Warnings: Slight nudity, mentions of nudity and sex, set in ffxv comrades
Your heavy eyelids slowly opened as you awoke from your slumber. It took a moment for you to gather your thoughts and become more aware of your surroundings, stretching and yawning. When you had finally wiped all the sleepiness from your eyes, your eyes fell on the body the laid firmly next to yours. Someone you had come to know and love over the last couple of years, but only recently had you come to him with your feelings. Luckily for you, he felt the same way.
A smile graced your face as you watched Libertus’ chest rise and fall as he continued to sleep beside you. He looked at peace and relaxed for once. Your Glaive deserved it after all he had done in an effort to bring power to Lestallum and all the other outposts that depended on the Glaives and hunters. He put his life on the line so you could be safe and tend to the wounded that had come back from various quests.
Trying to figure out if you’re ace or aro can be so goddamn hard because it’s like, trying to find the absence of something. Imagine
you’re at a pond and you want to know if there are any turtles, or fish. Say
you find a turtle and you’re like “great! Now I know there are turtles.” Or a
fish, now you know for sure there are fish. Or you find both, and now you know
for a fact there are both turtles and fish in the pond.
But like, if you don’t find any turtles it might be that there are no
turtles or maybe you’re just really shitty at looking for turtles and maybe you
THINK you saw a turtle over there or maybe it was just a stick. Maybe there are
only a few turtles. Maybe you need to do something special to find the turtles. Maybe a bunch of these rocks are actually turtles but you couldn’t tell them apart.
Maybe there are no turtles. You have no idea. Meanwhile some people are saying “Oh
there have to be turtles! You’ll find them eventually ;)” or “How many turtles
have you found in your pond?” or “Try planting some vegetables at the shore to
attract the turtles.” Or “Oh no! What disaster happened to your pond that there
are no turtles?” And you’re just standing there wet with an empty net and a
But whatever because whether there are turtles or fish or not your pond’s
ecology works just fine without them because that’s what eco-communities do
they form a system around what they have. You aren’t missing anything if you
don’t have turtles you just have a pond system without turtles. If someone
tried to change you by pouring a bunch of turtles into your pond it would
probably fuck something up.
So you don’t have to be entirely sure. You don’t have to search every inch of the damn pond before you can decide there are probably no turtles. If you want to take the aro or ace label because you think it fits go for it. And if you do find your turtles you can rename the pond. That’s fine.
dear white people: talks about inherent institutionalised racism, shows actual examples of racism that poc have to live through, shows the dangers and insecurity of living life as a poc, shows colorism in poc
some of y'all: you can’t call ALL white ppl racist tho :///