HAPPY? I shouldn’t have to do this. I love who I am as a person!!! I love my weight!! I love my face!! And BOY, I will not let anyone convince me otherwise! So from now on I’ll try and move past it and do what I want. It makes me sad when people I know or even strangers struggle with body image issues/eating disorders. People should be happy with who they are because everyone is beautiful and unique in their own way!! 💖 I’m not saying that just to say it. It’s true.

I’m done ranting for now but now you all know how I’m feeling. Thanks for listening. 🐱💕🌸

Damn why is my girlfriend just so damn gorgeous

And not even in a physical aesthetically pleasing sense, it’s deeper than that. It’s deep af actually.

Like big ups to my mans God for putting her in my life, because I don’t know where I would be today without her man.

Just having someone by your side that wholeheartedly believes in your dreams and in turn you 100% believe in theirs

Having someone that looks you in your eyes and you can just feel that love, that devotion, that passion

It’s ever present and it has been since the day I met her.

I’m just fortunate that I can spend the time I have with her, because she deserves it. And one day soon I’ll be able to wake up to that beautiful smile, those immaculate brown eyes.

I look forward to that so much, and it’s not that far off.

Soon babe.

anonymous asked:

Have you ever looked into someone's eyes and they have like stars in them? I just did and I'm in love

A boy once told me the freckles in my eyes remind him of constellations

BTOB: dating Changsub would include

▪ get ready for the ride of your life with this boy

▪ tbh ever since meeting him, your life will probably never be the same 

▪ in a good or weird way…I’ll let you decide 

▪ when he saw you for the first time it was a straight up kdrama scene where the guy looks at the girl for like 10 hours dramatically 

▪ someone has to snap him out of it before you see it and run away 

▪ he’s just so shocked someone could have an affect like that over him bc it’s never happened 

▪ so he’ll do his best to try and sweep you off your feet 

▪ with a little help from the boys aka fairy godmothers, he does just that 

▪ you’ll be in tears for the rest of night 

▪ not only bc he tripped on your feet as he was trying to proclaim his love for you, but bc he was so romantic aw

▪ he regrets doing all of those ugly faces when you were around lol he just wanted to make a good impression

▪ but eventually he won’t care and does it all the time to annoy you

▪ speaking of 

▪ ugly faces compititions 24/7

▪ the others being so annoyed with you two all the time bc how can yall be so cute yet so annoying 

▪ random dates at random parts of the day

▪ neck massages when you’re both tired 

▪ he’s actually hella romantic sometimes and it surprises you 

▪ he’ll talk about his deepest thoughts with you bc he knows you never judge him

▪ he’ll tell you about all his insecurities and from then on you’d make sure to love him even harder to show him that he’s perfect to you

▪ him doing the same and making you forget about any flaws 

▪ buys an apron for himself that says “kiss the cook" 

▪ refuses to let you walk into the kitchen if you don’t give him at least 10 kisses when he’s wearing it 

▪ since he’s always mentioned wanting to be a father, he’ll absolutely melt if he sees you with kids or talking about kids

▪ doesn’t care who’s watching when he leans in to kiss you

▪ he’s just hella more affectionate ever since you came into his life

▪ inviting the guys over to watch movies or to hang out and forgetting all about them bc you two would be so engrossed in each other to care about them 

▪ basically being best friends and knowing you can’t live without each other 

▪ and they’d be ok with it, they’d just steal all your snacks and leave smh 

▪ so stressed and anxious when he’s away from you and always calls just to hear your voice 

▪ binge watching TV shows together and crying about them for like a month 

▪ tummy rubs when you’re not feeling well 

▪ it’s just an excuse for him to buy yall more snacks and stay on the couch and cuddle until you fall asleep 

▪ you buying him a watch bc he’s always late to everything 

▪ and he’ll treasure it forever bc he loves it when you’re being thoughtful 

▪ and bc they’re so close to Vixx, you’ll probably meet them and they’ll know exactly why Changsub is in love with you

▪ you two are basically made for each other and everyone can see it 

▪ so pls treasure this insane boy forever 💖

Originally posted by lonexsamurai

i cant get these thoughts out of my head so im just gonna vent and say what id say if i were allowed to talk about it to em

i understand youre , hurt and needing space and time. i totally get that trust me

i dont mind it at all really, and im perfectly content being friends with you, youre already a really great friend to me. i value you so much

the last thing id ever want, is to make you feel bad or burden you with something like a stupid fucking crush when youre obviously not looking for anything like that

but i do have a crush on you, and it does make me feel things. mostly, you purposefully distancing yourself from me and, saying it so bluntly really. hurt

i get your reasoning but, the way i am it just. i dont know how to put it into words…

someone i care deeply about, not wanting to be….around me? not wanting..things from me when im. so willing to give, unconditionally, with no motive other than its you and i want to?

it hurts, i feel, rejected, and not in the i was turned down for a relationship rejected

a different kind, bpd kind.
it really hurts, ,,….

If you are still in love with your ex

Don’t date people in hopes of getting over them. If you think you’re ready, you better be damn sure. You better be sure that if your ex texts, calls, begs for you back, you will say no without a doubt. Before ever even considering asking someone to let you in, look at a photo and not have your heart ache. I’ve been guilty of this in the past and I’m so sorry. Thinking I’m over someone and that if I just had someone new, I would move on completely. Its bullshit. Don’t think you are ready, know you are ready. That desire you feel to immediately move on means that you aren’t over it. That jump is not a good jump. No one can help you get over someone, that’s a journey you need to take alone. Because even though it may seem simple or casual to you, you could be the person that allows them to feel for the first time in ages. You could be the person that throws them right back to the bottom, while you go back to something you released. Don’t drag someone along or get their hopes up just because you want to move on. You aren’t ready. You’re being selfish. 

How dare you take someone along for the ride while you try to heal?
If you are still in love your ex, stop looking for someone to fill the void that you need to fill yourself. 


[…] My friends have said, “Wait, you’re pretty and you sing? What do you mean you’re interested in science?” I have to just hold my head and go, “Do you hear yourself?” By no means should you ever limit yourself because of what others think or because of their perceptions of what someone looks like in a certain field. I think that that is stupid and crazy. […]

RP starters: Flirting ( + responses to it. )
  • “You come here often?”
  • “Can I offer you a drink?”
  • “So.. You expecting someone?”
  • “Do you need a place to stay for tonight?”
  • “I gotta tell you… you look incredibly hot.”
  • “Do you want to dance with me?”
  • “Look at us… we are basically a couple already.”
  • “I bet you would look even better without your clothes on.”
  • “Are you single? Just asking.”
  • “You’re the most beautiful person I have ever encountered.”
  • “What would you say if you and me would go somewhere else?”
  • “I love the way you’re dressed.”
  • “Do I have any chances with you?”
  • “Do you have anything better to do later?”
  • “Can I get your phone number?”
  • “You seem like a bad boy/girl/person type.”
  • “I can do whatever you want, babe.”
  • “You have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen.”
  • “I bet guys/gals/people are all over you.”
  • “You should be a model.”
  • "Are you… trying to flirt with me?”
  • “Maybe if I get a free drink I can consider talking to you.”
  • “That won’t work. Try again.”
  • "Oh my god, did you just say that out loud?”
  • "I’m waiting for someone. However, you can amuse me in the meanwhile.”
  • “You don’t look so bad yourself.”
  • “I thought you were taken.”
  • “So, have you flirted with every girl/boy/one in this bar yet?”
  • “Do I look like someone who seems interested in you?”
  • “Compliments won’t pay my drinks.”
Munday Asks!

MUNDAY : Ask Mun Questions!

1. Have you ever hated on your art?
2. Ever been on a date? If so, how many?
3. Cats or Dogs?
4. Sexuality/Sexual Orientation?
5. What is your opinion on haters?
6. Name an important piece of advice you’d give someone who’s just started out art.
7. Ever animated things before? Were they good?
8. How old are you?
9. Would you specify yourself as a female, male or other?
10. How many friends do you have?
11. What does your work space look like right now?
12. What were you doing before answering this?
13. What’s your name/nickname?
14. Have you ever stolen something?
15. What’s your favourite movie?
16. What is your eye colour?
17. Do you have any phobias/fears?
18. Name 10 things you like.
19. Name 10 things you hate.
20. If you were the President of the USA, what would you do first?
21. Favourite singer?
22. Do you like Mundays?
23. What’s the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened for you?
24. Would you rather have penises for fingers or vagina for hands?
25. What would you do if you could do anything you wanted?
26. Before you die, recite your last words…
27. Describe your life in 5 words or less.
28. Have any pets?
29. What country do you live in?
30. Have you ever killed an animal before?
31. Favourite ice cream flavour?
32. Ever masturbated?
33. What are your kinks?
34. Virgin?
35. Do you have any siblings?
36. Are your parents a married couple? Or divorced?
37. What fandoms are you in?
38. What’s your favourite show/anime/etc.
39. What inspired you to do what you’re doing now?
40. Tell us a weird secret!
41. Yaoi, Yuri or Het ftw?
42. What are your pet’s names?
43. Do your teachers like you?
44. Have you ever roleplayed before?
45. Are you a feminist?
46. How big is your house?
47. Are you an emotional person?
48. When was the last time you showered?
49. What did you eat for breakfast?
50. Can we be friends?

What happens when you cheat....

When you cheat on someone you ruin their outlook on more than just you; you ruin their outlook on themselves, relationships, and trust.
After a person is cheated on, they will forever ask themselves why they weren’t good enough. What did they do wrong.? Would you have stayed faithful if they had done or said something differently.? If they had talked more or talked less.? Spent a little more time trying to look good for you.? Spent more time trying to be the person you wanted.? They will over analyze every thing they ever did or said. They will start to question every action they made, trying to figure out what they did to make you cheat.
They will forever have issues trusting in relationships. When they meet someone new, they will be reluctant to let that person in, in fear of getting hurt again. They will question that persons every move and intention. They will have problems trusting a person who has done nothing to not be trusted. They bring the hurt of what you did to them into a new relationship.
They’re not doing this intentionally; in their mind, they are just trying to protect their heart. They are just trying to avoid having to feel the way you made them feel. Because they don’t want to ever feel the heart wrenching, stomach turning, ache of feeling inadequate, not good enough, like something was wrong with them.
You see, when you cheat on someone, you are changing their every thought process. You are making them question every aspect of their being. You take a vital piece of them. You change them forever.

retail gothic

You don’t remember applying for a job here. You don’t remember getting hired. You have a vague memory of coming in for something small. Now you have a name-tag. You are part of the network.

Someone asks where an item is. You know exactly where it’s located. You know where everything is, except the exit.

You’re not sure if the song on the radio ever changes, or if it’s just a loop of vocals chanting words in a language no one understands. When you listen closer everything devolves into white static and you wake in the break room with your manager muttering into her walkie-talkie. She looks relieved when you sit up. No one mentions the incident again.

“Do you work here?” You are confused. Do you work here? You look down. You wear the uniform. You’re stocking a shelf. You don’t know. It’s been a long time since you wondered.

Company policy requires that you interact with every customer. They pretend not to notice your desperately bright smile and strained tone and you pretend not to notice their white, hungry smiles and the swirling darkness behind their eyes. Everyone is satisfied.

“Have a good day,” you insist. You don’t mean it. They stare at you, grin, and say “You too.” They do mean it. Night comes soon.

A customer demands to speak to the manager. You tremble and call over the radio. She hasn’t lost a challenge yet, but you know her days are numbered.

Your coworker puts in his two week notice. He has a new job, he tells you, his smile too large. Better pay. Weekends off. You watch him disappear into the break room. You’ll never see him again.

The “Employees Only” sign is there for a reason. The creature that roams the warehouse knows not to attack those wearing the uniform. It has no such consideration for trespassers.

Actually, there is a word for that. It’s love. I’m in love with her, okay? If you’re looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love! And when you love someone y-you just don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy. Even then. Especially then. You just- you don’t give up because if I could give up… If I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice and- and move on and find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be… That would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for. But that is not what this is.

Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother Season 9, Episode 17 

This is my favorite quote from the whole series

I don’t know how you cant see it.  
Everyone around us can fucking see it.
Who knows you better than I do? Who do you vibe with better than me?
We stay up talking for hours, about every damn subject. We know each other inside and out.
I push you to do better, to be better. and still you cant fucking see it.
You look at me and don’t see me, and Its not fucking fair because I see you. I see us, I see everything with you. I can’t look at another person, let alone be with another person. So I don’t know how you can be with her. I don’t know how you can love someone else when I’ve been here for so damn long, when I am whats best for you.
I don’t know how you can’t see how amazing this can be if you just let it.
Have you ever thought that maybe its not working with all these others because you are supposed to be with me? because its only going to work with me?
God did you ever even think about it? about us?
—  I just want you to feel something

anonymous asked:

have you ever had your heart broken?if so, How did you survive :( ????

in retrospect nothing is as horrible as one makes it to be when it’s happening, really! 

I had some crushes that led nowhere, but now that I think about it, I don’t think I was ever truly heartbroken. It just seems ridiculous now, to be honest.

I guess the good option is to keep reminding yourself that your life doesn’t end on that particular person. Great things are going to happen to you, believe it or not (but better beliiiieve~~); one day when you have someone so important to you who’s never going to break your heart, you might end up having a family with them, or making a family with just the two of you, or more of you, however you want it, you are going to look back at where you are currently and think how ridiculous it was that you didn’t know how to survive without someone. It’s going to be like PUFF! 

Of course what you’re going through now isn’t ridiculous, and most likely not funny at all and hurts you badly, but it’s not the end, believe me. It may seem like one, but it isn’t.

As for now, you may try to find a distraction! Hobby, as you may call it. Do more of what you like doing, what you know brings you certain joy. Your heart is going to heal and your mind will as well. 

Best of luck, and you can do it! For now: hugs for you!

Originally posted by gameraboy

I was called a selfish ingrate (or some variation of that) almost everyday as a child. So obviously I’ve struggled a lot with feeling selfish. How would I not?

Anyways, one time my friend offered me a chip she wanted me to try. It took a lot of convincing but I finally broke a small piece off. I looked up and just saw her staring at me with a weird look on her face.

“Why did you break off a piece instead of eating the whole thing?”

And what she said next touched me more then she’ll ever know.

She told me I was “worth a whole chip.” And yeah, it sounds stupid, but imagine hearing someone say you’re worth something when you’ve been told your whole life you deserve and are worth absolutely nothing.

And yeah, this whole story seems miniscule. But the point is, if you have a friend who’s been abused, realize how far simple words of kindness go. You can’t break down the feelings of shame and worthlessness without love and compassion.

So thank you for all of you out there that help us see the light in ourselves that out parents tried to put out.

Sometimes I pause and suddenly remember a time where my day was brighter because I had a funny, interesting or genuinely sweet interaction with a stranger, and I start to wonder how they’re doing and if they’re happy.
I just thought u guys should know that you might have been that funny, interesting, or genuine person for someone else too, and I guarantee that they’ll look back upon that interaction at least once in their life and will hope you’re doing well. Don’t ever think your life isn’t important, cause you might’ve been important to a stranger without even knowing it.