have people made this connection yet or

He first saw her a half year ago. She would ride by his apartment unit on her bicycle every sunny sunday. Her long, silky athletic legs vigorously pumping the pedals as the hemline of her skirt danced teasingly up and down revealing a pert little ass perched invitingly on her bicycle seat. She was young, coltish, at an age where long thin limbs connected to a pert, yet very curvy torso. He was a transient, grizzled and tough. He didn’t have the looks, the money or the charm to have her traditionally. But what he lacked in that regard he made up with cunning recklessness and predatory zeal.

He stalked her for months, familiarising himself with her sunday route. When that revealed very little opportunity he focused in on her sanctuary, where she lived and her daily routine. He spent weeks studying the people who lived within her apartment building. Going through her trash he learned she lived alone. Observing her coming and goings he deduced that she seldom had visitors and almost always only on friday and saturday nights. Weekdays would not work, she left for work in the rush and got home along with everybody else in the building.

Sundays revealed itself to be the best opportunity. He spent several sundays inside the building, gaining access through the parking garage when cars came or went, sneaking in after them. He observed that with nice weather the building would empty out, people out for walks, rides or other activities and those that remained in the building were fairly sedentary, choosing to snooze all day or watch mind numbing sports on TV. He watched her several times from the staircase above, arrive and unlock the door, counting the seconds from first visual to the click of the deadbolt when inside.

That sunday she saw him he was ready, she wasnt.

*holds your face* listen if you will try to understand an Aquarius or a Pisces because you are used or like things to be clear then it’s not gonna work. These two signs like people listening to them and just accepting them whether they understand them or not. These two signs will always have pain about them cause in a way they are made to be misunderstood because their path or destiny is not about working hard and loving in reality but rather seeing the bigger picture, to connect to the future or the things that people refuse because they don’t understand, they are about the other world or existing in others world. So please don’t try to figure out these two signs cause the answer is you will never will as they change and escape the hold or picture you have of them in your mind. They want to be everything yet nothing, they want or be found but they also want to get lost. They are a paradox and that’s the only thing you need to understand about their personality if you want to get somewhere with them.

Can we please stop blaming Tom Riddle’s descent into evil on Dumbledore? I don’t get why people do this, seriously.
Tom wasn’t abused at his orphanage. Seriously, he was not. Nothing in the books says he was. Even if he was, as Deputy Headmaster it wasn’t Dumbledore’s call to send him back. Admitting Tom into Hogwarts? Again, NOT his call. Admission is the Headmaster’s call and Dumbledore was not Headmaster yet. Dumbledore didn’t guide or nurture him? I see no other teacher get this shit, and Dumbledore was Tom’s teacher, not his babysitter. Nobody should have to hold your hand all the time in order for you to not commit murder.What makes Tom more important than every other child in that school? Yes, Tom needed care just like every other child deserves, he was a kid like everyone else, but it’s not just Dumbledore’s fault! He wasn’t mistreated, because the other teachers adored him. Dumbledore wasn’t the only teacher in the school guys.

Plus, Dumbledore not telling the teachers his suspicions is because he had no proof. He had a suspicion, that’s it. That’s literally all he had. Plus you really think they would’ve believed him?! Dippet didn’t even believe that Tom didn’t open the Chamber, come on now! Speaking of the Chamber, Dumbledore didn’t witness the murder take place. Dippet covered up the incident just like Dumbledore covered up the werewolf one, he had no Pensieve memories nor was he Chief Warlock yet, I’m sure he wasn’t until he defeated Grindelwald. What could he have done really? I have heard people literally say that it’s all on Dumbledore because he didn’t adopt or protect Tom from himself. Are you kidding me?! Dumbledore isn’t this kid’s daddy, peeps. He probably could’ve offered him all the “help” in the world, would it have made any difference?! Maybe, but there’s nothing that guarantees that! Slughorn offered his help to set up helpful connections with high ranking people who could have mentored him, we have proof of that. Tom didn’t want it. Dumbledore didn’t rob him of his free will, Tom could have turned from the dark any time he wanted. He CHOSE not to. Dumbledore didn’t create Voldemort, Voldemort created himself, he’s the way he is because he WANTED to be. It’s nobody’s fault but Tom’s, especially not Dumbledore’s. So stop. What’s next, are we going to blame him for the murders GG committed during the first war? Oh wait……

PS: Dumbledore fake setting Tom’s wardrobe on fire doesn’t mean anything. People lose their entire homes in real fires and don’t become mass murderers.

I’ve seen people draw out punnet squares to prove Garmadon’s the father of Lloyd, yet people still don’t believe it. So I decided to go a bit farther back to use three generations.
In order to help with some of the returning Who’s the Father?! discourse, I made a pedigree!

Basic understanding of a pedigree:

1) The lines going between a circle and square indicate Procreation/marriage
2) Lines going above shapes and then connecting down indicate siblings
3) Circles are females and squares are males, I added pictures to help with visualizing.


“B”= Brown Trait
“b”= Blonde Trait

Let’s start with Lloyd’s grandparents in cannon. We have only seen and heard from one during the entire show’s running. The F.S.M. We clearly see that the FSM has blonde hair, giving him the “bb” genotype. We see in his two children, Wu and Garmadon, that they have different hair colors.

Wu took after his dad, becoming blonde. This means the mother had a “b” trait to also give. Garmadon has brown hair, which we can assume his mother also had. This means Wu and Garmadon’s mother was Heterozygous for Brown hair, giving her the genotype “Bb”. Since the FSM can only give “b” traits, all his children would have either been blonde (bb) or blonde carriers (Bb).

We have no idea what Misako’s parents look like, so we’ll assume they are both Heterozygous Brown traits, making Misako also take after them, becoming Heterozygous Brown (Bb).

But if we didn’t want to start from Misako’s parents, we can start at Lloyd. Lloyd looks to be a natural blonde (bb). This means that he received two recessive alleles, one from mom and one from dad. We can see when Misako was young she had brown hair, giving her a “B” trait. And since Lloyd has “bb”, work that genetic info backwards and we have Misako as a “Bb” hair genotype.

So, until we see one or both of Misako’s parents, we can’t be for sure on Misako’s genotype. But by back tracking Lloyd’s genes to his parents and grandparents, we can see how Garmadon is indeed the father with our current knowledge.

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If anyone needs my help on making pedigrees for anything, HMU my doods! I love figure I ng out cartoon genetics!

HannibalCon RDC3 - day 1. Personal recap

So yesterday was the day that so many of us feverishly anticipated and dreaded :), the actual possibility of meeting Bryan Fuller, Hugh Dancy, Aaron Abrams, Scott Thompson, Demore Barnes and Ellen Muth! I mean. What -are- the chances?

I flew over Friday morning (having dreaded flying in that storm but it did die down that night, fortunately) with Alex and we made our way over to arrive at 10 am, to photos of other Fannibals on Twitter already, though the hotel was still very much empty. Good to take photographs :)

I got upgraded to the next room level (which is why I can now drink coffee while writing this at 5:30 am (thank goodness)). By afternoon the lobby was filling slowly, flowercrowns everywhere. A truly elevating atmosphere, because even though I’m not really a flowers and frilly stuff kind of gal, it just is incredible to watch. Btw the bloody flowercrown @idontfindyouthatinteresting made for me drew many compliments (thank you, again!)

Registration openend a bit early and people went queuing until the main ceremony started. Incredible, there were soooo many people there, so many beautiful cosplays already. @lovecrimecat came by and we distributed the flyers for @radiance-anthology flyers to those standing in line, managed to meet so many of those who signed up (yay), got little gifts in exchange from so many people (and everybody just gave me a second one when I asked so I could give them to Katrina who couldn’t come - so awesome of you guys, thank you again!). I met so many people ‘from’ Twitter and it’ so nice to recognize some from last time, to put name and face to the @s. *hugs at all*

Opening ceremony.
I have a gold ticket this year so I went up front and sat next to SpiceyScorpion, only to realize that -that- was way to much in front for my nerves …. *rolls eyes at self*. I went a few rows back and to the side, which was a good decision for later^^.
“They” came in a few minutes to late, we saw Aaron and Scott do shadow theatre behind the scenes and Sean called them out one after the other.

Demore seemed honestly happy to be there, addressing us with such kind words, upping the applause and calling backstage that that could not possibly be topped*fg*. Aaron came out and asked us to clap for Hugh because he was supposedly afraid he wouldn’t get any ^^^^^, Scott said something along these lines as well, I think. Both very funny. Ellen was there^^ and addressed us with a few kind ords and then Sean announced Bryan next and the room (not in any way quiet before) went -wild-. And Bryan…. Bryan went “crowdsurfing”. Meaning he ran through the aisles and high-fived us. You know that sitting to the side decision? Yeah….
What a moment, there’s lots of pictures in the Tag #HannibalCon, go and look, it was…. incredible. God bless. Anyway Hugh came out last, announced by Sean as one of the best british actors, and boy, that was applause^^. He seemed a bit overwhelmed with the energy there^^ and honestly, I can’t quite remember what he actually said but it was something along the lines that he was looking forward to a wonderful weekend.

They came out together after that and we held up the signs that @the-winnowing-wind distributed - “Fannibals Forever”…. They took videos and photos of us. Bryan posted some of it later. Incredible moment to have been part of. I’m even in Bryans video (yay^^ (and if you know where to look^^)).

The gold ticket holders went across the hall next, to a slightly smaller room with tables set up and we were seated by group/friends. And then we waited, because they got something to eat first…. (darn^^^). Colleen got out some booze and we talked a lot and proverbially bit our nails a lot *g*. When they finally got in they were sent to the various tables for 4-minute-meet-ups. Only the meet-ups didn’t stay at 4 minutes :P.

Demore was first and I was soooooo nervous. (The seat next to me was free btw, and so the -all- ended up sitting right next to me (*still screaming about that*. …. ) I shook my hands in the air in an effort to get rid of some of the energy and he put his hand on my shoulder asking me why I was nervous and I brabbled something unintelligible and shook my head. Very sweet. We talked a bit about his fight scene with Mads and that we would have liked to see more of him^^ and I told him I can’t wait to see him in American Gods and he rubbed my back when he left. *float*

Next was Scott, who brought his pizza and drank some mooneshine with us^^, played Tarot with us and was generally just this very kind and interesting person. I wasn’t -quite- that nervous anymore by then (thanks Demore (and Colleen for the prosecco)), meaning I actually talked a bit, though I can’t quite remember what^^.

Ellen was next and she was also very nice, we talked about the fact that her scenes are imho some of the most scary in Hannibal. She also wore some of the coolest jeans I’d ever seen^^.

Ok. Next? BRYAN. He saw the Will!Faun scarf of @flying-rotten we had put on the table cloth and chuckled that he knew who -we- are waiting for and that he couldn’t blame us^^. He asked us, if push came to shove, if we would prefer Will & Hannibal S4 or SotL. Our table was Hannigram, though there was apparently one that was 'done’ with it…. He told us about it a bit, much the same that Hugh has said before as well, that it would be an inversion of S1 etc. I…. hope that push does not come to shove, because he told us a bit about how much he loves the lyric of Thomas Harris books and I would really love for him to be able to fully lay out his vision. I hope he gets to do this (we have to continue to fight, guys!!!). He also told us, that Thomas Harris apparently writes a new book and he…. poked Martha to get the rights to it already, without quite knowing what it was about yet *g*.

I…. took all my courage then and showed him one of the Radiance-Flyers and explained a bit and we asked if he wanted to do a little something like a foreword for it. And guys - HE DOES! He asked when it would need to be done and I said May 1st and he looked at the flyer and indicated the twitter @ there and asked if he should send it there and I was like (you know this situation, where, once you start, your mouth kind of runs away with you?! At least mine did^^^) “Oh well, yes, or you know you follow me on twitter, you can just send it there if you want” and he looked at me (directly) and said “yes, I know.” Well, RIP me. I answered with a very intelligent “ah” if I recall correctly and ducked my head and then Romina and I emphasized that it would be awesome if he actually wants to do that and finds the time.

He asked us after what drew us to Hannibal, as he got feedback from a lot of the other young women (I thanked him for 'young’, you know, once you’re in it doesn’t matter anyhow *another eye roll at self*) and we said that its not only beauty and connection, but also intelligence. You have to think with Hannibal. He recommended 'Legion’ to us and asked if we’d seen it before and I said that some stuff hasn’t made it across the big pond yet. And then Bryan went and …. not ranted directly…. but expressed his lack of understanding of the fact that things take so long to be legal and why series were not streamed worldwide because people would just go and pirate it anyway -because- it was not available legally. He went and made a (imho) very fitting anology with the conservative stance on abortions in contrast to piracy, meaning just because it’s forbidden it doesn’t stop people from doing so, it just gets unsafer and illegal.
Oh and he took photos of our table and @dr3piecesuit s and another girls tattoo, because he loves them. :) And he told us that he brought something for Hugh to wear for the Cosplay contest. Can’t wait *g*
He was called away then, way past the 4 minutes^^ and …. he is such a precious human being?! Exuding so much warmth and honesty and exuberance. I feel honored that I got to sit there.

A propos honored… Hugh was next and there I was again - nervous. Awesome. *third eyeroll* He complimented Camilles Will!Faun, saying it was very beautiful and then laughing that that was maybe a bit weird^^, and then telling us about all the gifts he gets and that he keeps the little plush Wills, giving them to his son to play with, even the bloody ones….. *fg*.
The girl next to me (@OnTheVerger) talked to him about how much Adam means to her because she has Aspergers and then broke into tears and Hugh comforted and hugged her and it was sooo sweet. We showed him the Radiance flyers as well and he said “blood fueled embraces, indeed” *g*.
Bryan ran by then and left a bitten off Babybel for Hugh. IDK if Hugh bit off that piece or if Bryan did but it was hilarious^^.

Hugh had to leave then and Aaron came to our table last, I told him I backed him and he told us about the film he and Scott are in (Scott came by and set down next to him^^) and we talked about how much we would all want to see more of Hannibal. Oh and Scott said (before) that he was supposed to teach Clarice Starling - how awesome would team Sassy Science be doing that in SotL? Seriously?
Anyway, I remember I touched Aarons shoulder in the spur of the moment talking about -something- but I can’t remember what exactly and the panicking about that. ;))

I went to my room at 1:15am, got into bed by 2am and was wide awake again at 5:15 am.

What. a. rush.

PS: This is no photos because my cameras not that good - check the Hashtag on Twitter, there’s TONS of them ;). Already ;)

The Drake’s

So I wrote about this during 7A when Mary was revealed to be Charlotte’s mother and I have to make this point again. 

Assuming that Mary was never married, how did Alison, Jason and Mr DiLaurentis all not know that Jessica’s maiden name was Drake, and that she was somehow connected to CeCe? Did they not once think to say to CeCe ‘Oh hey my mother/wife used to have the same name as you’ or make any family connection?

And if Mary is Spencer’s mother (which is hard to doubt now that Veronica has confirmed it), how did Veronica and Peter also not realise who CeCe was? She was literally using her mother’s last name and yet no one made any connections? 

I’m aware that it isn’t unusual to meet people with the same last name as you that you aren’t related to, but this is PLL, everyone knows that if someone/something seems off, it probably is. If Veronica, Peter and even Melissa didn’t want Spencer to find out she was a Drake, why did they not think to find out who CeCe really was?

When it comes that I’ve been asked if I would ever ship sasu//saku and why I do not, I can narrow it to this, though it’s still long and tedious, bear w me:



• Sakura has potential to go past that now. Her dream as a child was very shallow and simple - she wants Sasuke. A childhood crush based on looks did in fact grow into a love of the actual hurting, silly and torn boy beneath. Once they became friends on team 7 Sasuke wouldn’t be impartial to claiming Sakura as having the best chakra control of the team and is undoubtedly smart and able to realize the genjutsu they were first put within - he says she did so before he even did, a skill set he ultimately admired. When Sakura is being childish and scolding Naruto’s behavior and brings up his parents in a rather cruel way, Sasuke is there to tell her she has no idea what she’s talking about, proceeds to say she “made him sick/she’s annoying.” This inspires Sakura to be more accepting of Naruto - this is one of the many examples of how their friendship has been developing. It’s not about the surface or allure of Sasuke, she is beginning to know him, as he with her.

• Sakura sees the evil and hatred coming from Sasuke and hugs him, which calmed him enough to withdraw the mark. This shows me that Sakura has deepened her feelings, it’s not about being a cute, mysterious badass boy that matters - she’s afraid for his well being, his sanity, her composure cracks and she just holds him, overflowing with compassion for him, for him to not lose himself to darkness. Sakura’s feelings are no longer superficial. They are actually quite pure.

• Sasuke tells Sakura he is an avenger, that this life he leads there is no place for her or Naruto in it. This makes Sakura cry and though her words are a little selfish, “I’ll be all alone without you.” She does acknowledge that while she does have family and friends, without Sasuke there too - she feels empty, even offering to give it all up to follow him blindly. While this is devotion, I’ll tell you why it’s selfish:



- A family. She has the very thing Sasuke lost and is easily willing to leave that behind just so she can be with the boy she wants



- Most importantly, she doesn’t seem to care where Sasuke is going and the dangerous circumstances he will throw himself within, she would follow him blindly and mindlessly. That loses the phrase of innocent love, and becomes a concept of greed: she would literally sacrifice her ties of family and friends to allow and willingly follow Sasuke down a dark path.



• In between all that time, Sasuke and Naruto have been morphing between rivals and friends. They admire one another’s abilities, seek out one another as a staple of whom they want to fight and surpass (at this time Itachi is still the main objective driving Sasuke) They train together, bicker and argue. Naruto is never willing to let Sasuke’s attitude pass without some retaliation and he demands his respect and attention nearly constantly. In the land of waves arc, Sasuke “moves without thinking” stating he was intending to make it to the very end, until his older brother was killed but he sacrificed that goal and told Naruto not to die or let his own dream die. Sasuke admires that dream and goal and tenacity that is Naruto, enough that he would die for it. This is when the concept of friendship shifts to love. You do not give up your life and dreams for someone you do not love, consciously or not - Sasuke saw Haku’s intention and thought “Naruto, I HAVE to make it.” The worry, the absolution in his desire to save him is palpable.

• This is when Naruto’s seal breaks and he unleashes Kurama for the first time. Signaling the death of Sasuke as more triggering than Mizuki incident and all the collective years of neglect and hate from his own village.

• Now Sasuke has truly begun to see his family in Team 7, he calls them precious to him and that he could not bear to lose them. To watch his loved ones die all over again would be a pain he could not take. He entrusts Sakura to Naruto, because Sakura is unfortunately no match for Gaara in beast mode (which is to no fault of her own as he is way OP but she fought bravely) and is now pinned to a tree, likely to die without Naruto, because of Sasuke’s weakened state and let’s face it, Gaara has the upper hand. Naruto surprises Sasuke and gains a great deal of praise at his ability to create as many shadow clones as he was. Sasuke tells this to Sakura, furthering her tenderness of thought to Naruto.



• When it comes to Naruto attempting to stop Sasuke from leaving the village, the reasoning and intensity of it is much, much different then that of Sakura. Naruto tells Sasuke he can’t allow him to willingly put himself in danger, he can’t allow him to let orochimaru use him as a vessel, he won’t and can’t let Sasuke put himself in harms way. Though Naruto doesn’t want to lose that bond they are forming, his main reasoning is selfless. He simply wants Sasuke to be safe. This is where Sasuke admits to Naruto that he had become his closest friend.



• When they finally meet again after all that time at Orochimaru’s hide out, Sasuke devotes all his attention to Naruto. He is curious about him in particular, how he has grown and developed. He basically tests him but leaves Sakura out of it. Not because he no longer cares for her, but because Naruto after all this time is still his rival, this is where he meets Kurama.

• Kurama tells Sasuke that he will regret it if he kills Naruto and that he has the same eyes as Madara (his previous incarnate) Sasuke really doesn’t give a shit at the time and pops Kurama like a bubble.

Back to Sakura:

• Sakura becomes a disciple of the fifth Hokage and becomes a medic, she will eventually unlock the 100 healing jutsu and develop a physical strength which rivals that of her sensei, a sannin. Sakura has been gaining depth. She wants to be able to stand by Sasuke and Naruto and not behind them, her dreams are becoming more self realized and interesting.



• Sakura is no longer a fangirl of Sasuke. Her feelings remain but she has grown into them. She has created her own form of fighting, mastered her own strength and yes, is still in love with Sasuke but continuously is at war with herself on what to do.

- First, she feels guilt at the idea of putting this enormous task of saving Sasuke on Naruto. She has begun to show real compassion towards him, running in the line of danger just to help him and save him many times over.

- Sakura decides to take this burden herself and kill Sasuke with her own hands as to protect Naruto from this burden.

- Sakura realizes that she cannot do it, even as Sasuke was about to kill her, she still doesn’t even find it within her to hate him and she cannot muster up the willpower to kill him.

• Sakura bears witness to Naruto’s confession. Sakura is astounded and admires Naruto’s conviction and dedication and it literally nearly brings her to tears. Naruto, is there, telling Sasuke that he would bear all this hatred and die with him.

• This is also one of the few times Sakura stands up to Sasuke on behalf of Naruto, by saying:

“Do you have any idea how much he’s gone through? When everyone else turned on you - Naruto (alone)* wanted to save you, even now.”

• Sakura is defending Naruto while ridiculing Sasuke.

• Sasuke first loses his composure to Naruto here by shouting at him: ‘why are you so fixated on me?’ Sasuke himself can’t believe Naruto is still this dedicated to making sure Sasuke is safe. I think it’s both a nuisance and an aggravation to Sasuke because he is desperately attempting to severe all his ties.

• This is when Naruto reveals that Sasuke has become his goal. No longer is being Hokage the focus point, it’s shifted to saving Sasuke. Kakashi tells Naruto that he shouldn’t worry about Sasuke that he will handle it, and to focus on his dream. Naruto retaliates by saying “How can I be worthy of being Hokage if I can’t save my friend?” The word friend sounds very lacking in the depth of what is behind his words but it is what it is.

• It is not until much later that Sasuke reveals that he too felt all the same feelings Naruto had shown him. The admiration, the longing to speak to one another since they first met, the interest, the mutual loneliness and sadness.

1. Evolving this competitive rivalry from a deep desire to connect with one another is not an uncommon facet among people who have trouble conveying feelings, particularly young, troubled boys

“You made me feel warm and fuzzy.” - Sasuke to Naruto

“Whenever I saw you, I’d get sort of giddy.” - Naruto to Sasuke

• During the war Naruto literally broadcasts via Ino how intense he feels about Sasuke “I should have called out to him.” Sakura feels this, her face is one of almost shock/yet also tender. She probably always knew but perhaps did not feel the almost irrational dedication Naruto holds for Sasuke.

• Sakura confesses her love again before his fight with Naruto. This drags us almost back to the beginning, where all this inner strength is put aside as she tells Sasuke her feelings/even begins to cry. Now, this isn’t a horrible thing, Sakura is frustrated and knows she cannot physically stop Sasuke, so she tries a case of futility at halting him with her love. Sasuke is, sadly, not phased, uses a harsh genjutsu and proceeds to mock her honest feelings and Kakashi is like “BRUH.”

2. This isn’t the darkness. This is Sasuke. Would he have been so harsh if he had not been in this darkness? Of course not, for he still fundamentally cares for Sakura. Yet he also is not lying either.

3. The whole letting Sakura and Kakashi fall in lava is just another example of his narrow thinking: Naruto was the only one necessary to keep alive, so he essentially said “well sucks for u bye lol.”

- this is not a man who is in love. Sorry.

• During their final fight Sasuke claims that he has to cut Naruto out of the picture for the only way he can achieve absolute darkness is to live in a world without Naruto

- aka to be absolutely consumed by hate, Naruto cannot be there = Naruto is love + I cannot live in total darkness with you alive = you are my light.

• At the end, Sasuke apologizes to Sakura, for berating her feelings and attempting to kill her. Sakura, being the girl she is, has probably already forgiven him and would have never needed an apology

* it’s also important to note that Sakura never knew the truth about Itachi herself, so how she sees Sasuke’s actions will always be veiled in comparison to Naruto and Kakashi - who DO know the truth.

• Sakura, the girl who kept Naruto’s heart beating, got so much growth from that uncertain and shy girl, to this woman with monster strength isn’t negated by the fact she can’t let go of Sasuke, it’s compounded into her personality of being unable to relinquish her feelings for Sasuke at any turn.

However, Sasuke has never shown the same type of love in return. It’s been caring, it’s been protective, it’s been harsh….

Sakura deserves someone who will cherish her fully, will encourage her, will put her first.

Sasuke deserves to be happy and feel safe.

Sasuke needs someone who will not be as submissive as Sakura cannot help but be around Sasuke, to no fault of her own, Sasuke needs a Naruto.

Naruto who will give and take his names, his attitude, his temper. Along with being able to relate to what their shared childhoods were like.

Naruto matches and meets him where he his, whilst Sasuke seems to be a spot of insecurity and unrequited devotion on Sakura’s part. In other words, unhealthy.

Ino took Sakura’s insecurity and told her not to worry, that she was going to bloom into a beautiful flower, she removed the bangs she wore to hide the forehead she loathed and gave her a red ribbon, which Sakura kept for years.

IMO Ino is the perfect match for Sakura - both challenging and yet supportive, loving and playful

Sasuke and Naruto are playful too

That’s what a beautiful ship is all about. That connection, being bestfriends, being one another’s goals.

That is what they were for each other.

• I will always love the headcanon of Sakura’s love for Sasuke changing from romantic, to simply just love and them becoming really good friends. I see endless potential in their ability to goof off and make fun of Naruto together.

• I want them to be happy

P.s Arm wrestling AU where she kicks Sasuke’s ass and Ino cheers on saying “THATS MY GIRLFRIEND.” While Naruto laughs at a sulking Sasuke who honestly should have known better.

Signs in Lilith
  • Your Lilith Sign notes your deepest fears and your 'dark side' or the aspect most do not see of you.
  • Lilith in Taurus: Is often scared of scarcity, has a tendency to 'hoard'. Has a tendency to indulge with sex and food.
  • Lilith in Aries: These people fear unworthiness and will sometimes act out to assert themselves. They are quite prone to making scalding arguments to preserve themselves.
  • Lilith in Gemini: Gemini often feel deeply toward the feelings and opinions of others, and will often begin casting blame and negativity on others that depict the negative viewpoints on themselves. They often deal with their problems by thrusting themselves into social life.
  • Lilith in Virgo: Lilith in Virgo are astute perfectionists that fear messing up. They can be hypercritical in the works of others and will often feel that others are hindering their abilities, when it is usually their own criticism causing the sense of lack.
  • Lilith in Cancer: These people are innately clingy but will explain this away at every opportunity. They are deeply afraid to end up alone, but when they see a clingy nature in others, they are often quite deterred. They do not like to see that desire and codependency in others as it is a factor they detest in themselves.
  • Lilith in Leo: Leo Lilith is afraid to endure change, and often do not want to go through change unless they force it themselves. This is why they often come across as vain -- they will use verbal and mental control over a situation to attempt to solidify it, and will often do this with the opinions of others, vying for their agreement in issues. This often causes Lilith in Leo to come across as vain.
  • Lilith in Scorpio: Lilith in Scorpio fears loss and will put anything on the line to prevent it. They have 'savior syndrome' and are very often the individuals who try to rescue the 'chronic needy'. This is something Scorpio Lilith needs to work on, as they tax themselves mentally and hold others accountable instead of themselves for choosing to 'martyr.'
  • Lilith in Sagittarius: This astrological alignment makes for a tough time for the Lilith in Sagittarius person -- they are afraid of life being boring and will often try to be more risk-oriented. They are also individuals who fear being lied to and will often act in a disruptive way to get the truth, especially when intoxicated. They must develop the ability to endure the mundane and trust others.
  • Lilith in Capricorn: This sign has trouble being a leader and being a follower. When in leadership they can be abusive or irrational in the position, and when they are a follower, they have a deep-seated fear of not being acknowledged and not being respected.
  • Lilith in Aquarius: This sign fears powerlessness, having no power over their job and creative situation, and having to listen to others without the opportunity to make a rebuttal. This sign will need to become comfortable with the ebb and flow of creativity, must work on stubbornness, and being more understanding.
  • Lilith in Pisces: Lilith in Pisces believe everything comes at a price, and do not believe in random acts of kindness. They have a hard time trusting people who are trying to give to them out of kindness, as they often expect a negative reaction down the road. This sign needs to work on societal optimism.
  • Lilith in Libra: This sign is afraid of the gray area, and has a nature that lends to them seeing things one way or another, plain and simple. It is important for them to develop a connection with other people and to release their tendency to be extremely critical of strangers, lest they be lonely, which is their ultimate fear.
  • Lilith in Ophiuchus: Lilith in Ophiuchus are extremely afraid of being held accountable, being held under scrutiny, or being persecuted. For this reason, they often assign feelings to those who have not made any claims of their opinions yet. Many people are drawn to Lilith in Ophiuchus' knowledge and creativity, and it is hard for them to learn from this person's genius if they are not allowed in.

anonymous asked:

I have really complicated feelings about Mary. I actually like that's she's not some perfect mom and has her own agenda. I like her as flawed. But I just don't like that Dean once again was the one who was made to apologise for how he was feeling. And I'm not happy with how she was basically willing to let Cas die over the Colt (though I guess you can make the argument it wouldn't have mattered much). Idk, maybe I just don't like the choices she's making right now? I get she's lost, but still...

Hey anon, I’m totally with you - I think it’s great so many people seem to have complex feelings about Mary. Because that means she’s not a one-dimensional character, but a flawed, realistic person, as you point out.

I also really hate that Dean is getting the short end of the lying stick again, with Mary, Sam and even Cas at the very end of the last episode. He sure didn’t have anything to apologise for, in my opinion, but it was a good way to not let the situation escalate. He compromised - instead of shutting Mary and Sam out & pushing them away because he doesn’t agree with the stance they’re taking re the BMoL, he chose the more difficult - but imho the more mature - path of “agreeing to disagree” and settle the dispute like that.This allows him to stay close to Mary and Sam, which, I’m sure, he hopes will mean that they start trusting him more. The more you push people away, the more they’ll lie, after all.

And the narrative is obviously going to prove Mary and Sam wrong - the BMoL are going to do something horrible (well, more horrible than they have already been doing and it’ll be revealed to Mary and Sam) - possibly related to Cas - that’ll show their true vile nature to Mary and Sam. So in that sense, I’m pretty sure Dean will be vindicated - in the sense that he’ll be proven right all along.

Of course, this is SPN so it’s likely Dean won’t be able to enjoy that little victory at all, because it’s gonna come at a great price.

Anyway, yes, Mary. It hurt me that she didn’t give up the Colt to (potentially) save both Cas’s and her sons’ lives, but then again as you say Ramiel probably would’ve wasted them all anyway, and she likely realized this. I definitely disagree with some of the choices she’s making, but I understand them. Thinking about where she came from (a family of hunters), the trauma of dying in such a horrible way, getting ripped from heaven and thrown into a world you barely recognize, being faced with adult sons that are physically close to your own age, having to deal with your beloved husband’s death…honestly she’s coping better than I would, that’s for sure.

And her motivation for working with the BMoL comes from a good, albeit misguided place. Remember what a long, long road of character growth Sam and Dean have behind them. The many mistakes they made, often multiple times, with heartbreaking and disastrous consequences. She simply hasn’t had that journey yet (well, she’s learned the lesson about demon deals…). And she deserves to have one, and certainly not be judged more harshly (as some people seem to do) for her mistakes than Sam & Dean (and Cas, too). I think she’s looking for a purpose. And while being a parent is a fine and worthy purpose in life, her children are adults. They don’t need her the same way young children would. They grew up without her, and she just hasn’t connected with them on a deeper level yet - these things take time after all.

I don’t know what her endgame is, but I sincerely hope she survives the end of this season, because I think she’s a fascinating character and also because SPN needs to stop killing off all their women. She could become a multi-season semi-regular! why not?

This got long so I’ll stop here - but thanks for sending this, I was planning on talking about Mary at some point on this blog, and your ask was the perfect opportunity for it.

a daunting task

the beginning of a series.
warnings: uh, none
words: 1.2k
pairing: it’s not evident yet when it comes to romance plot but sister!pepper potts af.
authors note: ok i’ve never written for this group before so we will see how my first series goes here. i’m excited. this one doesn’t have a whole lot of action but it’s a foundation.

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You saw someone sitting on your front steps as you approached. This made you a little nervous as people had come after you before when they learned of your connection to Tony Stark, no matter how hard you worked to make that information invisible to the public.

When Tony had first started pursuing a relationship with your big sister, you were a teenager and you were star struck over the fact that the girl you had grown up fighting with over everything was now the one that the world renowned billionaire was sweet on.

As you got older, it became more difficult for you to avoid the publicity that came with the connection to Stark and you wanted to make your young adult mistakes in private, so you took your mother’s maiden name and kept to yourself. You were now 24 and finished with the degree that you had distanced yourself from Pepper and Tony to pursue.

When you got closer to your condo, you couldn’t help but smile at the strawberry blonde hair that was unmistakably Pepper.

“Pepper!” you shouted to catch her attention. You had grown up calling her Virginia but she had begged you when she started high school to call her ‘Pepper’ because “Virginia is an old lady name. I can’t have an old lady name.” She turned to look at you when you called out and immediately you could tell that something was wrong. As soon as you made it to the bottom of the steps, she was standing and pulling you in to a hug.

You didn’t hesitate to hug back and try to comfort her about what she had come all the way to your condo to cry on your shoulder about. After a few minutes, she stared calming down and you led her to sit down on the steps next to you. You didn’t try force her to talk about what she was upset about, not that you would have been successful in getting it out of her, knowing how stubborn your sister could be.

The two of you must have been there an hour, just sitting on the steps holding each other, before she started to open up to you, explaining that after so long, she couldn’t stay with Tony if he couldn’t let go of what was continuously putting him and those around him in grave danger. She told you about how bad the fights had gotten, how they had almost completely stopped talking, how he didn’t say “I love you” back to her anymore.

Your heart was breaking for her with every pause she had to take to compose herself and with every tear shed.

“I have a meeting with a real estate agent tomorrow but I need somewhere to stay tonight, can I please stay with you?” she asked, sounding smaller than you could have ever imagined your big strong sister sounding.

“Of course you can. Let’s get you inside and you can take a hot shower and I will get the guest room ready for you.” you told her as the two of you stood and started inside.

Your home wasn’t huge or close to anything that Pepper had gotten used to in her time with Tony, but it was home to you and it was still far more than you needed. She had been here a few times before so when the two of you made it inside, she disappeared into the guest room.

You sat on the couch and tried to think through how you were going to get Pepper’s things from the compound where she and Tony had been living with the rest of the avengers for the past few months. You had never met the rest of the team, but you had heard plenty of stories about them from Pepper and Tony when the three of you would have dinner together.

The most recent time you had seen Tony, he had given you a key card to the compound and told you that you were always welcome to hide out from the “bustling city life” as he had described it.

A few minutes of contemplation about the best course of action later and you could hear the shower turn off. Walking to the guest bedroom door, you knocked lightly.

“Come in.” you barely hear Pepper say. When you walk in, you find her curled up under the blankets on the guest bed. You don’t hesitate to crawl on to the bed with her. As soon as you pull her into your arms, she is already falling apart again.

“I love him so much, why doesn’t he love me back?” she sobbed, her voice muffled my your shoulder where she had laid her head. You felt helpless, so you took to the tried and true methods that your mom used to use of rubbing her back and letting her rant.

You listened to her spill her soul and tell you the intricacies of her pain. Hearing your seeming unbreakable sister hurt so much made you feel a bit like hitting Tony with a car. Protective sister and all.

The two of you don’t move from the guest bed for the rest of the evening and eventually drift off to sleep

When you wake up the next morning, you find that your sister has already gotten up. Pulling yourself from the bed, you stretch and reorient yourself. You walk into the kitchen to find her sitting at the table, staring blankly into a cup of coffee.

“Hey. Why don’t you just take some time and stay with me? It would be good for you. I can go to the compound and get whatever you need that you left there and you can stay with me awhile. ” you suggested, causing her to perk up a tiny bit. The two of you hadn’t lived together or even close to eachother since she moved into Stark Tower to be his full time assistant and later his girlfriend.

She agreed that it would be a good idea and tried to explain to you what she would need from the compound. It was a lot and would take time to get it all, but you were dedicated to making her life away from him as easy as possible.

You chatted for a few more minutes before deciding that it would be best to get a start on moving her stuff from the compound to your condo. You told her about the little shops near your home and all the things she might enjoy spending her time on while you were out before you left for the lengthy drive.

Autumn had a beautiful affect on rural New York. The city was beautiful, but there was something about the shades of red and gold that the trees took on that made any rural New York drive a relatively pleasing one.

Pulling in the drive at the compound, you sighed as you accepted the reality of the fact that you were going to have to face Tony. You pulled yourself out of the car and headed to what you could only assume was the front door. After sliding the key card, you pulled the door open and walked in to what you could only assume was a foyer.

You took to wandering through the compound to try to find Tony but you didn’t get very far before you heard footsteps approaching behind you. You didn’t even have the chance to turn around and ask for directions before whoever was approaching you had you laid out on the ground with their knee in your back, holding you down.

My favorite thing about being pregnant is how in love with my husband I am. I love him a lot normally, but these past months I have felt so close and connected to him. Everyone loves to joke about the crazy pregnancy hormones. Showing pregnant people either crying uncontrollably, enraged, or overly horny, but for me it’s mainly been bursting with love. He’s been an amazing partner so far. I haven’t had to do anything these past 7 months, yet he is constantly thanking me and telling me what a great job I am doing. He knows that my anxiety and insecurities are playing havoc with my brain right now, but has never made me feel anything but valid in what I am feeling. I love carrying this little girl that is part of me and part of him. I’ll never get over how amazing that is. We’ve gone through so much to get here and I know that Kennedy is the best parts of both of us. This baby is a new adventure for us, but I have no doubt that I chose the right person to go on this journey with. A true partner in every sense.

I am stupidly head over heels right now and I know this feeling is only going to grow once I see him holding our daughter. Our daughter. Wow. I can’t believe how quickly she will be here. We’ve waited for this for so long, and very soon we will be a complete family. I can’t wait to see him as a father.

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LIFE UPDATE: Many-Firsts March

I (used to) believed that if you love blogging then you’d have time for it - no excuses, that’s why I never understood why people apologize for not updating their blog for a long period of time. Now I do and I’m sorry if I ever misjudged any of you. This has been the longest period of my inactivity yet. I now know what it feels like to be busy that there’s no time for anything else. It sucks but this is where I need to really have to manage and make time.

So here’s what you’ve missed during those period of moments that I was away from tumblr, I had a lot of firsts! 

(1) I visited Interior Design & Manila, alone.

One perk of my office location is that I’m close to these kinds of conventions, exhbits and seminar (see#9). I used to go to these when I was in college. Though I don’t need this as much right now because I work in retail but I still need to fuel this side of my career. Best booth in my opinion is Boysen’s. They always are clever and creative in presenting themselves and make fun and interactive booths. They even gave us a free VR! 

(2) I’ve tried the Angkas app, thrice!

Basically it’s like GRAB but you’re riding on the back of a motorcycle. This is something that some people wouldn’t agree on doing but I on the other hand didn’t hesistate and tried it. It’s the best at night when the wind is cold. And it’s convenient when you’re on the rush. I rode it once when the LRT broke down and I still got to work on time!

(3) I got my passport renewed, faster than I expected!

Perks of having a dad who works at DFA, joke! I had to process it like everyone else but I had the privilege of being in courtesy lane. I’m so impressed with the new design! They made it so aesthetic and very modern, if I must say, it’s very millenial. Kudos to the team who worked on it!

(4) First dinner out with officemates/friends at Dohtonbori.

It’s crazy how in a short span of time they made me felt like I belong even though I’m a newbie. It’s crazy how welcoming they are, I will be forever grateful for this new people in my life. That’s to say that least because it’s surprising to find people you can easily connect with and have the same interests and I have that with them too. I am looking forward to more crazy adventures with them! <3 

(5) !!!! First overnight out of town trip at Fortune Island, Batangas with just the two of us, using our own money.

The highlight of my March! I have yet to post about this but let me tell you how invigorating this feels. We’ve been dying to go somewhere for so long. Imagine 8 years together and we actually haven’t been anywhere with just the two of us. When we were there, we felt really weird (in a good way) because we weren’t used to it. We did have an amazing time together, checking out the wonders of the island (beside the unfortunate garbage in the surroundings). This is our first and most definitely won’t be the last.

(6) First site visit!

Good thing about my work is that not all of the time I am at the office. I get to check sites of where new Watsons store will open soon. First one is at Matalino St. Phil Heart Center and then after that my officemate and I (the one in the photo) ate at Iscreamist Maginhawa.

(7) My officemates like to take photos as much I do haha! This was taken at the parking lot during our breaks.

At the office, I am sort of a half and half. Because most times I spent my day with these wonderful girls who are as crazy as me. But often times I spend time and get along great with the boys. In my line of work I work closely with engineers and architect so that’s unavoidable to work with the opposite gender. But I’m really happy that they made me feel part of their group even if I’m this small little girl who looks like I’m incapable of anything (and I have to prove to them that I’m not!). They trust me and even wants me to do more. It feels like I’ve known them for years.

(8) My mom’s back in the PH for her annual once a year visit!

If you’re still here reading this, well I’m more than happy to announce that our family has grown from 5 to 6! This year our focus in not on going somewhere like our usual but to spend time with each other as we welcome a new member of our family. “Family is Forever.”

(9) I got to watch COLDPLAY!!!! for free!!!!

I am not the biggest fan of coldplay, I do know a lot of their (old) songs and it would be an honor to hear them live. The moment they announced the venue was in the parking lot - I jumped for joy. Please do not misunderstand that I’m taking advantage but I can’t shell out a lot of money for 1 day. I commend people who do, especially if it’s to hear and see their favorite band live. During my job interview two months ago, my eyes twinkled to see that we have a front view of the concert grounds from the 9th floor and from that day I made it a point to watch it regardless of the time or the people I’m with. And boy was it one of the magical nights. I stayed from beginning to end and my smile was from ear to ear as I hear them sing live the songs I was only used to hearing on my earphones. I will never forget this night!


Happy Easter everybody! I hope you had a wonderful month this April and wishing you a fun-filled summer vacation! 

Do you wanna know THE sentence that changed my life forever and since nothing has ever been the same?

“ Agent Mulder. I’m Dana Scully, I’ve been assigned to work with you.”

So, yeah. This is what I am here for. To love this series, to love its actors and to connect with the others who has similar interests. We are here for the same things, let’s follow each other, let’s chat, debate and have fun. I’ve made some great friends on this website and I’d love more people to have this chance. Tumblr should be a fun place! If we disagree on important things, fine. We can respect that, respect each other and live in peace next to each other. “Hate, it has caused a lot of problems in the world, but has not solved one yet.” 

Me is a god, a god of sadness
Exiled to this eternal hell
The people I helped, abandon me
I am denied what I want,
To love & to be happy
Being made a human
Without the possibility of BEING human
The cruellest of all punishments
To some I am crazy
It is so clear, yet so foggy
Everything’s connected, seperated
I am the only interpreter of this
Id rather have nothing than be nothing
Some say godliness isn’t nothing
Humanity is the something i long for
I just want something I can never have
The story of my existence.

-Dylan

fun little gravity falls things:

stanley pines was homeless for probably years and years.

stanley pines was too poor for a house- probably too poor for doctors or regular, good quality meals

stanley pines was kicked out of his home and disowned for an accident when he was a teenager- something ford didn’t have the guts to stand up against at all.

and people have this funny little habit of ignoring it.

stanford still went to college. stanford was smart and studious enough to graduate years ahead of schedule and got a hefty grant for independent research. stanford had connections and a family to support him at home.

after stanford disappeared into that portal and stanley took his name? he probably had to estrange himself from his family yet again. stanley pines had to give up everything he was YET AGAIN to try and get his brother back. and in doing so? he made a good life for himself.

he regained a loving family. he built a business from scratch and it thrived.

stanley pines is a con man, a liar, a cheat, and a cheapskate-

but he’s still a god damn hero

Wait, there are people who think Silver actually killed Flint and that was one of his BS stories? Did y’all just miss the massive amounts of character development and friendship and emotional connection between those two characters to the point that even when they had someone who could kill the other for them, they didn’t/couldn’t let it happen?

Did y’all miss Silver’s massive arc from being “I don’t care” about people to being so deeply connected to both Flint and Madi that he would surrender the treasure for both of them to ensure they lived? You remember? That treasure that he had been trying to get/keep/steal/con out of people since episode 1 right the way through until the end of S2?

Did you not see this coming, narratively? Flint has been shown to hate the part he’s playing and yet “since you have made me your monster, I will be it”. We’ve seen him weeping at being called a monster and he dreads being known only for that, but is so bound up in grief and rage he’s lashing out like a wounded animal, unable to find his way out of it. And Silver was and is the only character to see beyond it (”it bothers you, doesn’t it? How they see you?”) except Miranda and perhaps, only a little, Eleanor.

At some point, the monster had to be slayed and the man had to be freed. Killing James would have been too simple for a story that has been so wonderfully complex, when it comes to these two characters. We’ve seen too much of James not to see the man behind the monster. We know he wants rid of it all and he just can’t do it on his own. It’s not a redemption arc. It’s a salvation arc. Silver has helped James. He has spoken to him about Thomas, he has told him he wasn’t wrong and that he wasn’t a monster for that so-called crime. Little by little, he has “lifted the yoke of shame” from Flint in a way Miranda never could.

And seriously, if you think Silver killing Flint is a good ending, wat? No, really, wat?? Silver’s ending is an absolute tragedy. Flint has shaped him. He said it himself. Part of Flint will always be part of him, and for him to lose the man who was role-model, teacher, friend and so many other things is ARGH. And for him to do it out of love, to save the man and woman he loves, knowing it could cost him one, if not both of them? That is a beautiful tragedy right there.

Connection Chap Six

Originally posted by dreamer-of-wildfire

*Pic found on google*

Connection.  Read Chap One here. Chap Two. Chap Three. Chap Four. Chap Five.

Sherlock x reader

Summary: an American forensic psychologist hired by Mycroft Holmes. You thought it would be more interesting and fulfilling than your previous job with a law firm in London but you had no idea how much it would change your life. Or really, how much one person would change everything.

Word count:2929

Chapter Six

*Lines borrowed from the episode The Reichenbach Fall in BOLD.*


You were careful after Moriarty showed up in the flat and you noticed Sherlock was as well. The sitting room had been stained somehow. You barely spent any time in there and avoided walking through it at all. John had noticed and you could tell that he thought you were afraid of Moriarty and kept away from that room because of him. Sherlock had noticed but didn’t mention it. Your spontaneous distractions didn’t happen often, but you never allowed it to happen anywhere near the sitting room. Mycroft’s words would whisper in your head and you knew it would only make matters worse. Caring is not an advantage.

You sat in the kitchen staring into a cup of tea feeling a storm bearing down all around. You were just waiting for the first crack of lightning. Your phone buzzed on the table and you jumped then cursed under your breath. Glancing down, you saw Mycroft’s name flash on the screen with an attachment. You opened it and a video clip played. It was silent but you could practically hear the little girl’s scream. Another text came through with a single word, a coded message that simply meant go. It was the first flash of lightning and you only had to count until the thunder shook the windows now.

You closed your eyes, thinking back to two nights ago and how differently the night was playing out. Mycroft’s words had been driving you insane that night too. His arrogance always drove you up a wall but the way he had infected his brother’s mind had bothered you even more that night as you sat on Sherlock’s bed mulling it all over.

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As they speed away, the ruins of Jedha City far behind them, Bodhi walks on shaky feet toward Cassian. “I’m the pilot,” he says, and he holds a pinky finger out to Cassian, who just looks at it. “I’m the pilot.”

“You said that.”

“Right right right,” Bodhi says, fidgeting with the goggles on top of his head. “Sorry. Sometimes I repeat myself. Echoes. I call them echoes. I’m the pilot.”

Cassian nods, looking at the man he just scraped oblivion for. “You’re the pilot.”

On Eadu, swathed in a poncho and surrounded by rain, Bodhi hops over rocks and skirts around corners as he follows Cassian up to the point. They’ve almost reached it when he miscalculates a step and trips.

Fortunately, Cassian lurches forward to catch him, and Bodhi’s not sure if his sudden lack of breath has to do with the fall or those damn dark eyes of the captain’s. He could get lost in those, completely marooned. And that’s saying something, because he’s a damn good navigator.

“Have caf with me?”

“What?” A little surprised, Cassian forgets he’s holding the other man up and lets go. Fortunately, Bodhi regains his footing.

“Have caf with me?” Bodhi’s not sure where it come from but it’s sure as hell not getting taken back now.

Cassian blinks. “Is that another one of your echoes or are you actually asking?”

“Depends on your answer.”

It’s the smoothest he’s ever been in his life, and he’s not even sure if Cassian can hear him over the rain. Even if he did, Bodhi doesn’t get an answer. Cassian spots the Imperials over the ridge and hurries to the lookout point, leaving Bodhi alone in the rain.

The rebel base is full of people running and rushing and racing back and forth, talking and talking and talking. Bodhi finds refuge wedged into a corner with a view of the ships in the hangar and the door Cassian’s going to walk out of any moment.

When he finally does show up, Bodhi immediately perks up— and then perks back down when he sees the expression on Cassian’s face. “Didn’t go well, did it? It didn’t?”

Cassian looks pissed. “We still have the official meeting with the council in an hour,” he says. “But the Senator’s certain they won’t go for it. I can’t say I disagree.” He rubs a hand over his tired face like he can hide from it all— the war, the bureaucracy, the ache.

This time, when Bodhi holds his pinky finger out, Cassian hooks his own around it. When Bodhi’s whole face lights up, Cassian can’t stop the answering smile on his own face. Bodhi says, “Have caf with me?”

But Cassian needs more than caffeine. He needs adrenaline, he needs more time, he needs hope. “We have work to do.”

“After?”

Cassian’s grin is like the sun on a snowy day. It’s not bright enough, it’s not warm enough, but there it is. Enough to remind Bodhi that there used to be more than this, more than fear and fighting. “Maybe,” Cassian says.

But he needs to go recruit rebels and Bodhi needs to go speak to the council. Cassian unlinks their fingers and hurries off.

On Scarif, Bodhi fumbles with the comm, panicky fingers skidding and failing to find the right buttons. “Cassian,” he mumbles, even though he hasn’t made the connection yet. “Cassian, Cassian, Cassian.”

“Yes?”

Bodhi jumps, realizing he reached the captain. “Cassian?”

“Bodhi, I’m here,” Cassian says, tinny over the audio. “What is it?”

The shield is still up. The Imperial forces are closing in on the ground and in the sky. They’re losing people left and right and the Death Star plans seem impossibly out of reach. “Have caf with me?”

Cassian found him days ago, sitting traumatized in a cell. When he speaks, it’s with a veneer of calm, like he feels like he needs to walk on eggshells around Bodhi, like he feels like he needs to be supportive.

When he speaks now he’s raw, real. “Okay,” he says, and Bodhi tries to picture him, where he is. He knows the Empire. Nondescript halls, a thousand identical soldiers. And then Cassian, tucked away, hiding the way Bodhi used to. A rebel heart shrouded in an Imperial uniform. “Okay. Let’s have caf. Let’s do it.”

Bodhi holds the comm unit up to his temple, eyes shut like he can imagine Cassian standing in front of him, deep dark eyes and sunlit smile. “We have work to do,” he reminds Cassian.

Cassian knows. He’s doing the work right now. They all are. “After?”

“After,” Bodhi agrees, nodding even though Cassian can’t see him. “After.”

In his very last moment, Bodhi thinks of Galen Erso and the rebellion.

But in his second to last moment, Bodhi thinks of two cups of caf, a smile, a pinky finger latched around his own. Something that could have been a beginning, now ground into dust, dissolved, like sugar in coffee.

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So it looks like for Andromeda I made yet another smol baby-faced mage biotic who just wants people to get along. Saskia Ryder is idealistic, curious about everything, a people person and has excellent taste in fashion. She will probably end up involved with Jaal, but only because she can’t have Jaal, Vetra and Liam all together (Dammit, Bioware, where is my happy multi-species poly love quadrangle?)

I’m still in the process of getting into her head and it will probably take a second more completionist playthrough to really connect with her (for now I’m sticking ot the most important missions so I have some chance of finishing the game some time this year). But I do enjoy what I’m getting so far, so you’ll prabably be hearing more about her in the future.

(PS: I still have all the important names and terms on blacklist, so I’m probably missing out on getting to know all your awesome Ryders and will be for a while. So if anyone were to shoot me a link to a non-spoilery post about your Ryder, that would absolutely make my day :-) )

Too Much. | minhyuk

Member: Lee Minhyuk / Reader
Group: Monsta X
Word Count: 2,000+
Genre/Warning(s): angst, romance, slice of life.

Originally posted by chiqkihyun

Too Much.

❝ It would be remiss of you to take the time you have with him for granted, especially now more than ever… ❞

All it took was that first delicate brush of connected lips during autumn’s embrace for you to sense that holding onto Minhyuk was wishful thinking, and that was two and half years ago. He had always been this way for as long as you’d known him, being guided by a whim and unbelievably difficult to catch, let alone love

It isn’t that he’s hard to love, God no, in fact it’s too easy to love him, frighteningly so. Although, attaining a firm grasp on his affections for keeps is what proves most complicated. It takes a careful approach to not mishandle something as fragile, intricate, and profound as Lee Minhyuk.

And, you took your time with him, you really did.

Yet, it seems that your supreme reign over his heart is running thin, and a simple consultation at his company, which thoroughly informed you of the policies and risks of your relationship, had been the start of it. That’s when you begin to feel trepidation edging in on you to disrupt your sense of security whenever you’re by his side.

When you begin to feel more like an accessory rather than a necessity.

When you begin to feel more like his weakness rather than his strength.

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